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i used to look at the moon each night, wondering if you saw it before you slept.
—  i don’t know why i did. you were six hours ahead of me. i would look out of my window each night before i would sleep, just to see the moon, or if there was a new moon, i’d look at the stars. i often wondered if maybe you had looked at the moon before you went to sleep. somehow it brought me comfort to see something that you might have seen, too.

but now the moon, the planets, the shooting stars, they hold no magic for me anymore. no more comfort, nor happiness, because all i can think of is what they must have looked like to you while you held her in your arms, while i, unaware of your betrayal, would patiently wait for twilight to fall upon the midwest.

@peredhellen @maethrxl : elladan, elrohir & ellanorin should demand moral compensation from the dunedain for provoking them several health issues like no one can’t tell me they didn’t get hurt like a lot during battle and scouting missions and also for making them feel as tagalongs, bringing their self-esteem down, making them feel unwanted, profiting of their skills & talents. every forest has its stubs and not all the dunedain were good, silent, wise, elf-like, perfectly lawful-good people and there is a fine line between giving help out of ones free-will and being used. 

{{ Hey guys}}

{{ I’m working on the timeline for the five nights at Freddy’s series. I’m trying to connect everything and have everything make sense. Which…I actually managed to do this before the fourth game came out and everything fitted in nicely. But with the information from the fourth game, I’m kind of having difficulty actually making everything fit as nicely as it did before. I believe the kid you play as is Purple guy’s kid, which the younger kid actually fits in nicely and …well I’m not going to say more because I don’t know if everyone actually knows what happens in the fourth game. But I’m having difficulty putting the older brother in. Mainly because of the age I originally had my purple guy be. I might have to adjust his age by a couple of years, well I’m going to have to do that for the younger kid but that’s only by two years so everything’s fine there. It’s kind of screwing up my timeline I had going on, I’m actually thinking about making the older brother be a cousin or a friend of the younger child. What do you guys think? I could really use some help with all of this.}} ?

I’m so single I just remembered this time this red headed Israeli guy was flirting with me in a Castro in Tel Aviv and I was self conscious about how little Hebrew I spoke so I kind of brushed him off and now I’m like FUCK Baraq why didn’t I get your number

I find it interesting that I figured my gender years before my sexuality and am still way more comfortable discussing my sexuality than my gender.

aravingraven asked:

Text: He's the lucky one who can fix himself any time. Text: I feel.. like seriously special that he's not sleeping with anyone else. I never asked it, he just admitted he wasn't. Also you're like the only one I talk all of this about, feel special. I don't think I've even mentioned Dorian to Rosie lately.

Text: Pfffft, men.

Text: It’s nice, huh? I think that’s really sweet. 

Text: I do feel special! Well, you were the first one that I spoke to about Benji… Kind of. :)

The Pleasure Principle

Yesterday I was having a discussion with someone about volunteering for charity. I spoke about the kind of work that I’ve done and the kind of work I would like to do. After that moment I began to think to myself, ‘What is it that makes people want to do charity work?’. There is the simple - and mostly true -answer of good intentions and a heart determined to give back to a world that is so full of selfishness, but I think it can probably be a bit more complex than that. 

It comes to the widely debated question: can we ever truly be selfless? In my opinion, we can but we have to redefine the word selfless. It isn’t the setting aside of your own gains, it is simply understanding that more can be gained later on. Every good deed is based upon the pleasure principle (yes, I went Freud on you), we simply want to feel good. There are two ways you can achieve this: immediate gratification and delayed gratification (no, these probably aren’t the same classifications given by Freud but I’m working off of memory and my own thoughts here).

Immediate gratification is the simple act of doing something because it will make you feel good straight away. This can apply to pretty much anything you do, I’ll give you an example. Say you’re walking down the street and you see a child fall over so you run over, help them up and tell them a joke and make them laugh. You’re clearly a lovely person - there is no denying it. But there is more to that, you’re instinct is immediate gratification in this instance, you subconsciously decided that the guilt you may feel later on for not helping the child is not worth it and so you will instead please yourself and avoid that suffering by helping them. Or maybe a simpler example is just eating a bar of chocolate now rather than later - chocolate is awesome.

Delayed gratification explains why we do things that don’t make us happy in the short term. So let’s say that you’ve just been through an awful heart-wrenching breakup and you feel like your soul is dying, your heart is bleeding and all that stuff people say when they are sad and it all feels world-ending. It sucks and it is awful, but you don’t text your ex (an immediate gratification) instead you wait out the storm until one day you wake up and you don’t want to text them. The pleasure was delayed so that a greater pleasure can be found later on. 

You might feel that I’ve gone off on a tangent, admittedly I do it quite often, but here it is all part of the wider explanation. The pleasure principle defines us in everything we do, but in regards to charity work I think it is mainly the delayed we work for. It won’t always be fun, it can be hard work and sometimes boring, but the pleasure it brings about when you realise you’ve helped raise money to stop innocent animals being slaughtered or made a child smile is something that is worth waiting for.

I think that people do charity work to make them feel better about themselves, and that doesn’t take away from the fact that they are amazing people who are selfless (this post isn’t taking away from that, simply trying to explore what selfless really means). I have not done nearly enough during my lifetime - and the turning point is now - but I have to admit to the fact that volunteering is something that stems from a desire to be the best version of myself. It might not be that for everyone, but I think it is fairly common to want to help others so that you can not only change someone else’s life but also so that you can change your own.

So as per the norm, I have reached no solid conclusion on the matter, but I guess that is natural. The mystery of the human psyche isn’t really going to be solved in a random blog post about charity work, but hey, a girl can try.