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I use the self love one because I genuinely hate myself and my body quite often and I got tired of being completely disgusted all the time.

I use the I will not self-harm one some times when I am about to burn or cut myself. I try to draw it on areas that I usually do that sort of thing even though it doesn’t look that great. I would post pictures of it on my body but it looks way to nasty.


Thank you for making these though because there are times when I really needed someone or something and this was all I had. @savingsigils

anonymous asked:

Can you help me please please please I was doing so well, exercising and Not eating much I felt really good but then I binged on Sunday and it's gone down hill from there, I have no self belief and I have binged everyday since. I feel like shit and hate myself so much please help me I don't know what to do

Hey babe, I’ve been we’re you are so many times, we all have! The most important thing to change is when your fasting or eating very little, you’re looking forward to binge-days. This is sort of a punishing mindset and since you’re waiting for a reward you
WILL eventually binge, since you have no reward.

Think of food as fuel - not something that controls your life.

Especially if your exercising. My advice is that you up your calories a bit (only eat veggies and/or fruit) or that you cut down on exercise. Stay safe baby // Bella

anonymous asked:

Hey, I'm new to your blog and I have to ask, how are you so awesome? Do you have any tips on being awesome? I could really use some ;-; -Turtle Anon

Jokes on y'all I’ve been fooling everyone I hate myself

When I was living with my abusers I was an obsessive, relentless self-editor. Part of it was when I posted on my livejournal or whatever they were usually literally monitoring me while doing so, I had no privacy for any thing that I wrote to anyone, but part of it was just the general impact of constant emotional terrorism. I remember trying to compose a message to someone at one point and like, the third time I deleted a line one of my abusers was like, “you self-censor more than anyone I know,” in this really approving tone of voice. 

On my old tumblr, no one is forcing me to edit myself that relentlessly, but I do get some of that old feeling of like… this relentless pressure to phrase everything absolutely perfectly. If I use the wrong word, people who hate me will seize on it and punish me for it and no amount of clarification will ever do, so I can never use the wrong word, which is an impossible standard anyway because every word I say is wrong when it’s not in agreement with the people who are picking apart my shit like this, but when I do get slammed like that my first reaction is, “this is my fault for not presenting my thoughts in a clear or non-offensive or whatever way”. 

I don’t feel like I have to do that anymore! It is a HUGE weight off my shoulders! I did not realize how glad I would be to have that gone, to have a space where I can be a human being in public again. 

anonymous asked:

What exactly constitutes as fetishizing mlm or wlw relationships? I see a lot of posts about it and I just really want to make sure that I'm not doing that, and I'm really anxious (like usual) that I'm doing something wrong! If you could explain it to me gently (I'm sorry I just don't want to cry and hate myself) I would really appreciate it so that I can be a better person in and for the LGBT+ community.

ah ok so what i mean by fetishing is when straight people treat mlm/wlw relationships as something to fawn over or treating them as if they only exist as your entertainment, or not taking them seriously, maybe treating gay couples as objects or being turned on by the idea of gay people “getting it on” / for example- a straight man obsessing over the idea of two lesbians.

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And all of those clichés I had about the country and the people, it kind of was all dispersed straight away. So we had a lot to talk about.

Dev Patel on his experience portraying the true story of Saroo Brierley in Lion

let sheith lie in an alien flower meadow 

My favorite thing about Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy of Pemberley, is that despite the aloof nature and general broody exterior, you know that 95% of his internal monologue is just panicking like:

Stupid

This was stupid

This whole thing, it was so stupid, and it made Annabeth feel stupid, and she wasn’t stupid, she was smart, gods damn it, so why couldn’t she do this? She should have been able to do this.

She only realised she was crying when a tear splashed on to the page of her textbook, blurring the black letters printed on the white page. That tear falling felt like conceding defeat, and soon enough she was crying in earnest, sobbing hard enough that the words became even less intelligible than they’d already been.

She put her head down on the book and let herself cry, feeling terribly stupid and sorry and frustrated. Her whole face felt hot, flushed with anger and annoyance - at this essay, at herself, at the fact that she was a daughter of the goddess of wisdom and she couldn’t seem to write a simple fucking essay.

When the door to her room opened she instinctively straightened, grabbing her dagger and spinning in her seat to face the intruder. When she saw who it was she immediately collapsed back onto the desk, face first, letting her dagger fall to the floor. 

She heard Percy shut the door behind himself. There were a few soft footsteps, and then a gentle hand on her shaking shoulder and a quiet question. “Annabeth, hey, what’s up?”

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Sangwoo: “Bum I saw an article on my phone yesterday saying if you lie around all day it can really affect your health negatively, so today I went out and bought this elliptical for you to work out on! Aren’t I cool?!”

Bum:

Bum: “But Sangwoo, I can’t, my legs.” Did he seriously…?

Sangwoo:

Sangwoo: “Oooooh that’s right, you can just do your exercise down in the baseme-”

Bum:

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  • ALTERNATIVE TITLE: THE ONE WITH THE BLUE SCARF
  • : :
  • *outside Speedy's*
  • Molly: *approaching Mary* What's going on?
  • Mary: *grins* I found the father of your baby.
  • Molly: *wide-eyed* What? How...how do you even know who the father is?
  • Mary: *digging in her purse* I believe this belongs to the father of your baby *removes the scarf*
  • Molly: *groans* Oh God...he’s in there right now?
  • Mary: Yup.
  • Molly: *sighs* Let's get this over with.
  • Molly & Mary: *enter Speedy's*
  • Tom: *waving* Hi, Molls.
  • Molly: ...
  • Tom: *looking between them* So, what’s up?
  • Mary: *nudging her forwards* Well, Molly has something that she wants to tell you *gestures the scarf* while we're on the subject, I believe that this is your scarf.
  • Tom: No... *unzips his coat* this is my scarf.
  • Mary: ...
  • Mary: *looks at the scarf in her hand* Ah. Could I get anyone a coffee or...poison? No? Just for me? Okay *hurries off*
  • Tom: *concerned* What’s going on?
  • Molly: *sits opposite him* Nothing. Mary just... sort of made a mistake.
  • Tom: *smiles* I’m pleased Mary called. I know we broke up because you thought we weren't compatible. I was thinking...does that matter?
  • Molly: *hesitates* Tom...
  • Tom: We were perfect together *holds her hand*
  • Molly: I’m pregnant.
  • Tom: Oh. *drops her hand*
  • Tom: ...
  • Molly: ...
  • Molly: You can go.
  • Tom: Thank you *runs off*
  • LATER
  • *John & Mary's*
  • Sherlock: *staring at the baby*
  • John & Mary: *enter the flat*
  • Mary: *smiles* Hi. How was she?
  • Sherlock: *shrugs* Fine.
  • John: *lifts his daughter* There's my girl. Were you good for your Uncle?
  • Sherlock: *sighs*
  • Mary: *smirks* You love her really. You're a natural.
  • Sherlock: *rolls his eyes* I'm going to have to get used to it.
  • John: *nods* Yes, you are.
  • Sherlock: *winds the scarf around his neck; smiles a little*
  • Mary: *looks up; points* That's your scarf?
  • Sherlock: *frowns* Yeeeeeees.
  • Mary: ...
  • Sherlock: *shrugs on his coat* Goodnight *leaves*
  • Mary: *squeals with happiness*
I have an important announcement

Sorry guys, but I will stop drawing and probably will delete this account soon, thank you for everything so far and your support. My reasons for this are under read more since it’s kinda long, again I’m sorry.

HAPPY INNOCENTS DAY!!

Sorry for those who thought I was talking seriously :3c so today is Dec 28 and in Latin America is like our April fools (but in december, duh~) if you didn’t knew UwU This is my joke for this year, of course I ain’t gonna stop drawing!! and I’m not gonna delete this account. I can’t believe I’m procrastinating my projects just to draw that troll Peri with Gin-chan’s face xD (you can see how I suffer in snapchat)

So, happy December 28! Try to not fall in other jokes today and again, I’m sorry if you believed this for a second, you can breathe now and punch me if you want ^^