i-needed-clothes

Just came across this ayah:

“…They are clothing for you and you are clothing for them…” 2:187

scumsucking-roadwh0re  asked:

u know how it is when ur trying to find a style of clothing to wear bcs u have absolutely NO sense of Identity™ and everything u have rn makes u feel 12 and u want to feel like a Real Adult™ so u try desperately to find some1 to emulate? ??

I FEEL THIS SO HARD HDJSJSHSKND
and like especially w christmas coming up i KNOW i need some more clothes but 1. i have zero sense of identity and 2. i am the least observant person ever so i have NO IDEA what’s fashionable or what i want to look like or what style i want to have or ANYTHING and it’s The Worst

Shopping

Since I am moving to Nevada I had to buy some new clothes for the cold weather. Plus I need some new clothes since losing almost 150 pounds!
I bought 3 crop tops! I didn’t take pictures cause I was face timing with my husband to get his opinion. Which he was very approving of, but never in my wildest dream would I be buying crop tops.
Just a little non scale victory moment!

Monday 8:27am
I woke up with you on my mind.
You called me babe last night —
my heart is still pounding.

Tuesday 10:53pm
Today I realized we won’t work.
What we are is hurting her.
And I think she matters more to me than you do.

Wednesday 11:52pm
I broke things off with you today.
She barely said a word.
I’ve never regretted anything more than this.

Thursday 4:03pm
I shouldn’t have sent that message.
You shouldn’t have been so okay with receiving it.

Friday 9:57pm
I almost messaged you today.
I didn’t.

Saturday 8:49pm
I’m walking around town in search of alcohol.
They say that liquor numbs the pain of having a broken heart.
I want to put that to the test.

Sunday 2:32am
I heard you texted a girl you’ve never spoken to before.
I wonder if it’s because you’re trying to replace me.
I can’t help but wish you weren’t.
I thought I was irreplaceable.

—  a week with you on my mind, c.j.n.