i-need-them-in-my-life-again

I try so hard to see the good in people but all they do is show me their true colors. I’m sick and tired of telling myself I need to get rid of my toxic friends or any toxic person in my life - yet I fight so hard giving them chances over and over again. Today was my last straw, I am done trying.

sunny-burn asked:

9, 10, 11

9. Most Social

Bradley of course is the first, he loves everyone, wants to talk to everyone everybody is great and the world is an oyster. Same with Rolls, and Nate’s also a people person. Frida and Johnny are middle of the pack, depending on their mood and the person’s affiliation. K and Gio are way at the bottom, only talk to them if you need them for something.

10. Most Likable

Bradley and Rolls are definitely the most likable, at least in my own opinion they’re my ocs I’d go to for friendship first. Then Nate, and Frida and maybe Johnny. I wouldn’t touch Gio or K with a ten foot pole.

11.Most Optimistic.

Bradley and Rolls again, and they’re probably the only ones that would ever be called optimistic, at least by themselves. Johnny is middling. Nate is painfully cynical without his Ray of sunshine and Frida pretty much lives life under the assumption that death is the best outcome and don’t even get me started on K and Gio.

the signs as Blair Waldorf quotes
  • Aries:Haven't you heard? I'm the crazy bitch around here.
  • Taurus:Nothing's holding me back anymore. I know what I want, and I'm gonna get it.
  • Gemini:I have an idea for you: quit. Your boss is a bitch. Let's go to lunch.
  • Cancer:Feelings never do make sense. They get you all confused. Then they drive you around for hours before they drop you right back where you started.
  • Leo:Ladies, you can put your tiny brains to rest. Once again the world has proven: anything you can do, I can do better!
  • Virgo:You can't make people love you, but you can make them fear you.
  • Libra:You deserve a guy who would move mountains to be with you if he had to.
  • Scorpio:I'm not a stop along the way. I'm a destination.
  • Sagittarius:Oh, my life is so bountiful. I don't need a boyfriend to feel fulfilled.
  • Capricorn:The most important thing in a relationship is trust. After sex. And hygiene. And earning potential.
  • Aquarius:Once men have tasted caviar, it baffles me how they settle for catfish.
  • Pisces:People don't write sonnets about being compatible, or novels about shared life goals and stimulating conversation. The great loves are the crazy ones.

Here is that one Splatoon gif I was making! It’s a mix of one of Cowboy Bebop’s most memorable scenes, and for some reason I thought it be a good idea to animate it in Splatoon for fun! During late night Skype chats with my buds I’d hear them playing Splatoon while I was working so I just need to do something Splatoon related! This was a pretty big challenge with all the colors and what not, but I think it really kicked my butt back into shape to start animating again! I hope you enjoy it! It was a lot of fun to make! 

FYI: Never played Splatoon in my life! heh! heh!

-KameStudio

                        invxgorate

     She was grading papers — the red ink of her pen smudging the side of her left hand, her fingers and wrist aching from how many ticks, crosses & grades she’d written. She totally didn’t get paid enough for this — her hand could fall off ! Blonde locks shield her face as she continues to scribble when necessary, a shadow of a silhouette in front of her peaking her interest, yet not enough to make her look up. ❝ Yeah ? Do you need something ? I’m trying to grade papers here. ❞

Dear Non-Disabled People: Please Stop Making Assumptions About Us!

Dear non-disabled people: please stop making assumptions about what disabled people can and cannot do.  Please start CHECKING YOUR ASSUMPTIONS.  

Here are some examples of assumptions I see people making all the time. Hint: all of these are INCORRECT assumptions:

  • “Deaf people don’t go to concerts!”
  • “Blind people don’t use the Internet!”
  • “Deaf people can’t drive!”
  • “Wheelchair users need to have a carer with them all the time!”
  • “I don’t know anyone in my life who has a disability!”
  • “People with Down Syndrome cannot handle their own money!”
  • “Deaf people obviously cannot call any one on the phone, ever!”
  • “The person with a blue badge who parked in the disability access parking spot doesn’t need it because they can walk!”

Again, all of the above are FALSE. Yes, deaf people DO go to concerts. Yes, blind people DO use the Internet. Yes, Deaf people DO drive. No, not every wheelchair user needs a carer with them. One out of every seven people on the Earth is a person with a disability, so it’s pretty much impossible for you to not know anyone who is disabled–you probably just don’t know who they are because not all disabilities are visible. Yes, many people with Down Syndrome or other intellectual disabilities DO have money and DO make decisions how to spend it.  Yes, there ARE ways for deaf people to use phones.  And, not every disability is visible, there are people able to walk who need to park up close for other reasons (for example, perhaps they have a medical problem in which too much walking quickly leads to severe fatigue or collapse or horrible pain)

But even though ALL of these and many other assumptions are false, I see people insisting that X, Y, or Z service is silly or useless because [insert assumption here]. For example …

  • “Image descriptions are useless because blind people don’t use the Internet!”
  • “Hotlines are useless for deaf people because they can’t use any kind of phone!”
  • Etc.

Again, all false.

There have been times when I have explained many of these misconceptions, both at this blog and elsewhere. But this particular post is not about that. This post is about non-disabled people going around insisting that “obviously” disabled people cannot do X, Y, or Z, without bothering to use google or otherwise check whether they might be incorrect. 

Hint: Google is your friend.

And if Google isn’t helping (sometimes there are too many unrelated posts to be helpful or whatever), then consider posing a politely worded question.  

Or if you cannot manage either of these, then please at least do not mock or criticize others for, e.g., advocating for concerts to offer sign language interpreters or captions for deaf people, providing image descriptions with pictures, working to raise funds for a deaf hotline, etc. And also please at least avoid harassing people WHO DO DISPLAY A BLUE BADGE because you can’t understand why they needed to park so close to the store, etc.

Sure, there are still SOME things that disabled people still cannot do.  For example, the technology that will enable blind people to safely drive a car is still at least a few years longer before it will be ready for market.  

BUT. There are TONS of technologies and assistive devices that disabled people use ALL THE TIME.  In many cases, you might never have heard of these devices, because most mainstream media doesn’t bother to cover them. But, WE’RE STILL USING THEM!  For example, deaf people have had various ways of using telephones without needing a hearing person standing in the room with us for DECADES now. I’m 45, deaf from birth, and have used the telephone since high school / middle school, so this is nothing new. (Well, I used to need to type to use the phone. And now I can use sign language. The HOW has changed over time. But the fact of my using the phone? Has not.)  Blind people and deafblind people also have been using computers for DECADES now.  People who cannot type? Ditto.  And so forth.  Please don’t assume these technologies don’t exist just because you haven’t heard of them.  Please CHECK YOUR ASSUMPTIONS ABOUT DISABLED PEOPLE.

Thank you.

anonymous asked:

okay, it's kind of annoying how you always complain & make excuses for yourself, & how you're ill and all these things. like look on the brighter side. someone somewhere would love to even have half the things you do. You are privileged in Sooo many ways, so just think about it

i have never once claimed that i have a horrible life that i hate and don’t appreciate it. the anon asked me why i dont have a job, so i responded telling them why.
you do not have the right to come to my blog and make me feel guilty for needing a little help. you tell me i am sooo priveleged, but i guarantee that if you went to sleep every night not knowing if you would wake up again, you wouldn’t be glowing with positivity. i come from a poor family and a background of social services and child workers; a little help is something that i am more than entitled to as is anyone who needs it.
every morning when i open my eyes and see the sun shining through the window, i thank the world for giving me another day and another opportunity to be there for my little brother.
many people in my situation would just lose all sense of routine in their lives because i did for a while, however i pulled myself out of that and i now earn whatever i can to help provide for my little brother. i have spent 3 years running my other blog that is based on nothing but spreading love and hope to people, now this is just a wild guess but i doubt someone like you has a history of spending many many nights helping complete strangers from committing suicide, or talked hundreds if not thousands of teenagers from harming themselves.
so kindly fuck off if your lack of empathy and humanity is going to impede on my happiness

anonymous asked:

Why do I constantly feel like I'll not be a good physicist and shouldn't even study physics (for the sake of saving myself from failure)?

Failure is an intrinsic part of science! Don’t give up. Is there really a good physicist? Every physics class I’ve taken has been nine parts failure for every one part success (sometimes ten parts failure 👀). 

Don’t give up, we need people like you to strengthen the world against the tide of ignorance that constantly threatens to drag us back to the caves (look up “Donald Trump”).

Push through. Fail. Get back up and push again. When you are successful, it will be the most valuable type.

As Teddy R once said:

“Nothing in the world is worth having or worth doing unless it means effort, pain, difficulty… I have never in my life envied a human being who led an easy life. I have envied a great many people who led difficult lives and led them well.”

I know that’s a pretty corntastic quote but its truth is undeniable.

It’s hard work and can sometimes totally destroy a person’s morale. When this happens it’s crucial to stop, take a deep breath and a step back. Have some tea. Listen to music. Go for a jog. Just clear your mind, whatever it takes.

Then find a way to tap into whatever it was that made you fall in love with physics in the first place. Watch Carl Sagan videos. Check out the footage of Walter Cronkite covering the Moon Landings live (it’s amazing, he cries live on air from happiness and wonder).

Whatever that thing was find it again. It’s still there. When you do find it hold it tight and never forget it. This thing you now hold… is your muse. It will be there for you whenever the fire burns low and the shadows creep near. Tap into your muse and you’ll find that the strength to get back up will allow you to push through those failures, those difficult times that threw you down in the first place.

Eventually you’ll learn something we all learn at some point:

Even though life has all sorts of monsters that push you down… nothing can stop you from getting up and pushing back.

You just need to find that muse and believe in yourself. I do

Aand he’s gone.

I’m surpised he made it all the way back to the car to be honest.

True.

Scott and the tinies came out for a walk with me today. I took a lot of photos.

lycanqueen asked:

Thaaaaaaaaaaaaaank yoooooooooou! Jace is my favorite too! But I'm wondering, if Jace and Aida are your favorite why is the manga Zander and Aida?

=D Haha!

Well, there are a few reasons why Aida and Zander are canon;

1- It makes a better story. A mage with 10x more emotions and a half noble girl who spent half of her life completely emotionless and is scared shitless of losing them again.

2- Noble biology. By nature, they do not have magic in their body. Not even %000.1. Magic needs emotions to drive it, nobles are emotionless. So, nobles are by nature attracted to magic. They keep looking for the one thing their bodies don’t have. So, even if they do not feel emotions as normal people do, they do have a certain attraction towards mages. Which they cannot explain why.

3- Zander was going to be the only love interest in chapter.1. But because I LOVED Jace, I added him too. :P So, it was always supposed to be Zander.

4- It gives me more opportunity to work on character development after Aida’s *spoilery thingy* at the end of Chapter.1. You know, Jace becoming a *spoiler* and helping *spoilers* is, yeah nice, but Zander’s reaction gives me way more space to work on. Lots of drama material there. Just imagine how much I can make everybody cry with it! Tillie’s reaction to Zander’s *spoilery reaction*, Zander and his journey to Taran, Zander and his *spoilery spells*.

So, it’s more of a logical decision instead of an emotional one. :P

reasons u shouldn't be adamently against self diagnosis

-there are sO many people with ableist parents who’s children can literally say “I have been feeling a particular way for a long time and it’s negatively impacting me and my life and I think something needs to be done abt it” and their parents will either fake concern but do nothing, say they’ll do something but forget or just not care enough, or even get MAD at their child for the way they feel.

-if their parents are forgetful or don’t prioritize therapy, someone may be scared to bring it up again

-not everyone is in a financial situation which allows them to seek help!!!!!

-NOT EVERYONE IS IN A FINANCIAL SITUATION WHICH ALLOWS THEM TO SEEK HELP

-some people may be too scared (possibly even because of said possible mental illness or disorder, ie anxiety) to try and find any help or talk to anyone

-people who strongly feel that they have a specific a mental illness have likely experienced all or the majority of its symptoms and looked into so many aspects of it over the course of probably many YEARS

-even if someone does get into therapy, they still may not be fully honest to their therapist and therefore preventing an accurate diagnosis

-no one thinks that saying they have a mental illness will make them seem cool and if ur one of the few who do then jesus christ grow up

-being neurodivergent isnt some special club or something, you shouldn’t feel like someone is entering something they shouldn’t if they say that they genuinely and deeply think that there’s something wrong

-SO MAny ppl who self diagnosed something for an extended period and then seeked medical help just had things confirmed. basically if someone really thinks they have, like, depression, and have thought it consistently for four years, theres a good chance they’re right.

-MENTAL DISORDERS AND ILLNESSES ARE LITERALLY TERRIFYING AND HARD TO GO THROUGH ALONE AND YOU TELLING SOMEONE THAT THEIR FEELINGS ARE NOT VALID BECAUSE THEIR INTENSE SUSPICIONS HAVENT BEEN CONFIRMED BY A DOCTOR IS NOT GOING TO HELP ANYONE

-In short, they know the way they feel more than you do.

~feel free to add to this. if you disagree or have an argument, please contribute in a polite and civilised way , and if you choose not to then I encourage everyone who bears witness to just ignore , bc who needs anger and more negativity?? keep the discussion positive and informational rather than hurtful and destructive, please.

Callout post: brain
  • keeps fucking breaking
  • is horrible
  • stop telling me everyone hates me
  • DAY TO DAY LIFE TASKS DO NOT REQUIRE THE LEVEL OF PANIC THAT AN ANGRY CHARGING BEAR REQUIRES
  • stop playing HD reruns of every traumatic event in my life thanks I remember them I don’t need to see them again