Bellarke is my #1 otp since the show began but honestly this season I kind of feel like Clarke doesn't deserve him anymore. She's completely different this season and doing things that season 1-2 Clarke would NEVER do.. this whole episode I felt like yelling at her because it's so out of character for her. Lexa/Clexa has ruined everything.
I feel like Clarke is pushing Bellamy away though because she doesn’t want him to get hurt anymore because of her. I mean Bellamy almost died saving Clarke just like Finn died looking for Clarke (towards the end). Just like Wells died after him and Clarke made up. And it just sucks for Clarke. Because this girl still thinks she is more responsible for the deaths at Mount Weather than he is even though Bellamy did contribute with her. S
he’s an 18 year old girl who has been through so much and she doesn’t know how to handle relationships anymore considering that every time she gets close with someone they die. I mean Clarke pushed her mom away when she hugged her. Clarke still feels that undying guilt that’s pushing on her and I just feel like she needs to let it out. She is a different person because of all she’s been through. Now, I don’t think that’s an excuse to say that Cle.x@ should be together, but Clarke has changed and I feel like she’s being more cautious around everyone she encounters. Everyone she’s ever gotten close with has died or hurt her before. She doesn’t want Bellamy to be the next. Maybe she thinks that her being away from him will make him stop protecting her or stop trying to help her. I just think we have to wait it out. I don’t think Clex@ makes sense rn or um…at any time actually, but I wouldn’t lose hope for Bellarke. We still have the hug scene and we’re only on the 4th episode. I didn’t agree with Clarke necessarily in 3.03, but I do think that she’s pushing all the people she loves away including Bellamy and Abby.