C: What are you thinking? Do you know how many times a day I ask you that? T: Sorry. What am I thinking…? I’m thinking that I’m utterly selfish, and I should– C: Don’t do this; you had no idea, how could you have known? T: And I should’ve said no to you, but I never say no. And it’s selfish because… because I just take everything, and I don’t know anything and– I don’t know what I want and how could I when all I ever do is say yes to everything? xx
There are too many sweet and kind messages of support and anonymous confessions in my inbox right now to respond to, but I love you all, and I’m so deeply moved that I could say words that made you feel good things. You’re valid and loved <3
We were doing great and he just stopped. He stopped texting me. It took him hours or days to reply to a single text although we were together. The thought ran through my head that I wasn’t good enough or I didn’t try hard enough and he’s going to break my heart. I tried, I called and texted you whenever I could but I felt like I annoyed you. Pretty soon the only thing that made your lips move were the words that broke my heart. You had found another girl and didn’t know how to speak to me. After that, I had to see you with her. Doing everything we did. You were all over her, you never treated me like that.. were we a secret? You were grabbing at her hips and pulling her closer, what did I do? Was I not good enough?
In the land of Ingary where such things as seven-league boots and cloaks of invisibility really exist, it is quite a misfortune to be born the eldest of the three. Everyone knows you are the one who will fail first, and worst, if the three of you set out to seek your fortunes.