2015 zayn includes

  • new hair style
  • increased twitter activity that shows just how adorable he really is
  • several selfie and fan pic blessings

to be continued..


“My life with One Direction has been more than I could ever have imagined. But, after five years, I feel like it is now the right time for me to leave the band. I’d like to apologise to the fans if I’ve let anyone down, but I have to do what feels right in my heart. I am leaving because I want to be a normal 22-year-old who is able to relax and have some private time out of the spotlight. I know I have four friends for life in Louis, Liam, Harry and Niall. I know they will continue to be the best band in the world.”

When I received the news about Zayn.

Then when I got home and saw all the tweets and pics from Zayn and the boys.

When I realized that I wouldn’t hear new songs with Zayn’s high note anymore.

When everything actually came crashing down on me that 1D is no longer 5/5

When I realized that Zayn’s health is more important than him being in or out of the band, although still very freaking sad about everything.

Can you guys imagine how fucking weird this is gonna be? I think One Direction was one of those bands whose members were all equally importante and you couldn’t picture the band without any of them. And now, all of a sudden, we have a four piece band. Without any video or whatever explaining anything. And we are here, devastated, completely torn beteween supporting them no matter what (because Louis, Harry, Liam and Niall deserve it) and just accepting the fact that this is never gonna be the same and that Zayn is fucking important and cointnuining 1D without him is just absolutely ridiculous.

  • Fandom :Zayn you're not coming? c'mon, we're about to go for another round in this roller coaster
  • Zayn :...
  • Fandom :Zayn! hurry up!!it's getting started!
  • *seat belt on*
  • Zayn :sorry..
  • Zayn :*walk closer* please sit tight. try not to fall okay? --
  • Zayn :it's okay, I'll be here, just enjoy your roller coaster without me. it's gonna be great! I'll be here.
  • *start moving*
  • Zayn :bye guys! byee! I love you! goodluck

“Everything that you’ve ever dreamed of, disappearing when you wake up.”

“I don’t exist if I don’t have her [him], the sun doesn’t shine the world doesn’t turn, alright.”

“Who’s gonna be the first to say goodbye?”

you left today.
you walked away, leaving me behind in the dust.
i didn’t see this one coming, but you always said to take care of yourself before others, right?
i guess that would also apply to you.
but it hurts.
it hurts so freaking much.
it feels like the oxygen has been sucked out of the room and the galaxy itself is exploding.
i’m sorry i pushed you away, i’m sorry i said things i didn’t mean.
i should’ve been the one to hold your hand and tell you everything will be alright. 
i don’t know where you’re headed now, but i know you’ll be happier. 
it’s hard to say when i’ll be happy again.
i’ll think of you when i see the sun setting behind the mountain and when the stars illuminate the night. 
i’ll see you in the clouds that dot the skies and the waves that tumble onto the shore.
every beautiful and wonderful thing, i’ll think of you.

farewell // h.h

note: yeah i wrote this about zayn and yeah i know i’m pathetic