Don't kill yourself, please.

If you’re suffering from suicidal thoughts and are looking for a sign to not go through with ending your life, this is it. This is the sign. I care.

I’d like to take a few moments off a very nice lunch to wish Sasha loveyouforeverleeyum the happiest of birthdays! I hope you’re having an amazing day and that you get to celebrate it with the people you love. Also, I hope you get super spoiled, you deserve it! All the love, Zayn aha! :)xxxxx

anonymous asked:

Zayn grips onto Liam's sides fingers trailing down until they're tightened around his hips. 'You are everything. Do you hear me? No matter how many pictures I take with her and stupid childish videos. It's always you jaan' Zayn whispers fiercely, his breath fanning over Liam's lips and it does little to stop the turmoil in Liam's chest but he lifts his chin to look up at Zayn. 'I love you Zayn I just don't like seeing you with her. Want this all to be over so I can be with you' oh ziam 🙈

Well, that’s one way to work the current situation in your favour… :P Thank you, although I admit I was looking forward to seeing if this would be multi part ask, but alas, I take what I can… xx


“My life with One Direction has been more than I could ever have imagined. But, after five years, I feel like it is now the right time for me to leave the band. I’d like to apologise to the fans if I’ve let anyone down, but I have to do what feels right in my heart. I am leaving because I want to be a normal 22-year-old who is able to relax and have some private time out of the spotlight. I know I have four friends for life in Louis, Liam, Harry and Niall. I know they will continue to be the best band in the world.”

2015 zayn includes

  • new hair style
  • increased twitter activity that shows just how adorable he really is
  • several selfie and fan pic blessings

to be continued..

When I received the news about Zayn.

Then when I got home and saw all the tweets and pics from Zayn and the boys.

When I realized that I wouldn’t hear new songs with Zayn’s high note anymore.

When everything actually came crashing down on me that 1D is no longer 5/5

When I realized that Zayn’s health is more important than him being in or out of the band, although still very freaking sad about everything.

Can you guys imagine how fucking weird this is gonna be? I think One Direction was one of those bands whose members were all equally importante and you couldn’t picture the band without any of them. And now, all of a sudden, we have a four piece band. Without any video or whatever explaining anything. And we are here, devastated, completely torn beteween supporting them no matter what (because Louis, Harry, Liam and Niall deserve it) and just accepting the fact that this is never gonna be the same and that Zayn is fucking important and cointnuining 1D without him is just absolutely ridiculous.


“Since the beginning of his career, Malik has experienced a heightened level of Islamophobia taking a great toll on his transition into fame. With that status comes highly disproportionate tabloid coverage on the singer–many of them written by journalists who couldn’t publish a story without a line on his Muslim faith. In result of the overwhelming publicity focused on his minority background, his management gradually started branding him as the “mysterious” and “exotic” member of the group going as far to holding back speaking time in interviews and award shows—even labeling him as “Mystery” in a music video of their summer hit “Steal My Girl.” Malik’s constant struggle with fame has been widely (and publicly) noted by his colleagues for years now. In interviews and in their Morgan Spurlock documentary film, band members like Liam Payne noted that Malik had struggled the most with the transition to fame–although unmentioned, it can easily be inferred to the level of racist backlash. Interestingly enough, his fellow band mates never seem to publicly make the case to point out or defend Malik from the cyber bullying and xenophobia he had experienced.” – Why Zayn Malik Matters More to People Above 14

“Everything that you’ve ever dreamed of, disappearing when you wake up.”

“I don’t exist if I don’t have her [him], the sun doesn’t shine the world doesn’t turn, alright.”

“Who’s gonna be the first to say goodbye?”

dear zayn. i miss you. and i dont miss you because youre an angel on earth, i dont miss you because your voice shakes my soul. i dont miss you because youre missing from one direction…i miss you because you are my book. i read you. and i learn from you. you are true and sweet and wonderful. funny and smart and loving. proud and quiet and magnetic.
when i first became a one direction fan it wasn’t because of you. in fact, you werent even on my radar. it took me a very long time to realize it was from self-hate. i didnt want to explore all the complex feelings you provoked in me. i didnt want to face this unfamiliar and jagged part of me. but the discomfort i felt from your presence became so irritating, i was eventually forced to. and then i fell in love. lets get it straight though, i dont have romantic feelings or fantasies about you, though admittedly, these thoughts are romanticizing, nevertheless, ive changed because of you. i love our people because of you. i am less afraid to love because of you.
and i miss you.
and i hope you’re okay. and i hope you’re getting better. and i hope you understand
how much i miss you.