I grew up telling myself that love didn’t exist. I grew up seeing so many marriages fall apart, and seeing so many people walk around like it didn’t bother them. I grew up in a house that always had a shaking roof, filled with curses and screams and the shatters of glass. And then you came. You came in, with your perfect family, and perfect life, and decided to turn my own upside down. You made me believe in love again, and then you showed me what it was like to love and fall in love. And then you decided to get rid of that. You took the fragile heart, that had just started beating again, and crushed it until it was just the sad remains of a relationship. You, the same person that had taught me how to love, showed me that love wasn’t real again. There was only pain, and loneliness. So, here I am. Venting out my feelings, 4 years later, over the keyboard, and cursing you and your stupid lips. Because you were the one who taught me how to love, and then once again showed me that love wasn’t real. But you know what? Maybe it is real. Maybe I’ve just been cursed, to never find love anywhere. But to me, love doesn’t exist. And thanks to you, I’m not sure it ever will.
—  Excerpt from a book I will never write #1051 // does love exist? 

I love my soft boys, my gentle boys who have a heavenly glow about them

I love my sharp boys, my boys who are tougher than others think they should be but still embrace their perfection

I love my imperfect boys, the boys that have problems doing things and never feel or look quite right to themselves

I love all boys, esp my fellow MLM boys, no matter what I love all of you.

anonymous asked:

Hiya! I'm new to the fandom and stumbled upon your blog (go alec!) do you have any fanfic recommendations, genre's or favorite authors i could check out?


im kidding. but good job picking out a fandom, we have some lovely writers!! honestly all of them are perfect lets be real here guys. as for recommending genres thats more of a personality thing i think?? like i really like aus but not everyone does and some people like a/b/o but i really don’t. for that i just suggest going through some fics, reading descriptions, and picking what you like. 

heres some fic recommendations: 

The Boundless Saga - by @spanglepup and @povverbottoms Okay this is the series that I would come out of a coma for if someone told me there was another update. Honestly I love it so much. It has eight parts and starts after Isabelle’s trial in the show and goes off on into it’s own canon that’s so perfect. Warnings: there’s a lot of smut (a lot!!) and you’ll cry a lot too because of how beautiful and heartbreaking it is. 

Alec Lightwood Deserves Nice Things - by @my-nameless-bliss There’s a whole series before the actual chaptered fic and I read those first, but it has it’s own timeline and it’s all out of order so if that matters I recommend going to her tumblr and checking that out. I love the way she writes Alec I love his characterization so much, it might be some of my favorite out of all the fanfics in this fandom I’ve read. If you love pretty clothes, pretty makeup, pretty boys in pretty clothes and makeup, crushing gender roles, and learning to love yourself then this fic is for you. Plus her tumblr has a bunch of wonderful mini fics and headcanons that go along with the universe that are perfect!!

Under New Management - by @highwarlockkareena This fic is my obsession at the moment, honestly. I love the whole plot of Alec and Magnus never meeting until after the war with Valentine and fake marriage (or dating) is my favorite plot device ever. This fic plays with the characters in this different setting so well and I love the way we slowly find out about what happened in the past that’s different from what we know. So what happened in the war and with Clary and with Magnus and the Lightwood siblings. The world is expanding so fast and Magnus and Alec’s relationship is so wonderful. It’s a slow burn (that always kills me) but their relationship builds up so nicely and it feels so real. 

This Is a Bad Idea - by @sweetillusionketz This fic. This fic. I never knew I needed friends with benefits Malec until this fic. It’s so good. It’s so good. The way Magnus and Alec’s progresses as friends and how that plays into their budding romantic relationship is so well done, I honestly cried. 

Kiss With a Fist - by @swans-hooks-and-books Do you like secret agents? Do you like Malec? Congrats! This is the fic for you. Alec and Magnus’ relationship is so good in this with A+ flirting. All the characters have such good backstories (I cried when reading about Magnus’) and the overall threat of Valentine is done so well. I like how this fic takes time to expand beyond the romance and expand into other characters. 

Bright Lights, Small Town - by @lecrit Oh my gosh. New York Magnus and Rural Alec and as many dogs as you could ever want. What more could you ask for? A heartbreaking grief story, homophobic parents, and a painful journey of self discovery apparently. But honestly I would kill for another update. We’re only halfway through at the moment and I’m dying. The differences between Magnus and Alec are so glaring in this story and I love it because it makes their similarities shine through even more. I especially love how they start out hating each other and you can watch them both slowly start to fall for each other like it’s a slow motion video. Go read it, if not for Malec then do it for Bark Jacobs. 

What’s a Soulmate? - by shewitches Soulmate aus already fuck me up, but Clizzy soulmate aus??? Just stomp on my heart while you’re at it. This particular soulmate au is one of my favorites, so it see it used with my favorite girls warms my heart. And the way the relationship progresses in the beginning from childhood to adulthood and then how you can see it impact both of them when they finally do meet. If you’re going to just read one soulmate fic in this fandom, make it this one. 

The Summer We Were More - by @agentalien This technically isn’t a Shadowhunters fic, but it’s another Clizzy one so I had to read it. The way these characters work in a small town is really interesting to me, especially since in canon they came from New York City. I really like the way small town homophobic elements are played into and Isabelle and Alec’s sibling relationship really gets to me in this fic. Plus all the Clizzy scenes are adorable. 

Coffee - by @aleclightwoodisbetterthanyou Okay have I mentioned how much I love the episode The World Inverted? Because I do. So much. So having Clizzy in this universe? A dream come true. It’s a play on the world where instead of dating Jace, Clary is instead dating Isabelle and how she reacts to it. They’re such cute girlfriends, A+ way to rewrite the episode! 

French Press - by @aleclightwoodisbetterthanyou This is a continuation of Coffee, but also takes place before it. A wonderful Jimon fic where their relationship both parallels the one in the canon universe and the one in the World Inverted universe. Plus it’s got cute boys making out. 

wow. this is really long. i am so sorry to anyone who doesnt want to read this. as for who i’d recommend as fic authors, everyone who i just listed for starters. but i do also recommend all of them. seriously, we have some wonderful and talented people here and you should go and read as many fics as you can to get a sample of all of them!  


Seasons of Waiting

Some might dislike the time jumps but I for one love each one of them for different reasons because they suit the whole narrative and express what the characters are going through, especially the 3-year time jump. It perfectly underscores the THE THREE main themes of the entire story - ENDURING LOVE. From the very beginning, the SoSoo love story has been a ROMANCE DEFINED BY SEPARATION AND TRANSCENDING TIME (divided by 1000 years) AND SPACE, so it’s only apt that they would be separated by long distances for long periods of time - it’s the perfect symbolism. A LOVE ISN’T DEFINED BY THE TIME THEY SPENT TOGETHER BUT BY ITS CONSTANCY AND STRENGTH.

“I will wait for you.”

That’s inseparably connected with the theme OF WAITING - because all those years both of them have been waiting for each other, even though THEY DIDN’T MAKE ANY PROMISES NOR VOWS TO EACH OTHER, they were given no hope by the other person, but THEY’VE BEEN WAITING ANYWAY - LOYALLY, FAITHFULLY, STAYING TRUE TO EACH OTHER, THEIR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER NEVER WAVERING. If a love can stand the TEST OF TIME AND SEPARATION, it will last forever.

“I guess you really have forgotten about me.”

And finally, there comes the theme of NOT FORGETTING/REMEMBERING and it’s impossibly powerful because we have a man here who used to always tell this woman that she should forget it all and she later told him to forget her, but BOTH HAVE NEVER BEEN ABLE TO FORGET EACH OTHER, NO MATTER HOW HARD THEY TRIED - THEY REMEMBER EVERY WORD, EVERY TOUCH, EVERY TEAR, even memories from 7 years ago when they barely knew each other… They have been LIVING ON THESE MEMORIES - they are what KEPT THEM ALIVE ALL THIS WHILE. They are engraved in their skins and hearts, just like their physical scars that will never disappear. HS kept the poem as a token, just like So kept the lotus hairpin with him when he’d left for Later Jin. Wang So can never forget Soo because everything in this world reminds him of her - the stars in the sky, the wind he feels when he rides his horse, the whisper of waves,… I mean, EVEN AFTER 3 YEARS HE STILL COLOR-COORDINATES HIS CLOTHES WITH HER SANGGOONG UNIFORM!

“Are you sleeping well? Eating well? Do you still… resent me?”

That backhug speaks of such a deep longing and desperation and it’s the thought that she might lose So forever, that he is once again leaving her and she doesn’t know if she would ever see him again, which spurs her into action. IT’S A DESPERATE ACT OF TRYING TO KEEP HIM WITH HER. And he tries to numb himself everytime he is around HS, but is failing miserably. It’s an unbearable torture for him to feel the warmth of her whole body against his own, her arms holding him - THE TOUCH HE’S BEEN STARVED FOR AND DREAMING ABOUT FOR 3 YEARS.

The Blooming Love

Decided to rest from Reylo a bit and draw my other OTP.  Phew, every art which requires contouring eats a lot of time. Going into completely different style for me (inspired by the brilliant Alphonse Mucha of course). Padme is a perfect model for the art nouveau paintings, I think. I decided to draw them when their love still blooms and they are full of hope… But everything comes to fade. As to the flowers I chose the thorny roses bacause they remind me of Leia and the wheat because it reminds me of Luke (at least of his hair color).

I loved that they didn’t downplay how important Richard and Allison were to Kelly. I love that they were important pieces of her life, that she talked about them, that she loved them.

And that she could love Yorkie too.

Like this was the best Black bi/pan representation other than Nova and Annalise that I’ve seen in ages.

This really fucked me up well. I can’t even continue my binge right now. I just…perfect.

greentrickster  asked:

Okay, but Thace and Coran teaming up to make /ten million/ dad jokes. And they don't just make them, they're STRATEGIC about it, they will do freaking tag-team dad jokes. The worst bit is that Shiro refuses to do anything about it, because he thinks they're actually funny (because he's Space Dad and has contracted Dad Humour as a result).

This is perfect


bts MBTI tag

[MBTI tag for bts with extrovert and introvert because I don’t really know them personally and i feel like both could fit. I hope you like it!!!]



  • pretends everyone loves them
  • has a lot of those candles that smell nice
  • has probably murdered before


  • cant be alone
  • momma bear
  • has one password for everything



  • dOGS
  • bitter cinnamon roll
  • holds grudges for 67 years


  • ?????
  • meme generator™
  • will fight you



  • can kick your ass
  • obsessed with pinterest
  • goes on emotional ‘delete later’ post sprees


  • everything they own is black
  • so is their soul
  • has a body in the trunk



  • takes pictures of sunsets
  • good intentions
  • part of 57 fandoms


  • perfected the art of screaming
  • has like 8 blogs
  • likes plants



  • constant internal screaming
  • doesnt know what they’re doing
  • hobbies include leading people to their death


  • pretends everyone loves them
  • has a lot of those candles that smell nice
  • has probably murdered before



  • 0 to 100 real quick
  • never wears matched socks
  • makes weird noises


  • space nerd
  • smol and useless
  • doesnt know



  • chaotic evil
  • ego complex
  • adult child


  • has never felt love
  • sins twice a day
  • got an A- once and cried

original post


3 YEARS WITH TOPPDOGG I just can’t believe it has been 3 years with THIS hoes. Oh, my babies.I Stan them since their debut and they are really special to me. They are so talented, so funny, so perfect. THEY MAKE ME HAPPY AND I LOVE THOSE HOES WITH ALL MY HEART. PLEASE SUPPORT AND LOVE THIS BOYS. GOD WTF I MEAN REALLY 3 YEARS WITH TOPPDOGG? I’M SO PROUD OF MY BABIES! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY BITCHES!

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I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together. - Lisa Kleypas (insp)

anonymous asked:

When Robert says "For you, you idiot" to Aaron in the car before the crash, Ryan's accent seems strong. I just love it! It has been wonderful to watch Ryan and Danny's acting this week.

Yes anon I actually think that that proposal was perfect for them , Robert frustrations, Aaron misunderstanding. I love Ryans accent, which is funny because the man is kinda posh isnt he ;) And don’t even get me started on how utterly amozng the pair of thm have been this week, but for me the hinign star has to be Ryan, he does these little things with his face, where in completely changes in a fraction of a second, i am in aew everytime I watch him! I am so happy we got Ryan was our Robert Sugden this time around, as much as I love Karl I just don’t think it would have been the same, Danny and Ryans chemistry is amazing and it really shows on screen!! Now I’m just gushing over Ryan arent I? I just love that man so much!!

Originally posted by onlymywishfulthinking

Something I’ve been thinking about… Some people think that liking a character means you have to paint them as some perfect angel free of wrongdoing. When the truth is, being a fan of a character means knowing all there is to know about them, the good and the bad and still ACCEPTING all these things in the end without twisting them into an idealized version.

Loving a character means acknowledging all the sides of them and not merely focusing on what you like about them until that character has become something they’re not.

anonymous asked:

i hav this v specific headcanon that louis partakes in "girly" hobbies (like shopping, makeup, knitting etc.) bc he likes them but also bc people tell him he can't and wheneve anyone tells him he can't he jus rolls his eyes n says "well jeremy looks like /someone won't be getting a handmade scarf for xmas this yr"

louis’s done things just to spite people from the day he was born, gets good at them just to grind someones nerves to dust, loves the way their eye twitches when he perfects something they said he’d never be able to understand, let alone learn. has a box shoved under his box of things he did out of spite; the box includes:

  • homemade badges with feminist and trans slogans
  • two perfectly knitted scarves and one small knitted wolf
  • a portfolio of face charts for makeup looks, all graded at 100%/a
  • polaroid pictures of things he’s baked perfectly just because someone said “but you burn everything you make”

anonymous asked:

when louis and harry are young, before talking marriage, let alone babies, louis is laying on harry's stomach while he's scrolling through instagram in bed. he idly turns his head, kisses harry's skin and mumbles "i love you" into his stomach and harry is overcome all at once with a whole life spread out before them, babies with his hair and louis' eyes, and he does a sharp intake of breath involuntarily. louis looks up and asks if he's okay. harry, watery smile, choked up, says "i'm perfect"

😰😰😰😰😰😰😰 this is so soft and real 😟

anonymous asked:

I'm a bi girl with very strict conservative parents. "love the sinner, hate the sin" is probably the nicest thing they would say about an lgbt person. They just don't accept it at all. The thing is though, I actually really love my parents. Is this hypocritical of me? I know that they'd still love me if i came out, but they wouldn't accept i big part of who i am. I'm so torn.

You shouldn’t feel bad for still loving your parents if they don’t approve of the lgbt community. They are your parents. They raised you. It is perfectly normal to love your parents. 

While, in a perfect situation, they would be 100% okay with it, not all of us can be that lucky. A lot of times, people in the lgbt community with disapproving parents who know that their parents wouldn’t accept them at all if they came out push them out of their lives, and put up a wall so that when the time comes, they wont be as hurt when they do come out. 

It is a matter of protection, and it seems like you don’t need that protection as much as others do. We can’t change how others think, that is on them, but if we try to show them the right way through love, maybe they will see that it is okay to love whoever you want to love. So not only are you not a hypocrite for still loving your parents, but maybe one day you could possibly show them that we aren’t bad.