sports: wanted to do basketball, but ended up not having the time for it
clubs: orchestra, (secretly) poetry club
vernon ended up getting into college on a scholarship for his violin, even though he still isn’t really sure that’s what he wants to do with his life
like he likes playing classical music, but much to the surprise of most people in his major, he’s much more fond of hiphop and pop music which is why everyone’s so shocked when he comes into orchestra with like the weekend blasting from his headphones and not Bach’s Violin Concerto in A minor
but no matter what his personal preferences are, it’s obvious he’s the most talented violinist in the orchestra and even in the whole school
and for that, the conductor and his instructors are all really tough on him because they want to make him a classical music prodigy
and vernon just,,,,,,,, like he just doesn’t think he’s suited for that
like he’d much rather change his major to psychology because he’s always has an interest in peoples personalities and observing others and it’s a field that he really does want to learn more about
but the pressure from everyone, even his friends, is that he should just do music since he’s so talented at it
which is funny considering he’s put a ban on any of his friends attending any of the orchestra recitals because last time hoshi fell asleep, woke up halfway through the piece and got up to clap because he thought it was over, effectively making everyone turn to look at him and the orchestra messing up and long story short
hoshi was escorted out and vernon had to beg the conductor to forgive his friend for being……like that
vernon doesn’t have many close friends in the orchestra because all the other violinist are pretty jealous of his talents. the other sections are made up of mostly his seniors who are also pissed that someone younger than them is doing so well
so vernon spends a lot of his time practicing alone and keep quiet during group rehearsals
but when he’s not practicing, he hangs out with joshua and minghao and jeonghan and the other seventeen members tease them because they call them the ‘brain squad’ because they all get good grades and study
but when they hangout it’s like video games and eating LOL
vernon had let his sister decorate hi violin case with stickers before he left to live on campus and although he does admit some of the my little pony ones and sparkly puppies are ……..a bit……much…..he misses his sister a lot so he never tries to take them off
hoshi doesn’t let him live it down though he’s always like “i never knew you were a fan of fluttershy, how cute vernon” and vernon’s like if you weren’t my hyung………………my violin bow would be shoved…….
lots of people outside of the music program like vernon actually, and not because he’s friendly and approachable like seokmin, but because they find him really elegant and chic when he walks around campus in the suit holding his case before a performance
basically people are like “he’s a real life prince, handsome AND plays the violin”
every white day the music room becomes overflowed with presents addressed to him and confessions of love
and he’s just like…….clueless to why he’s so popular and the other musicians all get grumpy and salty because no one sends them chocolates whatS so good about vernon
the answer is simple: face of an angel but anyway
also like he’s studying classical music but…his sense of dressing and personal preference of music is nothing close to that and he’s actually known for keeping up with trends. he got instagram famous for his fashion and vernon didn’t even know until hoshi was like “you passed 10k followers on insta” and vernon was like “you have followers on insta?”
but anyway you actually meet vernon under some weird circumstances
see the orchestra always picks someone to have a solo in the winter show before finals end and everyone leaves campus for the holidays
and last year it was a senior pianist so everyone’s like this year it has to be another section and like everyone really rEALLY wants the solo because if you get it it means a) you’re probably getting a good grade b) the spotlight is on you for the winter recital
ofc the only one pretty unphased by it is vernon and so when his name is announced for the solo he’s like WHAT and everyone turns to stare at him
and the instructors like “we’ll begin meeting on thursdays to talk about a piece to choose and practice!!”
and vernon wants to protest because….well….because he doesn’t want the solo
but the see of eyes that are glued to him, majority of them angry, he decides to not say anything out loud
but after orchestra is over he heads over to the instructor and slinging his violin bag over his shoulder he’s like “i don’t want…the solo. i can’t do it.”
and the instructor is like what????? why????? and vernon’s like “stage fright. im fine playing with a big orchestra, but being up by myself-”
but the instructor just waves it off and is like “stage fright? you’ve gotta be joking me, if every classical musician dreams of a solo concert. just calm down and show up on thursday ready.”
vernon knows that there isn’t any point in arguing, the teacher has always been strict and if anything he doesn’t want to get yelled at
and on thursday he shows up to the orchestra hall and the teachers there and basically in the beginning it’s fine, they’re talking about pieces that vernon can play and it’s normal but the second the teacher asks him to play something infront of him. vernon…………vernon can’t
even though it’s only the teacher and other student off in other corners,,,,,vernon can’t bring himself to even lift the bow
the teacher basically gets mad and leaves him there telling him to fix his problem the next time there’s practice and that’s when you come in
you’re not in orchestra, you’re actually there to help set up chairs because a friend asked you to and you witness the whole thing go down with vernon and his teacher
and tbh it gets you really mad
because how can a teacher just treat their student like that???? and before you know it you’re going over to where vernon is sitting with his head in his hands and you tap his shoulder and you’re like
“your teacher was being really horrible, im sorry you have to deal with that.”
and vernon, who like ….you don’t know and he doesn’t know you is just like……looking up at you quizzically until his face goes pink and he’s like “oh god…….you saw what happened.”
and you’re like nO DONT BE embarrassed!!!! i just wanted to let you know that your teacher was being a douche!!! i wasnt trying to make fun of you oh my ogd….
and you’re babbling very quickly trying to clean up this mess you’ve started and in your head you’re like THIS is why people tell you to stop striking up conversations with strangers and sticking your nose into peoples business
but vernon suddenly just stands up and he’s like ,,,, “i have to go.” and before you can even gather your words again he’s gone and you’re like FRICK I MESSED UP UGH
and you like scold yourself but it’s like what can you do you won’t see him again right?
but you DO see you end up in the orchestra room next thursday again because your friend wanted to meet up there after her practice to go out for dinner
and so you’re sitting in one of the rows of chairs and you see vernon (you know his name because you had heard the teacher yelling at him before) and he looks so depressed to be there
and when the teacher comes you watch as vernon tries to focus himself and bring the bow up to play but again, he just clenches his jaw and can’t move his hand
and the teacher looks like he might start yelling again and you decide you need to save the poor kid
so you get up and rush over and stand in front of the teacher and you’re like “i can help him!!!!!”
both vernon and the instructor stare wide-eyed at you and you’re like in your head like cmon think think …..and then you smile up at the instructor and you’re like “i used to have anxiety before performing too, i know how to stop it so!!!! just give us time before the concert - ill help him!!”
and vernon leans over to whisper like “what are you do-” in your ear but the teacher is like “are you a friend of vernons?” and you’re like YEP WE KNOW EACH OTHER WELL SO DONT WORRY!! LEAVE HIM IN MY HANDS!!
and the teacher looks suspicious but at the same time you’re pressing the fact that this solo is REA L L Y important and finally he just gives in and points menacingly at vernon whose still standing behind you, quite frankly flabbergasted by your appearance
and he’s like “if she doesn’t fix you before the concert. …..we will have a problem and any recommendations i had planned on writing for you are in the garbage, got it?”
and vernon is still shocked but you bow as the teacher leaves and you pull vernon down so he does too
and when finally the guys gone you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding and you turn to look at vernon and you’re like “SO i guess i should at least tell you my name and explain what the was all about”
and vernon, who has never been very…..good with new people….., is just like watching you blabber and not saying anything and you’re like oh god he’s gonna run off again
and you’re like “lISTen….i really want to help, maybe just because i don’t want your teacher to yell at you again for something you can’t control but also like you want to do well right? i mean this is your major?”
and you point to the violin and vernon pauses but slow nods and you’re like
“ok!!! well i…….i think i can help so, how about you at least let me try? can’t hurt, right?” and you smile at him and vernon,,,,,well vernon can’t believe that his first thought as you do is ‘wow they have a really cute grin’ and the second is like ‘what is happening’
but somehow ,,,,he decides that he might as well take a helping hand
and so you tell vernon you’ll see him tomorrow in her, right in time to see your friend come in
and as you leave vernon is standing there….trying to process what happened and the most he can come up with is that you must just be a really kind person to want to help
actually it troubles him to figure out why you’re doing this that he even ends up asking jeonghan about it when he gets back to the dorm and jeonghan is like “well - what’s the problem this person wants to help you with?” and vernon’s like oh right no one knows about my fear and so vernon’s like nvm nvm
but jeonghan is like………….*magnifying glass emoji*
anyway the next day you meet vernon where you planned and you’re like “first things first: stage fright - does the rest of the orchestra know?” and vernon’s like “if i told them,,,,they’d all eat me alive for being childish and not grateful for this solo” and you scrunch up your nose like what kind of friends are those and vernon’s like Well…..they’re not really my friends
you nod and you’re like ok, do your real friend know? and again vernon’s like no,,,,,,,,,,,,
and you’re like ok i promise i wont tell a soul and you like stick your pinkie out and vernon’s like,,,,,that’s childish but you’re like c’mon we gotta and he’s like…..ok…fine
and after hooking pinkies you like start to ask vernon questions about why he gets so scared and some strategies about pretending the audience is there/ imagining dogs instead of people/ etc
and vernon…..who is used to being always in competition with the people around him can’t help but watch you trying your hardest for him….a complete stranger…..and so he ends up actually telling you things that even the closest people can’t get out of him
and two weeks goes by, you see vernon almost every afternoon after his orchestra practice and finally you ask him to try and play something in front of you
and so you sit and vernon stands on the stage and you’re like
giving him a thumbs up and he rolls his eyes, but hides himself behind his violin to chuckle
(he’s actually been smiling a lot more since he started doing this with you - everyone’s noticed but no one says anything)
and he brings up his bow and you keep quiet and watch him intently and vernon concentrates………he thinks like you told him, of no audience but of things that are serene like nature or animals……he even thinks of how proud his sister would be to see him if he could just play a single piece
but then,,,,he looks to you
and unlike the cold, demanding eyes of his teacher and orchestra mates….he sees someone who has genuinely shown him care and
he plays his whole piece perfectly
and at the end you’re scrambling up to the stage, clapping with joy
and vernon puts down his bow and looks at you and smiles, actually smiles
and you feel your heart in your chest skip a beat and when vernon says “i ,,,,, i can do it!!” you almost want to cry
but all you do is nod a million times and jump up and down like “yes!!! yes you can!!!!”
and before you can think, you lunge over to hug him
and vernon freezes because,,,,such sudden skinship makes him embarrassed, but at the same time he feels like even two weeks of knowing you has proved that you’re the kind of person who shows this kind of affection easily
but the second he thinks to wrap his arms back around you
the door to the room opens and some students stare at the both of you and vernon gets redder than a tomato and gently nudges you off and you’re like !!!!!!! CARRY ON to the students and they’re just giggling as they walk past you and vernon
vernon just gathers his bag and is like “um ill go,,,” and you’re like lgfkdjlfdwg
that night vernon frets over texting you because like,,,,,,do you guys still need to meet now that he’s successfully played in front of you/??? and he’s like laying on his bed with his phone on his face like having a crush is so h a r d why cant i stop
but then his phone lights up because you text him like ‘see you tomorrow, we gotta keep practicing till d-day!’
and vernon just grins so much and he’s like,,,,,,,,nvm i hope this crush never goes away
BECAUSE WOW DO YOU MAKE HIM FEEL WARM not that he’d ever admit that LOL
so you keep meeting and then finally it’s the day before the winter showcase and vernon can now even play when there’s other people in the room and it’s all going well
and then the teacher shows up and it’s the final test and before vernon goes up to play you take his hand in yours and you’re like “it’s going to be fine, if anything ill stand behind him and make funny faces to cheer you up!!” and vernon laughs like don’t do that we’ll both get in trouble but thank you
and you give him another thumbs up and he’s like god you’re so corny and you’re like DO GREAT
and vernon gets up there and for a second it’s all good, but then the sickening feeling comes again….the one that tells him that he’s sure to mess up…he’s sure to look like a fool
and he clutches his eyes and he’s like think of something positive - what’s the one thing you wouldn’t mind seeing forever
and in his head,,,,,,all he can visualize is you
you with your big smile, your unapologetic laugh
and all of a sudden he’s playing, like magic. he doesn’t even feel any strain - the piece comes out perfectly
and by the end the teacher raises an eyebrow when he looks at you but then looking back at vernon he gives a nod and says he’ll see vernon tomorrow night
you and vernon go out to celebrate by eating some ramen at the convenience store on campus and you’re just like “i knew you could do it. that teacher’s just a jerk who can’t learn how to properly take care of his students.” and vernon laughs because you’re right, but also because you look so cute getting all pouty over it….like it isn’t even your problem but you’re so riled up and it’s adorable
but then you lift some of your noodles, blow on them and offer them out to vernon with your chopsticks and you’re like “here let me feed you, the flavor i got is so good!!!”
and vernon is looking at the chopsticks like a deer caught in headlights and he’s like “i….im an adult, let me feed myself” and he reaches out but you swat his hand away and you’re like “c’mon aaaaaaa-” and vernon goes pink again but complies
and when he’s done you grin and you’re like “good, right?” and vernon,,,,,,vernon finally realized that god this crush is something way more than a crush because he feels like just your smile makes his heartrate hit the roof
but he doesn’t say it, instead he walks you back to your dorm and is like “…..will i see you tomorrow? at the show?”
and you’re like “are you inviting me~~~” and he’s like don’t tease god but yes yes i am and you grin like ofc ill go i have to see all our hardwork pay off in that solo!!!
and vernon agrees, but for a second he catches himself staring at you for a bit longer than usual until awkwardly bowing and telling you he has to go
you watch him run off and touch your lips, a little sad that he only stared
finally it’s the night of the show and you’re looking for vernon behind the orchestra and once you find him you’re like!!!!!!!! how you feeling
and he turns around, except this time he’s in a suit with his hair slicked back and you’re like Oh ……. and you too, you’re wearing something fancy for the occasion and vernon can’t help but let his jaw hang a little
and the shocking silence gets a little too much so you playfully reach out to ruffle his hair and you’re like ‘do amazing, ok? or else you’ll get a scolding from me ok?’ and vernon’s like ‘pfft uhuh’ and you’re like ‘looK AT you getting sassy with me’ and you both laugh
but soon you go and take your seat and the lights dim and the orchestra begins its first piece
and you sit through everything until finally it’s vernon’s solo and you’re so excited you can’t keep still and when he gets on stage he looks just BREATHTAKING and you clutch your hands together with worry
but he brings the violin up and takes in a breath and……begins to play
and the sound is so beautiful, you can see how it captivates everyone in the audience and you do tear up because he looks so at ease, not the same scared student you saw trying to play in front of his teacher when you first met him
and when the whole thing is over vernon doesn’t even stay for the congratulations from the faculty or anyone who came to see, he runs straight to try and find you
and when he does, you turn and right then and there he sweeps you up into his arms and presses his lips to yours and you’re like!!!!!!!!????????
and when he pulls back you’re like oh ,,,, oh my god
and he’s like ‘oh my god i did that…..’ and you’re like ‘oh my god you did………’ and you’re both shocked but then you just grin and pull him down by the collar to kiss him again
and it’s cute for the first time vernon is forward with how he’s begun to feel about you and you’re more then head over heels for him too, you realized this when you saw him play in front of only you and his determination just….just made him look so cool to you
but that’s not important, what’s important is you two walk out of the building hand in hand and vernon’s like “id like to take you on an official date” and you’re like ‘ooooo so mannered~~~” and vernon is like plEASe for one second don’t make everything teasing but you just giggle and kiss his nose
and the restaurant you go to is way more upscale than you expected and you’re like ??!!?!??! vernon can you afford this and he’s like “yeah, i tutor violin on the side so i have the money” and you’re like what. how did i not know and he shrugs shyly like,,,there’s a lot you don’t know
and over dinner you learn that although vernon loves music, he’s been considering changing majors and………that maybe that is also part of his stage fright and you even tell vernon of your own insecurities which is hard but you know you can trust him
you also learn vernon is in poetry club and you’re like “our second date is you letting me read your poetry” and vernon is like “you will never know where i hide my book so-” and you’re like “if you don’t tell me i will do aegyo for an hour straight” and vernon is like gbdklzfd NO FINE
fancy restaurants aren’t your biggest thing so after a while you’re like vernon let’s go get dollar ice-cream and walk by the han river
and it’s cute you guys are way more suited to this casual kind of thing and when you try to sit up on the railing vernon has to pull you down because he’s scared you’d tip over into the water
and like the whole time he’s going crazy thinking about kissing you again and it’s so obvious that when he drops you off after, you’re like “you have permission” and vernon’s like ???? and you tap your lips and he goes pink but it’s cute
his kiss is so shy ,,,,just like him
as you officially start to date, vernon gets so nervous about telling his friends because he’s like “they’ll never stop teasing us. like ever. you need to know that.” and you’re like “babe, it’s fine. we can deal with it.”
but the second you and vernon show up holding hands all of seventeen mc’freaking loses it
s.coups is like we’RE THROWIng a PArty. jeonghan is like “I KNEW IT I CALLED IT”. seungkwan is asking you if vernon didn’t just pay you to act like it. and minghao is taking photo proof of your hands together for future reference and it is a certified Mess and vernon is like
like too embarrassed to speak and you’re just like “oh god vernon you were right we should have stayed quiet”
but then you learn about how useful the meme squad that is his friends are. like wonwoo informs you of how scared vernon is of horror movies so you pick on on your next date JUST to have vernon curl up against your arm and press his face into your neck out of fear
after you’re like ‘that’s the most skinship we’ve EVER had’ and he’s like adigfhbkglr plEASE don’t ever mention it or do this to me again…..
you buy a cute sticker and beg vernon to put it on his violin case and he’s like “sure, but i should ask my sister first since she originally decorated it-”
and that’s how you end up on skype with vernon’s lil sis who absolutely ADORES YOU
you two are being cute together and she’s like !!!!!!! my brother is lucky, don’t mess this up vernon and you’re like ill protect vernon and she’s like pls do and vernon is like oh m y G o d
vernon writes you a poem for your birthday, accompanied with a piece he composes for the violin and he plays it to you like five times over because he insists it HAS to be perfect because it’s your gift
but by the fifth time you just calmly ask him to put the violin down so you can smother him in kisses
and he’s like nonoooonononononoooooo but kisses back and even puts his hand on your neck and you’re like “someone’s getting bolder” and he’s just blushing again
you keep vernon in a never ending loop of soft embarrassment,,,,it’s cute
when you meet him after practice you always make sure to distract him if you hear any of the seniors mumbling something about him because you want to keep him safe from negativity so you’ll like cover his ears randomly or start talking loud
and vernon actually knows why you do it, but he plays along because he can see you’re trying for his sake
but also if anyone says something too harsh you’re not afraid to approach them and give them a lecture and how AMAZING and PERFECT your boyfriend is to a point where vernon needs to drag you away because you’re getting emotional
and he’s like “don’t get riled up on my behalf like a little kid, we can just ignore them.” and you’re just fuming like verNON let me fight them and he’s like no. NO
he makes his phone background a photo his mom took of you two when you visited and that his sister covered in like sparkly filters and it’s c*rny he’ll admit it but he loves it
when he’s playing basketball with like seungcheol and mingyu or something he wears a headband to keep his bangs up and you think it’s the cutest thing ever
you like specifically ask him to send you selfies wearing the headband and the basketball shorts and he’s like ‘what is with you’ and you’re like ‘vernon. you don’t understand you look CUTE’
you sometimes watch their mini games for fun and then run over to hand vernon water and mingyu’ll be like “wehere’s mine?”
and before you can even answer vernon is like “you don’t have hands? go get your own.” and seungcheol is like WOW DISSED TO The FACE and you’re like ‘i never knew you had this side’ and vernon shrugs like ,,,,,,,mingyu’s dumb anyway i love you
and he opens his arms up so you can hug him because he never wants to SAY hug me but you just grin and kiss him instead and he’s like !! and you’re like ^^
the scene where sonja talks to isak to me really shows the importance of the actors ages- if i remember correctly the actress that plays sonja is 21 and tarjei of course is 17
in that scene sonja has all the power, she knows (debatable but mainly just talking about that she knows his diagnosis) what’s going on with even and she knows how to handle it, isak becomes so childlike in her presence and in his hopeless confusion
although sonja is only supposed to be 19 she doesn’t feel 19 in that scene, she feels like a true adult talking down to isak, telling him off like he’s done something wrong and it adds a whole extra layer to the fear and heartbreak and how lost isak feels afterwards
Okay but i feel like everyone in Isak’s life is going to tell him to stay away from Even after he tells them what happened. But i also believe so much that Isak’s not going to listen. I think and i hope that he’s going to go check on Even regardless. And if this happens, trust me when i say it will be a game changer for mental illness representation on television with regards to love.
Can you please write Adam Raki x Le Chiffre please. Maybe they are cats and Le Chiffre finds on his daily outings a little cat who's very cold and wet and he brings him home oh and it's omegaverse and Adam is and omega and Jean is an alpha.
There is a cat that likes to follow him.
Jean has seen it in his periphery more than once on this walk to his car, lurking just out of vision and seeming interested though not approaching.
He knows the rule of thumb about cats. You don’t approach even if they’re interested. Gaining their attention is a feat in and of itself.
The following lasts a week until one evening he doesn’t see it, hear it, and is surprised to feel a sense of loss at something that could’ve been interesting.
Cats made lovely mates he’s heard, loyal and almost crazily smart. They were also extremely fertile for half breeds.
They also rarely got interested in humans. This one must have been mistaken in it’s interest.
He’s headed through the parking garage when he hears it: a low meowing that goes right to his alpha sense of protection.
Jean rarely has a moment where his alpha instincts kick in for anything other than aggression or anger but this is fear.
He finds the cat huddled under the dumpster outside the garage, swatting at another cat and growling an inhuman growl that makes his lips curl back as he lets out one of his own.
The other cat runs off and his cat walks out slowly as if worried he’s going to attack as well.
He leans down and holds out his hand. “You called for me, little one.”
The cat comes closer, rubbing on him and even leaning up on its hind legs to stare even in the rain that beats down on them.
The transformation is so quick he can barely register.
“You smell good,” the cat says simply, leaning in to sniff at his neck, “Alpha, you smell like….”
The cat looks up at him with a smile.
“Yes. I’m Adam.”
He touches Adam’s cheek, the dirt there somehow pretty on him.
They stand and he takes off his coat, not caring but wanting to hide his treasure from anyone who might see.
“Warm,” Adam says, sniffing.
“I’ll protect you.”
Adam heads right for his vehicle, eyes flashing at Jean when he goes to open the door.
“No, Alpha. I will protect you.”
Jean touches his ears, the pointed ends so lovely even in the horrid light of the parking garage. “Yes. I suppose you will.”