All the scattered things...
I forgot how hard it is being the new kid in town. The last year that I was living in Chicago it all felt so familiar and comfortable. I knew my way around. I knew a handful of people. I could get into the city on public transportation without anxiety.
It was easy. But it still wasn’t where I wanted to be. I hated living there 80% of the time. 100% of the time if it was December-March.
I told myself that if I found myself hating San Francisco that it would solidify that maybe I’m just not meant to live outside of New Orleans. Because yes, Chicago was boring to me. But how could San Francisco be?
I mean it has an ocean and so many outdoor things to do. And the most beautiful places are just a drive away.
So far it isn’t terrible. I’m slowly, slowly adjusting. Maybe. I get wrapped up in my head and then I go outside and I forget I was ever hating our little apartment.
I applied to a particular office job that I think I’d be really good at today. It’s entry level so they’re willing to train the right person and I know exactly how to get to it on public transportation from my apartment. And the pay isn’t too terrible and it’s full time. And I’d be off on weekends. Just gah.
I’m ready for someone to cut me a break and give me an interview. Please.
I think once I get a job and have a purpose for the day and have my own money and can interact with people I’ll love west coast living.
This post hasn’t made any sense and it took a complete 180 from where I thought it would go when I started but, c’est la vie and all that.
P.S. I don’t want to say I’m going to BUT I may have found a ‘fat’ girls jazz ensemble in the Berkley area and it looks so entertaining. They have open rehearsals every 1st and 3rd Saturday of the month and you can go do it if you’re interested and you could maybe eventually join the company. I did dance for like 8 years so maybe? I need to throw myself out of my comfort zone man.
P.P.S I did yoga yesterday and it was good. Hopefully I can push myself into doing some more today.