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I just want to talk about why I have so many feels about this page. Touka and Kaneki have always had a complicated relationship. Touka taking out her aggression on Kaneki when his past involved child abuse. Kaneki lying and leaving Touka behind when she has a fear of abandonment from when she lost her Father. They always make mistakes when it comes to the other, unknowingly hitting on their deepest, most sensitive issues.

But here it’s finally being addressed. 

Touka thinks “… again?” after Kaneki leaves her behind on this mission and tries to protect her when she feels that’s not his place to decide. Just like he did after the Aogiri Arc. Kaneki thinks “… again?” when he questions whether she’ll hit him this time too, after the bridge scene and in the cafe.

And now that they’re going to sit down and talk (assuming they get the chance to because yikes, last time the “we’ll do this when we return from this dangerous mission” thing was brought up, Shirazu DIED) they have the chance to tell each other this and actually communicate their feelings for once! Tell the other what is wrong so they can work on fixing their mistakes and clear the tension between them. I really hope this is the case because this is what I’ve been needing from them for so long. We know they both care about each other, and that they’re both important to one another, but it’s always been a case of this giant wall between them, built up of their own issues, that keeps pushing them away. I hope this is a chance for both of them to grow and to apologise for hurting one another

still very hopeful that Hide is alive because honestly I would be so disappointed bc there’s so much that he can do and I want to see him do more and it would be so?? unfair??? if Hide??? was already gone??????

Sorry.

I’m just pissed off right now. Feeling really shitty.

My crush? We’ve decided to keep private of our matters until they sort out one way or another. I love this person a lot, and these anons are more than likely making them really uncomfortable as well. If you make this person feel like shit because of being nosy towards my business / business between me and my crush, screw you. Please respect people’s boundaries.

I don’t think I’ll be online much tonight. Good night yall.

type-0 novel translation #4;

Final Fantasy Type-0 Change The World -The Penultimate Truth-

Chapter 8 (Rem & Machina): p.220-221
Characters: Jack, Eight, Cater, Deuce
Summary: Before finally confronting Cid at the heart of the enemy capital, Class Zero face off against their last line of defense: 3 crystal jammers and Qator Bashtar himself. Divided into 4 teams, the cadets move towards their respective battlefields. [Team B fragment]
Note: This is super short, but I wanted to get this done before continuing a huge piece I’m currently working on. It’s one of the three fragments from the POV of characters who didn’t get a chapter of their own. And this one is honestly one of my favourite novel parts (bias much oops). I’ll probably translate the other two later as well.
(Disclaimer: I’m not a professional translator, so take this with a grain of salt.)

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Hello, this is the funny/embarrassing story of how I learned I have ADD/ADHD! When I was going to a psychiatrist for something different (clinical depression, that one just runs in my family) and he was like “have you ever been tested for ADD?” and I said no. I always did really well in school growing up, so no one had ever thought to do so.

So we do a few tests. One in particular involved super boring repetitive attention drills, like clicking a specific shape or at a specific time or something, I can’t remember the specifics. Like it was purposefully designed to be boring and unmemorable. And it would record your reaction time, your accuracy, and your head movements while you’re doing the test.

My doctor came back with the results later like “Okay, so the green ones are the ones you did well on, yellow is not so good, and red are the ones you missed. You did well at the beginning–” and he showed me like this long stream of green with some yellow “started to lag a little in the middle” and there was a lot of yellow “and I’m not sure what happened here” and it was just like all red and yellow.

I thought about it, and then I had to confess, “I was reading the sign on the wall about how the test works.”

And he was like. “Yeah, that would do it.”

I also apparently went totally off the radar, movement-wise, at one point, and I’m pretty sure I was looking for something in my purse, though rn I can’t for the life of me remember what.

He…actually asked me, in the politest terms possible, how I’d ever even graduated high school, much less gone to the college I had and it was just like “uhhh sheer force of will??” which is basically the answer I always give to how I got through this much with all my health problems. (Note: he said it was also possible that I do have ADD/ADHD but the reason it’s so severe is because I do have actual things distracting me, like nausea and pain, which is why I can’t concentrate for shit. But judging by my chattiness, there is also probably just like straight up ADHD in there, too. He didn’t want to make a hard diagnosis because my situation was kind of weird.)

Unfortunately, all the meds they tried gave me craaazy tachycardia, and if it was hard to concentrate before, it was straight-up impossible with a resting heart rate of like 129. lol. So now I just make a lot of text posts on social media and bother my followers. Like right now. :x

It is small, dim and dusty compared to the rest of the ostentatious displays, those adorned with giant inflatable reindeer and bumbling snowmen, but Tsarina Lunanoff has been standing in front of the little Nativity for a very long time.  Children shriek and gasp with joy, their parents guiding them absently past the ancient woman, discretely avoiding eye contact.

Vaguely, Tsarina Lunanoff is aware that their commercialized ornamentation is a tribute to North and his legacy, but having seen the glory of the North Pole, she cannot help but wistfully shake her head.  Cardboard chimneys and plastic wire sleighs… if only they could see the real thing.  The glistening domed towers, the shimmering globe, the deep oak pillars… there is simply no comparison.

And so it is she finds herself transfixed before the tiny stable, willing tears not to fall.  Here is another story about a mother whose child came from the heavens, a child who made the stars sing, but whose ultimate destiny was far from his mother’s arms.  And yet, the woman kneeling in the hay is nobler than she, for that mother had known the fate of her boy, and had accepted it graciously.  No Final Battle, no cannons and spears, this mother had understood that her boy was not hers, not truly.  He belonged to the world. 

So it is with Tsarina Lunanoff’s son, now grown and the first of the Guardians.  She is so proud of him, she is so proud of him!  But she cannot seem to shed the part of her that would take it all away in a second if she could, just to return to the time of hope and happiness that was once the Golden Age and have her little boy in her arms. 
Calling down some moonbeams to illuminate the display, she commands herself to smile, despite the sadness the scene brings her.  As the song goes, there is ‘Joy to the World.’  For the sake of the children of the Earth, she must be glad.

  • what she says: i'm fine
  • what she means: did Zuko ever meet that little boy from "Zuko Alone" again? that little gap-toothed troublemaker who treated Zuko like a brother? i know they parted on such bad terms when Zuko revealed his identity, and i really don't blame him because at that time Zuko was still kind of an asshole, but did they ever see each other after the war? did the little boy hear about how Zuko disowned his father and joined the Avatar? did he learn that Zuko was the one to fight Azula in that fateful battle? did Zuko visit an earth kingdom town one one of his royal trips and recognize him years later? did the little boy apologize for rejecting him? or did maybe he go to the fire nation to see if Zuko remembered him? did Zuko beg forgiveness for the crimes of the fire nation? did they make up? did they hug it out? did the little boy's brother survive the war? did he introduce him to Zuko? did Zuko insist on giving him the pearl dagger he tried to give him before he left? did the little boy accept it this time? did

   I can’t draw all my Shiro and Keith adopted brothers au out so I’m just putting some of my super self-indulgent headcanons/ ideas here. Also a reminder in case I do draw some of these out

  • When they were kids Keith got into space because Shiro read him his textbooks about piloting stuff™ like bedtime stories. Soon he starts collecting a hoard of any text related to space (like NASA newspaper clippings) under his bed
  • Shiro bullied Keith a lot growing up but was forgiven everytime by making Keith laugh. (He’d usually do thing where you pull the back of your shirt over your head to make yourself look like jay jay the jet plane)
  • They used to pretend to have gunbattles but stopped when they got too into it and Keith mcfreaking hit his head on a table trying to dodge
  • Shiro always buys Keith those freaky looking spongebob popsicles to cheer him up, even when Keith is a teenager
  • They both had the asain melon bowlcut ™ but only Shiro has photographic evidence
  • The first time Keith beat Shiro at mario kart he was 10 and Shiro cried
  • At the Garrison Keith didn’t like talking about how they lost their parents and if you tried asking Shiro the story changed everytime
  • Shiro’s “dad vibe” and skills come from practically raising Keith on his own and both of them secretly hate the fact that he’s more of a dad than a big brother now
  • Shiro keeps a huge photo album by his bed back at the Garrison that’s just full of pictures of Keith as a kid that he hopes to show off to to Keith’s husband one day (if not, then it’s just good blackmail material)
  • Shiro got the red jacket and fingerless gloves for Keith’s birthday because they “made him look like a pokemon ranger” and Keith shoves it into the back of his closet but starts wearing them daily when his brother goes missing
  • Keith got kicked out because he did what Pidge did and he punched the shit out of Iverson for lying about what happened to his bro 
  • The reason Shiro was staring blankly at the sun outside the shack in episode 1 was because in the year he was gone his little brother got kicked out of school, became a hobo, and started living in a shack in the desert and he was contemplating where he went wrong in his psuedo parenting
  • Keith tries to threaten his big bro by saying he’ll tell the other paladins what a bully he was to him as a kid and Shiro just laughs “They’ll never believe you.”
  • The other paladins just thought they were oddly close and don’t realize they’re brothers until one day Keith does something stupid again and Shiro’s yelling “Keith Kogane Shirogane, if you don’t knock that shit off-” and everyone’s like ??????? what??? and then the brothers are like “oh wait they don’t know oops”
  • The bros thrive off of teasing the other about their crushes. At the castle ship Shiro won’t stop pretending to swoon dramatically with a hand on his chest and say “I cradled you in my arms, Lance. We bonded!” when they have alone time and Keith slowly dies every time he brings it up.
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garrison trio is best trio imo

(i was gonna draw pidge dancing w/ everyone else but then i got tired so X_X churned out these haha)

some things i noticed during hamilton
  • king george does the turn off your cellphones announcement right before it starts and he says “enjoy MY show” lmfao
  • i was already tearing up during alexander hamilton rip
  • in the beginning laurens and hercules are v loud and usually drunk there are multiple instances of it in aaron burr, sir, the story of tonight, satisfied, and the story of tonight reprise and they always made the audience laugh
  • in my shot laurens turns to hamilton and says “you and i do or die” more privately and quietly to him alone and then turns back and continues  
  • peggy is actually reluctant in the schuyler sisters and tries to stop angelica before being quite literally dragged across the stage when she sings “and peggy”
  • when everyone exits in the story of tonight hamilton and laurens leave with their arms around each other :’)
  • in farmer refuted the squad is standing off to the side listening to samuel seabury and hercules and lafayette nudge and push hamilton forward while giggling to themselves until he finally challenges seabury
  • during you’ll be back king george jerks his shoulders up and down in time with his da da da das he looked absolutely ridiculous it was so funny
  • in helpless after hamilton gets eliza’s father’s blessing he looks to eliza and does this ridiculous little celebratory dance but then mr schuyler looks back over at him and he makes a show of composing himself
  • also in helpless washington was the one who helped hamilton get ready for the wedding and he fixed up his coat it was such a nice moment :’)
  • yo satisfied literally changed my fucking life ok bc obv renee is SO TALENTED WOW and bc the choreography was so cool man they did actually rewind everything somehow so it was the scene at the beginning of helpless im not entirely sure how they pulled it off tbh
  • in the story of tonight reprise the squad sways/thrusts their hips crudely while they tease hamilton for getting married it’s so fucking funny
  • wait for it is life changing. that is all
  • history has its eyes on you blew me away i love chris so much
  • yorktown is INSANE so many things are happening at once and the lights go crazy and the ensemble dance breakdown is just incredible
  • at the end of what comes next king george held out his hands expectantly then huffed and stomped off stage when no one started clapping immediately honestly all of his appearances were 10/10
  • oh my god dear theodosia was too much for me because it’s just burr and hamilton alone on stage singing tenderly to their newborn children
  • BUT THEN
  • eliza walks in and delivers the news about laurens’ death (it’s not in the soundtrack) and hamilton’s demeanor changes immediately and after about a minute of grim silence he says “i have so much work to do” and exits and during this entire thing laurens stands off to the side surrounded by blue light and quietly and sadly sings the beginning lines of the story of tonight i damn near started bawling y’all
  • in non stop burr and hamilton are at a trial and burr gets v exasperated as hamilton delivers the long winded opening statement and after burr says “that’s all you had to say” hamilton looks like he’s going to stop but then in a typical hamilton fashion he darts back to keep talking when he says “one more thing–”
  • i especially loved nonstop bc the blending of the different character harmonies being sung all at once is phenomenal and outstanding i was completely blown away
  • in what’d i miss jefferson was encouraging the crowd’s applause and cheers and cupped his hand by his ear and leaned forward to hype the crowd up and it made everyone go even crazier it was so great
  • after jefferson finishes his argument in cabinet battle #1 he drops the mic and madison’s hand is waiting underneath to catch it lmaooooo
  • eliza beatboxes during philip’s rap/poem in take a break and philip’s voice breaks really badly so it ended up sounding like “you can write rhymes but you can’t write MINE” and that’s why hamilton says “WHAT”
  • also hamilton declines the invitation to the schuyler vacation and angelica starts after him to talk some sense into him but eliza stops her and shakes her head and they leave arm in arm they don’t even KNOW
  • maria wore a red dress with red lipstick in say no to this and i got chills bc jasmine is so talented and i am very gay that’s all i have to say
  • ok i lied towards the end of say no to this maria to sits on hamilton’s lap and places one of his hands on her stomach and the other on her chest i was vvv side eye emoji
  • i also got chills during room where it happens and one last time and literally every song ngl i’m trash
  • jefferson literally sniffs hamilton and makes a disgusted face when he says hamilton “smells like new money” in cabinet battle #2
  • king george comes back in i know him as the others are exiting and he flinches away in disgust if any of them got close to him it’s hysterical and then he jumps around as he excitedly anticipates being able to see adams crash and burn as president
  • KING GEORGE ALSO GOT BURR TO BREAK CHARACTER!!! burr laughed as he sang the beginning of the adams administration because george was making exaggerated gestures from where he set up a stool on the end of the stage to watch adams’ disastrous presidency i feel so #blessed
  • oh my god and then when hamilton calls john adams a “FAT MOTHERF–” in his iconic drag he drops a stack of books off the balcony so the thud censors the rest of it as the red strobe lights flashed it’s so extra i love it
  • in we know jefferson’s “whaaaaat” is pure giddiness and he rushes over to snatch james reynolds’ letter out of burr’s hands to read for himself he’s such an asshole
  • hurricane is AWESOME ok it’s one of my faves the lights were dimmed and hamilton is alone on stage singing and then maria gives hamilton the quill i was like bro…… that’s some poetic shit………
  • lord the reynolds pamphlet was crazy everyone was moving around and making it rain and then king george came down the stairs and smugly pranced across the stage while hamilton is trying to plead with everyone that at least he was honest about the money
  • burn was so fucking sad and it didn’t help that eliza was on her knees for half of it just lay me to rest y’all
  • JESUS and then after philip’s death in stay alive reprise eliza wails mournfully as she sobs over his body it’s the saddest thing i’ve ever heard i felt like i was hit by a train
  • sjdfnskfnksfj nothing will ever prepare you for seeing it’s quiet uptown live it’s a beautifully sad number bc hamilton and eliza are standing center stage while people move in slow motion in dim blue light around them but eliza stares straight ahead while hamilton begs for forgiveness until she finally reaches for his arm and rests her head on his shoulder and says “it’s quiet uptown”
  • burr actually runs around grinning as he eavesdrops on all the peoples’ views of him and he even fist pumps a bit in the election of 1800
  • your obedient servant was so funny bc there was only one desk and burr wrote one letter to hamilton and after a dancer delivered it burr and hamilton switched places at the desk and hamilton handed off letter after letter to be delivered to burr and burr just looked so done
  • god the choreography in the world was wide enough was a++++ because burr fires the gun and a dancer shows the motion of the bullet by acting as if she was holding it and moved it closer to hamilton and then everything slows down as hamilton has his moment of reflection and he actually runs away when he notices how close the bullet is getting at one point but then he finally decides to accept his fate and doesn’t move as the bullet comes rushing towards him when time resumes normal speed
  • towards the end of who lives, who dies, who tells your story eliza and alexander face each other and hold hands but then hamilton steps back and eliza turns to the audience and at the veeeeery last moment she holds her hands out and gasps and smiles as if she sees him on the ~other side~ after decades of being apart and she’s ready to go be with him forever and then the lights cut to black and it ends i stood up immediately and clapped with goddamn tears in my eyes
  • TL;DR there are a lot of little quirks in hamilton that make it a wonderful live experience and basically however you imagine the show it’s 100000x better trust me

here goes my 3 hours of work compiling yoonseok moments from the beginning of time until current time (post fire/save me; 6/14/2016) because 1. i’m lowkey tired of people being like WHERE DID THIS SUDDEN YOONSEOK COME fROM, & 2. i just want more content (fanfics, vids, literally everything) and maybe this will inspire someone or help them ship the highkey best ship in bts yeah i said it fight me. (note these aren’t really in order from earliest to least or anything)

  • the ICONIC end of year chicken story (detailing yoongi calling to check up on hoseok who was bored/lonely because he was alone over the holiday at the dorm so yoongi fucking left his family and came back to the dorm with chicken to spend time with him; including the quotes “if i were a girl i would definitely have fallen for him” -hope)
  • during run bts when yoongi and hopie lost and got the food penalty, yoongi giving his food to hopie. i can’t eat if you’re not eating, so you eat it.– i’ll be full just seeing him full.
  • I have always been receiving energy from J-Hope. Being high-spirited is J-Hope’s biggest charm! In the future, please stay as high-spirited as now. 
  • Hobi’s number one supporter Yoongi.
  • this ENTIRE interview.
  • who else would yoongi do these [x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x, x] things with?
  • the way they get when they’re on stage. x, x, x, x, xx
  • not to mention that time hoseok moaned on stage during one of yoongi’s raps….
  • that time yoongi pointed at hope while rapping the lines yall know my voice will turn you on, whether it’s a guy or a girl my voice will send u to hong kong and hoseok just dropped to his knees and they made eye contact while doing it the whole time.
  • yoongi just kind of letting hoseok make him puppet dance all of the time.
  • yoongi’s habit of choosing hoseok first when randomly asked to pick a member for interviews and games.
  • yoongi picking hoseok first when asked by fans as well, at fansigns.
  • he went down so easily i’m crying.
  • THIS post and the valid points it brings up, not to mention the picture itself. why do we still not have an answer for this???
  • Q: what kind of presence does Yoongi have? H’s A: strongest.
  • Yoongi & Hoseok interacting during fan meets…(aka the death of me.)
  • The ,way, Hoseok, makes, Yoongi, laugh / smile !!!!!
  • their idea of april fools was to turn the entire twitter into a giant sobi/sope fest??? also this happened that day.
  • someone explain what happened here i’m still trying to figure it out. awkward prolonged eye contact then the look away and pretend nothing happened.
  • how naturally yoongi sat down in hopies lap when pulled. not to mention the aegyo he was asked to do that he said not to but couldn’t resist hobi afterwards.
  • yoongi saying fun boys was inspired by/for hoseok, “it was actually a beat made for j-hope.”
  • that time hobi had the task to get yoongi to speak japanese and everything about that whole day tbh. 
  • recently when hoseok felt the need to entertain the crowd as bts was leaving and yoongi (who was already leaving) turned his ass around to participate with hobi, including the arm around shoulders & acting lowkey silly. :’)
  • DURING THE EATJIN RECENtly when yoongi literally said and did nothing except eat and resting bitch/tired face unless hoseok was doing something, in which case he laughed/smiled, OR JUST stared shamelessly.
  • the time they went on the cute date
  • yoongi saying he can recognize hobi’s mood by the shape of his mouth
  • also yoongi & hoseok both being able to recognize each other by the sound of their sighs
  • their selfies :’)
  • yoongi giving them the name SOBI/SOPE and then proceeding to tag fucking everything they every did/do together with it, as well as just randomly calling them that or bring it up every chance he can get tbh.
  • this tweet 
  • whenever I’m sad, I gain strength from looking at you -yoongi abt/to hoseok
  • THIS very accurate post
  • the bungee jumping run where yoongi lost his chill because hope was going to jump and he was excited/worried/proud out of his mind.
  • exactly what was yoongi going to do here exactly??? for that matter, this whole bomb was LOWkey yoonseok, with yoongi giggling at him, smiling, and supporting hoseok while he pretended to do those stupid handstands omg
  • when hoseok was nervous because of the rides and yoongi kept sticking close to his side and was reassuring him/saying nice things.
  • i’m still crying
  • remember when they held hands during this photoshoot?
  • when asked which other member made the biggest/most impression for each member when they first met– hoseok answered yoongi, and yoongi answered hoseok.
  • yoongi slapping hoseok’s ass on the recent 3rd year birthday thing :’)
  • everything that happened between yoonseok during the bts festa photoshoot with the stupid orange jumpsuits (some things that happened were: yoongi lowkey joking that he and hoseok should go out together to a fancy restaurant dressed like that, nicknames, yoongi letting down his guard and acting very silly with hoseok, picking each other up [at least yoongi trying :’))))] laughter and smiles eVERywhere)
  • hoseok gave yoongi a fish for his birthday because it’s a pun…
  • saying he thought he & hopies part was the best recently when asked literally the most general question of: what’s (so) special (about the “special” show they were doing)
  • the ICONIC hwagae market address.
  • the fact that in the recent festa interview for the ‘relationship’ portion of the member questions, yoongi put SOPE and Hwagae market in the box i’m weeping like i’m actually crying !!
  • yoongi’s face during this…
  • he’s very cheerful and positive. he gives others a lot of strength and energy. -yoongi abt hopie
  • although yoongi seems insensitive, he’s the first one to look out for the members. he actually really cares about the members. -hopie about yoongi.
  • “oh my god” aegyo :’)
  • THEY SANG TOGethER !!!!!!
  • fanacc: suga choose your favorite dongsaeng. suga: chooses jhope. when asked why he said, because Hoseokie is nice.

Did anyone else notice the way McCoy’s hands were shaking when he was climbing out of the ship after it had crash landed. It’s only there for like a second before he pulls himself out, but it’s there.

This is the man who is afraid of dying in something that flies. He’s flown this alien craft and has actually survived to see land again. But there’s no way he’s doing all right. Cause like, this here, these things that are happening, are like his worst nightmares coming true. 

Then Spock pulls himself out of the ship, with a piece of pipe in his side, and McCoy stops trembling. 

Instead of falling apart though, which realistically he could and might have, he pulls himself together because he’s a doctor and there’s someone that needs his help. I feel like this just sums up Bones’ character perfectly. All the shit he puts up with, and let’s be real there’s a lot of shit, he puts up with because he couldn’t stand to think of any of his friends getting hurt or dying when he knows damn well he can put them back together.

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how to be a very cute little duckling as performed by kim namjoon

  • what she says: im fine
  • what she means: scorpius and rose being together is the biggest load of heteronormative bullshit i have ever seen in all my years on this God forsaken planet and i will not stand for it. its so clear in the beginning that rose cares for no one but herself, and especially dislikes scorpius - scorpius, who imagined albus when surrounded by dementors trying to get him back. scorpius, who was heartbroken when albus said they couldn't hang out anymore. scorpius, whose only friend was albus and felt a pang of jealousy when watching him talk to a girl he had just met. the very thought that scorpius had a crush on rose, even after her mistreatment, is outrageous and the fact that she actually said yes to him is ridiculous

The older I get the more I sympathise with Draco Malfoy. His two best friends were barely intelligent enough to hold a conversation and his father - his role model - was cold, prejudiced and cruel. As a result, he was incredibly isolated. He watched as Harry Potter - who he had intended to befriend - made other friends, constantly saved the wizarding world, became generally happy and was crowned a hero. In the meantime, he lived in constant fear of disappointing his father and the house he was so proud of, and he tried to prove himself but continually went unnoticed. He sunk further and further into seclusion until he felt he had no-one to confide in, was placed under immense pressure to perform immoral actions and saw the horrors of the death-eaters first hand. He made mistakes, and for a while carried his father’s prejudices with him, but honestly he isn’t given enough credit for making it out of that dark place to become a loving husband, excellent father and generally good man - far from the school bully he is portrayed as.