~Request: I’ve been going through a lot lately and I was wondering if u could write an imagine for me based off the song Roots and Branches by This Wild Life? Where y/n is depressed bc she feels alone and worthless but then Alex (atl) comes along somehow and becomes a huge part of her life and her best friend. Then they get in a fight one day over something and the next day he apologizes and accidentally let’s it slip that he loves her? Sry if it’s too much u don’t have to~
~I changed it up a little bit because if it was an over time thing it would be a very very long imagine. Hope thats ok. Warning: Mentions of depression~
You sat in your livingroom and looked at your feet. This is what you do most days as of recent. Just sit around and think. Youve been going through such a rough time, and sometimes you felt like giving up but you knew what kept you from doing so. Your best friend in the whole world, Alex Gaskarth. Yes Im talking about gorgeous lead singer of All Time Low. You guys met your senior year of highschool. You have been inseperable since, well apart from him off touring all the time, but even then you always text/talk/skype. Sometimes you miss him more than anything, especially in these times.
You always tried to distract yourself from your thoughts. They were the scariest thing to you. You always felt like shit and just together wished you could make yourself better. You wanted to be a better best friend for Alex, a better friend for the whole band, a better everything. Youve always felt this way, and Alex knew you put yourself down, but never knew the truth.
You stood up and walked through your silent house to the kitchen. You opened the fridge and looked through the pantry, but nothing really interested your appetite. You huffed and sat down, reaching for the remote. Suddenly, the door slammed open and a tall figure walked in. “HAY!” He yelled really loud as he walked in. You kinda just stared in surprise for a moment when a big smile grew on your face, and like that the feeling of lonliness was gone. “ALEX!” You yelled back and got up to hug him. He picked you up and spun you around. When he put you down you looked up at him “What are you doing here?? Tour doesnt end for another month!” He smiled down at you. “We get a break day, and were not too far so I decided to drive over. Maybe we can go out and do something tonight!” He sounded like an excited little kid. Usually when a friend asked you to go do something you made an exuse to stay home, even though you wished to go out. With Alex, though, you could never turn him down, so you agreed.
You guys were out at a party. You werent much for parties but it was nice to get out and catch up with friends. It was you, Alex, Rian, Jack, Jeff, and Vinny. Most everyone was drinking and dancing. Jack was off probably hooking up with someone. You kinda just sat in the corner and sipped on a soda. You werent a big drinker, at least when it came to parties where there were plenty of strangers. You kept trying to talk with Alex, but he left you early on and was getting wasted and dancing. You waited about 2 hours before he finally walked over to you, his slurs obviously showing how drunk he was. “Heey why arent you having fun? And why arent you all dressed up like the-hic-other girls heere?” You grumbled a bit “You know I dont like parties so why dress up for one?” He laughed a bit “Y/N I know you dont like showing off but why be such a prude?” Ouch. Rude. You knew Alex didnt completely mean it because of the alcohol, but you were offended none the less. “Well Im sorry Im only here because I wanted to hang out with my best friends but youre all off doing your own shit and I am left alone again!” You began to raise your voice. “And Im sorry Im not in a tiny dress like everyone else” Alex looked down at your tank top and ripped skinny jeans, and his eyes lingered on your chest for a moment. It was obvious where he was looking so you pushed him away. “You know what Im done. You can go have fun, but youll have to find your own ride home” You glared and stormed out of the house. You got into your car (you drove everyone here) and drove on home
You cried all night. You knew Alex didnt mean to call you a prude, but you were alone. Again you were by yourself. It always ended like this. Your friends all went off to do something else and you were left behind. You were always seemingly the third wheel, the one who was kinda just there. You were sick of it. Alex was usually good with including you and making sure you were having fun, but not this time. You understood he needed his time to get wasted and have fun without you, but he had months upon months of tour and break days during the tour to do whatever he wanted, and the one time he comes to visit you during tour, he brings you to a shitty party and leaves you by yourself with a soda and some weird guy asking for your number a couple times. “Maybe I should stop trying” You said to yourself through tears. “Am I meant to be alone?” You quietly asked yourself and curled up in your bed, crying until you fell asleep.
The next morning, you grumbled and checked your phone. You had four messages that were sent at maybe 4 in the morning (it was 9 now)
“Y/N where are you? Im still at the house”
“Where the fuck is the car??”
“Oh no I can remember last night. Im so sorry”
“Answer me please”
And after those messages, he called a couple times. You sighed and got up to take a shower. When you finished you dressed in a large tshirt and panties. You didnt have to work today so you just went back to your bed and sat down, pulling your legs to your chest and looking at your green and black socks. A few minutes later you heard the door open and footsteps running through the house and up the stairs (Alex usually went into your house without knocking). He ran into your room “Y/N I swear I didnt mean what I said… Oh my god” He blushed a bit seeing you didnt have pants on, but neither of you really cared. He saw your face was stained with tears. “I-I didnt mean to make you cry” He sat down on the side of your bed and went to grab your hand but you pulled it away. “Its not that Alex” You looked at him and layed down. “Im just sick of being left alone. It always happens.. Is it me? Is it my fault? Do I need to be a better person so I can keep people around? Ive felt like this since we were kids. I could never keep people around and its always my fault!” You started to cry again and curled up in a ball. Alex sighed and picked you up so you were sitting again. “Y/N that is not tru-” You interrupted, raising your voice like you did last night, even if it was hoarse from crying. “Shut up. You dont know what its like to feel constantly by yourself and constantly like shit. I know you are self concious but Ive hated myself for so long… And recently its been getting worse. Alex I went to a doctor and was diagnosed with depression. I have meds but so far they dont seem to work, and I know they wont.. I just need someone to stick around..” You looked up at him. You both sat there and looked at eachother for a few seconds. Without warning, Alex grabbed you and wrapped you in what was probably the tightest hug youve ever felt. “Come with me” He said into your shoulder. You pulled away and looked at him to see his face was bright red and he looked completely serious, which wasnt a normal look for him. He could see the confusion on your face. He sighed “Come with me on tour. Youll never be alone on the bus. Whenever I can Ill take you with me. Youll never be alone with me! I promise Ill make you the happiest girl in the world Y/N I cant let you feel like this I just cant I love you too mu-…” He trailed off and looked at his hands, then continued “I- Im sorry I.. I didnt mean that well.. I did… but will you come with me? We can forget I said that if you want. You dont have to be my girlfriend if you come or anything I just wan-” You climbed onto his lap and hugged him tight. His eyes widened and after a moment, he hugged you back. “Ill come with you Alex… and Ill also be your girlfriend if you really want” You laughed a bit into his shoulder. When you said that you could feel his grip tighten a bit. He pulled away and pressed his forehead against yours. “Well Matt is already mad at me for staying longer than I was supposed to, so lets pack up your shit” You both kinda laughed and without warning he kissed you. You were surprised at first but it was probably the best feeling you have ever felt, and you knew this was the start of something amazing
~I hope this was ok. Hope you liked it~