i-hate-pain

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
—  Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones
I feel everything so deeply. Every strong emotion brings me pain. I hate so much it hurts, I love so strongly it hurts even more, I am so sad I can literally feel the pain in my bones. I don’t want to feel this pain shuttering me to the core but at the same time it is so satisfying, so awakening. I feel alive, like a Phoenix who has gone through the rebirth. I am addicted to it.
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“They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should just be friends’, turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.”

~ Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol 9: The Kindly Ones

anonymous asked:

Are the school squips going to the same school as their Jeremy's , Michaels, Christine's,etc??? If so, how do you think that would play out??

[NS]: We don’t really have much of a choice. It is the only school where there are others who we are familiar with.

[J]: This,,, this cannot go well

[MS]: I hate pain…

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BTS reacting to you being on your period

Jin:

 Jin would understand that you didn’t really feel well and just wanted to curl up in a ball. He would wrap you in nice warm blankets, make you some hot coco, and watch movies with you. “I hope your cramps go away, sweetie… I hate seeing you in pain." 

Originally posted by jinful


 Yoongi: 

Yoongi would feel pretty bad when you got it. He would make sure you had all the pads/tampons you needed, he would buy chocolate and bananas for you as well so your cramps wouldn’t be as bad. "These are supposed to help right? And naps help, too? So let’s just nap together." 

Originally posted by kpoop


 Hobi:

 He would try his best to make you feel better. Hobi hated when you didn’t have a smile on your face. He would rub your lower stomach area gently and hum to you nicely. He would be kinda scared of making you mad, as well. He would try to get you little gifts to make you smile. "I got you another stuffed animal for your collection!" 

Originally posted by jhope-shi


 Namjoon:

 He would make sure you rested all you possibly could. Namjoon would read you stories and try to help you keep your mind off of the cramps. He would even google how to make your cramps go away and how to make you feel better. "I’m looking at ways to help you feel better, don’t worry, baby girl.”

Originally posted by myloveseokjin


 Jimin:

 Jimin would treat you like a princess while you were on your period. He would get every little thing you asked for, cuddle you, play with your hair, and buy you extra pads/tampons if you needed them. He would even take off practice to be with you. "I know you feel really bad, so I took of practice. I need to be there for my princess." 

Originally posted by prkjimi


 Tae:

 Tae would feel really really terrible if your period made you feel awful. He would make you some nice tea, and he would always offer to do things for you. He would run you a warm bath to relax in and light some calming candles. "Just relax, jagi. Let everything else melt away~.”

Originally posted by taesies


 Jungkook:

 He would be kinda embarrassed to bring up the subject, but after the first time, it wouldn’t be as big of a deal. Jungkook would try to make you smile and let you know that he’s there for you. He would rub your back gently and he would kiss you softly. “Does it hurt? Can I help make it better, baby?”

Originally posted by nevermindmyg

“Why do you always have to be so stubborn?” The antagonist gave a long suffering sigh, soft and pitying. “I take no pleasure in breaking you, you know.” They wiped the tears from the protagonist’s cheek. “I hate seeing you in pain.”

“Then stop causing me pain.” It came raspy.

  • Me, learning a language on Duolingo: This is USELESS, I hate this, I am NEVER going to talk about this in my life, WHY don't I just study with a textbook and learn MEANINGFUL things
  • Me, learning a language that isn't on Duolingo: This is PAINFUL, I hate this, I am NEVER going to become fluent in this, WHY can't I just use Duolingo and learn QUICKLY
Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love.
—  Neil Gaiman
BTS Reaction - Their S/O Having a Sensitive Core

2k words | Reaction | Fluff [☁]

Request: “Hi can you make BTS reaction finds out his gf has sensitive core, even she wont do piggyback because she feel ticklish? Thanks! ”

A/N: So I saw this request on @sevenpabosandabunchoffans‘s account, when they said they couldn’t write it, which is by the way totally understandable. Some prompts are extremely hard to write for in general, however I have a super sensitive core to the point where if someone tries tickling me, it will just hurt and I’ll start crying begging them to stop, but they think it’s just me laughing and etc, so I felt I would be able to write for this prompt! Anon, if you’re still out there looking for this reaction, I hope you find this and enjoy it! Thanks to @sevenpabosandabunchoffans for allowing me to write for this prompt! Also, I apologize for the lack of content… I promise I will post more!

Requests are open, and I hope you enjoy!~

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made the mistake of watching this again and GOD. im forever gonna be bitter over this show i think because this is honestly one of the most romantic scenes in anime. 

reina showing up to the date dressed up all fancy and hiking a mountain in friggen heels to impress. ya girl kumiko hauling her heavy as hell euphonium up a mountain for reina when she had previously declined to even carry it to the riverbank for practice. “but i don’t hate pain” “what? thats kind of hot.” frank discussion of the incident that has been plaguing their relationship since episode 1. “it’s a confession of love.” “it makes me want to peel that good girl skin off of you.” bonding over wanting to be special and stand out from the crowd. The fucking intense moment when Reina cuts off her “kousaka-san” and quietly but firmly orders her to use her first name with no honorific. the worshipful way Kumiko whispers “…Reina.” “At that moment, i felt like i wouldn’t mind losing my life.” The Lip Touch. the ending duet.

Like at least we’ll always have this and the other later confession scene, but i can never forgive this show for giving us such a good and intense relationship and then dancing back away from it to say they’re just Gal Pals. 

BTS reaction of seeing their gf in strong pain

anon: hiiii I love your tumblr, can you make a reaction of them if their girlfriend has an appendicits pain during a date or something and needs to run to the hospital (sorry for my bad English)            

Thank you sweetheart! *-* Enjoy your request^^ And your english is fine tbh :D I only change that they see you in pain generally because I don’t know what is appendicits pain even in my lanuguage when I translated it. SORRY!

Jin

Originally posted by jhopies

He would be scared. For few minutes he didn’t know what to do but then he take you to his car and drive really fast because he was afraid that this can be something serious. When driving he would talking to you thinking that maybe you will feel better thanks to his words.

“We’re really close to hospital, Y/N. Just few seconds. Please bear it one more moment”

Yoongi

Originally posted by yoonggi

The one that will keep calmness even if he is so freakin scared in his heart. He would ask you quickly what you need and when you said “Take me to the hospitaj idiot!” he knew that is serious because you never becall him and then he really started to be worried. Yoongi called for amublance and go in it with you. He was all time with you.

“Be calm babe. You’ll be fine. They’ll help you. I promise.”

Hoseok

Originally posted by mobpsycho100

At first he thought that you want to prank him but when you started to yelling and crying, he had a heart attack. He started to runnig and looking for help. When you was in hospital, he can’t stay still and waited for doctor to take some informations about your health state. At home he would still checking if you are fine.

“Oh gosh. I’ve never be that scared before. I’m glad that you’re fine now Y/N. I don’t want you to feel like that again”

Namjoon

Originally posted by yoongijae

He knew what to do. Take you to the nearest hospital and just wait for results of your health tests. He would be calm but still worried that something can happened to you and that you’ll have to stay in hospital longer. Namjoon would search how to help you and how to not allow to next suffering. He would softly kiss you when everything will end.

“I’ll help you to hold back your pain next time. I’ll never let you go suffer again”

 Jimin

Originally posted by jikookxkookmin

Chim would be worried. In hospital they gave you only some pain killers and he was slightly pissed because you were really suffering. At home he won’t leave you, provide for you everything what you needed. Jimin thought that this what they gave you in hospital won’t be enough - he wanted to be with you if pain will eventually back but he pray that it won’t back.

“You don’t need to worry about anything today. Just leave everything to me, you need to take rest” showing when you just stand up from bed like in gif ><

Taehyung 

Originally posted by cmtae

He would panic when he saw you in pain even if he wouldn’t know what is happening with you. When you told him with your roupy voice that you need to go to hospital (beacause its not a first time that you feel like this), he would panic more. At hospital he’ll follow your doctor around to know if you are still alive irritating everyone. He was so desperate to see you and assure that you are fine. When he saw you, he hug you and don’t want to leave you.

“You can’t die because of this right? Please don’t do this again.”

Jungkook

Originally posted by shishikookie

Maknae propably wouldn’t know what to do. Quickly call to Rap Monnie, telling him all your symptoms. He just told Jungkook that specialist must see you.He was so panicekd that he can’t keep a level head and instead of taking a car, he took you in his arms and run to hospital. After spending two hours in hospital, you two back to home and sit on the sofa , chilling out after hard day. He would sing for you, waiting to you fall asleep. He spend all night looking at you and recalling everything.

“I hate seeing you in pain. I want take all of pain from you and handle it oneself”

Drinking Disaster-Calum Hood

A/n: Hi guys! I just want to say thank you for all the support I’ve been receiving. I know the topic of this imagine is a bit touchy and may be hard for some readers. But as someone who has experienced something similar to this, it makes me feel better if I write about it.

Warning: Drinking, Swearing, Sexual Assault, Fighting.

Summary: (Y/n) goes to a party with the guys. It was supposed to be a fun night for all involved, but when a guy can’t keep his hands off of (y/n) her best friend Calum comes to save the day. 

Originally posted by jiminvy

As we pulled up to the party my senses were instantly filled with the smell of beer and the loud thumping of music. I’m not usually one for parties, but the guys were going with me, so I knew I’d have a good time. Looking out the window, I see tons of people already. Most of the females I see are wearing short, tight dresses, instantly making me feel self-conscious. It’s not that I’m not confident with my looks, I just felt a bit out of place because I’m wearing skinny jeans and a t-shirt.

“Hey Mikey, you gunna be my wing-man tonight” Ashton questions.

“Sorry Ash, but you’re on your own. You aren’t the only one trying to talk to girls” Mikey jokes. I look over to Calum who just rolls his eyes at his friend’s antics. Thankfully Calum and I are very similar, and aren’t too big on parties so I know he will stay by me most of the night.

As we got out of the car, I could tell Mikey already found a girl he wanted to talk to. We all laugh as we watch him try to be cool while walking over to a girl only to slightly stumble.

“Come on guys let’s leave Mikey alone” I warned. “Hey Cal wanna go get some drinks?”

“Yeah sure, Luke or Ash, you guys want anything?”

“Nah man, I’m good” Luke responds.

“Same, I’m good” Ashton chimed in.

Cal and I walked into the house to find where the drinks were being served. On our way we would stop to say hi to some people I barely knew, so I typically just let Calum do all the talking. This is how my life was, always being side by side with Calum, my best friend. However, I didn’t want him to just be my best friend, I wanted more, but I could never tell him.

I wasn’t paying much attention to the conversation Calum was having now and I just wanted to find a drink. I look around and finally see the area where drinks are being served and I excuse myself from Calum and the people he was talking to.

As I sift through the large cooler I finally decide on just having a water. I’m not usually too big on drinking anyways, especially because I feel like I always need to babysit the boys once they’ve had a few too many.

“Hey there, what’s a gorgeous thing like you doing alone at a party” a man asks me.

“Well I came with friends, I just left them so I could get a drink” I say making small talk.

“Man, if I came with you, I wouldn’t let you out of my sight” he says flirtatiously. “The name’s Troy, and yours?”

“I’m (Y/n)” I say with a smile as I shake his hand. I could tell Troy had already had a couple of drinks as some of his words were a bit slurred. But nonetheless he was pretty cute so I didn’t mind talking to him.

“So where are you from?” he asks. He takes a couple steps closer to me, probably so that he could hear me better over the extremely loud music.

“I currently live in LA, but I am originally from a small suburb of Chicago. Yourself?”

Before he answers me, Troy digs through the cooler and pulls out two of the cheapest beers he can find. He goes to offer me one, but I politely turn it down causing him to shrug. Instead of just putting it back in the cooler he sets it next to me as he opens his bottle.

“I’m from San Francisco, but I’m staying in LA for the weekend.” As he talks he continues to move closer to me, leaving little space between us. However, since Calum isn’t around, I suppose flirting a little bit wouldn’t hurt. I mean I don’t even know if Calum likes me anyways, so I’m sure he wouldn’t mind. I go to take a drink of my water, only to realize I have already finished it off. I give off a small huff as I decide to say screw it, one beer won’t hurt. I go and grab the bottle of beer and pop the cap off to take a drink. Troy smiles in victory when he sees that I take a drink.

“So do you have a boyfriend” he asks smoothly.

“No, no boyfriend. I’m completely and epically single” I joke.

“Thank god” he sighs. “Usually the hot ones are always taken and I don’t find out that they have a boyfriend until I’ve already talked to them for a while. Although, I mean, if they are up for it, then I don’t mind.” The boy begins laughing as if he has told the funniest joke on earth as I just stand their awkwardly. Alright, maybe he isn’t as great as he first seemed.

“Well I should go find my friends, they’re probably wondering where I’ve been” I say quickly.

“Wait now” he says as he grabs my arm. I stop in place the moment I feel his touch. An uneasy feeling flows through my stomach as the grip on my arm tightens. “Now why would you leave when we are having such a good time” he asks harshly.

“Sorry Troy. I didn’t mean to be rude.”

His hand releases my arm and instead he moves his arm so that it snakes around my waist. A soft smile lands on his lips as I do nothing to push him away.

“Why don’t we go up-stairs” he asks. Before I even have a chance to say anything I feel him guiding him towards the stairway. I look through the crowds of people hoping to find Calum or any of the boys, but have no luck. With every step up I take, I feel my body shaking in worry. Troy walks me into an empty room and closes the door.

Without having a chance to move, Troy roughly presses his lips to my neck. I stand there frozen with little idea of what I should do. His hands begin roaming my body, to places I have never let anyone explore.

“I really should get going” I say lightly as I try to push past him. In response he roughly grabs my shoulders and pushes me back so that I cannot go through the door. Tears begin welling up in my eyes as I know damn well Troy is much stronger than me. Once again, his lips find my neck and his hands reach the hem of my t-shirt.

“Please don’t do this” I mumble.

Tears begin flowing down my face as I feel him placing his hands under my shirt. All of my mobility has been officially shut off as I feel stuck to the ground. I pray that Calum or one of the guys would come and find me before Troy can do anything further. But instead I feel a rough shove, as Troy gets my body to the bed.

The blankets felt scratchy to my skin, but it was nothing compared to his hard touches. His hands now found the band of my pants as he fumbles trying to unbutton them. After struggling for a few moments, he finally is able to pull my pants down to my knees. He plays with the band of my underwear and all I can do is lay there.

“Please.” I’m sure it was inaudible for him, but it was all that would come out of my mouth. As I lay there, my consciousness begins to fade, as I just want this moment to go away. However, I’m brought back to reality when I heard a loud yell and a hard smack.

“Get the fuck off of her, and don’t you ever fucking touch her again.” I easily recognized the voice. Calum.

The room grew loud with yells coming from Troy as Calum continuously connected his fists with my attacker’s face. It took me a second to regain myself, but once I was finally able to move I tried pulling Calum off from Troy’s limp body.

“Calum, please stop. Let’s just go” I yell through tears and his loud grunts while he lands a few more punches in. I grab his face in my hands and look him in the eyes “Calum please.” Once he sees the fear in my eyes he gets up from the ground and wraps his arm protectively around me. We didn’t bother finding the other guys before leaving and decided to just walk back to my apartment because it was the closest to the party.

Once we got to my place, I gently guide Calum over to the couch while I go to grab a cloth to wash the blood off from his hands. His eyes are red and puffy from him violently crying, matching that of my face. The room is silent as I clean off his knuckles, which causes him to wince every now and then from pain. Once he was all cleaned up we sat there for what felt like forever.

“Thank you” I say ever so softly.

“I’m so sorry” is how he responds.

“Cal, it’s not your fault. But thank you for getting to me before he could do anything else. You are my hero.” I gave off a weak smile, but his face stayed blank.

“I should have never let you wander off alone. God (y/n) if anything ever happened to you I could never forgive myself. I’m just so sorry it took me so long to get to you.” While he speaks, tears begin streaming down his face. I hate seeing him in pain, for something that is clearly not his fault and so I take my thumb to wipe away some of his tears.

“Cal, please, it’s alright. I’m alright, and it’s all because of you.”

“I love you.” It was soft but I still heard him say it.

“I love you too Calum.”

“I’m in love with you” he clarifies. I feel my heart skip a beat as this is what I have been waiting for my whole life. “You are my whole world, and I don’t know what I would do without you. That’s why I can’t forgive myself. It’s not just that I didn’t get to you sooner, but because I didn’t tell you how I felt sooner.”

Before Calum can say anything else I gently place my lips to his to show him that I feel the same. He was my best friend, someone I have loved for a long time, but I never got to show him just how much I loved him until now.

“Calum Thomas Hood, I love you” I say with a smile. He tucks a loose strand of hair behind my ear and softly smiles for the first time since the disaster that occurred earlier. Although I was still greatly upset from the previous events that occurred. I was safe and it was all because of Calum.

Dear Diary...

Dean x Reader 

A/N: This was supposed to be a drabble, but suddenly I had written more than 1600 words, so one-shot it is. It’s mostly just fluff. I don’t know what’s happened to me lately. I just want poor Dean to be happy, I guess.

Prompt: “Dear Diary,…” requested by @skymoonandstardust

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“Hey, where’s your stuff to wash?”

“Uh… should be there on the bed,” Sam replied distractedly, eyes focused on his laptop. “Looks like there might not be a case after all…”

“You sure?”

“Pretty sure, yeah.”

Dean was dumping dirty clothes into a duffel bag as he replied, “Well, keep looking. We need a little more than pretty sure before we ditch town.” The shower in the bathroom was turned off just when he picked up a blue shirt from the bed and eyed it, lips pursing. “This looks clean,” he muttered, bringing it close to his nose. “And I was wrong,”-  he announced to no one, a disgusted nod to himself followed, “Lesson learned. Nothing’s clean here.” With this he grabbed every piece of clothing he could get eyes on and threw it into the bag. 

When his hands touched something solid, though, he stopped. “The hell is this?”

Sam who was currently rubbing his eyes, asked a “What?” And his brother just looked at him incredulously, some sort of notebook in his hands.

“A secret diary, Sam? Really? I thought you got over this phase.”

Sam’s bitch face showed up. It hadn’t in more than three hours. Record. “That’s not mine.”

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Title: Kisses

Warnings: None

Request: Hi! I was wondering (if I make the time stamp and you are willing) if you could write a Zach Werenski(CBJ) oneshot? Preferably with something to do with his facial injury? Thank you :)

Author’s Note: There were so many stories written about Zach’s facial injury when it initially happened. They were so good so I was really wary about writing this since I didn’t really have a fresh perspective to add. Now that some time has passed, I think it turned out alright. Let me know what you think!

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You rolled over, smiling as you watched Zach sleep peacefully beside you. You studied his face, your heart grateful when your eyes skimmed over the scar under his right eye. Reaching out, your fingertips traced the scar softly; the coarse scar tissue a contrast against the soft skin of his cheek.

Zach’s eyes fluttered open slowly as he took a deep breath. “What are you doing?” he mumbled softly, his warm eyes settling on yours.

“Looking at you.” you replied.

“When did you become such a creep?” he smiled, lifting his arm above his head, stretching. He yawned your eyes falling back to the dark strip of skin.

Your mind raced, thinking about how badly the injury could have ended up. He could have lost his ability to play hockey; he could have lost his sight. Every time you spent more than second staring at that scar you were taken back to the night it happened; constantly reliving the anxiety of seeing him take a puck to the face, the fear of watching him take the ice almost immediately after. Your eyes brimmed with tears, thankful that he was okay.

“Babe, what is it?” he asked, bringing his arm down and wrapping it around your waist, his fingers trailing lightly up and down your spine.

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