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Things I have learned with 16 years old
  1. You’ll not always feel beautiful, even when you put a bunch of makeup products on your face, but if you just smile, you’ll feel better and beautiful. Everyone has bad days, just don’t make those bad days into bad months or years. 
  2. Love your family. Appreciate them. Take photos with your mom if she asks you to; talk about football or old road trips that your dad had when he was your age; play games with your brother, it really makes him happy. They’ll always be there for you. Don’t you forget that.
  3. Love your dogs or any animal actually. When you feel sad, play with them. Cuddle with them. They have this power to make you feel better and happier, plus they’ll feel happier too. Believe me.
  4. Read books. A bunch of books! Write down the quotes you don’t want to forget and remember them when you need it to. Books will always make you feel relaxed, better and feel like you belong in the story. After all, that girl or that boy in the book seems exactly like you, right? 
  5. Write. Write. Write. I don’t think I need to explain this one.
  6. Be kind. Be kind to everyone. You don’t need to have to like everyone or even pretend you do like them but just be nice. Sometimes people go through out bad moments and I know that’s no excuse for them to be mean but sometimes a simple smile can make them feel better and realize they’re being stupid. Sometimes they’re just jealous too, in that case give them your bigger and most happier smile ever. 
  7. But don’t be too kind. I mean, sometimes people just want to take advantage of your good heart so don’t let them think they can do whatever they want with you. No is a strong word, use it when you need it. You’re strong and powerful, let them understand that. Don’t let people fool you.
  8. You are unique. You are you. You do you. Stop comparing yourself with others. You are beautiful and amazing and everything good in this world. Don’t let go what makes you special. Your weird details are the most beautiful thing everyone is lucky enough to see.
  9. If you need to change, change for yourself. Don’t change because someone said something about you and you feel you need to change it. Change because is something you want and it will make you feel happy. Sometimes a good change it’s all you need.
  10. You’ll have moments you will feel tired, stressed out and in the urge to cry and when those moments happen, take time to cry and to realize that you need time to relax. Take time to yourself. I know that, that important paper you have to deliver the next day or that exam you’ll have it’s super important but your health is even more. Take a nap and realize that although everything seems like it’s falling apart, everything will be fine. Don’t give up lil nugget. 
  11. You are young. Please don’t waste the only time you have in this world, on your body feeling like you could do more. Go after your dreams and conquer them. 
  12. Study harder. Study your ass off. Work harder. Work your ass off. Everything will pay off.
  13. Appreciate your friends. They are like a small part of you. They’ll always make your grey, winter day feel like colorful, spring days.
  14. Laugh. Seriously, it’s proved that laugh can make you aged slowly and makes you feel super good about yourself. Makes you feel happy. It doesn’t matter if you have a weird laugh or a super loud laugh, just laugh till your stomach hurts.
  15. Wear whatever you want. Paint your nails whatever color you want. Cut your hair whatever hairstyle you want. Put makeup on if you want to. Do whatever you want that makes you happy.
  16. Don’t put your happiness on someone else hands. You are the only one who you can trust your own happiness. 
  17. Future will bring you new and challenging things and I know you scared but try not to think about it now. Live in the present. Live in the moment. That’s what truly matters right now.
  18. Eat yummy and healthy foods. Drink a lot of water, like really a lot! Do exercise but don’t feel like you need to do it like an obligation. Do all this things because it will make you feel better and more energized. If you feel like eating a box of chocolates or coca-cola, please go for it!!! Don’t feel bad about it, babe.
  19. Watch a bunch of movies (horror, romantic, comedy, etc) or tv series and relax in your bed eating popcorn’s because it’s one of the things that can make you appreciate life. And I mean it.
  20. Listen to music. A lot of music. Find new bands and singers. That feeling of finding new musics is super grateful and amazing.
  21. Appreciate life. Appreciate everything. You may not have much (and if you have, lucky you!) and the sun might not wanted to bright as much as the other days but that’s doesn’t mean that life is not beautiful, because it is and you’re important. 
  22. Everything at some point will make sense, believe me.

Nemesis finally shed and I can take photos of her again.
Prior to this, she had not shed in over six months and looked like a grey slug-monster and I was genuinely embarrassed to post photos because anyone who saw her would immediately assume this was a neglected, abused, filth-encrusted animal.

I tried to use ZooMed Excavator clay substrate in her enclosure to make a platform for her water dish so that she’d quit shoveling substrate into it, which turned out to be a horrible idea. I packed it carefully and let it dry thoroughly, thinking it would be sturdy enough to dissuade a pokey hognose snoot. Within 24 hours she broke up the dry clay, scratched up all of her face scales in the process, dug underneath the water dish and flipped it, wetted the clay with water and poo, pushed a cardboard tube into the wetness and tore it up a bit to make a paper-mache/clay/poo sludge, and then flopped around in it and let it dry overnight into a foul layer of adobe armor that even moderate soaking and gentle scrubbing with a soft toothbrush would not dislodge. She was happy as a hog in mud and being a dollface and eating like a champ, so I let her be gross-looking rather than stress her or risk a resp infection from overfrequent soaking or jacking up her humidity to soften the filth-crust. She’s been gross-looking for the better part of the last year.

She’s my sweetest, most snuggly and friendly hognose and the best eater and the prettiest girl and I’m SO SO SO glad that she finally shed and looks like a pretty snek again and not like a sandworm from the 80′s Dune movie.

Gas Sigils

I was checking the photos on my phone, and I found those symbols.

It took me a while to remember where I’ve seen them: a couple of months ago, they where fixing the road in front of my flat, and had drawn those symbols where the gas pipelines were, to avoid accidents

Beside the fact that I really like them, I think I’ll use them to protect my home: my flat is quite old, and I’m pretty paranoid about a gas leak, so I’ll incorporate those into the home wards

(yup, still a urban witch. Find inspiration in everything around you!)

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So here is my first big post on tumblr! My name is Sasha, I’m 18 (turning 19 in a month) and 5′6.

I’d like to think it is unhealthy before and healthy during.

On the left (year 2012) my weight is around 254-260 lbs

On the right (year 2015) my weight is 248 lbs

Yeah I hadn’t lost a lot of weight especially taking into consideration that a lot of time have passed. But you still can see a difference in these photos, can’t you? And here is the main thing - I became healthier. All those years I thought that hadn’t lost anything and had achieve nothing… There were years of great war with myself where I though I was not a warrior but defeatist. 

This month I have found old photos of myself and was just amazed how differently I look today. And I started to analyse my habits. You know what? It turned up that I have done so much! I began to drink green tea instead of black with sugar, to go everhywhere in my city on foot not on the bus, to eat fruits instead of sweets, to drink water (now I have a little bottle everywhere  with myself). I still have a lot of cravings but I keep them in line. My main mistake through all these years I always had struggle with fitness routine. I have tried a lot of different things but didn’t have discipline to continue for more than a month or two… These year I have entered university and have found my ideal routine plus I moved into a beautiful town where taking long walks is really interesting! 

I need to say that all those wonderful things happened because I began to love myself. And realizing that no one will do it for me. Oh, don’t I mentioned that I have joined tumblr exactly 3 years ago?;))

So I continue my journey, wish me good luck♥