After dancing around each other for a while Cat decides to ask Kara out but gets cold feet every time she tries
You know you’re royally screwing up when you end up receiving love-advice from Elaine of all people.
Okay, yes, maybe I’ve tried asking Kara out all week with unsuccessful results; maybe I freeze every time that blinding smile is directed at me. In my defense, I’m not even sure she would say yes. I still haven’t stopped calling her Kiera and I sometimes make fun of her clothes, and I’m just… difficult.
We’ve been flirting for a while, I’ll admit. At first I started doing it to make her uncomfortable and, boy, did it work. It was fun to see her blush to the tip of her ears and babble incoherently for a few seconds. I was in control and I liked it.
Then one day, she flirted back. And I just stood there dumbfounded for a whole minute because Kara
Danvers Kent flirting… that is something you do not want to be on the receiving end of. At least if you want to keep your dignity.
Who knew she’d be so damn good at it?
and that I’d love it?
It’s as if she becomes a completely different person and, suddenly, I found myself thinking about her outside of work. Wondering what she’s doing, where she lives. Wether she likes romantic comedies or horror movies? And that was the moment I was sure I was screwed.
She earned her own, personal spot in my head and that is no easy feat. So, yeah, maybe I like her. Maybe I’ve been wondering for the past few weeks what it would feel like to hold her hand, or take her out to see a movie. I keep wondering if her hair is as soft as it looks. Would she like it if I ran my hands through it?
And her lips…
I better stop here before my mind gets stuck in the gutter. Suffice to say, I tried to ask her out and failed miserably. Maybe it’s for the best.
I have to focus on my career and I just cannot waste time and energy into a one-sided crush. Because it’s completely only present on my end. Right?
Why does the thought of letting this go make me feel so lonely?