Don't you also have a cruhs on Sebastian from black butler? I guess I could see you with him
Oh my gosh, yes!! Sebastian was actually my very first love (I mean, not counting Inuyasha + Sesshomaru, but then again I wasn’t super invested in them.) Kuroshitsuji was the first fandom I got into and I have plushies, merchandise, the first whole season, a Ciel pillow, a Sebastian body pillow, etc.
I actually got so invested in it that I used to “talk” to Sebastian mentally all throughout 8th-10th grade (and I’ve totally lapsed back into that habit again, it’s nice to think you have a demon on your side who can do anything).
And the crazy thing is during this time my mom later told me when I moved in with my grandparents that she apparently saw a dark shadow figure that seemed to follow me around, and that she would come into my room at night and put oil on my forehead and pray over me. Coincidence? I don’t think so, holy shit.
But Sebastian has been a constant for me since 8th grade. Like he’s not “Daddy” (he’d probably be less than pleased if I ever called him such) but he’s my lover in my head I guess.
Good thing I’m polyamorous.