i-feel-his-heartbreak

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Is it weird it’s weird but I think his glowing eyeball thing is kinda hot~

Of all the GDYB pictures, this is still my favorite.

There are just too many emotions and feelings I feel whenever I look at this picture.

Jiyong was wearing his Heartbreaker hoodie - G-Dragon’s 1st solo album

Youngbae was wearing his Solar hoodie - Taeyang’s 1st solo album

They had come that far to their dream, together. BIGBANG happened. Even better, G-Dragon and Taeyang happened. 

I never get enough of how Jiyong smirked in this picture.  

And look at the way Youngbae was talking to Jiyong. 

And, look closely, their hoodies were black & white. G-Dragon and Taeyang are never the same, if not totally opposite. It’s always amazed me, how much G-Dragon and Taeyang different from the other, even though Jiyong and Youngbae started their career with a same dream. 

GDYB is just too precious, for me to even form any coherent word.

“He is not dead! I can feel it, he wants to come back.”

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They don’t see my face any more, only hands that hold out coin to them.
                                  The faceless king. So be it…

On Saturday, June 6, 2015, all the high school’s in my school district graduated and a student on the way to the stadium from one of the school’s in the district was driving down a busy highway and collided with a dump truck and was killed instantly on his way to graduate. He was wearing his cap and gown and his family and girlfriend were waiting at the stadium to see him graduate later in the day only to find out that he never made it. He had spent countless hours after school making up credits so he could graduate and was so excited when he found out he got the opportunity to graduate with his class. If you believe, please keep his family in your prayers. 

Here’s a link to his gofundme. Any donation helps!

“I miss you. I miss your face. I miss your voice. I miss the way you would say my name. I miss your eyes and your lips. I miss the way you held my hand and the way you held me in your arms. I miss the way you put your arms around me when I sat on your lap. I miss the way you pushed my hair out of my face to see me better. I miss the way you kissed me. I miss the way you acted like I was the only girl in the world. I miss the way you played with my hair and stroked my back. I miss the way you laid on me and sang. I miss the way we cuddled and enjoyed the quiet. I miss your stupid laugh and the way you only ever seemed to do it with me. I miss the way I played with your hair. I miss the way you would kiss my forehead any chance you got. I miss the way you would look me in the eyes and kiss my hand. I miss talking to you all day, everyday. I miss your dimples and your smug face after we had been together. I miss the way you missed me as soon as I left. I miss the feelings you gave me and how happy I made you. I miss calling you my boyfriend and I miss the fuzziness I got when you called me your girlfriend.

And I know I should be over you, like the way you’re over me, but everytime I think I am, I hear a song or read something and I’m right back there. Back where I shouldn’t be. Back where you’re ever so clearly not.

All I want is for you to be happy. And if that means with another girl, so be it. I just know I can’t be in your life if that’s so, it will break my heart a little bit more everytime I see you. And I can’t live like that.

I guess I cared for you more than I thought. And I already knew I cared for you a great deal.”

—  An exert from a message I’ll never send him…
Mark/Jaemin

/a short on Mark and Jaemin from nct/smrookies 

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Mark wasn’t sure if he was dreaming when he heard Johnny cooing about something.

“They are so cute” he heard Johnny. “Where’s the camera?!” sounded like Ten. “These little devils look unnecessarily innocent, I can’t accept this” that must have been Yuta.

“Because you’re the only one they like to trouble?” Doyoung supplied and everyone snickered.

“Shhh… we’ll wake them up” Taeyong said

“It’s about time” Hansol had come to watch too.

“No” Jaehyun protested. “Let them be, it looks so sweet”

“Yeah it’s loud enough as it is with Ten and Johnny” Kun said and everyone broke into laughter again.

“Okay, everyone out!” Taeil had to intervene because it was getting louder and louder.

“But look at them hyung!” Jaehyun said, pulling Taeil further into the room, like he wanted to show off a litter of fluffy puppies.

“I’ve got the camera!” Winwin came in running. “Alright!” Ten gave him a high-five and everyone cheered.

Mark was so sure he felt something hovering above him as the room went silent. He knew he could reach it if he tried. He heard a soft click and stirred to the sound of hurried shuffling and Taeil’s voice rushing everyone out of the room.

His eyes finally opened when the door shut close with a solid click. He felt so comfortable and cozy he didn’t feel like getting up at all. He realized seconds later that it was because he wasn’t alone in bed.

Jaemin was still sleeping, inches away from him. Mark recalled the brief moment last night when he had shifted to make space for Jaemin because he couldn’t sleep.

Jaemin was curled up against his chest, head on Mark’s arm and face buried in his neck. Mark also realised they were holding hands between themselves and it dawned on him that he had probably not dreamt the entire thing about people being in the room.

He felt his face reddening in embarrassment and fell back, trying not to disturb Jaemin. He watched Jaemin sleep for a while, taking in his unguarded and helpless state. He reached out and placed a little peck on Jaemin’s forehead and retreated just as quickly, realising what he had done without thinking, as Jaemin stirred awake.

Mark braced himself for the worst. Jaemin blinked at him, the smallest of smiles on his face. “Hyung?” he said sleepily and Mark felt something stutter in his chest.

He looked at Jaemin’s confusion and lay still, staring back into his eyes as Jaemin struggled to keep his eyes open. Mark sighed and brought his hand up to Jaemin’s face, caressing him to sleep again. “It’s still early” he said and pulled the blanket over them.

Jaemin mumbled in response and shifted closer to Mark. Mark fell asleep, Jaemin’s hand in his again.


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/in hopes that Jaemin will debut with the next squad

/ also x, x, x