You know you’re in the painful part of growth when you’re reminding yourself that Jesus got sad and scared too.
You know you’re growing when you understand why Jesus withdrew to lonely places to be with His Father often.
You know you’re growing when you realise just how much that growth isolates you from people who aren’t.
You know you’re growing when you’re scared that in your struggle to reach the light, you’ll leave behind all the plants below that for whatever reason don’t take in as much soil and sunlight and water as you, and the consequences of that natural progression scare you to death.
You know you’re growing when you stopping wishing for answers to your questions and you just wish for more of Jesus in your life, so that he swallows those doubts that would choke you if you weren’t sown on good ground, and so that you can just having him for having him’s sake.
You know you’re growing when you recognise that He is the good ground. He’s the solid Rock, the best ground around. To borrow from Tupac Shakur, to be a rose growing from His concrete is the most pleasurable pain one can go through, and boy am I going through that right now.