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Yeah, I think we’ve went from “I’ll do anything for you cause you’re the best thing that ever happened to my life” to “what the fuck am I still doing hanging around” real quick.

After going through and blocking all the porn bots, I finally have an accurate number of followers, and I just… wow… 900. I never expected so many people to like my shit. I just wanna thank y’all so very much for all the support I have gotten from so many people. You’ve really boosted my confidence and have made me so happy. Unfortunately, I have some bad news. I am still highly considering deleting this blog. No, it is not because of finals, as I mentioned before. I could easily just go on a hiatus for that. It’s just in general, I’m having a lot of trouble enjoying updating this blog. I am a very busy high school student, and am about to have a part time job (besides babysitting like I usually do) and have many issues with my family. Right now, the top priorities in my life are helping my family emotionally and financially (especially my mother) and keeping my work ethic an grades up. Not to mention the amount of extra curricular activities I am involved with. I also have ADD and anxiety, which contributes to a lot of my stress. All of this takes up most of my day and life, and when I do have free time, I usually like using it to relax or doodle something unrelated to this blog. On another note, I’m enjoying drawing and participating in the Undertale fandom less and less. I just don’t have the same enthusiasm and love for it as I once had. I know I sound whiney, but feeling like I have to update comics and answer asks on here is really affecting my mentality and distracting me from the more important things. I’ve been feeling physically sick lately just thinking about it. Anyways, If I do end up deleting this blog, I’ll give y’all a three days heads up, just so ya know what happened to me. I also might spoil and tell all the future plans I had and all the character’s backstories. Anyways, I still will be active on my other blog, when I have time that is, but not as much. I’m sorry, but an ASK blog takes a lot of time and effort, which I just cannot afford to give. So uh, yeah, thank you all so much for listening, and I’ll just have to see what happens. Stay amazing, chickadees.

This is a weird one, and not something I usually do; I’m sorry.

As you’ve probably seen over the past several months/throughout the year (if you’ve been following me for awhile), it’s been an extremely tough ride and things have not been great on my end, mostly due to workplace bullshit from both jobs, but also other life situations. I mean 2016 has been a dumpster fire overall, but between the hospitalization earlier this year, the issue with my former manager at the library legit workplace bullying me (what the fuck guy? I’m a part timer! I’m no threat to you! Do something better with your life!), and the past six months of absolute bullshit that my first full-time job has been, alongside the slew of social/relationship stuff that’s gone down…yeah. ._.

So I’m posting my Amazon (I know…I know, but what can you do? I just have to live with it) wishlist here (https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/wishlist/1YZ45VM22D7CE/ref=cm_wl_list_o_1); in the interim between looking for another full-time job and just recovering from how terrible this year has been I’m going to try to start crafting and drawing (and writing, eventually) again as it’s incredibly therapeutic for me. If you’d like to donate to the effort to help me with replenishing my craft supplies (I wasn’t expecting for my paycheck to stop existing ^_^;), I’d greatly appreciate it, or just a reblog if that’s okay. Just cross-stitching and working on the scarf over the past few days has been great for keeping my anxiety from going too haywire. 

Again, I’m sorry - I try not to do this sort of thing (asking for stuff/reblogs), but I figure just once is okay? I hope. x_x

Thank you in general for still sticking with me/the supportive messages and comments. I appreciate it more than you could know. ^_^

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My small wish: Benedict and Martin filming a cop movie.
I want Benedict as a new, enthusiastic stubborn cop and Martin as a bad dirty cop. They hate each other at first but soon realize they’re actually good partners.