i-am-sun

I lied.
All of these poems were for you.
Or all of these poems were about you.
Or all of these poems were to impress you.
Or all these poems were about us.
Or all of these poems were about what we could have been.
What we could be.
What hasn’t happened yet.
What has already happened.
I lied.
The first I love you meant everything.
The last I love you meant more.
I lied
I am the moon.
I am the sun.
I am all the stars.
I am all of the Dead God.
I am every king
queen
prince
princess
Court Jester.
I lied
all of these poems were about you.
—  Lies/Poetry
WHAT’S YOUR PERSONALITY?

I am SUN, and MOON is what makes me feel emotionally happy, but I express myself in MERCURY way. When it comes to love, I will be VENUS, but when I get angry, I become MARS. Though people see me as RISING

Life systematically challenges me to SATURN. My sense of humour is JUPITER. I’m URANUS when it comes to changes and I have the imagination of NEPTUNE. My secret energy and individual powers are aimed at PLUTO

Oh, and not to forget, I’ll be absolutely successful as MIDHEAVEN.

My deepest inner self can be compared to DOMINANT PLANET/DOMINANT SIGN.


SUN:

Aries: A REBEL
Taurus: A GUARDIAN
Gemini: A MASTERMIND
Cancer: A ROMANTIC
Leo: A RINGLEADER
Virgo: A HEALER
Libra: AN ARTIST
Scorpio: AN ENIGMA
Sagittarius: A WANDERER
Capricorn: AN OWNER
Aquarius: AN INNOVATOR
Pisces: A DREAMER

MOON:

Aries: CHALLENGES
Taurus: STABILITY
Gemini: COMMUNICATION
Cancer: CARE
Leo: PRAISES
Virgo: SECURITY
Libra: INDIVIDUALITY
Scorpio: POWER
Sagittarius: EXPERIENCES
Capricorn: AUTHENTICITY
Aquarius: FRIENDSHIP
Pisces: ART

MERCURY:

Aries: A DIRECT
Taurus: A PRACTICAL
Gemini: A LIGHTHEARTED
Cancer: A SENTIMENTAL
Leo: A DRAMATIC
Virgo: AN IMPATIENT
Libra: A TACTFUL
Scorpio: A PIERCING
Sagittarius: A PLAYFUL
Capricorn: A CONCISE
Aquarius: A LOGICAL
Pisces: A VAGUE

VENUS:

Aries: PASSIONATE
Taurus: RELIABLE
Gemini: REASONABLE
Cancer: NURTURING
Leo: GENEROUS
Virgo: HELPFUL
Libra: THOUGHTFUL
Scorpio: INTENSE
Sagittarius: FLIRTATIOUS
Capricorn: PROTECTIVE
Aquarius: INTRIGUING
Pisces: COMPASSIONATE

MARS:

Aries: AGGRESSIVE
Taurus: STUBBORN
Gemini: DESTRUCTIVE
Cancer: NASTY
Leo: LOUD
Virgo: DISTANT
Libra: CRITICAL
Scorpio: VENGEFUL
Sagittarius: INDIFFERENT
Capricorn: VIOLENT
Aquarius: SARCASTIC
Pisces: SELFISH

RISING:

Aries: THE FIGHTER
Taurus: THE MASTER
Gemini: THE CHARMER
Cancer: THE HELPER
Leo: THE INDIVIDUALIST
Virgo: THE PEDANT
Libra: THE AESTHETE
Scorpio: THE SCEPTIC
Sagittarius: THE COMEDIAN
Capricorn: THE VINTAGE SOUL
Aquarius: THE ADVISER
Pisces: THE ANGEL

SATURN:

Aries: BE TOLERANT
Taurus: LOSE WHAT I LOVE MOST
Gemini: MAKE QUICK DECISIONS
Cancer: FACE LONELINESS
Leo: SACRIFICE MY DIGNITY
Virgo: DEAL WITH DISASTERS
Libra: FIGHT
Scorpio: CONTROL MY INSTINCTS
Sagittarius: BE STUCK IN A RUT
Capricorn: FACE FAILURE
Aquarius: BLEND IN
Pisces: FACE OVERWHELMING STRESS

JUPITER:

Aries: TEASING
Taurus: GROSS
Gemini: BONDING-IN-THE-MOMENT
Cancer: PARODIC
Leo: HYPERBOLIC
Virgo: DARK
Libra: IRONIC
Scorpio: DRY
Sagittarius: ANECDOTAL
Capricorn: SELF-DEPRECATING
Aquarius: WITTY
Pisces: QUIRKY CULTURAL

URANUS:

Aries: ENTHUSIASTIC
Taurus: CAUTIOUS
Gemini: FLEXIBLE
Cancer: IMPATIENT
Leo: PUSHY
Virgo: PASSIVE
Libra: CURIOUS
Scorpio: DISTRUSTING
Sagittarius: ECCENTRIC
Capricorn: ANXIOUS
Aquarius: IMPASSIONED
Pisces: UNPREDICTABLE

NEPTUNE:

Aries: A MADCAP
Taurus: A STRATEGIST
Gemini: A SCHIZOPHRENE
Cancer: A CHILD
Leo: A POET
Virgo: A SHAMAN
Libra: A DAYDREAMER
Scorpio: A MANIAC
Sagittarius: AN IDEALIST
Capricorn: AN OCCULTIST
Aquarius: A VISIONARY
Pisces: A PROPHET

PLUTO:

Aries: SEXUALITY
Taurus: IMPROVEMENTS
Gemini: INTELLECTUALITY
Cancer: EMOTIONAL INTENSITY
Leo: DOMINATION
Virgo: OBSESSIONS
Libra: RELIGION
Scorpio: BLACK MAGIC
Sagittarius: EXPLORATIONS
Capricorn: AMBITIONS
Aquarius: MANIPULATION
Pisces: INTUITION

MIDHEAVEN:

Aries: AN ATHLETE
Taurus: AN ARCHITECT
Gemini: A TEACHER/PROFESSOR
Cancer: A WRITER/POET
Leo: AN ACTOR/A FILM DIRECTOR
Virgo: A DOCTOR
Libra: A DISIGNER
Scorpio: A PSYCHOLOGIST
Sagittarius: A POLITICIAN
Capricorn: A LAWYER/JUDGE
Aquarius: A SCIENTIST
Pisces: A MUSICIAN

DOMINANT PLANET:

Sun (Solarian): A MAJESTIC
Moon (Lunarian): A TENDER
Mercury (Mercurian): A FATAL
Venus (Venusian): A FASCINATING
Mars (Martian): A POWERFUL
Jupiterian (Jupiter): A CHAOTIC
Saturn (Saturnian): AN ANCIENT
Uranus (Uranian): AN IRREPRESSIBLE
Neptune (Neptunian): A WAVERING
Pluto (Plutonian): A MYSTICAL

DOMINANT SIGN:

Aries: LIGHTNING
Taurus: FOREST
Gemini: NORTHERN LIGHT
Cancer: SEA
Leo: HEAT
Virgo: FOG
Libra: RAINBOW
Scorpio: TSUNAMI
Sagittarius: WILDFIRE
Capricorn: VOLCANO
Aquarius: STORM
Pisces: MARSH

how jealous I am
of the rain
that gets to touch your skin


how jealous I am
of the air
that gets to fill your lungs


how jealous I am
of the sun
that wakes up next to you

—  all the things I used to do by shelby leigh
I am...

Aries rising/sun: Intensely/Self-Centered

Taurus rising/sun: Stubbornly/Possessive

Gemini rising/sun: Vocally/Talkative

Cancer rising/sun: Cautiously/Caring

Leo rising/sun: Dramatically/Proud

Virgo rising/sun: Logically/Critical

Libra rising/sun: Anxiously/Agreeable

Scorpio rising/sun: Obsessively/Passionate

Sagittarius rising/sun: Excessively/Optimistic

Capricorn rising/sun: Deliberately/Goal-oriented

Aquarius rising/sun: Seemingly/Opinionated

Pisces rising/sun: Deceptively/Manipulative

Examples- Leo rising/Cancer sun: I am dramatically caring; Virgo rising/Aquarius sun: I am logically opinionated; Taurus rising/Sagittarius sun: I am stubbornly optimistic; Gemini rising/Capricorn sun: I am vocally goal-oriented.

hamilton characters as actual things said in my class
  • alexander hamilton: 17 is the best number of all time and anyone who contradicts can meet me in the pit
  • aaron burr: oh no please don't do this ill kinkshame you
  • john laurens: [about our class turtle] he's beauty he's grace he's mr. turtnited states
  • lafayette: [screeches] MINI CROISSAAAAAAAAAANTS
  • hercules mulligan: my scarf protects me from harm
  • george washington: if you call me daddy again i will literally kick your ass
  • angelica schuyler: [2 hours late to school] sorry feminism called
  • eliza schuyler: dont worry, its my sole purpose in life to be overlooked
  • peggy schuyler: merp
  • king george: [in swivel chair] PUSH ME AROUND TINY PEASANTS
  • thomas jefferson: talk french to me english can go fuck itself
  • james madison: if i was a mcdonalds order i would be a milkshake and small cry
  • philip hamilton: [puts hands up] i am the sun
  • maria reynolds: the answer is me cause im a ten bitches
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from now on to the end of my life, you are mine and I am yours
while the sun rises from the east and sets in the west, you are my sun, my moon, and my stars

Happy birthday ZEN! (*’∀’人)♥

One day, the earth looked up at the sun, and asked “ why are you so close? You burn me with your heat. ” And the sun slowly moved farther away each day. Until the day came, and the earth, covered with snow asked “ can you please come closer. Your heat warms me, and I am cold.” So, the sun slowly moved closer, until she was warm again. And so it went. Too hot then too cold. But, the sun never changed. He only did what she asked. His satisfaction came with the knowledge that she would always need him. In good and in bad times. He would circle her forevermore, and always give her what she wanted.
—  wordsbyt 

I AM SO OVERWHELMED BY THE FEELINGS IN MY HEART RIGHT NOW. MY TINY HEART IS TOO TINY FOR THIS NONSENSE LIKE WHAT IN THE FUCK

EMMA IS MAKING FUCKING PANCAKES

IN A ROBE AND WE ALL FUCKING KNOW WHAT HAPPENED THE NIGHT BEFORE WHILE KILLIAN WALKS UP BEHIND HER IN AN UNBUTTONED VEST WHICH LBR IS BASICALLY HIM BEING NAKED LIKE THE NUMBER OF LAYERS ON THIS MAN AT ALL TIMES IS ABSURD BUT LIKE

THIS IS TOO MUCH. I CANNOT LOOK DIRECTLY AT IT.

THIS IS LIKE THE FUCKING SUN. I AM BLINDED BY THE JOY AND THE HAPPINESS AND THE CONTENTMENT AND THE WAY HE’S GRINNING INTO HER SKIN AND THE WAY SHE BITES HER LIP. THIS IS AHHHHHHHHH MAKE IT STOP

AND SHE LIKE FUCKING POUNCES ON HIM AND HER HANDS DON’T FUCKING STOP MOVING AND HER LIPS ARE SO INSISTENT AND 

SHE KEEPS FUCKING PULLING HIM CLOSER AND CLOSER AND WHAT T H E F U C KKKKK I CANNOT HANDLE THIS EVEN A LITTLE

ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW WILD HER HAIR IS? SHE CLEARLY JUST WOKE UP AND CAME DOWN TO MAKE THEM BOTH PANCAKES BECAUSE THEY MUST BE STARVING AND HE GOT DRESSED HALF WAY AND CAME DOWN TO FIND HER WHEN HE SMELLED ALL THE NICE THINGS AND THEN HE SEES HER WITH HER HAIR ALL WILD AND HER FACE ALL FRESH AND GLOWY AND HAPPY AND WHO CAN BLAME HIM FOR WANTING TO KISS HER OK?

OK BUT WHAT KILLS ME THE DEADEST IS THAT SHE PULLS AWAY JUST SO SHE CAN LOOK AT HIM. CLEARLY SHE WANTS TO KEEP KISSING HIM BUT IN THAT MOMENT, SHE NEEDS SO SEE HIS FACE, TO SEE AGAIN HOW MUCH HE LOVES HER AND WHAT SHE HAS NOW AND I CANNOT LOOK AT HIS SMILE THIS IS TOO MUCH *SHIELDS EYES*

GUYS, GUYS, GUYS. I THINK SHE LOVES HIM.

AND I THINK HE LOVES HER.

SHE’S SO FUCKING HAPPY AND SHE LOOKS SO YOUNG HERE AND SO HAPPY AND IN LOVE AND SHE LOVES HIM SO MUCH OMG

HE CAN’T BELIEVE IT EITHER BECAUSE WHO WOULD HAVE FUCKING THOUGHT RIGHT? 

AND THEN SHE’S LIKE FUCK WAIT MUST GET BACK TO THE KISSING. HE’S SO GOOD AT THE KISSING. MUST TOUCH SOFT LIPS AGAIN.

AND UGH IT STARTS SO SOFT BUT PICKS UP SO FUCKING QUICK LIKE WTF AND HE JUST RESPONDS WITHOUT MISSING A BEAT LIKE THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR ME BECAUSE THEY LOVE EACH OTHER AND WANT EACH OTHER SO MUCH, IT MAKES MY HEART MELT ALSO SEEING THAT RING ON HER FINGER IS HURTING MY EYES AGAIN.

THE HANDS, THE HANDSSSSSS

WILL NO ONE THINK OF THE POOR FANGIRLS?! WHY WOULD YOU KISS THIS WAY?! WITH THE FRANTIC PULLING EACH OTHER CLOSER AND THE HANDS THAT WON’T STOP TOUCHING. WHY WOULD YOU HURT ME THIS WAY YOU ASSHOLES?!

I CAN’T TAKE IT BECAUSE THEY’RE SMILING THE ASSHOLES DO THEY NOT KNOW WHAT THIS IS DOING TO MY SMALL TINY HEART?!

TO HELL WITH THE PANCAKES. YASSS EMMA, YASSSSS.

AND SHE FUCKING PUSHES HIM INTO THE TABLE AND SHE’S PROBABLY BETWEEN HIS LEGS RIGHT NOW AND HIS HAND IS RUNNING UP AND DOWN HER BACK AND HIS HOOK IS HOLDING HER STEAD BECAUSE SHE CANNOT STOP MOVING HER HANDS

AND LIKE FUCKING SOMEONE HAS TO KEEP THEM FROM FALLING ONTO THE TABLE BUT BY THE LOOKS OF IT, EMMA TOTALLY WANTS KILLIAN TO FALL ONTO HIS BACK RIGHT THERE OK?! LIKE NOPE LET’S JUST DO THE DO RIGHT HERE. SMOOSHING BOOTIES ON THE DINING TABLE.

AND LOL THE SHOCK! THEY’RE SO DAZED THIS IS HILARIOUS

AND KILLIAN SAYING LIKE OH YOUR MOTHER HAS A KEY. THAT’S GOOD INFORMATION. YES OK. TRY TO CALM DOWN NOW.

THE SHOCK AND THE WIDE EYES LOLOLOL

BUT OK I FUCKING LOVE HOW EMMA JUST LOOKS AMUSED PRETTY MUCH THROUGH THIS WHOLE EXCHANGE BECAUSE THOUGH SHE REALLY, REALLY WANTS TO DO THE DO WITH HER FIANCE IN THEIR HOUSE (WHAT THE FUCK HOW DID WE GET HERE FROM CLIMBING A BEANSTALK TOGETHER ONE TIME FUCK FUCK FUCKKKK) 

SHE NEVER THOUGHT SHE’S HAVE THIS EITHER? HER MOTHER ACCIDENTALLY WALKING IN ON THEM AND LIKE IT’S LIKE EMBARRASSING OR WHATEVER BUT SHE’S JUST SO FUCKING HAPPY TO HAVE ALL THIS IN HER LIFE NOW? THESE MOMENTS OF PEACE AND LOVE AND SILLINESS

AND LOL SHE’S LIKE NOOOO AND KILLIAN IS LIKE HAHAHA YES WE WERE ABOUT TO BANG YOUR MAJESTY. I HAVE A SERIOUS PROBLEM RN LOL ALSO I LOVE THAT THOUGH SNOW IS RIGHT THERE, EMMA STRAIGHT UP DOEAN’T MOVE FOR FUCKING AGES AND JUST KEEPS RUNNING HER HANDS OVER KILLIAN’S SHOULDERS, SOOTHING HIM  AND TOUCHING HIM STILL AND KILLIAN’S HAND DOESN’T MOVE FROM HER WAIST EITHER

LIKE DESPITE THE DISCOMFORT, IT’S ALSO SUCH A COMFORTABLE MOMENT?! IT’S SO DOMESTIC AND ORDINARY AND EMMA IS STILL STROKING KILLIAN’S ARM HERE AND I AM IN SO MUCH PAIN *CRIES TEARS OF BLOOD* AND THEY ONLY FUCKING STAND WHEN SNOW IS LIKE UMM PANCAKES LOLOL

AND THIS ASSHOLE LOLOLOL HE IS SO UNAMUSED. I’VE LOST MY APPETITE. BRACING FUCKING SHOWER HE SAYS  LOLOLOL

THIS CHEEK KISS, THE PANCAKES, THE KILLIAN’S HAND ON HER WAIST AGAIN. THE DOMESTICITY OF IT ALL

LOOK HOW HAPPY SHE IS. DO YOU SEE IT? DO YOU SEE THE JOY IN HER EYES?! SHE’S SO HAPPY GODDAMNIT

*THROWS ALL THE THINGS*

THIS IS TOO MUCH. I CANNOT HANDLE THIS. FUCKING FUCK FUCKKK

  • Sun: *thinking about what she's going to do with her a-hole brother*
  • Will, Nomi, Capheus, Lito, Kala, Riley: just do the right thing. (◡‿◡✿)
  • Wolfgang: your brother and my father are the same, the world is better off without them (ง •̀_•́)ง
  • Sun: i am now more confused than as i was before