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Lol I know I complain about AP a lot and my classmate actually noted how annoying that was during geo (thanks dude) but I am legit scared. Everyone thinks I’m smart just because I get a few good grades but I’m not.

I’m actually an average joe pretending to be a little above average :/

Which means I’m worried again because the quiz is tomorrow and I’m not sure how I can write a fairly well short answer in like 5 minutes?? Rip I don’t even know if I studied the right material cause today my classmates were talking about political vs social vs economical(?) and I’m like ???? Where????

Lol ok.

bye

so ive been thinking about deleting this blog for awhile cuz it has alot of folowers and makes me reall anxious and i thought having alot of followers would be fun but its just way to many, im sorry but i am going to delet this blog (ive deleted all the posts on it anyways and am moving them to a different blog) also my mental health is terrible if any of you care

bye im sorry im lame

( this will most likely be rebloged a few times so that people can know )

im so angry
I am so a n gry

Like okay I’m sorry I’m mobile so I can’t put this under read more but I hope I’m not the only one who feels this way

so I’m pan as u all know

and I have this friend who is also pan

And she doesn’t know okay but

she sits next to me on the bus this one time and does it all the time where the word gay comes into the conversation and she goes

“I’m gay” and just shouts that shit out and is

happy to admit it to everyone but like
not everyone can do that

not everyone’s families respect their kids or their friends and what not and I just

Everyone I know that’s gay or pan or bi or whatever is happy to tell people and I just

I can’t be myself

And I can’t flirt

And I can’t date people because I just

Block out my sexuality in fear that people will find out and hate me

And I know people say “u do u you don’t have to tell them anything” but I do

Because I live with my parents
And I hang with my friends
And if I kissed a girl or whatever and brought one home

Idk what would happen

But I guarantee my parents won’t be cool with it or will say it’s a phase and I just

It makes me feel sick like

Good 4 u that u feel comfortable to talk about it

But have some respect that not everyone is fucking lucky enough to have people that will support them and help them through this time like you do or that they’re not strong enough to pull through I just

I’m sorry it just happens all the time and I want to cry

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“You turn up in the middle of the night, you get me out of my bed in my nightie, which you then don’t let me change out of for ages, and take me for a spin in your time machine. No, no, you’re right. No mixed signals there. That is just a signal. Like a great big bat in the sky. Get your coat, love. The Doctor is in.

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i drew this thinking i could play with expressions.. only to realise.. no.. not really.. and then i got really disappointed with myself and started doubting how i draw Rhys and well.. how i draw.. -side eyes- 

Tim Lawrence and Rhys©Borderlands
-disappointeeeeeed- ©me

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… Thanks, everyone. Seriously.

You’re awesome.

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HELLO 

Since i’m a very clever girl, i’ve accidentally deleted @attitudeproblem‘s ask and i’m so sorry for my silliness BUT HERE I AM WITH SOME ERERI YOGA as you’ve requested ;) oh and thank you so much, lovely! <3

i think Levi’s little friend is having a lot of fun and yes i’m so perv

Happy New Year!! (To those of you who inexplicably continued to follow this blog despite the fact that my posting rate has trickled off quite badly.) I’m still reading and bookmarking and loving a substantial number of fics, but I’m afraid I haven’t made the time to sit down for thorough re-reads with an eye toward writing up full recs that would do them justice.

So, in an attempt to make up for this terrible neglect, I’ve gathered together a list of some (not all, of course!) of the Sterek fics I’ve enjoyed over the past year. Hopefully I’ll be able to set aside more time in 2015 to write about these in detail, as well as other wonderful fics that you may or may not have already discovered.

Despite everything that’s happened with the show and fandom in recent months, there are an astonishing number of creative, beautifully-written fics still being produced. Sterek will always be the OTP of my heart, and it’s amazing to see all the ways their story twists and turns in each talented author’s hands. I look forward to seeing what 2015 brings.

Play Crack the Sky | Derbobbs ( wearethecyclones) | Mature | 122,797

This fic. Oh my goodness, this fic. I wish I had more space right now to express the ways it hit every chord in my heart, bringing back fond memories from my very earliest fic-reading days (~17 years ago). It is, quite simply, a beautiful novel. And, to my surprise, it didn’t rip my heart out, even though I anxiously read it as a WIP, holding my breath and expecting the worst around every corner. It’s well worth the ride.

Come with Me and Walk the Longest Mile | DevilDoll | Explicit | 39,257

Speaking of authors who do make a habit of ripping your heart out through your throat and somehow making you love the process…this was another lovely surprise. It’s remarkably sweet, considering both the author and the setting. It’s also a road trip fic, which is one of my not-so-hidden weaknesses. Put these two in a car for weeks on end and have them talk and fall in love, and I am hooked. Add in DevilDoll’s impeccable characterizations and unerring emotional honesty, and you have an unforgettable experience.

Phases of the Weaker Heart | calrissian18 (wellhellsbells) | Teen | 16,197

I actually did write a full rec for this one, but I’m including it again because it meant so much to me. I think it’s possible that some Sterek fans skimmed over the description and the pre-slash rating and assumed it wasn’t actually about their relationship. While it is an Allison-centric fic (part of what makes it particularly beautiful), Derek and Stiles and their budding romance are absolutely crucial to the narrative. Some fics dig into your heart and stay with you long past the first read. This is one of those.

What I Did On My Summer Vacation | grimm (coyotequeens) | Explicit | 118,749

If I sat down and listed everything I could possibly want in a single fic, this one would cover nearly all of them. Not only that, it does it extraordinarily well. Fullwolf!Derek, magic!Stiles, alive!Laura, the Sheriff and Derek bonding, a whole town that’s aware of the supernatural, and much, much more. It makes me think, oddly, of a show like Gilmore Girls, where the town as a whole is as much of a character as the individuals. It’s a world that’s easy to sink into for 100k while barely noticing the time pass. Honestly, with so many new fics constantly popping up on my dash and in my inbox, it can be hard to go back and re-read longer fics. This one is worth returning to more than once.

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