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Jealousy

Chris Evans x Reader

Warning: Angst, Angry Smut 

Notes: I am truly sorry about an adjective I used about Hayley Atwell. I didn’t mean it. :( 

It’s long. (1860 words)

And I suck at endings. 

I hope you like it. Enjoy ;) 


Chris was gone for filming Civil War. Though you were happy and proud about him for doing what he loves, you missed your boyfriend of 3 years very much. You had work to do so you couldn’t travel with him to everywhere he goes for filming. You did try to pay him surprise visits and he did the same to you.

He called you that morning when you were about to enter your office. Between “I miss you”s and talking about your regular stuff, he mentioned that Hayley came to the set and they were going to shoot a dubsmash together. Oh boy you loved Hayley and her silly dubsmash videos. How can you not? You said that you couldn’t wait to watch it before you hung up. You were going to regret that.

Somewhere around noon you had time to take a break from your work and take a quick look on your Twitter. There it was. Team Carter’s winning video.

“Ahahaha oh my god Chris.”

You laughed when you saw your boyfriend. You realized heads turning to you around the office and tried to keep your voice down. You liked it, retweeted it and sent Chris a text message:

“It’s not courteous to stick your tongue out Cap! ;) “

You put your phone back in your bag for you didn’t expect Chris to find time to text back.

Dorks. You thought, still smiling. You shook your head slightly and got up from your desk to go have your lunch.

~

You were laughing at something Josh said as you walked back to the office with him. Another co-worker and friend Jen was coming from the opposite direction with a look on her face that you couldn’t resolve.

“I’m guessing you didn’t see it?”

She said as she passed by.

“See what?”

You asked but she was gone. You turned to Josh and he gave you a shrug, meaning he doesn’t understand either.

You returned to your desk and opened your computer. Before you started working, you checked you twitter. There was another video. “We celebrated.” Hayley had captioned.

Is this what Jen was talking about?

You started the short video and started watching with a neutral face. That was until:


Wait. What?

OH NO THEY DIDN’T?!

You were frozen. That was one hell of a celebration alright! On the outside you couldn’t move but your brain was screaming. You were struggling with your thoughts.

How could they?

Wait they’re just friends.

Friends that kiss?!

It’s just acting Y/N. They kissed before in the movie.

But even that wasn’t heated like this!

As you were contemplating what you saw, you felt a hand your shoulder. You realized you were staring at the looping video for a time now and turned to Josh.

“You OK Y/N ?”

He asked, worried.

“yeah… Yeah I’m, I’m fine.” You mumbled, tears prickling your eyes and anger building inside of you.

“Um. Excuse me. I don’t think I can.. I can” You frantically said and pointed at your computer.

“It’s fine. You go, I’ll cover for you.” he said.

You nodded, grabbed your bag and left the office. Once you were inside your car, you started crying with anger and feeling of betrayal.

~

Until you arrived home, Chris texted a couple of times and called. You didn’t answer. Not just because you were driving, also because you were too enraged to have a healthy conversation.

At home you took a shower, then put yourself a glass of whiskey but ended up drinking quite a lot. When Chris called for it seemed like the 100th time, you answered.

“What’s going on baby I was worried about you?!” He asked with a rather loud voice.

You snorted “Yeah, right.”

“What’s that supposed to mean? Why haven’t you answered my phones?”

“MAYbe because I’m MAD AT YOU!” you yelled. Maybe the alcohol was not a good idea.

“Why are you yelling?! And why would you be mad at me?!”

“You’re right! Why would I be mad at you for making out with some bitch on camera?!”

“Hey hey! Have care how you speak Y/N?”

“Fuck you Evans. I’m tired. I’m going to bed.” You said with a lower voice.

“No don’t hang u” |

You already hung up the phone and shut it off. You went to bed and fell asleep with a frown on your face.

~

Your eyelids were heavy from crying and the slight hangover you were having had made you sleep until afternoon. Groaning you got up.

As you stirred your cereal in your bowl, you thought about last night. You were still going back and forth between your angry, betrayed feels and regret of the reaction you showed.

Door opened and heavy, fast footsteps came closer.

“Y/N ?”

“Chris?”

You got up and went to the living room where you found your boyfriend. He looked pissed.

“What the hell are you doing here?” You asked. Did he just fly all the way here when you were sleeping? For what?

“You shut your phone off. I was worried.” He sounded like his thoughtful, sweet self now.

“Yeah I didn’t wanna be disturbed.”

You were keeping distance. In a normal time, Chris would’ve swooped you in a hug and you two would be giggling like teenagers. But right now, you were both tense and keeping distance from each other.

“What the hell was your outburst last night?”  The irritated tone was back.

“Was I not clear enough?!” You raised your voiced.

“Baby you KNOW Hayley and I are friends. That was just acting for her video. That’s it!”

“NO! If you kiss in a movie, THAT’S acting because you HAVE TO. Did you have to kiss her yesterday? No! You just saw the opportunity and jumped into it!”

“What kinda guy do you think I am Y/N?” he sounded hurt.

“Like I said I was just helping a friend out.” He continued when you stayed silent.

“Wow. What a help. Well, have you ever seen me making out with a friend?” You blinked your eyes to fight back the tears pricking your eyes.

“Y/N baby I’m sorry.” He breathed out as he walked towards you.

You tried to back away but he was fast. He stood in front of you but you refused to meet his eyes.

He held out his hand to you, to hold you.

“No don’t touch me.” you snarled with a frown and swatted his hand away.

“Sweetheart please don’t do this.” He tried to hold you again.

“No fuck off!” you spatted and turned around to walk away but you were stopped by a strong hand on your upper arm.

Chris quickly and harshly turned you around and kissed you. At first you didn’t respond but sometime after, you kissed back. Your grip on his forearm was so strong that your fingernails were painfully digging in. Your tongues fought for dominance but you were determined not to give in. As his hands went your waist, you placed yours on his chest and you pushed him.

He stumbled back a little. If looks could kill Chris thought. You let out a low growl and pulled him for another kiss by holding him by his shirts collar. You ripped the shirt open as buttons fell off and on the floor. Chris lifted your tshirt off your head as you fondled with his belt. His pants, briefs and your pyjama bottom were quick to be discarded.

Chris leaned down to kiss you again. You pushed him down to sit on the couch and straddled him. Then you kissed him with force, claiming his mouth. He let out a growl when you pulled his bottom lip between your teeth. You were grinding your hips to his meanwhile and he was hard as rock underneath you. His hands roamed all over your body. He kneaded your ass and groped your breasts. He was not gentle at all. Your hands were in his hair, messing and pulling as you kept kissing.

He ripped off your panties at some point as he broke the kiss. Then slapped your ass hard. You loved it when he got rough but this was your turn. You took his hard cock in your hand and guided it to your hot, aching core. You glided his head a few times over your pussy as you teased both of you and cloaked his member with your wetness. Then you aligned him at your entrance and sat down, taking it all the way in.

You both moaned loudly, having missed the feeling. He held your hips because he wants to take control but you don’t even care. You start to raise yourself up&down, roll your hips forward, all while looking at his pretty, frowning face.

He leaned down to kiss and bite your neck, making sure to leave marks. Then he smacked your ass again. As you let your guard for a second of pleasure, Chris held you and turned you over, hovering himself over you.

“Hey!” you said.

He just grinned deviously and plunged himself back in, fucking you hard. And you let him. He held the arm of the couch with both arms and you wrapped your hands around his giant biceps and squeezed. He started grunting and moaning and you knew he was close. You wrapped your legs around his waist and turned the two of you. Chris fell on his back on the floor with a thud, with you on top of him. The glasses on the coffee table clanked with the force of the fall.

“Ouch!” Chris whined but you shut him with a sloppy kiss. You put one elbow next to his head as you kept kissing his mouth and jaw and neck. He held your hips once again and pushed his hips upwards, hitting your g-spot perfectly. You pushed down to meet his thrusts and your free hand went to his chest.

You nearly screamed his name in the moment of bliss, as a leg trembling orgasm hit you. He followed behind as he shut his eyes and repeated curse words.

You collapsed on top of him as you panted for air. He held you in his arms, holding you tightly. After a while, you lifted your head from his neck and looked him in the eye. You couldn’t stay mad at him. He gave you a sad look.

“I’m sorry darling. I didn’t wanna hurt you. I love you more than anything. I’m sorry.” He said. “Will you forgive me?”

You smiled a little. “I’m sorry too. For what I said. I was just shocked.”

He looked at you with puppy eyes. Damn it.

“I love you too.” You gave the answer he was waiting for. He smiled as you leaned down to kiss him. Gentle and loving, as it’s supposed to be.

You broke the kiss and lifted your head a little to look at him. You smiled mischievously.

“What?”

“Well…” You lifted and eyebrow. “You came all the way here. Might as well we enjoy while we can.”

He smiled back and leaned up to kiss you.

The End.

therustypavements asked:

jfc I am so DONE with this. Andy didn't create the meme it wasn't his idea so end of that conversation. People just have so much resentment for his bootleg opinion that pretty much all actors hold so ??? just leave him alone ??? he's 100% entitled to voice his own opinion, it doesn't affect you. As for the deaf west thing Andy never ONCE tried to take credit for ANY part of it, we only ever found out at closing night from Michael and sorry for the rant I am Andy Mientus defence squad for life

!!!! EXACTLY. and i think he did mention a few times that dwsa was his idea but he was never like “oh wow look at me it was all my idea im so great” it was more just like he was proud of it?? Which he has the right to be??? It was his brainchild????????

People need to chill, and understand that everything has a context, tl;dr

((Also Im electing myself president of this defense squad if thats ok its becoming an official thing alright))

Since May 2015 I’ve been working hard to improve my body, learn to love myself and find my confidence. 9 months later and this is where I am. I’m so proud of how much stronger I’ve become, not just physically but mentally as well. The last 9 months have had its ups and downs but more recently I’ve had a learning experience I’m now grateful for.
Last week I experienced my first heart break. After dating a guy for about 5-6months my friends caught him holding hands with another girl (he had only known for a week) before ending things with me. He tried to claim that he and I were “only ever friends” and he knew he did the wrong thing by leading me on and he did. He did a horrible thing, after meeting his whole family, his friends and spending so much time together I felt like a fool for letting my guard down and trusting him only to result in me getting hurt.
It’s been a week since I found out what he did to me and since we’ve had any form of communication. I just want to publicly thank him for what he did, because in this past week I have found my self worth and have learnt to love myself even more. I know I didn’t deserve what he did to me and that I didn’t do anything wrong in the whole situation. I deserve so much better. I deserve a guy who can love me and be proud of me and not have to sit there and chose between me and another girl. He’s taught and shown me the kind of guy I don’t want and the sad thing is I’m actually so much more happier now without him in my life.
So “Steve” I want to say thank you. Thank you for being a complete fucking asshole to me and fucking me over because you’ve taught me so much about myself this past week. I’ve learnt to love myself, know my worth and what I deserve. Good riddance, I hope you grow up one day and realise you lost one amazing girl who would’ve done anything for you.

Wonho :(

Even though I am proud of Wonho for conquering his fears. I feel he shouldn’t have had to jump. He clearly was crying, having a mental breakdown and his body wanted to shutdown. I’m just not cool with that. They should have said “It’s all right, you did well you don’t have to do it.” I have a small fear of heights and anxiety so to see him go through that emotional and fearful breakdown was hard. No amount of entertainment is worth someone’s mental health.

Just like with Hansol (Topp Dogg) when he had a breakdown asking a girl out. I felt bad for him.

Allover I’m so proud of Wonho (Shownu and Kihyun as well). I hope mentally he is fine.

I just woke up to all this drama and I could say I’m mortified, because I am, but I am also proud to see about how many people are on Taylors side about this. Kanye is now one of my most disliked celebrities, and it’s going to take a LOT to bounce back from this one. After the whole incident that really got Kanye famous, I didn’t have a very good view of him. After the heartfelt speech, halved apologies, and the flowers I thought we could officially get past it. Taylor was friends with him now, so why shouldn’t we? What I woke up to wasn’t another award show speech dissing Taylor, or even grabbing her mic while she’s trying to say one of her own, nope. There is a line in Kanyes new song about how he thinks he’s going to have SEX with Taylor because APPARENTLY he’s the one who got her famous. there are so many things wrong with this. 1.) she was accepting an award so obviously she had fans and good music. 2.) even if you did help her get famous why would you get sex. 3.) the only reason half the people in this world know your name is because your an asshole

CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW ADEN LOOKED SO PROUD AND IN AWE OF LEXA WHEN SHE KILLED NIA AND BASICALLY GAVE ROAN HIS FREEDOM

He looks up to her so much, and Lexa’s proud of him as he is for her and i’m just ??? Their relationship is the cutest thing and I’m here for it. IF SOMEONE HURTS ADEN THIS SEASON I AM GOING TO BE HEARTBROKEN AND LEXA WOULD KILL A BITCH

Karlie immediately stopped bobbing her head when she heard the lyrics. My poor baby. I feel so bad that she had to go through that. I’m so sick and tired of Kanye picking on Taylor and making nasty comments about her when all she has done has been nice to him. Taylor has been so successful and I am so proud of her and she really doesn’t deserve this. God. He’s such a jerk.