As I lay wondering in bed, with the lights out, listening to music, and weeping at the fact that I am not in a relationship with Sam Smith, I cant help but wonder why God the almighty creator would make me gay rather than straight. This has not been the first time that I have wondered this, but the one time that it has truly hit me harder than any time.
Growing up my parents never really forced religion in our household. It was, however, one thing that we knew about, but we were never forced to go to church. Also growing up I was always told that God will loved you for you and nothing else. When I was older I decided that I wanted to go to church, however, they always ended the same, preaching hate and discouraging those who were trying to identify themselves. I had given up hope that I would be able to worship this fantastic God that did not hate you for being you. I luckily found a church that accepted me for who I was, and even better would allow me to wear pj’s to church if I wanted too! I was then baptized at the age of 18 into a Methodist church that had accepted me for being gay.
Truth be told, not all Christians are the same. Every gay person needs to realize this. We are so caught up in the fact that “Christians worship the bible and only the bible and if they don’t then they are not true Christians”. This is indeed not true because the true Christians will love thy neighbor and there are some out there that don’t care who you are that they just want you to know about God and Jesus. So stop being so defensive about being gay and just see the view that someone else is trying to make without commenting.
I believe that God put me here to do something amazing and that I will do in his honor. He may have put me through some crazy shit, but I have to keep believing that I am here to do something amazing and I will know what it is when the time comes. Why are you here and what can you do to change the world?