• <p> <b><p></b> <b>Me in the week following 4x03:</b> look come this time next week it will all be better - there's a secret episode, obviously, it's the only thing that makes sense - ALL the evidence is there, we're still finding more as we speak; i swear, you blink right now and someone's found more evidence - and it's going to air this Sunday and then everything will be better. It's going to be GENIUS. The Appletree Yard is fake, and Mofftiss are the cleverest men to ever clever. The lost special is real, people. "Everyone always stops looking after three," but we won't! We know better!!<p/><b>Me when the Appletree Yard was not a secret episode:</b> oh. Ok then. Well. Obviously the secret episode will air on the fifth week, then - Appletree Yard is scheduled for five weeks, but there's only four episodes of it - hahaha, BBC thinks they're so clever, but we have them figured out. The evidence is all there, it's so OBVIOUS; come at me, lost special<p/><b>Me when Appletree Yard ends and no secret sherlock episode is shown:</b> ...oh. right. Well. Clearly it's actually going to happen on March 8th then. You know - that poster in 4x02: "the secret will be revealed on March 8". I know we were all hoping it would be sooner, March is pushing it a little, but at least we know we're getting it on March 8th<p/><b>Me when March 8 passes with no secret fourth episode:</b> ...Right. Ok. Yeah, I'm... done. I'm out. I'm finished. Clearly there is no 4th episode. There was never a 4th episode. We've all just deluded ourselves into believing there would be. All the "clues" we spotted were just wishful thinking. It was just us making mountains out of molehills. Mofftiss aren't as clever as we thought they were and season 4 really was just that badly written and disjointed and plotholey. I haven't been this disappointed and crushed since the cursed child. Excuse me while I go sit in a corner and ponder the futility of faith<p/><b>One of the sherlock team:</b> *tweets vaguely about easter and how it's a time for new life and things coming back from the dead*<p/><b>Tumblr:</b> *notices that the ambassador in 4x01 was playing chess and talking about how three months is an awfully long time to play chess, points out that it will be exactly three months since tfp on Easter weekend*<p/><b>Me, as my hope rises like a kraken from the sea:</b> fucking hell. I'm never going to give up hope, am I<p/></p><p/></p>
Octo update:

Our little kraken is still as feisty as ever! She is constantly amazing me with her unique behavior and with the things she is able to learn and do. We have yet to come up with an enrichment device that she is not able to figure out, and I am currently searching for some fun holiday-themed items to use with her in the coming weeks. It’s safe to say that my octopus obsession is far from over <3

Can’t remember the last time I didn’t hate this vessel
I’m meant to be just a ship passing through
But this sea is clinging to me
Floating in obscurity, insecurity
Don’t know where I’m headed
But I think I’m taking on water
This journey’s taking over me

Just trying to head from point A to point B
Where point A is who I used to be
The second point is meant to be a better me
But I’m stuck in the middle, caught in between
I can’t see shoreline A and I can’t see shoreline B

Waves are crashing over me
I don’t know what lives in this ocean
But I know it wants to take my soul from me

Dark thoughts begin and a storm cracks over me
And I start to wonder if this black sea
Is really just coming from me
Am I trapped in a rocky ocean like I’ve always believed
Or just wallowing in my own tears
A man-made lake of insecurities

Well one thing’s clear: I’m my own worst enemy
Dreamed up a sea monster trying to pull me down
A kraken looking for me to drown
But the only one out here is me

Now I know
I’ve been stopping myself
The person I want to be would be within reach
If it weren’t for my own mind screaming at me

I can’t silence my mind, but I can change the ride
I’m not this boat, this boat’s not me
It’s a vessel built up of negative thoughts
But I’m my own person, so I get off and swim

It’s an uphill battle
My new perspective won’t vanquish the waves
But at least now I’m free of this self-made prison that I thought was just me

Pouring all my strength into my body, I swim towards shore
I dream of sandy beaches and blue, blue skies
Looking ahead I see a shape in the water
I hear a voice calling out to me

“Your efforts are admirable, but there’s no need”
Coming forth is a boat of a different kind
This one’s not my mind trying to destroy me
It’s a loving craft and upon it I see
My friends and my Lord and my family

They’re all reaching out to me

I’ve not yet reached shoreline B
But I’ve found a better way to pass the time
Wind in my hair, sun at my back
My demons are still screaming
But the journey’s not so bad with hope and help surrounding me


On ferry tickets they always have words that identify which sailing you’re on, so they can tell at a glance if you’ve bought the wrong ticket or you’re trying to sneak on. Usually the word is something like urchin, or otter.

I’m waiting for the word to be kraken.

Hikaru: I’ll sell you some of my adderall.
Haruhi: No, thanks. I’m off pills.
Hikaru: That’s a wise choice. ‘Cause I knew this guy; he had this like crazy freakout 'cause he took too many behavioral meds at once and he just like ripped off his clothes and dove into the fountain and was like “Blah! I am a kraken from the sea!”
Haruhi: I heard that was you.
Hikaru: …Well, it was good seeing you

musical theatre misconceptions i’ve had

i have a lot of really bad musical theatre misconceptions i’ve had mainly stemming from the fact i usually listen to cast albums without knowing the show first, but not all of then are 100% my fault.

  • “Am-scray punk! She’s the King of New York” I thought ‘Am-scray’ was literally a character’s name, Katherine’s name (who I only knew as “girl Newsies character,
  • “I was louder than the crack in the bell” I must have listened to that 4-5 times before I stopped thinking it was “kraken the bell”, like the sea monster thing.
  • I thought Anything Goes was about lesbian sailors (at least one). Then I thought it was about a lesbian love triangle (based on a pronoun change in a single-song clip).
  • Because the most popular Spring Awakening clip was “Bitch of Living”, for a long-ish time I thought Ernst was Bobby Maler (because of how the song is set up). I also thought it took place at boarding school for a pretty long time despite evidence it didn’t.
  • I originally didn’t want to see the Les Mis 2012 movie because I thought the whole thing was in SPANISH, not even French, I saw it 8 times in theatres after though.
  • Corner of the Sky” was one of the first few musical theatre songs I heard as a really young kid (maybe 5-ish) and I always heard the lyrics as “colander of the sky”, like those strainers and I thought they were talking about giant metal bowls with tiny holes in them.
  • I don’t remember which song but sometime in RENT, someone says something like “AZT break” and I thought it meant like “AZ tea” like an iced tea break, and honestly I didn’t find out otherwise until at a GSA meeting when my advisor told us.
  • In Avenue Q in “My Girlfriend Who Lives in Canada” there’s that line “…and sucks like a Hoover” and until the other day I didn’t realise that Hoover referred to a vacuum? I thought it referred to President Herbert Hoover? I presumed that it was a double entendre in which Rod is saying that Hoover’s political beliefs suck.