Current situation:

I hate summer. Summer is too flat, too placid, too summer.
My mind is like an engine, racing out of control; a rocket tearing itself to pieces trapped on the launch pad. I can’t just stay here and being as active as a sloth.

blushing-pretzel413  asked:

Hello, I am a 17 year old girl who is classified as a High Functioning Sociopath as well. I am curious as to what the most difficult part of life with Antisocial Personality Disorder has been for you? My apologies if you have answered a similar question before. I have just discovered your blog, so I have yet to explore further. Thank you.

The hardest thing I’ve had to deal with is finding the motivation to make something of myself. I have no motivation to become any title, earn X amount of money, or be remembered in anyway, so life is pretty bland. 

anonymous asked:

Hello , I am also diagnosed with being a high functional sociopath (or at least my psychologist says so ) and I have a question ... How do you get rid of your boredom ? , I am consumed by it and just want to find new subjects to spend my time on ...

I try to counteract it by forcing myself to do things I think I would enjoy. That’s how I came to love reading. Though the boredom will never disappear, it’s just something you’ll have to learn to cope with.

anonymous asked:

I've been in college for about a month now and have completely altered who I am. I've lied about my past and made myself more likable than I was in high school. So far it's working. I've asked you a question before (I'm classified as a high functioning sociopath as well). Anyways, you mentioned before of creating different personas. Have you ever had a situation when you were caught in a lie you've created? If so, how did you deal with that?

I don’t recollect ever being caught in a lie. If I were to be caught in a lie I would either deflect and move on to a different subject or blame your faulty memory on human error and the stress that college brings.