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Touko and Shigeru are the Best Parents of the Year!!! Or make that Best Parents Anyone Could Have ^^

Natsume is so blessed to have foster parents like them^^ omg this episode made me cry. This is the best episode of this season! I’d felt the previous episodes had lost the emotional impact season 3 and 4 had, and to me it kind of felt like they were trying to re-introduce the show to both old and new fans, and so the episodic episodes felt a bit like the first season (but then again, even season 1 was already overloaded with feels). But then they gave us this episode and OMG FEELS OVERLOAD

And so we talked to our relatives and friends, and then with each other for a long time, and we went to welcome Natsume Takashi. 

I almost cried when Touko went to see Natsume’s then-foster parents. I remember that episode so well because that was one of my favorite episodes!

aaaahhhhh (I am so going to watch that episode again!) It’s fun seeing what happens before Touko came to see Natsume that day^^

He looked a little lonely, but he was a very good boy.

I actually hoped we might see when they went to see him at the hospital later, but I guess they’re not showing that haha. And Touko is just so precious! I love her quirky, dreamy attitude^^ Best Mom! And Touko and Shigeru’s relationship is so wonderful! I want to know what their past is like! Especially after Touko said she “went through worse things in the past”

AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I CRIED! RIGHT AT THE END! BECAUSE

Touko: See that crow on the branch? It’s my friend! Can you see it?

Takashi: Yes. Oh, there are two there. Look, it’s hard to see through the branches but… Wow. I’ve never seen a white crow before. Is that an albino, perhaps? I’ve never seen it before.

OMG! Takashi-kun! Did you just do what I think you did? Something you swore you wouldn’t want neither Touko nor Shigeru to know! And Sensei knows!! And he could only sigh. 

I see… I’m glad. You’re not alone, are you? I’m sure it’s shining such a beautiful white that it’s hard to see, isn’t it?

And she accepted him! OMG I’m crying of happiness >< She accepted him, even though he saw things she couldn’t see! When everyone else had been shunning him for it! Takashi-kun, you are blessed having Touko-san and Shigeru-san with you and I’m happy for you that you’ve found a place where you can belong. And you should know that they will love you no matter what. 

Best Parents Ever!

since it’s been almost a year since i watched it for the first time, i am reminding you all that ‘Big Eden’ might be a PERFECT movie.
it’s a gay romcom about a painter living in new york who returns to the small country town he grew up in to take care of his sick grandfather, and reunites with his charming and friendly childhood best friend who has also moved back into town, and also his painfully shy former classmate who now runs the local general store.
there is NO homophobia, NO gay characters die, and there is a HAPPY ENDING. it’s just a sweet no-pressure feel-good movie that happens to be 100% gay. many people describe it as “every single AU fanfic trope you love come to life in a single movie” and it’s true.
plus, you get to see THIS extremely tall cute man fuss around in a tiny kitchen cooking fancy food, and isn’t that what you’ve always wanted in life?

and it’s on NETFLIX!!! PLEASE WATCH BIG EDEN

We need to talk about Vegeta

 Since all y’all have been doing is give him shit for not training/fighting with Goku and staying with Bulma, I think it’s time to make something clear: Vegeta is the most human character of Dragon Ball.

And fuck, there’s so much that can prove it.

Before talking about Dragon Ball Super, let’s go back to Dragon Ball Z, where it all started.

I first watched DBZ almost 11 years ago, when I was a 6 years old little girl. Of course I didn’t realize the depth of his persona when I was a child, but looking at him now is easy to see it.

Don’t tell me you can’t remember the scene where he cries before dying on the Frieza saga. 

“Listen! You have to hear this! We worked so hard for him. We did everything he asked of us and more. He took me from my father when I was just a little boy! He made me do whatever he wanted, he said he would kill my father if I didn’t. I did everything he asked but he killed him anyway along with everyone else! He was scared of us”

Goku asks him to say no more, to save his strengths. The Prince of All Saiyans, the proudest warrior to ever exist was crying in front of him and about to beg him to do something. You can’t tell me it wasn’t a powerful scene.

Kakarott, please… Destroy Frieza… He made me what I am. Don’t let him do it to anyone else.

Vegeta was raised by a fucking space tyrant (a.k.a Frieza) while watching his father and his people being humiliated by him. I know that being an asshole is natural for a Saiyan, but what if Vegeta had been raised in a different place? What if he had been raised on Earth, like Goku was?

We all know how Vegeta is a proud warrior and how much he’s proud of being a Saiyan. He grew up thinking he was the strongest man on the universe, but once he’s defeated by Goku on Earth he spents his whole life trying to surpass him. 

Even though Vegeta is a Saiyan warrior the truth is that he never really learned what it is to be a warrior, he never had a master, only his natural talent to fight. And exactly because he was talented, even after Frieza cowardly annihilated the whole Saiyan race, Vegeta didn’t stop working for him, even though he hated him.

Well, of course he marked Goku as his eternal enemy. It was a shock for him as his ego to see someone like Goku. How could someone like him, who was always so merciful, always saw the good things on the worst situations, someone who was always smiling and didn’t really have time to hate on other people, be so strong?

This is what I’m trying to say, even though I may be using the wrong words to express myself: Vegeta never learned how to be a warrior like Goku, he never had masters to teach him not just to fight but how to fight with respect and to help the ones who aren’t as strong as he is. The only thing he learned from Frieza was that the strongest will prevail. That’s why everytime we see Vegeta letting his feelings come out is something so strong. At least it is for me.

And I dare to say that the best scenes in Dragon Ball aren’t the fight scenes, or the transformation scenes, but the ones where Vegeta really talks, where he let us see the truth he’s always hiding so deep in his hearth. 

“ I used to fight for the sheer of pleasure of it; for the thrill of the hunt, oh I had the strength unmeasurable - I spared no one. And yet, you showed mercy to everyone, even your fiercest enemies, even me! Yet, you never fought to kill, or for revenge. Only to test your limits and to push yourself beyond them, to become the strongest you could possibly be. How can a Saiyan fight like that and at the same time be so gentle that he wouldn’t hurt a fly?” - Vegeta talks about Goku before admitting to himself that Goku is the best - Dragon Ball Z: Majin Buu Saga.

And everytime Vegeta reveals something, he shows us that he knows he shouldn’t be as proud as he is, that he shouldn’t act like this. But he just doesn’t know how to act in another way, and maybe this is what makes him so frustrated about Goku. 

Did you ever notice that Vegeta is afraid of dying? He’s terrified. His expression when he’s in danger is probably the ‘scariest’ out of all the characaters in Dragon Ball.

Sorry? I never thought I’d hear that from Vegeta. He must be saying that since he knows there’s nothing we can do.” - Gohan after being surprised by Vegeta’s ‘sorry, Gohan’: Dragon Ball Z - Cell Saga

On this scene, as Gohan fights Cell, every Z Warrior try to help him somehow, even the weakest ones, but Vegeta hesitates. It’s easy to notice that he’s afraid, even though he’s the only one who can really make a difference. And guess what? At the end, he does. He’s the one who gives Gohan the opportunity to end Cell.

After that, Piccolo says what Vegeta did was brave. There goes his pride again, lmao.

“He [Goku] has beaten me completely. First by his own actions, and then through his sons. And what does he left for me here? How? How could you die like that? How, Kakarott? I’ll never have the chance to prove my strenght against you. You died without fear, what does that make of me? I am no warrior, and I will never fight again.” - Vegeta, after helping Gohan defeat Cell.

And it makes me go back to the Majin Buu saga, where Vegeta sacrifices himself. Even though it was in vain, Vegeta sacrificed himself to save his loved ones, and this is probably the most significative attitude in DBZ.

“You may have invaded my mind and my body, but there’s one thing a Saiyan always keeps: his PRIDE!”

And this is the scene that leads me to Dragon Ball Super and Vegeta’s recent decisions of not fighting/training to stay with Bulma.

Here it is: he’s acting like a family man, like a father, like a husband. Of course it’s not what we’re used to, because Vegeta rarely shows his feelings about his family, but can’t you see it? He cares about them, he loves them, he sacrificed himself because of them and he would do it again if he had to.

 Goku is stronger than him, but Vegeta is still the one who accomplished the most. Goku is continually becoming stronger and stronger and easily defeats the bad guys… while leaving his family behind.

Don’t get me wrong. I know this whole post makes it look like Vegeta is my favorite character, but he isn’t. Actually, Goku is. My point here is that Vegeta overcame his greatest weaknesses and flaws, and ironically, he became much more dedicated to his family than Goku ever was or will be, despite his kind and loving personality. Goku is the one who’s always leaving, and Vegeta is staying.

Your just two steps away now - don’t stop now.


So I ended up almost teary-eyed at all the Aqua segments in the new trailer for KH 2.8 - I’m  so hyped to see what will happen and just, seeing much more of the water queen.

@skystarcat tagged me in a thing and now I must s u f f e r

A - Age: 16 but I’ll be 17 in less than a month
B - Birthplace: like… northern VA somewhere
C- Current Time: 6:59 am bc I wake up hella early boys
D - Drink You Last Had: Water
E - Easiest Person to Talk to: I’m literally always talking to anyone about anything I have no emotional barriers and if I have something to talk to the easiest part is finding someone who’ll listen
F - Favorite Song: who could pick just one tho………. (Southern Point by Grizzly Bear, Keep the Car Running by Arcade Fire, Who Could Win a Rabbit by Animal Collective just to name a few)
G- Grossest Memory: The first time I ever asked a girl out and my childhood bully was watching and laughing at me and I almost cried
H - Horror yes of Horror no: I’m super into horror movies and games in concept like I love paranormal and all that jazz but I’m squeamish af
I - In Love?: I fall in love like most people my age fall asleep.. .… …. .. far too often and for too long
J - Jealous of People: Always like how are there people without depression or in healthy happy relationships wtf
K - Killed someone?: WHO WOULD ADMIT TO THIS EVEN IF THE ANSWER WAS YES
L - Love at First Sight or Should I Walk By Again: I have no idea what this means but I can get crushes just by looking at someone bc people are cute so I’m gonna go with Love at First Sight I guess?
M - Middle Name: Paul, the most boring name of all time
N - Number of Siblings: 2
O - One Wish: someone to love me
P - Person You Called Last: me momther
Q - Question You’re Always Asked: um… do people get asked the same question regularly is this a normal thing?? like “are you gay”? what does this mean
R - Reason to Smile: love again all I want is to be loved quiz stoP PROBING ME
S - Song You Sang Last: that is a fantastic question I think it was Cleopatra by the Lumineers
T - Time You Woke Up: too fucking early brah 5:30 am
U - Underwear Colour: dark blue I think I just took a shower but idk really
W - Worst Habit: I rip my hair out when it gets long and bite at my skin when my hair isn’t long enough to pull and I drive the people I love the most away with my emotional instability and I throw personal information out on the internet just because a non-sentient quiz is asking me questions
X - X-Rays: I don’t know what this is asking but I’ve only ever been X-rayed for my shitty teeth as a child and now they good
Y - Your Favorite Food: like a tie between Pad Cee Eew (thats probably how thats spelled) and either flautas or tamales idk bruh
Z - Zodiac Sign: The Fish One That Tumblr Horoscopes Always Say Love Aquariums In “Where To Take The Signs On A Date” Who The Fuck Doesn’t Love Aquariums Stop Saying I Want To Fuck Fish Internet

Uh I guess I tag @maddymayh3m @the-eleventh-element @asvia-tan @notafluffycloud @strawberrymeister

Interviewer/relatives/friends:  What do you want to be when you grow up?

Me: 

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ROASTED FENNEL & BURRATA TOAST FROM ON TOAST.

When I finally made it home—my Maui home, my Ulupalakua home, my home in the middle of nowhere on the slopes of Haleakala—I completely collapsed. I stopped answering texts. And phone calls. And emails. I cooked for the first time in two weeks. I cooked without documenting, without a recipe, without a plan. I cooked because I wanted to. And then I slept. I slept long and hard and when I woke up I was almost more exhausted than the night before. I cancelled all my plans to see old friends and I laid on the couch and watched Fifty Shades of Gray and cried in my exhausted, jet-lagged, premenstrual state. It was glorious. I napped dreamlessly and I only woke up when Susan came home. Hours of sleep later, I began to feel something like human again.

I walked outside, barefoot, to the place we once said had the strongest concentration of plant spirits. I stood in this fluttering vortex of green leaves and sunlight and shadows and insects and spirits seen and unseen and I let everything fall away, slough off like dead skin cells in a fierce Korean spa scrub.

Read more and get the recipe from Kristan Raines’ new book On Toast here!

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10 hours

That’s how long it took us to hike Elbert, the tallest mountain in Colorado. The Little athlete could have easily finished it in 5. She dropped this old lady and the girl who had been in Colorado less than 12 hours after she tired of all our breaks. But for us, we fought Elbert for TEN HOURS.

The hike had been up in the air in the morning. We had to make the decision before the sun was up. We could tell the clouds were low and there was fog. There was a 50/50 chance it would burn off. The LA didn’t want to hike at 5 am. @amft didn’t want to hike if the view wasn’t going to be there. We went for it. It stayed cloudy, misty, foggy the entire hike. When we reached the summit we took photos and watched the clouds clear out and I saw the mountains for the first time. I almost cried.

The hike got tough. We had moments of doubt and defeat. We stopped talking. And then in an instant it was all forgotten. The struggle, the tears, the doubt - all gone. I always forget how hard a mountain is. I’ve taken a shower and an aleve. And I feel better already. But tomorrow.. It’s gonna be tough.

it’s been almost 24 hours and i just can’t stop smiling. the country stopped to watch a football match. thousands of people skipped work today just to celebrate this. we could be the shittiest winners in the history of football it still wouldnt make up for the times we played pretty and lost. i witnessed portugal’s first title, it was something some of my relatives dreamed to see before dying, but it was destined for my generation to stop the country like we did yesterday. it’s so beautiful

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SHIMOTSUKI WEEK Day Two Favourite Relationship + Yayoi Kunizuka

“It’s okay. Even Inspectors have the right to cry.”

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I’ve never watched police brutality videos not fully anyways maybe a couple seconds. I always look at the pictures instead. This is my first time really watching one and honestly I almost cried. I’m not sure what’s worse the cops or the white adults. How can you stand and let some thing like this happen. I bet you my savings if these were whites he would NOT pull this! Specially towards a white girl. The end was actually the saddest part he literally put his knees on her. This girl does not look more than 110 pounds how threatening could you feel by her? And as usual the first thing they did was put him on leave, rather than addressing the issue at hand. Is this the idea of “protect and serve”? And he had the nerve to say they have him running around in these heavy equipment? Sir exactly who gives a crap? It is part of your job to wear it, part of your job is being active you knew this from day one! So heavy or not it is irrelevant. The other officers were trying to figure out what’s going but you on the other hand thought you were filming a cop show for fox. If the purpose is to serve and protect when it comes to brown folks seem like y'all to protect at lower rate but kill and abused at higher rate. 

-Pierre

Another fruit bat is born 💪🍌

Hi Freelee! First I wanted to say THANK YOU. You changed my life. I’ve been stuck in a depression for the past 4 years. I was only eating meat and some veggies and a LOT of fastfood to ‘comfort’ me.  And  about1 months ago I came across one of your video’s. At first i was skeptical but everything you said kinda made sense! So I watched Earthlings one night and after many tears of watching it, I instantly became VEGAN. Apart from doing something good for the planet and animals.  for the first time in months and months I did something good for ME too. I am now one month being high carb vegan, and it is not hard at all. I don’t feel like I’m missing anything because I’m MUCH more fulfilled in other ways. Before the day that I went vegan I had been inside my house for literally 2 months without going outside or even out of my bed. I cried everyday almost every waking hour and I stuffed myself with horrible food. But since the day i’ve became high carb vegan i’ve been outside for 10 - 15 times in one month!! Only to buy fruits at the market instead of ordering in. I know it doesn’t seem like much to you as you are always outside, but for me it’s like the world has changed and I smiled again when feeling the sun on my skin. I am still very overweight from my abuse and not having the will to get out of bed. And als of now I’m still to inactive to lose a lot of weight, but I have a hope that my feeling desperation will fade more with time and I will be able to go outside and move even more! I also got the courage to go talk to someone and I am now finally getting help. And it’s because of your video’s.  It’s feels good to have a purpose again, saving the planet and the animals! I know it sounds a bit much maybe, but now I’m crying tears of happiness because I’m not feeling so so desperate anymore. So again, thank you so much Freelee,  I still have a long way to go but you really already changed my life. 

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Sorry for maybe being late but.. I’m still going to tell you my feelings about Jibcon6. Or should I say MishaCon? Because for me this year was totally just about Misha. So I went there with not caring feelings about show. I haven’t watched spn since 10x9. I wasn’t interested. But I went there just because of Misha. That was my one and the only reason. I thought that when I see him first time at con I’d be calm. More or less. But heeeeell noooo. I was standing in a first row when he was walking to photo op room before opening ceremony and he just looked at my eyes.. I got lost. I almost cried. I understood how much I missed him. It’s been a year! C'mon. I had 3 photos with him so I’ve decided to take first one on Friday. Btw he was wearing leather jacket. Yessss. And I was wearing minion tie. He noticed it and said Nice tie! I couldn’t even say what I wanted to do with photo so he just pulled my tie over his shoulder and looked at my eyes. Again. That was soooo hot. Then we made eye contact for about 3-4 seconds but it seemed like FOREVER and I went out of the photo op room on my shaking legs. I still can’t forget the colour of his eyes after my first photo last year (and thank God). This time his eyes were a little lighter. But still deep and very beautiful. That evening I also went to cocktail party which was veeeery short. We’ll it seemed so though it was  for like 2 hours. Misha looked tired. And I couldn’t take my eyes off him all evening. He was so hot though in his leather jacket. Please wear it always! 

Second day began with m&g with Misha. I was a little bit nervous. I prepared a question for him about what he was talking about at Friday panel - Michael Jackson. Was he (or is he) his fan. It was important for me because Michael is the second light and sun in my life after Misha. So then he came in wearing his blue shirt and he was sooooo good-looking I can’t even tell you. Almost all the time I was just staring at him and trying to listen to him. And finally people were out of questions so I took my chance. I asked him if he were or maybe he is now a Michael Jackson fan because he was talking about him a little at his Friday panel. And that was important to me because I am huge MJ fan. And he was talking to me. Just me. That thought couldn’t get out of my head. Though he is not a fan or even not inspired by his charity (he actually wasn’t aware of it which was surprising for me). The whole meet thankfully wasn’t short. It was so great. I don’t regret about the money I spent on it. It totally paid off. And after meet I was crying in my hotel room because Misha is a beautiful and the greatest human being. He has to be illegal :D

The second photo. I was wearing beautiful dress and minion hat :D that was kinda funny to catch some strange stares! Hey, I’m Misha’s fan for god’s sake, that just must be normal. Actually I thought to make this photo differently.  I said (I could do it!) “let’s make two hot minions attracted to each other”. We supposed to stand apart and look to each other attractively. But he just grabbed braids of my hat and pulled to himself. I was “Oh gosh so we’re doing this okay how does it look actually I HAVE NO IDEA WHATS HAPPENING”. And that was actually hotter than the first one. I saw photo only next morning. And that’s actually my favorite one. It’s bright. And hot. And also sweet! I like it the best. 

Well… It’s time to talk about the third photo. It was the hardest one for me. I was standing in a queue and was saying to myself It’s the last photo with Misha. The. Last. You won’t  see him for like a year. Or maybe never. I tried to calm myself down at the same time but I couldn’t. I started crying. My tries not to cry were hopeless. And I had to went away from queue and let my emotions go outside. That was really sad. My eyes and nose were red. I was not looking good. But still I went to take photo. I stepped to him and say “Just give me the warmest hug”. And he did. He was so warm and calming. The photo was taken and I said to him “Thank you, Misha, for being in my life”. He squeezed my arm and looked at me with a look I can’t even explain what it means. But it was totally something meaningful. And I can’t forget it. So then I just walked out of the room and started crying again while going to my room but this time that was out loud. It’s like a big hole appeared in my soul, inside me. That was hard.

And recently I’ve decided not to go to Jib7 despite the fact that I got a sinner pass. It’s hard to realize that I’m not gonna see Misha anymore. I guess that I saw him at the airport at Monday (18th may) while standing for opening  check-in table that was kinda goodbye sign. A final goodbye. And I guess there’s no need to say that I started crying when Misha disappeared in a crowd (I’ve been seeing him for a while, gosh my heart was jumping out of my chest).

so yeah. that’s my story)