Is it wrong that I want to have headmates? Other personalities that could be interacted with without relying on other physical people. And having a headspace to retreat to when I get overwhelmed by something. It sounds like such a cool/interesting experience and I wish I could partake. Im sorry if this is at all offensive to anyone.. im just really curious about what it would be like. Who would i have? Popular fictives? Obscure references? Nobody knows.
i mean it is a cool experience but at the same time it’s really fucking difficult.
in our own personal experience, it takes a lot of time to get used to being a system. plus it comes with it’s own difficulties, like since i’ve gotten more headmates there’s been new phobias, more breakdowns and triggers because of more people, fights, drama with people outside the system from something another system member did, constant dissociation, and a lot more.
like i know that it seems cool to have headmates but there are a lot of problems with it too. and don’t get me wrong, i love my headmates and i wouldn’t integrate for the world but being a system for the sake of it being cool or wanting to belong in the community or whatever is kiindaaaa eh. (and no this is not hating on endogenic systems so gatekeepers fuck off)