It may be just that time of the year, but I feel pretty crappy. It’s not just the fact I’m always sick, but it just seems like life is so much of a struggle.
I try to stay so positive and happy all the time. Sometimes it just wears me down. Today is one of those days. I don’t feel like I have accomplished much of anything while being at college. I feel like it was a waste of my time. I wish I could have just focused on the actual classes and studies that mattered. Yet I was stuck dealing with a bunch of general education classes that just got in the way. Not to mention my school made us attend chapel and take certain biblical courses. I know I’m a Christian, but I don’t have time to focus my study time on your class when it’s barely even more that just your biased opinion being forced down my throat.
I wanted to grow my craft and develop my style. If I had been able to practice every day like I wanted, and worked on my music all the time I would have been a lot happier and a lot more prepared for the real world. However, I don’t feel like I am completely prepared. I will now start to have that time, but now I need to find a way to do all of that and support myself. It doesn’t seem like their is ever a break in life. I know I will bounce back, but for now I just really need some feedback or just encouragement. My life isn’t all that bad, I just can’t help but feel down and defeated.