i never stopped loving you

anonymous asked:

Your art is amazing! Always keep drawing and never let that bad anon being you down!

Awww thanks but it didnt really hurt me honestly because I’m only doing it for my for myself and my followers! So haters gonna hate while I’m just chilling and drinking my caprisun.

ALSO THANK YOU EVERYBODY FOR THE SWEET WORDS CAUSE IT REALLY MEANS ALL LOT TO AND ME. I OF COURSE I WILL NEVER STOP DRAWING SILLY! I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH! 💞❤💞❤❤😆❤😆🍪

I wonder if you ever felt like I abandoned you….  
If you ever thought I should have fought for you…

The truth of it is I never left.  
I’m still here.  
And I do fight for you - every single day.   
Not to win you…. not to trap you or cage you…  
But for your happiness.

I wage war on myself day in and day out for you.  
Tearing strips off myself, swallowing hatred and tears….  
So if you hate me because I abandoned you…. don’t worry…  
….. I hate myself for it too…
—  Ranata Suzuki
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will i ever stop making fanart for this fic????????? 

more gifts for @adreamingsongbird!! just think of this as me stuffing love letters in your shoe locker like in the animes 

Sometimes I still get these urges to contact you.
It feels like pure desperation…  Like my skin is crawling and my eyes are burning and I just want you back in my life so badly….
And I don’t know why? Where these sudden urges come from?
Why do I still do this, even after all this time?!
It’s like I'm getting out, I'm almost clear…. and then suddenly I feel like I would do absolutely anything just to have you back in my life again.
Even for a single moment…. Just to see you, talk to you - ANYTHING!
It’s like I don’t WANT to be out, I still want to be in love with you because in my mind, loving you equates to happiness and I just want that back… just for one second.
But I have to remind myself it’s not healthy. 
Loving you is not like it used to be - it's not real anymore.
It’s not happy, it’s not positive…. and it’s gone and I can’t go back.
All I can do is put the phone down, blink back the tears … and keep moving forward.
—  Ranata Suzuki
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yesss more fic fanart this time from this fic by @chonideno , its a hp au!! so beautiful written and pleaaaaase just go enjoy, its full of the sweet mutual pining here if you are into that.

Edit ahh almost forgot to mention its also inspired on @psych0-olll3city hp au

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Do I mind texting first? No, I will show that I care about you. Do I mind texting first for weeks and basically talk to myself for a whole conversation? Yeah, I kinda do. So forgive me if I’m done trying.
—  you had your chances

what is it about Gerard Way’s voice that makes me feel like I’m being held in someone’s arms and lulled to sleep while simultaneously being stabbed?

He never really spoke about her, or them. Whenever her name popped up in a conversation, a look would cross his face and he held back whatever he wanted to say. It wasn’t that he was just heart broken, he missed the memories he’d made with that girl. And I couldn’t blame him. I’d loved him longer than I could ever remember, but.. he fell for someone else, and she replaced the gap I left. I wasn’t angry about this, I just regretted ever letting him go. And I hoped she did too.
—  An excerpt from a book I’ll never write. (#54)