i just happen to agree a lot with this

Honestly I feel like Jack’s 15 mil milestone was one of the most meaningful milestones yet.

Especially the part where he was talking about positivity and how people shouldn’t be expected to be happy 100% of the time because

a lot of youtubers say stuff like “You just need to go out there and be happy like I did” or “Just smile and treat everyone with respect even if they don’t agree with you” because…I can’t do that. A lot of people like me with depression can’t be expected to be able to be positive 100%, and I feel like Jack understands this and wants to at least make us feel happy while watching his videos, even if it’s for a short period of time. If someone comes up to me and calls me a faggot who should burn in hell (which happens a lot) I can’t just be expected to smile and say “Hey It’s ok you don’t agree with me!”, that just raises the stigma and causes more hate to people like me. I should be allowed to say “Hey fuck you, man.” and go about my day without being walked on, you know? It’s a two way street, I can’t be expected to respect and listen to people who would never respect or listen to me.

I know youtubers mean well when they say “Respect everyone and things will be fine” and “just be happy.” But Jack is the only youtuber I’ve found who gets that sometimes I won’t be able to do that. I need to take things one step at a time and do what’s comfortable for me.

Anyway, I’m rambling, to sum up, I love my boy.

@therealjacksepticeye Thanks for being so understanding.


Edogawa Ranpo you little shit.

But I’m sure we all agree Atsushi is just a sweet cinnamon roll.

Based on this post by @enchantingnanami!

This is the last comic I’ll be making since I’m going on hiatus. I’m severely unsatisfied with my grades and I’m going to try to improve them. I’ll probably come back for a short time in late October. I’ll still post some of my art during the hiatus but not that much fandom stuff.


Okay, so I’m glad 2016 is over, but I have just one all encompassing New Years Resolution for everyone:

Don’t be passive this year. Don’t sit by and watch atrocities happen, content in being able to morally object things but then only hoping for and expecting someone else to make it better. We can all agree the world has faced many tragedies this past year, that a lot of bad things have happened, and maybe you did your part, maybe it was out of your control, but the fact of the matter is we can always do something to help the world and ourselves a little everyday. We can apply for that scholarship, email that job representative. We can step in when things are going bad instead of only filming it.  We can volunteer for causes close to ourselves. We can call our  local government representatives so that our discontent is actually heard and has a snowball chance of being taken seriously. 

2017 is going to suck as bad as 2016 if we let it. With the people currently coming into power, it’s not the time to sit by and simply be upset. It’s the time to do something. 

We are not going to let this year go bad without a fight. 

okay but picture this

alex pounding down lenas door at 11pm on a saturday with a very drunk kara leaning against her

alex apologizing over and over again while asking lena to watch kara for a few hours because DEO duty calls and kara is DRUNK and god knows what will happen if she is left alone

lena agreeing to watch her and kara just dealing out compliment after compliment after alex leaves until she eventually passes out on lenas couch

and lena, standing there, beet red and just so confused because “how did this even happen.”

Jack and Mark’s Demons

Alright, Dark and Anti theory time!

(Just giving you a heads up, it’s a bit long so thank you in advance if you take your time to read this!)

So, we all know about Antisepticeye and Darkiplier, right? (well, obviously ahah). Ok I’ve been thinking. What if @therealjacksepticeye and @markiplier sold their souls to demons for the fame and subs?

So it’d be like “hey so I sell you my soul and in exchange you make me YouTube famous and give me a lot of subs, how bout dah” and the demons would be like “yeah man, I gotcha, but in exchange you’ll let me take over your body once in a while, and no one would even notice because I would act the same way as you, it’s just that I can have a little freedom every now and then” and Jack and Mark would agree on those terms.

So, that’s what happened. They made the contract, gained their subs and fame and in exchange they would let the demons take their body occasionally as we can see on some of Jack’s videos such as Split personalities| reading your comments #47, and I think it’s safe to say kill or be killed| undertale #9  (and other undertale videos) when Jack did Flowey’s voice, or Mark’s videos such as Don’t Blink and don’t move, amongst others. 

Obviously, the demons did an amazing job at pretending to be Mark and Jack as we all caught on that something wasn’t right. In fear of being exposed, they shut out their demons and carried on with their normal lives. After all they already had a good fan base so even if the demons abandoned them, they could carry on gaining subs just by themselves, without supernatural help. 

This, obviously wasn’t well thought by Jack and Mark. If there’s one thing I know from basic knowledge and research and the Supernatural series (pfft) is that, if you mess with the supernatural, you’re fucked. These two shut out the demons they made a contract with. Obviously that pissed them off. After all the things they did for Jack and Mark, after all the subs and fame, this is how they treat them? That’s not fair! So, they started working on ways to get back at them for betraying them. They both worked towards a simple goal. Hurt their humans in the worst way possible for them.

For Jack, losing his voice, the thing that makes him stand out the most from other youtubers, would be the worst thing that could happen to him. Not being able to talk would be torture (and we all know Jack loves to ramble, he can pull a 20 minutes’ video out of his ass just by talking about pineapple pizza!), and he would lose his subs and fame and everything he worked on. So what did Anti do? He sliced Jack’s throat. He took Jack’s voice away so he could take over his body again. Maybe that’s one of the reasons why Anti’s voice is so glitchy now. In the past, you could understand him just fine (in the split personalities video and the undertale videos), but now you can’t understand him that well and that’s because he ruined jack’s most valuable thing about himself, even if it was temporary, or a symbolic thing. But the wound is open now and Anti can take over Jack’s body more easily again. Another proof? Jack got sick after is Pax panel 2017. What happened in his panel? Anti made an appearance. What was the most affected thing when jack got sick after that? His voice.

For Mark, hurting the ones he loves the most would be the worst thing ever. We all know how Mark is so caring about his fans, you can see that every time he cries for us, those tears are real. And Dark knows it. He knows we’re his weakness. At first, he tried to hurt Mark, as we can see on the video Relax. But I have the feeling Mark is one of those people who would rather be the one to get hurt to protect the other person. So Dark decided it would be useless to hurt Mark. Specially since he already hurts and tortures himself every time he does something like the ice bath challenge ahahah, I can just picture Dark facepalming while watching Mark doing these kinds of videos. anyway, Dark decided to wait for the perfect opportunity to strike back. The perfect opportunity to finally be able to hurt the ones Mark loves. And when did that happen? On valentine’s day. The day you spend with someone you really care about. It was the perfect timing to attack. And that’s what Dark did. Not only would he get to hurt and mentally torture us but he would get to do the same things to Mark. Dark threatened usI can specially take you to the places where you don’t want to go”/ “THERE’S NOTHING YOU OR HE CAN DO TO STOP ME!”/ you’re never, ever going to escape me, and mentally tortured us by

1)      Putting us on a loop every time we chose the “Exit” option, which would drive us crazy since we were the only ones aware of the fact that this was a never-ending loop of either watching Mark dig the floor with a damn spoon  -____- or us being attacked by the crazy cook every time we wanted to escape;

2)      Making us choose which Mark to kill and the fear of killing the wrong one (I don’t know about you guys but when it came to the time of choosing which Mark to kill, it gave me anxiety xD)

And as for Mark, not only was he tortured as well, by watching us go through all that, he was also killed and more than once! Killed and brought back to life multiple times can’t be good for you.

The reason Anti and Dark had different approaches to Jack and Mark was because they’re different types of demons. Different types of demons for different types of people. 

This was Antisepticeye and Darkiplier’s way of showing Jack and Mark they can’t back down on a deal made with demons.

Now that we know about their existence, ţ̶̜̫̝̽h̴̟̱̳̬͒̌̈͛͑̅͘ȩ̷͕̘͕̦̋͋̐̉͛r̵͉̭͂e̶͕̮̘̍͐́͒͑̆̊'̸̼͎̋̽̊̀̾̉̅ͅŝ̵̛̹͕̻̳̰̂ ̷͔͇̱̜̣̉ͅͅn̷̛̹̺̆̇́ȯ̷͖́̋̚͠ ̶̢̡̰̤̘̮̋̽̓̉p̶̛͕͉̯͙̈́̌ö̸̤̺́͑͊̈́̓̕͜i̴̗͚̦̥̳͍̋̓̽͊͊̓͠n̶̡̢̢͈̹̹̿̅̑͝ṱ̵̛͕̳͎̾̌͘ ̸̢͉̳̫̣̜͇̐͗̏̆́̌͠i̴̢̩̙̣̫̽͊̕n̷̙̞̄̏̀͑͘̕ ̷̡̗͖͔͍̿̆̉͗̾̈́h̵̳̹̻̜͇̿i̴̲͙͒̓̈́͑̒͂d̸̜̰͎̟͆̄͑͌͘͜i̴̡̖͙͔̞̲̋n̶̡͍̮̘̮͛́͠ͅg̷͚͈̓̇̆̊̎̚ ̸̥̥̼̒̾̉͆͂̍å̴͚͓͘n̶͓̆ͅỷ̶͔̱̄̉̃m̶̘͐̒̅̂͑͝o̴̡̻̖̹̬͌ŗ̶͍̜̭́̒̿́̄̚ȅ̷̠̥̜̬͚̺̘̓͆̆̄̈.̸̛̙̩̝̫̺̈́̌͆͑̎͆͜.

(jokes aside, we all know Jack and Mark gained their subs and fame for their talent and kindness because they’re genuinely amazing people)

edit: it looks like part of my theory looks like this specific theory that is absolutely amazing as well, but I don’t want it to look like I’ve stole it from the person who wrote it so I’m crediting them. if you haven’t read it, I suggest you do because it’s really good! @fandombandomrandom42 I just want to apologise again for making you think I stole this idea from your theory without crediting you :/

dead chicken jokes are old and unfunny now, pls drop it. don’t send me any more asks about it. it was funny at first to joke about shoma having no fashion sense but it’s gotten to the point where there’s more focus on his costumes than his skating. i honestly don’t care what he wears at worlds, i just want him to skate well. i don’t agree with all his decisions but at least i can recognize he’s his own person and can make his own decisions.

also this twitter thread sums up my feelings about the skating fandom’s recent tendency to treat shoma like a little kid. it’s a good read and i recommend it for everyone. i have personally called myself his “mom” before and i think this has exacerbated the problem, and i will try to avoid this kind of vocabulary in the future. in my case, i feel protective of him because i have literally watched him since he was 12, and have followed his journey for the past 6 years. i am also some years older than him. it may be hard sometimes for me to believe he’s grown up, but the fact is that he is 19 now, a legal adult in most of the world, and should be treated as such. the fact that he looks young is no excuse to still talk about him like he’s 10 (and tbh, even if he WERE 10, that’s still no excuse to be creepy). basically just…stop infantilizing shoma. watch how you speak. remember skaters are actual people and not a collection of tropes to blow out of proportion.

this has been a PSA

ETA: i feel like i need to clarify this, it’s not that calling shoma or other skaters a “bb” or “my child” is terrible on its own, but especially in shoma’s case it feeds into this perception of him as an actual child who doesn’t know what he’s doing and can’t make his own decisions. calling him “smol” and focusing on his height also feeds into it. take the costume thing for example, i thought loco 2 was ugly to the point it was distracting from his program, and since there was a feedback option on his website i decided to send him a polite message to consider keeping the old costume. somehow “dead chicken” got blown so out of proportion that as late as last week i was deleting asks about it from my inbox. like half the periscope comments on shoma’s CDP videos were about his damn costumes. the joke turned from “lol shoma has no fashion sense” to “LOL SHOMA IS DUMB AND CAN’T MAKE DECISIONS”. there’s been a rather alarming shift from appreciating shoma as both a dedicated athlete and dorky guy off-ice to simply talking about him as a “smol confused child”. i’ve seen tweets and posts that go way too far.

i am guilty of starting some of this/unintentionally making it worse. but i feel like this kind of behavior is starting to cross the line and i’m tired of seeing it for the past few months. i am not accusing everyone, i would just like people to examine what they say and do. i will examine and check my own words as well. it should not be that hard to know when you’re just being affectionate and when you cross the line into creepy and offensive.

and ftr, none of us actually know shoma. we don’t get to see inside his head or know what happens in his day-to-day training or why exactly he makes the decisions he does. we can speculate all we want but the fact is that we don’t know him and all we can really see of his personality is from interviews. he can indeed be spacey and a little weird. he’s also extremely mature and self-aware when it comes to many things, including his skating. it’d be really nice if we could focus on the latter point, as well.

So ever since the revival happened I’ve seen the words “pining” and “like Luke” a lot when people start talking about Jess and I thought I’d add my two cents on the debate. While I do agree that a) Jess deserved a much better and more in depth storyline and b) the Jess-Luke parallels are intentional and point to a future with Rory (and I completely understand anyone who is disappointed by his scenes), I absolutely do not agree that Jess is now portrayed as a pining lost man who doesn’t know how to let go and keeps watching the woman he loves from the sidelines. If this was the case, he’d act so in his scenes with Rory. He’d throw her ~meaningful looks~ and he’d make comments hinting at their romance and how much he loved her and/or was hurt by her. I’m not saying that the Rory/Jess stuff would have to be full of “unrequited love” kind of angst but a line or two would be thrown in there. Instead, Jess acts completely normal around her, answers things about his personal life  (vaguely but with no hint he’s waiting around for her) and he shows no signs of inner struggle or lingering feelings to her (and to Luke when asked about it).

What I got from the revival is that Jess is fine with his life, moving on, growing as a person, casually dating and doing a job he loves. When he looks back and sees Rory through the window he allows himself a moment to acknowledge that yep this is still not over before taking a deep breath and going back to the life he’s built. Honestly, he seemed really settled and calm during this whole thing for me to buy that he’s unhappy because he can’t have Rory. But that’s just what I think.

A quick sketch bc a lot of people in the yuri on ice tag seem to want to see Victor cry and while I agree, I don’t want that to happen because of something tragic and heartbreaking but because he’s watching Yuuri convey their whole love story with his FS program and Victor realizes he just loves that man so much

lfcoffee  asked:

I feel like so many people are missing the underlying psychological point. He didnt realize he liked killing until that moment. It wasn't like a secret and he walked about thinking: "I can't let anyone know." He didn't know- and it probably isnt true; just a fear he has that Adrian manipulated him into feeling. But even if it is his ultimate buried truth: I keep reading people saying that they retconned his character and motivation, but that isn't right. He believed he did it to honor his dad

Agreed, agreed, agreed! 

This was a very subtle episode in that it required a lot of introspection not only on Oliver’s part but our part as the viewer. This wasn’t a surface episode, despite what it contained, despite the very outward torture happening. This was a callback episode to the entire series, to everything Oliver went through, to everything he’s built his life on. 

Despite the changes in his life, the people who have entered it and changed it, there was always this base belief inside him that something was wrong. We saw that last night. I think some part of him knew it, which is part of why he wanted to separate himself, why Talia was able to have him separate it. His immediate denial to Anatoly came from a place of fear, because he knows there’s something “wrong” with him, and that something is that he wants to kill people. If we think about everything he’s gone through, everything that was done to him, killing someone is a way to regain that control in his life, to pull himself back from the brink. He knows it’s wrong, but he can’t deny the power it gives him, he just can’t, because for so long he was so powerless in so many ways. 

And he honestly did believe he did those things to honor his father, absolutely! It was something he told himself, something he used to build his crusade on. Oliver’s journey is a series of very fine threads, all coming together to create the tapestry that is Oliver Queen. He is the small moments and the big moments and the bumps in the road along the way. (What a casual way to talk about the scarring mental and emotional trauma (and physical) that Oliver went through all these years.) It’s always, always going to be apart of him, but part of healing is ripping the scabs off those infected wounds and letting them heal properly. That’s what he did last night. 

Now Oliver has to step back and reevaluate his life, his motivation, his choices, and decide who he’s going to be. He can no longer tell himself he’s separating himself from the darkness because he is the darkness… except he doesn’t have to be. The last five years have been a lesson to him, teaching him that he has a choice. The Oliver we met in Season 1 felt like he didn’t have a choice - he had to separate or it would destroy him, and it would have then. But now, now he has the power and ability to wield it, to accept and make the choice to be better, to not kill, to not be the monster he spent all these years trying to keep in his cage.

In a lot of ways, Adrian helped Oliver. He just doesn’t realize it yet, and neither does Oliver. But he will.

I loved last night’s episode so much. I love Oliver Queen and last night simply cemented it all over again.

(I’m still so emotionally scattered after this episode, I’m still reeling from how powerful it was for me. It might have cemented my love for Oliver, but it also made me realize all over again just how emotionally tied to this goddamn character I am. So I’ve decided all of those feelings will be funneled back into Blood Hands, where I do all my proper over-thinking.)

So I feel like if I’m gonna describe what it’s like for me to be nonverbal I think you also need the context of how I am when I am verbal too. Words don’t always come out right or in the right order. A lot of the time I will forget to say words that are extremely important for context, or I forget words all together but know the meaning of what I want to say. Speaking out loud for the most part is very draining for me, unless it’s about a special interest.

I tend to go nonverbal in the evenings as that’s when I’m lowest on spoons, but it also happens for many other reasons or randomly. Sometimes I can make noises to agree or disagree. Sometimes it hurts to make any noise, or even thinking about trying to speak or make a noise hurts. Sometimes I want to speak and am just physically incapable of speaking.

When I’m nonverbal I find signing to be the easiest way to communicate. But I also type a lot cause it can be faster (for now at least)

2ps As Stuff I’ve Texted My Best Friend (Mod Lafayette Edition)

2p America: It’s 1 am right now and here I am, wishing Sam Adams was here railing my ass into oblivion.

2p China: In all ways, except physical, I am Pepe the frog.

2p England: Fondle my rolling pin.

2p France: I’m watching a guy making out with his iPhone in my work’s parking lot. This is happening right now.

2p Russia: Maybe the real Ted Cruz was really just the friends we made along the way.

2p Canada: I just spelt member wrong and my phone autocorrected it to meme bee.

2p Italy: Ok but can we all agree that succing cocaine off a babadook’s tiddies would undeniably be the best way to die?

2p Germany: I don’t care what race, gender, sexuality or otherwise you identify as. If you sing Since U been gone with me you and I are homies.

2p Japan: Have u ever thought of the possibility that people wax people professionally must be like the kinkiest people ever? All that groaning, hot wax, smooth sensitive skin. The fact ur client is face down and under ur control. Food for thought.

2p Romano: (Talking about how I was Kesha for halloween one year) I firmly belive Kesha is just several midgets in a trench coat with the tiddies cut out.

2p Austria: I live for fuckery.

2p Prussia: One of the janitors at my school just roasted me because I failed a bottle flip.

Tumblr is weird because one slip up can literally take you from beloved saint to being labeled as an irredeemable piece of trash. Like Joss Whedon. I’m not crazy about him, and some things in Age of Ultron did bother me, but damn. Suddenly everything he’s ever said or done is terrible. Like people used to love Buffy, Firefly and the first Avengers movie, and now suddenly everyone’s bending over backwards to find ways of accusing him of being a terrible, racist, sexist person. And it’s happened to a lot of people. You know you don’t have to agree with every damn thing a person says or does to like or respect them. People make mistakes sometimes. And it’s just weird because it’s such a hivemind, like one minute something is beloved by everyone, but then someone decides it’s bad and soon everyone is just condemning it as the worst thing in existence. 

To Jonhlockers

So Sherlock is over (already ) and obviously, Jonhlock didn’t happen. Now, I know a lot of people wanted it to happen, that people were sure it was going to happen. But it didn’t and it never was going to. Before you go screaming querrbait at Steven Moffat and Mark Gatiss, ask yourself this : is it possible that you baited yourselves? That you saw something that just wasn’t there in the first place?

I know that there needs to be more LGQTB represenstation. I completely agree with that. But Motfiss have been denying Jonhlock from the very beginning. You chose not to believe them, you chose to deny the evidence (like Watson repeatedly denying he’s gay and Sherlock saying that romantic relationships do not interest him). I’m sorry to say this, but you brought this upon yourselves. Johnlock was never going to be cannon (not in this version anyway). You simply have to accept that.

That being said, there’s nothing to stop you from creating your own version of Sherlock. One in which Johnlock is cannon. That’s the beauty of fictional characters, you can do whatever you want with them.

p.s. The Final Problem was probably the best episode of any tv show I have ever seen. Sian Brooke is an amazing actress.

askusall  asked:

I just thought of something, so like Walter is kinda Wilford's brother or long lost brother probably but I just had a thought, what if Wilford's like, SUPER overprotective of his bro, like anyone who comes near he just glares at them and is like 'hurt him and see what happens next' I think it'd be kinda cute for him to be that way about Walter haha

yes!! i agree with this wholeheartedly! 💖

i’ve thought of walter and wilford being twins, but wilford was the one who was born first, so naturally he takes on the whole ‘protective big brother’ persona. 

and like mark said, walter’s a bit… odd. so when they were younger, i feel like walter tended to get picked on a lot, but wilford always came to his aid and beat up/told off the bullies.

perhaps that started wilford’s knack for bloodlust? since wilford has canonically killed people, he had to start killing at one point. so perhaps wilford’s first kill was an act of vengeance against someone someone who beat up his brother?


this is the most coherent I’ve been able to explain my thoughts about this, and i totally agree it’d show a lot of different sides to the characters

anonymous asked:

Personally I don't mind much the forgiveness but I do hope they have a conversation about how mon el was on daxam,I think it would be good for both of them,they can't get rid of the past unless they confront it and maybe it will help kara in a way to let go of her prejudices because she still has them even if they are toned down a lot around mon el.

I agree. They can’t turn the page if they haven’t dealt with what happened. I want a really deep conversation where they just get everything out on the table. 

anonymous asked:

If Ryou was added to the series, what age do you imagine him to be? What do you imagine him to be like? (I agree; I don't see him being Keith's father. I think what happened there is that Keith made his father look like Shiro in his mind because his image of his father is fuzzy in his mind. The creators alluded to that scene being made up in his head, so that would make sense)

I think it’s possible Ryou Shirogane might fit into Voltron in the sense that I feel like s1e1 established a lot going on at Earth, and we’re going to revisit that at some point.

A lot of people have suggested just the idea of Colleen being sad because of everything she’s lost, but, I’ve always felt a little irritated at this read- of course she’d be hurt, she’s lost her entire family at this point and we don’t know if the Garrison is being less obstructive this time.

(which they might well, if Iverson feels like he was responsible for this- Pidge was someone he deliberately tried to warn away from this line of questioning, and Keith was, seemingly, someone Iverson thought very highly of before Keith’s expulsion and even, to a degree, afterwards)

But let’s consider Pidge for a moment. Pidge is incredibly tenacious, dedicated, and hard-driving. ¾ths of the Holts appear to be brilliant minds. And we also know that Colleen had to know what Pidge was doing, if absolutely nothing else, because Pidge would get caught and sent home, and the Garrison would tell Colleen.

And Pidge broke in multiple times.

Pidge also pulled a disappearing act to infiltrate the Garrison. That had to take time. She was still in her home when she cut her hair off and received, and put on, the Garrison uniform. Since Pidge is a minor, even in her alter ego, she’d need some kind of parent consent. Maybe she forged that, but I think it’s unlikely. And Pidge’s whole jig would be up very quickly if Colleen can call the Garrison and point out that Pidge is missing, thus putting Iverson on high alert. 

Everything Pidge has at stake in this situation, Colleen shares. So I have to consider the implications here of Colleen who at least knew what Pidge was doing, of Colleen who’s probably just as smart and resourceful as her daughter- who might be, like Pidge, a little bit sharper and less amiable when crossed than her husband.

And that’s just Pidge’s family. Lance has a whole cadre of relatives and considering how close he seems to have been with them, I doubt they’re just going to let it go that easily. These people are going to start connecting. Communicating. Potentially, coming together for answers.

In that sense, I think Ryou could be a rather significant character, because his GoLion incarnation? Was someone motivated to action by the death of Shiro. Now, Shiro isn’t dead, but he’s sure missing.

Other than that: I imagine him as younger, because Shiro just… has that older brother vibe to him. Possibly not that much younger- I’d guess around the same age as the main characters, which might suggest interesting things. Is this why Shiro took to Keith so rapidly in a particularly fraternal manner? Do Keith and Ryou know each other? 

anonymous asked:

History is so complicated for me because by today's standards so many historical heroes see are Very Bad People, but the problem is that a person moral compass is really centered around the environment they grew up in, so in a way we need to acknowledge that the morals of the time were dofferent, but still get the message across that a lot of these things weren't good to do, without forgetting the circumstances of the time period, and it makes my brain want to explode.

I agree. Like, at some point, you just have to except that things happened and move on in your studies, because two conflicting things don’t have to be mutually exclusive

thoughts on having a little willy;
TW: detailed sex talk

Last night I was having a conversation with a friend who happens to have a big willy. He’s post phalloplasty and my goodness it is beautiful. We were talking about sex and sexual encounters - we’re both men who like men so there just happens to be a number of willies in our lives, cis and trans. Anyway, we were talking and since last night I’ve just been feeling a little bit of jealousy and worry about having a smaller penis. 

I have two somewhat regular sex partners, both are cis, both are sleeping with other men (it’s all agreed and consensual), and one of the guys came around the other night and we were talking about deep throating and I found myself a little bit upset at the fact that my willy will never really be a challenge to deep throat like a lot of other men. It’s such a strange thing to be upset about, I know, but it’s just like the realisation that my penis is never going to be flopping around heavily, it’s not going to be a challenge to give oral to, it’s not going to hit anyones prostate. 

In some ways I feel a bit selfish for choosing metoidioplasty because whilst I can get all the pleasure I need from it, natural erections, foreskin, orgasms, is it really going to pleasure a man like bigger penises do?

I said to myself that this surgery wasn’t about having a big penis though, it wasn’t about becoming cis, it wasn’t about blending into a “bigger the better” type of manhood, it’s not about that at all. 

Choosing metoidioplasty, for me, was about feeling physically comfortable when I go about my daily life, being grateful that these surgeries are available in the first place, embracing the changes my body has made on it’s own and really loving myself for all aspects no matter how much they differ from societal standards, and also kind of saying “fuck you” to big penis culture. 

Maybe this’ll turn me into a better lover in other ways - I mean, if having a small penis was that much of an issue then I’d not be sleeping with anyone, and that’s not the case at all. I know that this kind of body positivity will take time to manifest but I really hope I can get there.

  • well so we all pretty much agree that park chanyeol is just a giant teddy bear right
  • like, an extremely needy 6 ft tall bear
  • so I can only imagine that since you have to be separated so many times, he’d be SOOOO clingy when he can finally be around you
  • “chan I kind of need to go to the bathroom, can you please-”
  • “no, no, no shhhh jagiya, listen, you don’t need to go the bathroom”
  • “my bladder is about to explode”
  • “no it isn’t shhh just let me cuddle you”
  • yeah that probably happens a lot 
  • and when he’s on tour YOU BETTER ANSWER YOUR PHONE
  • no seriously
  • “… I was sleeping”
  • “oh” 
  • snapchat was a blessing for him bc he would probably send you every little thing he was doing
  • and expect you to do the same
  • on top of that, the members would probably send you embarassing things he was doing because we are talking about Park Chanyeol and he’s just weird like that
  • your phone would legit be like 50% pics sent by them I can garantee that 
  • “remind me why I’m dating him again” 
  • he seems like a backhug kind of guy and really shameless about it too 
  • you could be just hanging out with the boys and he’d casually sneak his arms around your waist and pull you close
  • he was so chill abt it that the members don’t even comment bc it’s just so common 
  • most of the time he’d go for sneaky little kisses 
  • and you two cuddled a lot too and it’s just SO COMFORTABLE U WANT TO KEEP HIM AS A PILLOW
  • and he’s usually just sweet and funny around you
  • bUT THEN
  • yall know that sometimes he can look really sexy when he performs
  • and he just smirks at the camera or licks his lips and everyone’s just??? holy shit??? this guy is hot too??
  • he knows his hot and he knows you like his deep voice
  • and above all he just KNOWS how worked up you get when you see him perform bc who wouldn’t tbh 
  • and sometimes you’d go to his concert and he’d spend it teasing you
  • yep you totally know he bit his lip on purpose 
  • that smirk in your direction of the crowd??? yes he was trying to swoon you
  • and when the concert ended those were the times when he didn’t want some short, sweet kisses 
  • “oppa, anyone can enter this room”
  • “makes it all more fun”
  • hot make out sessions after concerts like these because he’s stressed and you’re just there 
  • overall he’d just love you so much he can’t stand the thought of losing you so he’s a clingy little shit most of the time
  • but you love him anyways because how could you not 

requests open for scenarios, reactions, fake text messages and boyfriend!exo