i have no one

I need to be reassured all the time that I’m wanted and that you love me and that you’re not mad at me because everyone I’ve ever loved has left already and if another person drops out of my life without an explanation I don’t know what I’ll do.
You know what you are to me. Without you, I have no one. I am alone. I have nothing left. Don’t leave me alone.
—  King’s Cage, Victoria Aveyard
Take some advice from a girl who’s been through it too…
1.) Trust me, it will get easier. I know right now you’re choking back your tears and trying not to cry in the middle of class but whether it takes you a week or 3 years. Everything will get easier.
2.) Hang out with your friends. Don’t sit at home and let your thoughts take over, go out. Go get drunk and party all night. Or simply just watch a movie and eat some popcorn. Do something so your thoughts don’t take over, because I know right now they aren’t the best.
3.) Don’t cry alone. When it’s 3 a.m. and you’re laying all alone in your bed sobbing into your pillow, go in your moms room. She understands what you’re going through, let her help you.
4.) Cry as much as you need to. Whether it be in your car or in the bathroom at school during lunch. Cry, seriously. Crying is one of the best things you can do right now.
5.) Kiss as many boys as it takes to take the taste of his lips off of yours.
6.) Talk to someone. It can be anyone. Your best friend, mom, dad, grandma. Anyone. They won’t get annoyed, as a matter of fact they will probably feel so good you came to them for advice.
7.) Get some sleep. I know right now he’s taking up your dreams and you don’t want to fall asleep because you will see his green eyes again. But you need sleep, love. Go to sleep.
8.) You aren’t alone. You have people who love you, trust me.
9.) Don’t forget to eat. I know you aren’t hungry and I realize that you feel like you can’t go on but drink a cup of water and eat a sandwich. It will make you feel better.
10.) Just because he left doesn’t mean you’re worthless. You are beautiful, kind, and caring. You will find someone else, and I know first hand you think that you won’t. But someone will come into your life and pick up all the pieces he left scattered and glue them back together. You just have to be patient.
—  Things I wish I was told after my heart was broke

Everything’s just getting worse

I’m going to be alone tonight. I’m afraid of what I might do, and of what I won’t be able to control.