i've wanted to do something like this forever


A short zine with words from Joanna Newsom’s “Peach, Plum, Pear,” using my watercolors, gift wrap and odd and ends, and illustrations I drew two or three years ago

I can’t tell you in words what this song means to me, so I tried to do it in colors instead

I’m gonna do something that I haven’t done in forever *cue to song*… let’s reopen gif requests on this blog for a couple of days. 

I have been so so busy with my personal life and college lately that I haven’t been on Tumblr at all, but I want to make some time for this blog (because I feel so bad, this blog is like my baby). 

But yeah, requests are open!

anonymous asked:

This isn't really a question, but I've never had sex with a man who didn't expect me to deepthroat. I hate doing it, but it feels like most men think of it as an obligatory part of sex because it's in porn so much. I'm beginning to think I'll never find a man who doesn't try to make me do it. :(

Any man who tries to make you do something sexually that you don’t want CUT HIM OUT OF YOUR LIFE FOREVER

Send me a pairing and a number and I’ll write a ficlet/drabble!
  1. “Are you wearing my shirt?”
  2. “Don’t fucking touch me.”
  3. “Kiss me.”
  4. “I wish I could hate you.”
  5. “Oh, gosh, you’ve insulted me! What ever shall I do? I’ll be mentally and emotionally scared for years!”
  6. “This is, without doubt, the stupidest plan you’ve ever had. Of course I’m in.”
  7. “Wanna bet?”
  8. “It could be worse.”
  9. “Oh, gosh, you’ve insulted me! What ever shall I do? I’ll be mentally and emotionally scared for years!”
  10. “I can’t believe you talked me into this.”
  11. “It’s not what it looks like…”
  12. “I may be an idiot but I’m your idiot.”
  13. “If you keep looking at me like this we won’t make it to a bed.”
  14. “You heard me. Take. It. Off.”
  15. “I swear it was an accident!”
  16. “You did what?!”
  17. “If you die, I’m gonna kill you.”
  18. “How long have you been standing there?”
  19. “I just like proving you wrong.”
  20. “Forget it. You fucking suck.”
  21. “Quit it or I’ll bite.”
  22. “If you use up all the hot water again, I swear to god! You’re on the couch for a month!!”
  23. “Looks like we’re gonna be stuck here for a while.”
  24. “I’m starting an idiot jar. Any time you do or say anything idiotic, you have to put at least a dollar in it—more depending on how stupid the thing that you said or did was.”
  25. “You’re still mad?”
  26. “Come over here and make me.”
  27. “You better watch yourself.”
  28. “I could beat you up, you know that right?”
  29. “I’m laughing because you’re angry, I swear I didn’t do it!”
  30. “Do it. I dare you.”
  31. “Are you drunk?”
  32. “I think I deserve a kiss.”
  33. “You’re cute with glasses.”
  34. “What are you, five?”
  35. “Fight me.”
  36. “Do you kiss your mother with that mouth?”
  37. “Oh you are so dead!”
  38. “Been there, done that.”
  39. “I don’t want to keep us a secret anymore.”
  40. “You make me feel like I’m not good enough.”
  41. “Wait a minute. Are you jealous?”
  42. “Why don’t they just kiss already?”
  43. “Oh my God! You’re in love with him/her!”
  44. “Did you enjoy yourself last night?”
  45. “I think I picked up your coffee by mistake.”
  46. “Or we could make out.”
  47. “Shut up and kiss me.”
  48. “Oh, fuck off.”
  49. “Delete it. Now.”
  50. “Please, don’t leave.”
  51. A prompt you made :)
Forever - Alan Ashby Fluff

I poked my head out from under my bed sheets. A ginger man was standing over me with his hands on his hips.

“Get up, y/n. I have a day planned.”

“Alan, it’s like, 5 in the morning. No.” I responded hastily. Mornings were not my thing, well, waking up in general wasn’t really my thing. Suddenly, the covers were ripped off me, disturbing my warmth.

“Seriously, Alan?”


“This isn’t going to be like last time you took me out for a "surprise day” and we got flu shots, is it?“  I questioned.

"I promise I will never do that again. It was not worth having security hold you down when you ended up getting the flu later on.” He closed his eyes and chuckled. As he shoved his hands in his pants pocket, I remembered why I fell in love with this man in the first place.

“Okay. I guess I owe you this one. ” I finally agreed. As soon as the words left my mouth, his eyes lit up and a goofy, lopsided smile appeared on his lips.

After getting ready, yelling about if Nickelodeon or Disney was better, and making breakfast, it was about 10 AM. We hopped in his white car. He turned on the radio. An all too familiar song came on. It was an old PMToday song.

They say it’s all my fault, that I’m alone because

I’m tenacious and I do not care.

So I’ll just ignore the lonely people.

To them I know I don’t exist.

I’m losing all my best friends, we were all hypocrites.

I’m losing all my best friends and I don’t exist.

“Remember this song, Alan? We met on the pier to this one. We spent the night with this song on repeat just looking at the stars.” My eyes clouded over with happiness.

“Y/N, how could I forget? That was the best night of my life.” He smiled at me. I leaned over kissed him while a pink tint rose to his cheeks. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw an large, olive sign with white lettering.

“Alan Anthony Ashby was that was I think it was?”

“Do you think it was the sign welcoming us to the Santa Monica Pier? Because if so, you’d be right.”

After a long day of roses, surprise kisses, and two pints of Ben and Jerry’s Ice Cream, we sat in silence on a bench looking at the moons glimmering reflection on the sea. Every couple minutes, Alan would clear his throat or cough nervously. The thought stayed in the back of my mind. ’Have I done something wrong?’  Alan suddenly interrupted my doubtful thoughts with an abrupt, “We need to talk.”

‘Oh God. I’ve done it now. I’ve pissed him off. He wants to leave.’

Before continuing my scared thoughts, he cleared his throat.

“You know I love you. That’s why I want to do this now. Y/N, happiness is only real when you can share it with someone. I want to share it with you. But, like, forever. See I’ve never been more certain about anything. I’m certain I want to wake up next to you. I’m certain I want to lay my head on your chest every night and memorize your heartbeat. I want to taste those chocolate-chip pancakes you make every morning. I want to love you. Forever.”

Realization hit you. “Alan,” your eyes started to well up. Alan climbed off the bench and perched himself on one knee. He took a deep breath.

“Y/F/N, will you do me the incredible honor of marrying me?”

You couldn’t seem to find words. Your head was spinning. “Yes,” you mumbled. “A thousand times yes!” He picked you up and spun you around. Nothing else mattered in that moment. Just you and the love of your life. And when his lips met yours, you knew one thing. This would last, forever.

I hope you liked it! This wasn’t a request, but now that you have a feel for my writing style, request stuff!


anonymous asked:

I have a big issue... I suffer from depression and anxiety and most of the time I'm not emotionally stable. I feel like it doesn't matter what I do, if my intent is strong or if I phrase things accordingly, my energy is low and the only outcome is failure. I've always read that in this case you should wait until you feel better but for me it doesn't really happen and I don't want to put magick aside forever... Do you or any of your followers know if there's something I can do? Thank you so much!

The only thing I could say is to try to fight your depression and anxiety in those moments, try to think more positively about your magic, and be certain that you will succeed rather than fail. That can be really hard to do with those illnesses - trust me, I know - but feeling confident in yourself and your magic, and believing it will work, is a huge component in witchcraft. 

You can always try casting spells for depression / anxiety / energy, but getting over that first hurdle of confidence can be a challenge. 

Are you doing anything mundane to help out with your depression / anxiety?

Followers, any more ideas?

anonymous asked:

I really liked your post of thomlee gifs. I especially love the second one (which you also use for your page) because it is adorable, but also very unTBSlike. One awesome thing I noticed was how willing TBS was to play along in Korea, which isn't exactly what he's known for. He tends to be so reserved, but with Ki Hong he was being so cute and silly at times and it was just too precious. I don't think I've seen him like that with any of the other cast, he is his usual cool self. Thomlee forever!

Okay, let’s analyze thomlee. Thomas, at the beginning of the Korea trip, goes from “I will absolutely not do the thing” (x)

to “let’s do the thing” (x)

And how Ki Hong would say something in one interview (x):

and then Thomas would repeat what he said in another interview (x):

And you know their friendship’s real cause they don’t even need to be assigned to want to sit next to eachother. They’re together in their own little world (x).

Like you said, when Thomas is with Ki Hong, he’s so unTBSlike, but I feel that’s when he’s the most real, the most like his “true self”, like just listen to his laugh in these videos:  (x) and (x). He doesn’t do his usual nervous chuckle, that’s a real laugh, it’s high pitched and admittedly unattractive… but it’s real! That’s a real, genuine TBS laugh that not even he can contain. It’s rare and it’s been caught twice in interviews with KHL. I’m not saying he doesn’t laugh like that when he’s with his other cast mates, but what are the odds that two of the times it’s caught on video just so happens to be in interviews with Ki Hong?

Also, Thomas is so fucking awkward in interviews. Group interviews, even the first few interviews with KHL, you barely see him answer unless its to piggyback on something the other person said or if he’s asked a specific question. Take NerdHQ and parts I and II of this interview for example. Thomas is like, “I don’t wanna talk” or “i was trying to avoid the question.” He only really adds to the conversation when the questions are directly addressed to him.

But with KHL he doesn’t mind going for it, even if the question’s not specifically for him, they always try to answer together. Ki Hong just seems like the person who tries to include everyone and make them comfortable, and that’s probably how he got Thomas to open up. Thomas goes from just letting the other person answer ( I also think that’s how it stated for thomlee in the beginning) to slowly adjusting to and getting comfortable with Ki Hong. They banter and have inside jokes and draw hearts, smile and laugh and talk about nipples and Dylan’s butt

Like just look at this interview, Thomas is so animated and that’s because of Ki Hong’s influence. They have such clear chemistry, it’s fantastic ;w;

Every drarry fic ever
  • Draco: potter
  • Harry: malfoy
  • Draco: -sneers-
  • -leaves-
  • Draco; potter looked cute today
  • Draco: wtf no he didn't
  • Draco; I'm a dude wtf no i must be straight
  • Draco: that's right I'm straight
  • Draco: straight
  • Draco: yes.
  • Harry: draco looks so hot
  • Harry: ohmygod does this mean I like men?
  • Harry: okay
  • Harry: Ron I like boys too
  • Ron: WHAT
  • Ron: OH MY GOD NO EW
  • Ron: EW
  • Herminone: shut up Ron. We love you HARRY
  • Harry: thanks
  • Ron: at least you don't like malfoy
  • Harry: about that
  • Ron: -faints-
  • -
  • Harry: draco wait up!
  • Draco: what do you want potter
  • Harry: I want to talk
  • Draco: -confused sneering-
  • Harry: I think I like you
  • Draco: wtf homie I am straight
  • Draco: straight
  • Draco: I like girls
  • Harry: I don't care I like u
  • Draco: bye
  • -leaves-
  • Draco: I think I might be gay
  • Pansy: I know
  • Draco: wtf were supposed to get married
  • Pansy: I've known u were gay forever
  • Draco: okay
  • -
  • Draco: Harry I like you
  • Harry: YAAASSSS
  • -something homosexual-
  • Harry: ily
  • Draco: ily2
  • Draco: OH NO HOW DO I TELL
  • MY DAD
  • Harry: dw Beb we will do it 2gether because Ily
  • Draco: Okies
  • --
  • Draco: I am homosexual
  • Lucius: wtf
  • Lucius: wtf son no you r not
  • Draco: yes I am
  • Harry: we're dating!
  • Lucius: Nooo not in my house
  • Draco: fuck u
  • -leaves-
  • Harry: ily
  • Draco: ily2
Preference #72: Suppose I Propose This?

Jack: ‘You remember that time we got caught in the rain during our picnic? Yeah, when it like randomly down poured on us, and we ended up running underneath the nearest largest tree we could find? I remember you said it was the dumbest thing we could do, because lighting could strike it and kill us both, but I told you not to worry because that wouldn’t happen. I even told you some random fact of how often that actually happens to comfort you. That’s when I realized I loved you. Being underneath that tree in the rain, hearing the thunder and seeing the lightning, there was the possibility we could’ve gotten struck, but I didn’t care. I knew the first thing I’d do is protect you. Y/N, I want to keep feeling that way forever. I want to keep protecting you and taking care of you when you’re sick and holding you when you cry. So…will you marry me? Please?’

Finn: 'I’ve always had trouble with people. I’ve never been as outgoing as Jack. People told me I was the 'reserved twin’ or something like that because I wasn’t as talkative as him. I was always sort of shy, kind of afraid to be myself around people because I didn’t know how they’d react. Yet, with you , I never felt like that. Not once. I could tell you anything and you took it. You’re so wonderful and understanding. You’ve sort of brought me out of my little shell, and I kind of love it. You made me happy. Please keep making me happy. I love you, Y/N. Marry me?

Dan: 'I hate most people. I really do. I hate human interaction because I’d rather be in my own little world than be stuck with people. I never share my world with anybody because people make me uncomfortable. I’ve only shared things with Phil because I feel connected to him like that and he’s my best mate…until I met you. You didn’t knock on the door to my little world. You didn’t ring the doorbell. You blew a fucking hole in the wall and stormed in without permission. And I loved it. I loved having you around, doing stuff alone with you, having private jokes and 'us stuff’. Which is why I have no problem asking you to be my wife…Marry me, Y/N?

Phil: 'You make me happier than anything in the whole world. More than Pokemon, more than Animal Crossing, more than popcorn and Buffy marathons. You make me see that there’s life outside my apartment; that I can go do stuff. You were the first youtuber I connected with when I first started my channel, and you made me feel so welcomed all the time, and didn’t make me feel like a total noob at everything. I loved seeing your name on my phone and know you were only a phone call away whenever I had a problem. I loved knowing I had somebody to talk to besides Dan and my mum. Y/N…will you please, please, please marry me? Forever be one the top of my list of favorite things, please?


NEW VIDEO: “The Photo Booth Challenge” ft. Miranda Sings - as always, if you want a follow, reblog this. I’M STALKING.

anonymous asked:

so.... I've been depressed lately. I have gone though these things before, and I just can't get over this one. I've gone to the hospital twice; one for suicidal thoughts, depression, anxiety among other things, and the other because I tried to kill myself. I can't get rid of these thoughts and feelings. I am so helpless. I need to escape. I just can't do it anymore. Please don't give me that "it gets better" crap because I can't see it and I've been like this forever. I just need something.

how about 100 reasons to stay?

  1. New books
  2. New movies
  3. Rainbows
  4. Sunsets
  5. Sunrises
  6. New clothes
  7. Puppies
  8. Kittens
  9. Family
  10. Friends
  11. The love of your life
  12. Your wedding
  13. Your first kiss
  14. Cookies
  15. Brownies
  16. Ice cream
  17. internet
  18. Your favorite actors
  19. You first child (should you want one)
  20. New TV shows
  21. the crunch of leaves on a fall day
  22. Lemonade on a warm summer day
  23. Baby animals in spring
  24. Snowball fights in winter
  25. The beach
  26. Vaction
  27. Pampering yourself
  28. That first breath from resurfacing underwater
  29. Rollercoasters
  30. Water slides
  31. Your dream job
  32. Crunchy apples
  33. Sweet strawberries
  34. The scent of roses
  35. Fun music
  36. New hobbies
  37. Old hobbies
  38. Full moons
  39. New moons
  40. Lunar eclipses
  41. Solar eclipses
  42. Aurora borealis
  43. Shooting stars
  44. Comets
  45. Crickets at night
  46. Chirping birds
  47. Hugs
  48. Forehead kisses
  49. Cheek kisses
  50. Kisses in general
  51. New haircuts
  52. New wardrobe
  53. Soft fabrics
  54. The chime of a bell
  55. The depth of a gong
  56. Plays
  57. Musicals
  58. The sound of heels on marble
  59. A crackling fire
  60. Popping bubble wrap
  61. Chewing gum
  62. Eating your favorite food
  63. Making a random dish
  64. Finding your destiny
  65. Winning awards
  66. Traveling the world
  67. Going on tourist attractions in your city
  68. You child on their wedding day
  69. Your graduation day
  70. Prom
  71. Geeking out with friends
  72. Lazy days
  73. Christmas (if you celebrate)
  74. New Years
  75. Your birthday
  76. Pie
  77. Random holidays
  78. Valentine’s day (hella lots of chocolate)
  79. Ripping paper
  80. The glow of coals
  81. Crashing waves
  82. The sound of rain
  83. The scent of rain
  84. The scent of books
  85. Trying a new food
  86. Contacting an old friend
  87. Writing anything
  88. Kissing your significant other
  89. Playing video games
  90. Old films
  91. Old TV shows
  92. Crappy soap operas
  93. Bouncing on a bed
  94. Bouncing on a bed in a hotel
  95. Hottubs
  96. Swimming pools
  97. Fish
  98. New Years resolutions
  99. Changing your whole life
  100. New costumes for Halloween

thank you.

It was around this time a year ago that I have created this one mess of a blog, and honestly, I never thought I’d stick to using something for this long.
I’ve got to know lots of amazing people out there, learned a few things that I never thought I’d ever learn and had a really nice time over this year on tumblr. 

Bounded with a follow forever, I want to announce my url change as well! 

hhazukis  » » »  ochakohs

Now then, onto the follow forever!

ochakohs’ one year anniversary follow forever.

bold: mutuals / people I talked with » aka. cuties.

italics: editing goals.

.; a - f ;.

@agatai  //  @akikosyosano  //  @akutakawa  //  @allie-otome  //  @aobajohsei  //  @asaiis  //  @ashitakkas  //  @bat-djan  //  @bokutori  //  @choidasa  //  @corazvn  //  @daichisawamura  //  @dazaiosamu  //  @ebizumi  //  @fabulous-eren

.; g - l ;.

@gay-swimmers  //  @haizawa  //  @hanavmaki  //  @hharukas  //  @hhyakuya  //  @ichimatsus  //  @kahgeyamas  //  @kanekx  //  @kenmai  //  @kenmasan  // @kirschetein  //  @koitoshi  //  @komitsu  //  @kurooa  //  @lametooru  //  @laraneechan  //  @littlebratciel  

.; m - r ;.

 @mamurasm  //  @mariinettechengs  //  @matsuokakou  //  @mihkoriz  //  @miikasaas  //  @mikurusi  //  @miyioshi  // @monstrux  //  @muimei  //  @ttoorus  //  @nakaseko  //  @nanzse  //  @nicolasis  //  @ohmikasaa  //  @oikawahtoorus  //  @oikumi  //  @oizumi  //  @ponchizs  //  @raanpo  //  @rakutagawa  //  @reikans  //  @ronanex 

.; s - z ;.

@sakamotoz  //  @sakurabuns  //  @sasakiwis  //  @savyjayjane  //  @shadowofremains  //  @shirabv  //  @shouyio  //  @skay  //  @submachineguns //  @sukerokus  //  @tobeiru  //  @tobiohchan  //  @tobioskageyama  //  @tobjo  //  @todoiroki  //  @toovru  //  @toshinorie  //  @tovbio  //  @tsukis  //  @tsumochis  //  @tsundrre  //  @uzurume  //  @worldofglass  //  @xatsushis  //  @yahboku  //  @yamacuchi​

Please do remind me if I messed something up!

And again, thank you for this one year and making this experience better. ♡

anonymous asked:

Hello! I've been wanting to send you a prompt since forever but I haven't had anything nice in mind until yesterday. What do you think about Everlark at the Oscars? Maybe like Kate and Leo-ish. Or Katniss as Brie and Peeta as Jacob Tremblay's single dad. (Yeah, I know kiddo's dad isn't a single parent in real life but I have something about single dad Peeta...)

I’m going to change it up and make Katniss’ little co-star a girl…

Hope you enjoy!



Turning from the latest slew of photographers, Katniss saw the petite dark-haired girl running towards her excitedly. She leaned down and Sadie Mellark, her seven-year-old co-star jumped into her arms, her legs wrapping the waist of Katniss’ burgundy silk bodice.

“You won!” Sadie grinned, her arm encircling Katniss’ long neck. Around them, the cameras went off but the two took no notice, used to the constant barrage of flashes. “Congratulations!”

Katniss presented the gold statuette to her tiny co-star. “I couldn’t have done it without you.”

When Katniss first read the script to Ride—a story about a mother and her daughter who take one last road trip before the mother’s terminal cancer takes her body over—she was concerned about working with such a young child.

Sadie’s own mother, Johanna Mason, had passed away from cancer when the little girl was only four. Katniss worried that it would affect her ability to play Hope, the optimistic yet wise-eyed daughter to her own terminally-ill Lorelai.

However, Sadie handled it with heartbreaking beauty and talent reminiscent of her late mother, a talented actress who was taken much too soon.

“Sadie, you’ll ruin Katniss’ pretty gown.” They both swiveled to see a handsome golden-haired man approaching. Katniss let Sadie reluctantly shimmy off her body so she could go to her tuxedoed father. Peeta Mellark took his daughter’s hand before joining Katniss and giving her a proud smile. “Congratulations, sweetheart.”

“Thanks, Peeta.” He leaned over to give her a kiss on the cheek. “I was just telling Sadie that I couldn’t have done the movie without her. “It was almost like we were Lorelai and Hope for a moment.”

The photographers called for Sadie and the little girl looked to her father. “Daddy, may I?”

“Make sure that you stay at the photo line,” Katniss informed her. “Also, you see that woman over there?” She pointed to the blonde in the black business suit. “That is Cressida. She can control the press. If it gets too out of hand and you get scared, just tell her and she’ll bring you back to your Dad.”

“With that being said, you may go,” Peeta told his daughter.

Sadie smoothed down the skirt of her green dress before heading towards the press.

“I’m sorry if I stepped in,” Katniss said. “I didn’t want her to get scared or have those people ask anything inappropriate, especially about Johanna.”

“Her mother was a movie star so everyone sees Sadie as being her reincarnation,” Peeta responded, his gaze on Sadie. “She is a lot like her mother…” He look to Katniss. “…but I see you in her as well. You two really bonded during filming.”

“I love her like she’s my own,” she quietly admitted.

Katniss felt her cheeks color. She had convinced herself that the attraction to her co-star’s father was simply because she had also fallen for Sadie with her full cheeks and bright blue eyes. However, getting to hang out with Peeta and Sadie during filming lulls and getting to know the handsome, intelligent man in front of her had her falling asleep to his smile behind her eyes.

“So, Academy Award winner Katniss Everdeen, what are you planning to do to celebrate?” Peeta asked her. “Hitting the Vanity Fair after-party?”

“Maybe. I’m not a party person,” she told him. “I’m really more like a go-home-and-eat-a-burger person.”

“We have burgers at our house,” Peeta suddenly suggested, his own sculpted face going red. “So if you want to come over…I mean, Sadie and I are burger people, too—”

Katniss took his hand suddenly, ignoring the flashes. “I’d like that.”

Peeta squeezed her hand. “Sadie would be happy to have you.”

She looked at their joined hands, feeling that thrill of excitement in his comforting touch. “Just Sadie?”

He entwined their fingers, intent clear in his eyes. “Not just Sadie.”


chicagogirlshavefun  asked:

i need some advice i'm looking for a relationship that is real and isn't just "fun" i want someone that i can see spending forever with i'm ready to start considering settling down. so my first question is, is it too early to feel this way? (i'm 17) Everyone i've ever been with has just used me for the "fun" stuff,just completely played me and then calls me a slut, it hurts a lot and it makes me feel like there is something wrong with me what do i do? i feel like i'm never going to find someone

Seeking someone to fill a role, be that a role of ‘fun’ or a role of ‘settling down’ is an insincere approach. This is simply because both fixate on a role being filled rather than meeting another living being as they are. Both have agendas, albeit one more shallow than the other. 

What does settling down look like for a seventeen-year-old in this society? Do you really need and want to settle down or are you just sick of immature boys who lack a sincere connection with their hearts?

In my opinion, it is unnecessary to even have a thought of settling down before you meet someone with whom that would be desirable. Otherwise you are just longing for an idea that has no real substance or reality to it. 

When someone calls you a slut or hurts you deliberately, take a moment and ask yourself what kind of place that person must be in within. What kind of person, what kind of mental state, allows for that kind of aggression? What attitude and perspective deliberately wounds another living being with the intention of inflicting pain?

Such a person is not in a place of peace, love, or clarity. Therefore, can their words really be trusted? It may hurt in the moment, but if you do not seek a sense of self from their words, if you do not regard those words as a reflection or consequence of who you are, then that pain is short-lived. Whereas the suffering of that person, the suffering that has urged them into such a hellish state, is enduring.

Those who cause pain are in pain. Like a gift not wanted, you can simply not accept the words and judgments they offer. There is nothing wrong with you, sis. 

For those who truly want love, love is always there. Those who want love are not focused on being loved or obtaining the perfect partner according to their preferences. Someone who truly wants love just wants to love and share love, with whomever is willing to be there and loving with them. 

Don’t bother yourself with settling down or partnering up or avoiding this or desiring that. Bring your attention to the love that knows no opposite, that needs no confirmation, and that is always inside you. 

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing

and rightdoing, there is a field.

I will meet you there.

When the soul lies down in that grass,

the world is too full to talk about.

Language, ideas, even the phrase each other

doesn’t make any sense.” ~ Rumi

A book that should be in the hands of every love-seeking seventeen-year-old is The Places That Scare You by Pema Chodron. 

Growing up can wound us deeply. If we are not shown how to heal, we may not only walk around with those wounds for the rest of our lives but we may also inflict them on each other. 

Free yourself and you will free every person you have ever known and will ever know. 

Namaste, sister. Much, much love. 

anonymous asked:

hey ces, i've just been really depressed by the state of fandom lately, and how there's this entitlement mindset in fanfic readers and how many of them take fanfic as something they're owed, exactly the way they want it. have you ever felt this way, and why do you keep writing if so?

I’ve been thinking about this question all day, anon. The truth is, I really don’t get too much of this; people are mostly super nice to me, and my dash is like puppies and rainbows (a well curated dash is a joy forever!) 

That being said, I do sometimes get people wanting me to write this or that in some register from seductive to demanding. I mostly take this as a compliment - it means they like what I do, and so they want me to do something even more to their taste. Doesn’t hurt to ask, right? And in truth I can be imaginatively caught by a good “What if,” so you know, it’s always worth pitching ideas to me - I can be seduced into daydreaming about a thing and I’ve written a lot of stories based on ideas that people threw at me. But when it comes to demands….the thing is, I’m not a professional fiction writer, and one of the reasons I’m not is that I can’t produce fiction on demand. Non-fiction analysis I can produce for you on demand. Give me a thing and tell me you need 3000 words on it by tomorrow and I can do it for you, cut the check.  But fiction…I can only really write what’s next in the pipe. The pipe is another one of my Ways of Thinking About Writing Fiction TM (others include Airplanes and Baseball) , which is that sometimes I do feel like there’s a pipe running and I’m just shoving different things under the tap–little glass, big glass, bucket! vase! someone hand me that–what is that, tea mug, okay that’s full, gimme something else to hold this stuff. I mean, I don’t even do challenges anymore - it’s too hard unless a story that fits the challenge is already coming down the pipe.  Mainly I just make a thing and make another thing and then I make another thing cause it’s fun, and sometimes I’m surprised by what’s in the pipe and what shape container it fills up, and sometimes the water’s clear and running fast and sometimes its a horrible trickle and kind of rusty, but really, what I try to do is keep the tap flowing cause I’m happier when it is. And so when someone sends a comment that’s kind of like, well I wish you would write something totally else, I feel kind of like, well, I have this water here, and this goldfish bowl, um.  You know? Like, I don’t even so much feel bad about it.  To switch metaphors again, it’s like hey, I made cheesecake! and if someone’s like, yeah, but I’d really rather have Linzer Torte, make me a Linzer Torte, the answer’s like…hey, I made cheesecake?

The signs as Back On Top lyrics
  • Aries: right now I'm just a volcano on the brink of eruption, right now I'm just a psycho hell bent on self destruction
  • Taurus: this is what I want mother fucker make it happen for me
  • Gemini: it's snowing right now I wish it was summer, but when summer rolls around I'll wish I was freezing
  • Cancer: it's not my style to be strong, strong enough to wanna fight, a fight that I will probably lose but in the end I will survive
  • Leo: I want world domination just like everybody else
  • Virgo: now maybe it was not as serious as I am making it sound
  • Libra: sometimes you gotta close your eyes to truly see the light, most of us are older now we should know wrong from right
  • Scorpio: I'm talking to young lovers and half price drinks
  • Sagittarius: I've got a lot more people leaning on me now me and all I want to do is make do is make them proud
  • Capricorn: just because something burns bright doesn't mean it's gonna burn forever
  • Aquarius: when my mind is uncertain my body decides
  • Pisces: yeah that would be great that would be beach house living you and me every night the rest of our lives we could go swimming