i've got both staring at me

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Ash. Ashley. ASHLEY. I've got to work tomorrow but this episode has killedt me dead. Shoutout to my colleagues, who will be working with a ghost tomorrow. Richonne, like water, is life. Thank you for impeccably speedy gif work, also. You a real one.

Listen. I’m supposed to be both writing and in bed right now, but I am instead still staring at my television screen in awe/disbelief that this ship just keeps on giving us so much. They weren’t even on screen that long and they gave us everything. Hand-holding, a hug, a forehead kiss, some teamwork-makes-the-dream-work type action. Literally, on their anniversary, as Rick’s hand is pouring out blood, he managed to find a sentimental gift for his boo, and I screamed even though I knew it was gonna happen. Because that’s how much they kill me. Here I thought 6x10 was going to be my end, but turns out, that was just the beginning of this slow, glorious death. 

Wow, I did my taxes today so that they would be out the way before I left for the trip then were all thrown off after I got back but…I’ve already gotten both of them accepted so it shouldn’t be too long before my refund arrives.

So, as for the rest of y’all: DO YOUR TAXES (if you need to file that is) BY APRIL 15TH.

Which is my birthday.

Allow me to casually drop my Amazon wishlist while I stare y’all in the eyes:

http://a.co/7oBbhJG

Random lyrics sentence starters
  • "Nothing is perfect, but your imperfections are quaint."
  • "Your love is worth it and for that I will wait."
  • "I drive you crazy, but you always return."
  • "Although you love me, sometimes you're mean."
  • "Things can get ugly, but we're still a team."
  • "I'm all yours."
  • "Maybe I'm just being selfish."
  • "I've got your hand, it's us against consensus."
  • "And I will burn the people who hurt you the worst."
  • "I'll protect you 'till the day I'll meet my maker."
  • "Don't fight me now 'cause you might need me later."
  • "I wanna see your eyes."
  • "So why'd you have to go?"
  • "I'm still trying to wake up from this nightmare."
  • "One more night alone I'll go insane."
  • "This is what I live for."
  • "Selfish, taking what I want and call it mine."
  • "I'm head of the class. I'm popular."
  • "Being attractive is the most important thing there is."
  • "I'll never get caught."
  • "Every boy in the whole world could be yours!"
  • "If I stumble, they're gonna eat me alive."
  • "Hard to be soft. Tough to be tender."
  • "If my life is mine, what shouldn't I do?"
  • "I just wanna be your friend."
  • "Is it ever gonna be enough?"
  • "I just wanna be your friend, why you givin' me a hard time?"
  • "I'm sorry for everything I've done."
  • "I can't have you and I'm only gonna do you wrong."
  • "I'm going to mess this up."
  • "From the second that I was born it seems I had a loaded gun, and then I shot a hole through everything I loved."
  • "There's always time to change your mind."
  • "I've got nothing left to live for."
  • "I know your type. You're all the same."
  • "In the beginning you intrigue, but the way you move, it terrifies me."
  • "You remind me of the things that I don't need."
  • "I'm kinda curious. Oh no, you got me already."
  • "We both know that it's over."
  • "You're talking like a stranger, so I don't know what to do."
  • "I'm callous and I'm cruel, to everyone but you."
  • "It's been awhile since I stared at the stars."
  • "You said that you'd always love me."
  • "Well I don't think that it's the end, but I know we can't keep going."
  • "Say what you mean and it turns to a fight."
  • "Chasing your dreams since the violent 5th grade."
  • "Trying to believe in your silent own way."
  • "Cause we'll be okay. I'm not going away."
  • "How many of our parents seem to make it anyway?"
  • "Headed to a red carpet, they won't know my name."
  • "Trying to find a way down the road we don't know."
  • "I'm gonna find my way back to your side."
  • "What if I said I would break your heart?"
  • "I just may be too crazy to love."
  • "Don't you think I was too young too be messed with?"
  • "I should've known."
  • "Maybe it’s me and my blind optimism to blame."
  • "I'll look back in regret how I ignored when they said, 'Run as fast as you can.'"
  • "You are an expert at 'sorry.'"
  • "I’m shining like fireworks over your sad empty town."
  • "Miss you terribly already."
  • "Miss your small hands in the palm of mine."
  • "I hope for your life, you forget about mine."
  • "Please forget me. You were right, dear, I am cold and self-involved."
  • "I'll write my loneliness in poems, if I can just think how to start."
  • "You want your independence, but you won't let me let you go."
  • "You think that you're the sun. The whole world revolves around you."
  • "I would wait a lifetime. I will wait for you."
  • "I don't care. I'm down for what you want."
  • "If we're talking body, you got a perfect one. So put it on me."
  • "Bite me while I taste your fingertips."
  • "You and I don't work out."
  • "We should just end it now before someone gets more hurt than they have to."
  • "Before I ever met you, I never knew that my heart could love so hard."
  • "Before I ever met you, I never knew that I liked to be kissed for days."
  • "Before I ever met you, I never knew I could be broken in so many ways."
  • "I miss you more than I thought I would."
  • "I found love where it wasn't supposed to be, right in front of me."
  • "Talk some sense to me."
  • "I wanna feel your touch."
  • "Pretending is not enough. I wanna feel us together."
  • "Just one last time again."
  • "You are the trouble I'm in."
  • "Puts herself on the front lines with no reward and takes care everyone else before herself."
  • "Thinks he takes her for granted but to her surprise, he needs her more than she needs him."
  • "She's not just another face."
  • "He acts like it's nothing but we all know the truth."
  • "It is about that she acquired someone who knows she's not a fool."
  • "I couldn't decide if you were the most annoying human being I'd ever met or just the best thing that ever happened."
  • "I made up my mind to just go with it."
  • "What's the worst thing that could happen?"
  • "We're not forever you're not the one."
  • "You and I could be the best thing ever."
  • "We're not happily ever after. We don't got what it takes."
  • "I shut the door and I don't look back."
  • "You still got me around your finger."
  • "Please don't fall in love with someone new."
  • "I promise one day I'll come back for you."
  • "You'll never forgive me, though I'm doing this for you."
  • "I'm not ready for you now, please don't hate me."
  • "Well, these days I'm fine - No these days I tend to lie."
  • "I'm sorry, I let you down."
  • "I'm sorry, I bring you down."
  • "Congratulations you are all alone."
  • "Your time will come if you wait for it."
  • *ESFP is sitting on a window sill inside a fast food place*
  • ESFP; I wish instead of the buildings there was a pretty view of trees
  • Me (ENFP); yeah but to do that we would have to demolish the entire town and plant a forest... Or give some life to that grey wall by giving it a makeover with colours.
  • ESFP; YES!
  • Both of us at same time; LETS MEET AFTER DARK IN THE ALLY.
  • ESPF; we need paint, i have it
  • Me; I've got a selection of those robber hats at home.
  • ESFP; my dads got a gun...
  • Me; this is about vandalism, not murder, get your head in the game.
DISCONNECTED PREFERENCE

Luke: 

I admit I’m a bit of a victim in the worldwide system too
But I’ve found my sweet escape when I’m alone with you

At school Luke was who everyone looked up to, who everyone wanted to be friends with. Who everyone wanted to be. He was basically the hottest guy in your school. Football player, a little bit of a bad boy, in a band; thank kind of stuff. He was a typical teenager. Everyone you knew had a crush on Luke (you had a pretty huge crush on him too, but you never liked to admit it).

You had always thought Luke wasn’t quite a distant person. Whenever he was with his friends he never seemed comfortable. But since everyone else believed he was you decided to too.

One day, your whole view on Luke Hemmings, the not-quite-perfect-teen, changed. You were in your last lesson of the day, English. Instead of sitting in his usual seat Luke sat on the other side of the room from you but one row in front. You dismissed this because you thought he was purely trying to get attention. Half way through the lesson you noticed someone staring at you, you glanced over in their direction, it was Luke. You tired to forget about him staring at you but it was impossible, you knew your cheeks were burning. So the only thing you could think of to stop him from staring was to stare straight back at him. You gave him a sharp stare as he just laughed and flashed a smile, revealing his dimples. Instantly, ashamed that your plan didn’t work, you looked down. Another 5 minutes later, Luke had stopped staring and was writing. In 2 minutes the piece he was writing was handed to you by the person next to you. Pretending not to care, you opened this letter as you read:

hey, i noticed you staring, maybe you’d like to stare at my face some other time, like after school. maybe we can get to know each other…

luke xx

A smile crept onto your face as you shook your head slowly, still staring at Luke’s scrawly hand writing. You scribbled down a quick okay then, see you after class… on the paper, folded it and handed it back to your neighbor.

You couldn’t wait till after class. You kept looking at the clock in hope that it would be the end of the lesson. Then finally, the bell rung out over the school, you glanced over at Luke who had a huge smile on his face. You waited till your teacher dismissed you to walk over to Luke. You didn’t want to seem too eager. but before you could even blink Luke was out of the classroom, this confused you. You felt a sinking feeling inside of you as the sad realization of the whole ‘Luke thing’ being a joke. You left school with your head held low. It was when you reached the gates when you saw Luke again, beaming, leaning on his crappy car. He walked up to you and kissed your forehead. You were, again, confused. What the hell was he playing at?

'Hi,’ he smiled looking down at you

'Hey,’ you half-smiled

'So-um-(Y/N) I was thinking if we could go back to my place for a bit and just-er-chill?’ he seemed so nervous. it was strange how someone so confident with everyone else could be so nervous in a certain persons presence you thought.

'Yeah sure,’ you giggled. He lead you into his car.

The two of you arrived at his place and his parents weren’t in, thank god! You followed him into his room as he told you to sit anywhere. He disappeared downstairs and and reappeared within 3 minutes with a tub of ice cream, cookies and a selection of films. Wow this was a different Luke to what you’d seen all these years at school. The cool, calm boy now seemed all precious and nervous. 

'I was thinking we could just watch a few films, chat and eat until you have to go…’ he looked at the floor then up to you.

'Yeah that sounds great Luke,’ you beamed. Luke and you sat/lay enjoying each others company for hours/ It had been quiet for a good 20 minutes when Luke said

'You know you really are something. I always see you at school, I think you’re gorgeous and amazing…’ he barely whispered looking at you. You turned your whole body to face him as you cupped his face in your hand and kissed him hard, passionately. In the end you both pulled away, speechless and giggling. Before kissing him again he said something that shocked you

’(Y/N), when I’m with you time stops, it feels like everything is beautiful and I never want my time with you to end. You know I only act like a bit of a dick at school to fit in. But when I’m around you, I feel I don’t need to pretend.’

Calum:

 

You are my getaway
You are my favorite place

Touring with Calum had been hard, incredibly hard. The two of you had never got time together any more. Even though it was better then being away from each other all the time it was still hard. He was either on stage, locked away in a security room before their concert, meeting fans, or too tired. It was chaos but he was dealing with it. You weren’t. You missed the old Calum. The old easy-going Calum.

It was another day of touring and meeting fans, but it was the last day of touring and meeting fans. The boys and you were happy, everyone could tell. Even though they loved touring sometimes it got too much for them at times. The tiredness would always defeat them, sometimes Michael fell asleep whilst eating breakfast. When the last show was over you could not contain your happiness. Cal got off stage, a massive grin on his face and filed his arms open to embrace you. Giggling the pair of you went to spend your last night in the tour bus before you left for home.

Two days later you and Calum were in Australia, lying in your shared bed staring at the ceiling.

'God I’ve missed this,’ Calum whispered

'Same, the past month has been so hard on the both of us,’

'I feel sorry for you babe, never seeing me,the reason you came on tour with me was to be with me, you hardly saw me!’ you knew he was getting angry and upset but you didn’t know why exactly.

'Calm down Cal, it’s okay. we’ve got each other now and that’s all that matters. My moments with you on tour meant a lot to me. Even though they were short lived, I enjoyed every second of them.’ You turned on your side, facing him, hoping Calum would do the same.

'I suppose…’ he turned over to face you, ’(Y/N) I just love you so much and I never want to lose any more time then I have to with you. In the middle of all this madness you and the boys. You mainly,’ he smiled 'are the only stable things in my life at the moment. When I see you or when I’m with you everything seems 10 times more beautiful then it already it. The madness stops and all I can think about is you.’ You planted a quick kiss on his cheek and laughed and said a quick 'I love you, Calum Hood,’ before being enveloped into Calum’s chest, his arms wrapped around you. And the two of you fell asleep, in a tangled mess of arms and legs.

Michael:

Turn off the radio
Those late night TV shows

You and Michael were caught up in your own lives at the moment, you never saw each other a lot anymore. You used to see each other every day, if it was at his house, your house, the mall, the park, anywhere. Michael and you had been best friends for over 7 years and you had been through everything together. You never saw each other as much anymore because as soon as his band hit the jackpot he was only home around 30% of the time and you were busy with college so when he was home you never had time or no one told you. You were happy for him though, ever since the day you met him you knew what he wanted in life and you knew that he would get there. Life, for you without Michael was boring. You never wanted to call him in case of the time zones or maybe it seemed like you were being clingy. You had almost got to the point where you didn’t care if it seemed clingy anymore, you needed to talk to your best friend. But there was always this horrifying thought in the back of your head that he would have forgotten about you.

You were sitting in your dorm, studying, when your phone started to ring. You immediately pounced on it. It was Michael, you let it ring once more before you answered it.

'Hello?’ a deep rasp called from the other line

'Michael?’ you answered

'Yes?’ he laughed

'Oh my god it’s you!’ you laughed. You were giddy with excitement and happiness.

’(Y/N), I’m so glad to hear your voice. I can’t remember how long it’s been since we last talked…’

'It’s been a while Clifford,’ you retorted with a sharp edge to your voice

'I know, it has been a while. I’m so sorry (Y/N),’ he sounded apologetic 'But I’m going to make it up to you this week!’

'Wait-What? Michael? What do you- oh my god I get it now!’ you laughed

'We got there eventually… Yeah so anyway this week, starts from now. Be at my place in 15 minutes.’ Before you could reply the line went dead. You got changed so quick and practically jogged to Michael’s house. You checked the time when you got to his door 11:05 pm. 'Quite late,’ you mumbled but you didn’t care; and of course to Michael the night was still young. You rang the bell and within an instant the door swung open to reveal a smiley Michael Clifford. He pulled you into a massive bear hug as you both laughed and smiled uncontrollably.

The night was spent watching films and catching up with each others life.

'I missed this and you,’ you said as The Breakfast Club came to an end.

'So have I (Y/N), so have I…’ he repeated

'We should do this more often you know,’ you blurted out 'watching films and ignoring everything else that happens in the world.’ you whispered

'Tuning out of everything else and just enjoying being with one another,’ he replied

'I couldn’t have put it better myself,’ you smiled as you looked up at him to reveal that he was wearing a smile on his face too.

Ashton:

And just be here with me

You were called into the Principles office, your stomach churning because you had no idea what could be wrong. You knocked three times on the door and the principle opened the door, looking grim. He told you to take a seat nervously wringing your sweat drenched hands. 

'Right (Y/N), I’ve got someone who needs to pick you up. Your mother has been taken into hospital after an attack. We, as a school are not aware of her medical position but you need to go. Your aunt is here to take you.’ You felt as if you had been punched in the gut. Still, you got up and walked shakily out of the school towards your aunt’s familiar car. The car journey was awkward, and to be honest you were relieved to get out the car.

In the hospital your aunt gathered most information. You weren’t allowed to know much but you knew her condition could be critical. In an hour or so you were allowed to see her. She was asleep or passed out, you didn’t know but seeing her just ate away your insides. You sat and held her hand, talking to her as if she was awake. The nurse came in 20 minutes later to usher you out, you planted a quick kiss on your moms cheek and left, just about holding back the tears.

As you wearily walked back to the waiting room you saw Ashton, your boyfriend of 6 months. He had obviously left school early to see you. In his hand he held a small bouquet of flowers, as soon as he saw you he rushed to his feet and hugged you. The oxygen was knocked out of your lungs as he squeezed you. You sat down and he sat next to you.

’(Y/N),’ he grabbed your hand 'Are you okay? Is your mom okay?’ he wrapped an arm round you protectively and kissed your hair.

'I don’t know, I don’t know anything…’ you sobbed as Ashton held you tighter

'Do you want anything?’ he whispered

'Just stay with me Ash, stay with me and don’t leave me.’ You looked up at him wiping away your tears

'Sure, anything for you (Y/N),’ he said calmly 'Everything is going to be okay. whatever happens you have me. I’ll always be here.’

okay so i hope you liked it, it took a while to write so yeah request and everything. ALSO idk should i do a part two???? send me a yes or a no please i just want to know (p.s sorry the ashton one was a bit sensitive i hope i didnt offend anyone i just ran out of ideas towards the end sorry) but yeah ily 

fic: take this boat and point it home [we’ve still got time] (part two)

The 100, Clarke/Lexa, 12k, part 2 of who the hell knows anymore.
canon-compliant through 2x15.
for megan, again, for helping me figure out the hard parts. 
They’re both broken now, after Finn and Costia, Tondc and the missile, the war, the betrayal, and she wonders if there’s enough pieces left to form a whole.

Now she comes back from battle with wounds she shows no one.

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