i've been wanting to make this for like a month haha

anonymous asked:

What are you fav fics? I've been meaning to try some new ones lately.

haha i’ve actually been meaning to make a post of fic recs since i haven’t in a while so … yeah here are some i’ve enjoyed a lot in the past couple months. (i hope you like klance because that’s like 99.99% of what i read haha oops.) 

i’ll be waiting right here by queenfrog

aka keith and lance accidentally get married in space vegas asdfksjdj. it’s very funny but also super adorable. 

F E E L by redhouseboys

a short klance emotional hurt/comfort piece inspired by the keith vlog. really beautifully written, super emotional & cathartic like … i literally thought about it for days after i read it. 

(Possibly Better) Alternatives to Parades by heckalotta

team voltron goes to a formal ball and there’s a misunderstanding with the aliens there & they think keith and lance are dating and they have to just go along with it ehehheh. listen the humor in this fic is gold, it’s like laugh-out-loud funny, but it’s also super cute & romantic and i love fake dating so yeah wow it’s great. 

we’re intimate acquaintances (tangled up again) by NotRover

a klance soulmate au where, when you meet your soulmate you get stuck in a time loop until you figure out who it is. so yeah basically it’s a klance “groundhog day” au and it’s perfect. 

calling me to come back by aknightley

uhh it’s a magic/witch au need i say more?? but yeah holy heck this fic! the world-building is so intricate and it all just feels very natural even with all the magic … and the klance development is just so sweet and emotional. it’s just so beautiful i’m still weeping. 

bring him home by 221bdisneystreet

keith gets possessed and lance has to snap him out of it. HOO BOY!!! it’s short but really packs a punch. it’s …. really emotional wrow. 

If I Ever Let You Down, Forgive Me by Katsudonace

ok i haven’t read all of this yet only like … a third of it cuz i’m a slow af reader but!! it’s a klance “legend of korra” au where klance is essentially wuko (that is, keith is a bodyguard for lance, who’s a prince) so yeah it’s everything i’ve ever wanted in life. it’s really fantastic and super detailed and such a perfectly-executed au from what i’ve read!

also if you want more recs i have a fic recs tag! and i’ve been meaning to make some kinda masterpost/google doc or something to compile all my recs cuz i have … a lot. so hopefully i’ll get around to doing that soon! 

anonymous asked:

Hello there; I've been looking through your blog and, as many others say, I just ADORE your art! I was also wondering if you could give me some advice. For quite a few months now I've utterly lost all motivation to draw. I want to go into something with art, so this devastates me, and whenever I try to draw I just get so easily frustrated. I've been an avid artist since I can remember, so for me to suddenly not want to draw for months on end really concerns me. Any suggestions to fix this?

(hi!! apologies for the late reply. i hope this can still be of some help to you despite that!)

i think that’s a feeling every artist struggles with at some point. you love art, you love making art, and it’s immensely frustrating when that suddenly doesn’t work out despite all the effort you’ve been putting in. and then you start to lose motivation, question yourself and everything you’re doing, and it’s a vicious cycle that’s really hard to break out of. so what can we do?

well, here’s a thing. let’s call it the productivity branch.

i feel like my own creative cycles are very seasonal. not in the sense that my creativity depends on the season, but rather that my creativity itself goes through different seasons.

  • spring: new ideas, motivation, productivity still low 
  • summer: lots of ideas and very productive
  • autumn: still productive drawing leftover ideas, but new ideas are harder to come by. and then 
  • winter: nothing. art-block. lack of ideas, everything-sucks-syndrome, no motivation, the creative part of my brain is basically hibernating

that’s you up there. you’re in a creative winter right now. and without any inspiration or motivation it’ll be hard to find a way to cross that gap over to a new spring (pls bear with the cheesy analogies). and if your cut yourself off from inspirational influence you might start to think that, hey, this isn’t so bad. i mean, who needs spring right? just means you have to do things. be active. yikes. winter’s pretty chill. haha. 

but don’t do that. it’ll come around and bite you at some point, because that lack of motivation and activity might start to seep into other parts of your life, not just the creative one, and you don’t want that.

so! when you don’t have ideas and motivation to create, then don’t create. but instead make an effort to inspire yourself. inspiration entails motivation (and vice versa).

  • read books, short stories, poems, science articles, anything
  • go on walks, explore your surroundings, if affordable maybe even go somewhere farther away
  • let people tell you stories
  • listen to new music
  • try things you haven’t done before (deliberately break old habits)
  • go through other people’s inspiration blogs
  • collaborate with a friend
  • get really invested in something, talk to others about it
  • watch movies, animated shorts, documentaries 
  • or speedpaintings and art tutorials
  • try different techniques, or new brushes
  • look at art that’s so inspiring that you can’t believe you’re still just sitting there not drawing anything yourself
  • and most importantly, be receptive. take in the world around you, rearrange it in your head, and draw whatever you end up with. that’s the core of what creativity is

think about what you want to achieve. make your friends smile? draw something really cool you can print out and hang up in your room? touch people’s hearts? deliver a message? whatever it is, and however small or inconsequential it might seem, keep it in mind. it’s your light at the end of the tunnel.

if want to keep drawing for the sake of muscle memory while you’re still looking for your inspiration: 

  • illustrate your daily activities
  • draw a random shape or find one in a photo (clouds are ideal for this) and turn it into a character or object
  • pick different pictures and combine elements from each of them into one drawing
  • do plain ol’ studies 
  • basically don’t try to come up with things completely from scratch. find something to work with and go from there. that will save you the mentally draining task of coming up with a subject, so you can start actively drawing right away

if you still can’t make yourself pick up a pen, make a schedule. train your brain to turn its creative gears at a specific time of the day, make that a habit. do it for pavlov

approach drawing with the awareness that what you create might suck, especially when you’re out of practice, but this doesn’t mean that it will always suck, and it doesn’t mean you suck. if you learn to dissociate your current creative achievements from your worth as a person and your future potential you will get back to work a lot easier, improve faster, and be more resistant to setbacks. 

find something that makes it worth the effort of working through the frustration. 

you might need to try a lot of different things because everyone copes with this differently, and even when a method worked once that doesn’t mean it always will. so start trying! you can only find inspiration if you start looking for it. 👍

anonymous asked:

heeey! sorry to bother you. do you have any recs for fics where harry has a crush on draco? I'm in your fic recs tag (ur the best btw) and i've run across some pining draco recs, and i thought you might know some cute pining-harry (when is he not pining tho? he's so obsessed, but you know what i mean haha!!)

One pining Harry coming right up!

To Be Where I’m Going (In the Sunshine of Your Love) by @theboywholivcd (19k)
“He imagined Draco’s smile, all gums and slightly crooked teeth, his hair slicked back with Pacific water, and he knew: He’d travel as long as he’d need to if it meant he’d see that face. If it meant that Draco would hear the message he’d been carrying for so long. Maybe he didn’t have to travel the road alone anymore.“
Draco and Harry go on a road trip together. It’s about the journey, not the destination.


Azoth by Zeitgeistic (88k)
Now that Harry is back at Hogwarts with Hermione for eighth year, he realises that something’s missing from his life, and it either has to do with Ron, his boggart, Snape, or Malfoy. Furthermore, what, exactly, does it mean when one’s life is defined by the desire to simultaneously impress and annoy a portrait? Harry has no idea; he’s too busy trying not to be in love with Malfoy to care.

A Piercing Comfort by talithan (44k)
When Harry Potter hits the lowest point of his life so far, it is not his friends who keep him honest. With Draco Malfoy’s patience and guidance, Harry learns to stand on his own. The thing is, after the fact—he’s no longer sure he wants to.

Three Boxes and a Scrapbook by dracogotgame (30k)  
One year after being accidentally bonded to each other, Harry and Draco are free to move on with their lives. But perhaps, what they needed was here all along.

The Gentlewizard Club by @sophiefrench77 (28k)
Draco wants what Draco wants. And if he has to snuggle up to Harry to get it, well, surely, Draco can handle that. Problem is, not sure Harry can.

Good to Me (And I’d Be So Good to You) by AWickedMemory (9k)
Everyone returns to Hogwarts after the war, but nothing is quite the same. Harry’s groupies are creepier than ever, Ron and Hermione are snogging all over the place, and the once-proud Draco is shuffling around like a kicked puppy. But that’s okay: Harry’s got a plan. 

All Our Secrets Laid Bare by firethesound (149k) 
Over the six years Draco Malfoy has been an Auror, four of his partners have turned up dead. Harry Potter is assigned as his newest partner to investigate just what is going on.

Potential Gravity by zeitgeistic (32k)
Draco is not good at Cards Against Humanity, but Harry’s not good at being human, so it all works out. Except for the explosions. And Harry’s inability to live when Draco’s not around.

Time to Eternity by calrissian18 (16k)
Malfoy has wings.

A Convenient Impracticality by firethesound (38k)
Somehow Harry ends up agreeing to a fake relationship with his ex-nemesis-turned-friendly-acquaintance-with-benefits, except for some reason it involves an awful lot of actual dating and, sadly, not much sex. Confused? Harry is too, but when has anything with Draco Malfoy ever been as straightforward as it seems?

The Moon Looks Lovely Tonight by Omi_Ohmy (35k)
When Harry moves into the damp and empty Black house, it doesn’t quite feel like home. And then the first owl moves in. After that, it’s a steep slope leading to bed-sharing, more owls, assorted housemates, strange potions experiments, and terrible cooking. And a bit of waltzing, too.

For Love of a Family by icicle33 (30k)
A series of attacks by a group of neo-Death Eaters causes the Ministry to implement a new set of restrictions on former Death Eaters and their children. When Scorpius falls ill, Draco decides that he will do anything to save his son, even if it means marrying Harry Potter.

Here’s The Pencil, Make It Work by ignatiustrout (49k)
Harry thinks “Why is Malfoy working in a coffee shop in muggle London?” is a much simpler question than, “Are you going to accept that auror offer and, if you don’t, what will you do?”

Left My Heart by Emmagrant01 (85k)
Auror Draco Malfoy has disappeared, and Harry Potter has been sent to San Francisco to find him. [Sequel Surrender the Grey]

The Vanishing Department by @dictacontrion (47k)
The things we lose have a way of coming back to us in the end, even if that involves a lot more form-filling, bickering, covert glancing, miscommunication, and flying furniture than we might expect. [Follow up Leather Bound History]

LipLock Jinx by Cassis Luna (21k)
It’s a jinx that renders the victim mute, unless he/she serves the purpose of the jinx and kisses the person that they desire. It’s just Harry’s luck that he’s in love with Draco. 

let me see you stripped (down to the bone) by traintracks (24k)
“So,” Malfoy said. “Are you in? Or are you out?” He turned and looked at Harry squarely.
Harry remembered the slow way Malfoy had slid his hand down his own stomach, into his pants – the outline of his long fingers gripping and stroking his own cock. The way his head had fallen back, exposing his pale throat.
How he had owned them all.
He took a deep breath. “I’m in,” he said.

No Other Superstar by lettered (21k)
Draco is sort of fucked up. Harry is sort of fucked up and really really famous. Together they fight crime! Not in this fic, though. In this fic they have sex.

Like a Real Family by Queenie_Mab (10k)
Harry thought he had all he wanted in life, raising Teddy and being the parent he’s always wanted to be, until he experiences what life with a partner could be like. Now if only Draco wasn’t straight.

Twelve Months by dysonrules (14k)
Hermione buys Harry a journal and he ends up using it to record his DEEP THOUGHTS. Not surprisingly, those tend to mostly involve Draco Malfoy.

(The Piece) I was Missing All Along by Lauren3210 (32k)
Draco and Harry have been flatmates and best friends for years, and Draco thinks life is just perfect that way. But when something comes along and threatens to take all that away, Draco has to decide what it is he really wants, and just how hard he’s going to work to get it.

The Kaleidoscope Charm, or 50 Shades of Rainbow Magic by Omi_Ohmy (26k)
Getting Draco Malfoy as a boss was not the worst thing that happened to Harry; getting a crush on him was.

Systemic Morality by zeitgeistic (34k) 
One screw-up changes everything. Harry really should learn to lock the door before having sex with Draco when his godson’s around. A tale of hot, steamy, flowing love—for Padma Patil and Theodore Nott. A tale of colossal screw-ups and slow, flangsty (sexy) resolutions for Harry and Draco.

And a Malfoy in a Pear Tree by lauren3210 (7k)
Draco works in a coffee shop. Harry drops by every day to get his fix. Of coffee, Ron.

The Little Marauders Nursery and Day Care by digthewriter (9k)
Harry Potter is the proud owner of The Little Marauders Nursery and Day Care and his favourite student is Scorpius Malfoy. Scorpius’s dad might be okay, too.

Reading Malfoy by Femme (15k) 
After thirteen years of hiding himself away in Muggle London, Draco Malfoy shows up again in the wizarding world–with a wickedly amusing memoir in hand. Harry doesn’t want to read it. Really. He doesn’t.

Humbug (A Christmas Tale) by Snegurochka (29k)
Draco has been taking his casual relationship with Harry for granted. Visits from four key ghosts the night before Christmas just might shake up his priorities in life.

So Worth The Yearning For… by digthewriter (7k)
After months (years, really) of pining, Harry accidentally asks Malfoy out on a date.

I Bet That You Look Good on the Dancefloor by birdsofshore (27k)
Harry felt lit up from inside as soon as he entered the bar. There were blokes dancing together, their bodies close to one another, not keeping a wary distance as Harry was always careful to do when he was near another man. God, he wanted this – wanted it so much he could taste it, a metallic tang of heat and desire. He suspected nothing would ever be the same again – especially when he saw who else was in the room.

The Holy Tree is Growing There by lotus_lizzy (18k)
The winsome, winsome elder tree Beneath whose shade I sit reclin’d;- It holds a witch within its bark, A lovely witch who haunts the dark, And fills with love my mind. ~George Burrow

He’s got fire for a heart, and I’m scared of burning by Samcgrath (11k)
Harry returns to England to help solve a particularly tricky case but nobody bothered to mention that he’d be working with Malfoy, who seems just as happy about it as Harry. In his absence, the wizarding world has changed in ways Harry’s having some trouble adjusting to while Malfoy struts around in his elegant robes and effortlessly charms everyone he lays eyes on. Months of grappling with his own feelings, trying to understand Draco’s, pining day in and day out - it can get a little tiring especially when Draco Malfoy is as infuriating as ever.

The Art of Seduction by playout (2k)
Harry and Draco are Auror partners assigned to go undercover at a muggle gay bar frequented by drug-dealing wizards.
Everyone knows Draco’s gay, but that Harry has been nursing a crush on the pompous arse for years is not so well known.
What could possibly go wrong?


The Expert by FantasyFiend09 (11k)
Harry finally gets a good case, but the Aurors are going to need some outside help.

These Little Things (That Guide Me to You) by huldrejenta (4k)
Harry realises his true feelings for Malfoy just as Malfoy decides to go travelling to find himself. Sometimes love means letting someone go. Sometimes going away will show you where your true home is.

The Perils of Peach Picking by sonata_de_morte (2k)
Draco Malfoy was a terrible person. On top of being a terrible person, he was a sodding tease. On top of being a sodding tease, he was fucking gorgeous. Too gorgeous for his own fucking good, Harry Potter thought mutinously.

You Were Crushed (Just Like Me) by firethesound (4k)
Something finally comes of Harry’s embarrassing crush on Malfoy. (Well, two somethings. Someones. Whatever. Also all of Harry’s friends are terrible.)

Voices From The Fog by noeon (13k)
After years of running away, Harry crosses paths with an all-too familiar face and follows him to Amsterdam.

Hidden in the Depths by envy_venis (21k)
Sometimes we know exactly what we’re looking for, even if it isn’t quite clear how to reach it.

Take the Air by dysonrules (50k)
Someone or something is attacking Muggles and leaving them for dead. Auror Harry Potter is assigned to the case, but with his usual partner unavailable, he is stuck with the worst, most anti-social, rude, and annoying Auror ever to walk the halls of the Ministry. Or perhaps he is only that way around Harry…

He’s got fire for a heart, and I’m scared of burning by Samcgrath (110k)
Harry returns to England to help solve a particularly tricky case but nobody bothered to mention that he’d be working with Malfoy, who seems just as happy about it as Harry. In his absence, the wizarding world has changed in ways Harry’s having some trouble adjusting to while Malfoy struts around in his elegant robes and effortlessly charms everyone he lays eyes on. Months of grappling with his own feelings, trying to understand Draco’s, pining day in and day out - it can get a little tiring especially when Draco Malfoy is as infuriating as ever.

Also, if you have a copy Drop Dead Gorgeous by Maya is a very good Pining!Harry fic. :)

Timeloop Aftermath

((I decided to create a possible idea of what might happen with the Aftermath of this AU. It’s a brilliant AU, so many possibilities and great writing on your part (I also love your art wow)! So, here it is! I hope you like it!))

After the incident, everything in Jeremy’s life changed, and for the better.

After he told Michael about everything that had happened (using the journal as proof, even if he has to read it to him and persuade it to him enough to make him believe him), he was convinced by Michael to get the Squip out of his brain.

There was a whole shitload of stuff that happened (may possibly write it out), whereas Jeremy had to fight against the Squip'a forces, talk to Rich, and finally get that Mountain Dew Red to end it all, Michael being his main support.

Afterwards, with everything that had happened to them with the party and Squips, Jeremy finally seemed to be accepted by people. Not only did Rich come out as bi and started being good friends with Jeremy and Michael, he got them one step closer to Jake, Chloe, Brook and Jenna. Christine had taken a liking to helping Michael after the accident (Jeremy wasn’t into her anymore since he figured out his feelings for Michael, however he couldn’t help appreciate all the amazing things she did), and so the Drama Crew was formed, their friendship really unexpected and magnificent.

Not to mention that Jeremy and Michael had gotten together quickly. Jeremy visited Michael in the hospital everyday after the accident until he got out. Apparently Michael would have full blindness for up to a year, six-nine months at least, and then he’s have eyesight problems for the rest of his life (so, worse than needing glasses obviously, however he’d have partial blindness at times. However it wouldn’t affect him as greatly, and not as bad forever).

Despite the joking bets about how long they’d last, they lasted.. that’s just it. They lasted. They graduated, went to college together (They were cool in college, let me tell you,) and moved in together shortly afterwards. They went on dates, got a dog named Pac-Man (a stray Michael found on the street, what a furry,) , and eventually had a wedding! It was small but cute, the Crew was there, Jeremy’s dad was there, Michael’s parents were there, and Mr. Reyes was there for some reason. It was all amazing, life couldn’t go better for Michael and Jeremy Heere.

That’s the saying, you can only go up. But when you’re up, where else can you go? Well.. only down, of course.

Jeremy and Michael were in their early 40’s. It had been so long since everything happened, the two never imagined Michael’s sight could be so bad ever again. He had been able to see just fine since he had turned 31, despite still needing glasses. They hadn’t even costed the doctor in a whole year, they were so confident.

Confidence wasn’t enough.

Michael had always been insistent on driving himself places after he had gotten better. To practice driving again after getting better, he went to the grocery store to get stuff for the week for them every week, and he had just kept it up since. It wasn’t a big deal.

It had been September when this whole instance occurred. Jeremy sat at home on this Monday, when he had the work day off for Labor day. He sorted through the papers in his hands that was keeping him busy. It wasn’t business papers, oh no (he couldn’t work for a big business anyways, it reminded him of the Squip. Plus he just hated the thought of working in a cubical), these were adoption papers. Jeremy and Michael had been thinking about this for yesrs, and now they were thing of going through with this. He was reading through the different foster care systems near them, when he heard his phone ring.

Jeremy wasn’t one to let his phone go to voicemail unless he was really, really into something or just couldn’t reach the phone. This wasn’t one of those times. He was quite calm at the moment, normal, feeling alright..

He suddenly didn’t feel alright. With the sound of the stranger over the line telling him about the accident. Telling him that his player two had swivered off the side of the highway into a ditch in a frenzy. He was at the hospital. He was under-

Jeremy had stopped listening. Why? Because he dripped his phone on the way outside. Panic ran through his body as he sped out of the driveway in his car, cutting someone off and not caring for a single second.

He could barely breathe as he raced towards the hospital. He knew where it was from how many times he’s been there for this man and this man alone. This man he loved more than anything in the world. The man he saw die so many times before- but felt it so real this time that he felt like he would die right here and now if he didn’t make it to the hospital.

Adrenalin filled him as he crashed into the ER, frantically waving down anyone at all to tell him where Michael was. He looked insane, so if course, security had stopped him before a nurse had came to him.

“Where’s Michael? Where- I-Im married to him! I-is he ok?”

“Sir, were doing everything we can. Hes in a critical state. You have to calm-”

“I can’t calm down! I have to see him- h-he can’t die! I can’t let him d-die! Please!” Jeremy held back the word ‘again’. He also held back tears.

“Sir, I..”

Just then, a doctor stepped into the area. He talked to the lady at the front counter before making his way over to us. “You’re Jeremy Heere, sir?”

Jeremy nodded quickly. “Y-yes, where’s Michael? Is he ok? H-hes ok, right?”

The doctor had paused.

Jeremy felt a fear rush through him at this silence. “H-hes, t-tell me Michael’s ok! Tell me!” He persisted, his voice escalating.

The doctor spoke calmly, obviously rehearsed and drone-like. “I’m sorry sir. There was nothing else we could do for him. Michael had punctured his lung and bled to death before we could do anything usef..”

Jeremy felt his heart drop as the words sunk in. His thoughts seemed to stop, scream to a halt, not disappear, but a much , much worse feeling. The feeling of his whole life crashing down on him and fleeing him at the same time. His heart stopped, like everything else, for a pause that seemed to last for hours.

Then it all hit him. All of it. His heart came back, feeling an ache that only grew worse with every pump. His mind filled with the words of the doctor, the thoughts of his lovers death, the thoughts of Michael, Michael, Michael is dead.

Jeremy was crying. His cheeks were leaking as he pulled himself away from the other men. He stumbled back, still staring at the doctor. His vision became blurry as he started crying harder than every before, his breath becoming tiny gasps, his feet losing balance when he realised he was outside the hospital, on the grass. He brought his hands to his face, weeping and whaling profusely to himself, alone.

Everything came flooding back. And it all guilted him. He could have gone grocery shopping with him. For him. He could have taken him to the doctors to get checked up, seen that his sight might get worse. Checked that his lover was ok with a phone call, say “I love you, player two” one last time. The worst part was that he couldn’t remember the last words they had exchanged.

His mind was in such a spiraling state that he started thinking of everything bad that he ever did to Michael. He reached his deaths, he reached the looping. He remembered every death. He remembered his pain and how none of that pain was nearly as bad as it is now. Now was the worst day of his life. And there had been many bad days for Jeremy Heere.

He just wanted to see his face one more time. He wanted to see his lover, his player two, his alive husband, his best friend, his partner in crime, the most amazing person in the world-

“Or you’ll what?”

The bathroom. The light. The taste of shitty, terrible liquor threatening his mouth. And right in front of him, almost 30 years younger, was the love of his life. He teared up.

“M-Michael?”


(HOOOOO BOYYYYYY I AM. I AM DEC E ASED

I AM LIKE. LIKE THIS

I’M AM PHYSICALLY W EAK

That was really really really fantastic, wow!! I have had thoughts about making the timeline where Michael goes blind the final timeline, sort of like, there’s gotta be some sacrifices, but they don’t necessarily have to be someone dying, ya know? And just imagining all the fun stuff that he and Jeremy go through afterward, hoooo!

All I can think about now is Jeremy pushing Michael (who’s wearing like, shutter shades or a pair of ridiculous sunglasses probably) around in a wheel chair through school and Michael’s like “Move outta the way, bitches, I got an escort to class” and like. Once they recover they get comfortable enough to make blind jokes ppfffp
Although I do like the idea of Michael’s sight coming back eventually. Like the accident at Jake’s house was only temporary and he regains his sight after a couple months or a year or smth.

BUT ANYWAY BACK TO SCREAMING THAT WRECKED ME AAAA!! I just can’t imagine how awful that would be, to live thirty years and then be taken back in time all the way back to the start of the whole thing;; but now Jeremy can try to prevent the whole blind thing, yeah? (Maybe instead Jeremy ends up going blind :0)

STOP KILLING MICHAEL I say as I continue to kill Michael in multiple of my AUs haha–//shot

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS!! You guys are awesome continuing to shower me with fics and beautiful art and giving me more ideas for this AU I AM TRULY. TRULY BLESSED.)

For Love & Money Pt.1

PART ONE - PART TWO

Words: 4361

Genre: Fluff, Slice of life, Casual writing, (maybe eventual smut), Arranged/Forced Marriage!Au

Summary: For love, you foolishly lied to yourself. For money, you married a stranger. 

Notes: I got tired of writing so much angst haha. So this is completely the opposite lol From one extreme to the next, I swear. Oh yeah, I’m trying different styles of writing and different OC types…so the story’s a bit saucier. But yes..there is minimal pain in this story…enjoy~ 

Originally posted by bwibelle

Ringg Rinnggg.

“Honey is that you?” It’s your mother’s chirpy voice on the other line - you furrow your brows.

“Is everything okay? Your voice message said it was an emergency.” Suddenly your back is pushed against the wall.

“Yes…yes. Everything’s fine. Your father and I are fine.” Your mother hesitates. “It’s just that I was wondering if you would like to go on a dat-”

“A date?” The stranger presses their body against yours as their lips meet your neck, trailing kisses up and down. “No thanks mom.”

Keep reading

anonymous asked:

Well, if hc requests are open, I've got an idea! The RFA + Minor 3, playing drinking games. What are their favorite games, and any highlights to be shared? Like, Never Have I Ever, Drink when X does Y, beer pong, etc?

This is amazing GET READY COME ON AND SLAM AND WELCOMEJTORHTEJAM 

*this turned into more gENERAL DRUNK HEADCANONS IM SORRY*

Yoosung:

  • Terrible tolerance for alcohol
  • Meaning he gets plastered extremely easily and can’t even tolerate the taste like Vanderwood or Saeran can
  • “This tastes like nail polish remover…..” *squinting and grimacing and lord help the poor child*
  • For Never Have I Ever, Seven said “Never have I ever broken someone’s possession and not told them until months and months later” and proceeded to glare at Yoosung
  • Yoosung, of course, was the only one to drink 
  • He drank shamefully 
  • Because of his horrible tolerance, he usually doesn’t participate in drinking games unless Seven drags him into one
  • And by the end of the night he’s absolutely hammered, someone’s gotta help him walk cause he sure as hell can’t do it himself, and Seven’s usually laughing about it
  • He’s the sad and whiny drunk who starts to tell you about his childhood traumas with chia pets when you didn’t even ask

Zen:

  • Usually stays with beer but is verrryy prone to getting sick along the night because of it; Beer before liquor, you’ve never been sicker. Liquor before beer, you’re in the clear.
  • And by the time Seven’s ready to drown him in shots, he’s usually already had beer. (You’ll notice that Seven is the “WOOOOOOO” guy at functions that involve alcohol)
  • So Zen prepares to hack it all up later and wake up with the worst hangover imaginable because he’s not gonna back down from a drinking game because he’s gotta prove his manliness so fINE SEVEN YOU WANT A CHALLENGE, MOVE.
  • Insanely good at Bite The Bag and Beer Pong
  • Has an average tolerance for alcohol? He won’t get slammed as easily as Yoosung but he’s nowhere near as tolerant as Jumin or Vanderwood
  • Zen is the happy, lovey drunk who just wants to be your friend (He is, shockingly enough, not the flirty drunk) “hhhey…hey..*hic* Where are we goin again..? OHHHH, upstairs” *drunken giggles* “forgoootttt” 

Jaehee:

  • Usually doesn’t like to drink at all? She has a pretty good tolerance for alcohol but it’s just not her cup of tea. And usually Seven’s idiotic teasing and comments don’t get to her but sometimes..
  • “Woowwwww look at Ms. Jaehee Kang being the wet blaaannnket, probably cause she’s not good at the games mehhh meh-”
  • O h.
  • A switch is flipped and Jaehee may attempt to drink everyone out of the god damn table
  • She is also INSANELY competitive with all the games, no matter what they are; A drunk Jaehee isn’t a very different Jaehee but she will in fact become barbaric with her competitiveness
  • *Wins a game* “WOOOOOOOO!!!! YES. YOU MIGHT AS WELL GIVE UP FOR THE NIGHT, IT’S ALL OVERRR.” 
  • You can fight me on this if you want but Jaehee Kang is not a calm drunk
  • She is, however, horrified when she’s reminded of her actions the next day. 
  • “I…I said what..?” She won’t look Jumin in the eye for the next week if he saw how she had acted while hammered.

Jumin: 

  • Amazing tolerance for alcohol
  • He doesn’t stray too far from wine; sometimes he and V will settle for soju, cheongju, sansachun, and maybe even makgeolli.
  • It’s very difficult to get Jumin to play any of the games but one of the games he’s amazing at is Straight Face. (clearly)
  • He’s terrible at Drunken Artists.
  • Usually rolls his eyes and shakes his head at Seven’s rowdy behavior, Yoosung’s tears, Zen’s constant lovey-ness, and is downright shocked at Jaehee’s drunken state. 
  • V always giggles when Jumin starts to pass the line of “tipsy”
  • It’s hard to tell for anyone except V when exactly Jumin is passing that line, but when he starts to actually get drunk, it gets a little obvious
  • He thinks waayyyy too deep into the simplest things and will talk about these things until he’s ready to pass out
  • He’s still straight faced, calm, and quiet, but he’s so baffled by the world. (almost like the Jaden Smith video; “sharks have been around for longer than trees……that one’s hard to believe but it’s actually true”)

Seven:

  • Oh boy
  • The loud, obnoxious, overly confident, “WOOO” drunk
  • It’s almost like there’s no difference. You can only tell that Seven’s drunk because he can’t talk or walk properly when he’s heavily intoxicated. 
  • Loves ALL the games BUT he does have some favorites:
  • Medusa, Slip It In *loves trolling guests with this shit*, Revolving Ping Pong, and Concoctions *don’t play this with him he is MERCILESS*
  • Will probably tease you if you aren’t drinking or playing any of the games, however, he isn’t an ass about it. He only makes quick playful comments and it usually isn’t hard to tell that he’s only kidding. 
  • Now for his confidence
  • In his drunken stupor, Seven will most likely have to be talked out of doing ridiculously stupid things by his honey or by anyone who’s capable of convincing him. 
  • These can be things like:
  • Streaking around the neighborhood, climbing things he shouldn’t be climbing *especially when drunk*, drinking even more when he’s already annihilated, cooking *he always thinks he’s some sort of Gordon Ramsey protege when he’s wasted*, and many, many more.

V:

  • The giggly, flirty drunk. (Who would’ve thought right)
  • V doesn’t usually get drunk; only if he’s drinking with his partner.
  • If he doesn’t have one though, then he’ll only get drunk if he’s with someone from the RFA, and even that isn’t very often.
  • But if Seven can manage to get him drinking then V is ready to be your pal
  • “awwhh..” *hic* “wook at how cuuuutee..heehee..”
  • The drunk who denies that he’s drunk
  • Terrible at literally every drinking game imaginable but, since he’s intoxicated, he just laughs it off.
  • Every. single. loss. 
  • “haha..did I winnn?!”
     “n..no, Jihyun..”
     “nnnnaaaahhh I think I wonnnn” or “awwwwhhhh that’s saddddd…eeee.” 
  • NOTHING can drag a drunk Jihyun down, he is so happy. With his S/O, that’s where the “flirty drunk” characteristic will come out. 
  • He’ll compliment you on absolutely everything through slurred words and honestly he’ll be having the time of his life. He isn’t wild, either. He’s a remotely calm drunk. (he’ll wake up with a killer hangover though) 

Saeran: 

  • “leave me alone” drunk
  • It’s often a little hard to tell when Saeran’s drunk *he’s really quiet and calm. Zoned out maybe* but he’s usually the angry drunk. 
  • HOWEVER
  • This isn’t to say he’ll go around picking fights with everyone at the party.
  • He’ll just get mad at literally…the dumbest things…
  • “Why the fuck is it looking at me”
    “Saeran that’s a succulent” 
    “like one of those demons that comes to fuck you in your dreams..?…holy shit…hey..”
  • *talks to the PLANT* 
  • He also probably has NO CLUE what’s going on half the time
  • You could be talking to him and fifteen minutes later he’ll slowly look at you like an old lady who isn’t wearing her hearing aid like “…oh did you say something…” 
  • Wins the award for “Most likely to befriend an inanimate object while blitzed”

Vanderwood:

  • Don’t even attempt to challenge him
  • CAN AND WILL DRINK YOU OUT OF THE TABLE
  • Vanderwood usually only gets drunk if he’s having bad memories or he’s just feeling down that day, but
  • that’s not always the case. Either way, Vandy can slam drinks back like there’s no tomorrow. 
  • It takes a l o t to get this man drunk 
  • And he usually just sits there and people gotta check on him because he hasn’t moved for like ten minutes??? dude are you good???
  • Yes he’s good, he just zones out a lot when he’s drunk
  • It sometimes makes him really really tired and sleepy though.
  • He gets a little grumpier and is a bit easier to annoy than usual.
  • His alcohol tolerance is high while his tolerance for your bullshit gradually decreases with every shot that he takes. 
  • Sometimes, if you’ll listen, he becomes the Venty Drunk. He’ll tell you some personal shit from back in the day that is very intriguing but also woah why was that brought up.
  • Depending on your reaction, he might regret it the next day
50% OFF starters.
  • "You can't have sex with your neighbor's backyard above-ground pool."
  • "let me help you out of that swimsuit-- POOL."
  • "I sure hope we become best friends! but I don't hope we have a falling out, leading us to have a tense, emotion-heavy, dramatic, competitive, love/hate relationship later on."
  • "so anyways I regain consciousness, there's cops everywhere, (name) is covered in blood, got an icepick-- haha it was kind of a weird tuesday."
  • "we're gonna be late for anime school!"
  • "I'm just saying, is it illegal if I'm in my OWN pool?"
  • "WHAT'S UP SLUTS. GUESS WHO JUST GOT OUT OF PRISON!"
  • "(name) WAS A BITCH-ASS POSER."
  • "oh no, he's hot when he's sad!"
  • "this reminds me of prison. this reminds me of prison. this DEFINITELY reminds me of prison."
  • "look at that little pimp. he's gonna grow up to be a prison ass mothafucka."
  • "let's skip all the fluff and get to the part where we're shirtless."
  • "homeboy looks like shark week, I ain't messin' with that."
  • "It wasn't a dream! We got arrested for trespassing! We went to JAIL!"
  • "Nah, man, we went to holding. there's a big difference."
  • "Yeah now we owe Easter Dave a favor-- that is NOT a position you wanna be in."
  • "Wouldn't we have seen him around by now? I mean he is a bipedal shark-person."
  • "I'VE GOT MACE!"
  • "Was macing us really necessary AFTER you remembered who we were?!?"
  • "you took the fall for me and I said thank you."
  • "I went to jail!"
  • "I spent 6 months at a correctional facility!"
  • "I stabbed a girl in the yard!"
  • "I think that guard you killed had a family!"
  • "look at that majestic ass mothafucka. like a dolphin or some shit. a dolphin with legs... and arms... and a jetpack."
  • "BITCH GET IN THE POOL!"
  • "that's how they do it in Austrailia."
  • "20 bucks on jabber jaws."
  • "hey, man did you Tivo Glee last night?"
  • "I'm not allowed to watch Glee, my dad says it might turn me into something bad. A musical theater major."
  • "Neither one of them even died!"
  • "they won't let me back into sewing club because apparently when I threaten someone with sewing needles it's deemed 'inappropriate' and I 'have to leave'."
  • "I have to tumblr this!"
  • "a guy with emotional issues who swims away his problems? Lady, that's the whole team, you're gonna have to be more specific."
  • "I ship them! and them!"
  • "they hate each other, but they also fuck each other!"
  • "hey we try not to get this part of the gym wet so whatever you're doing is gonna have to stop."
  • "so do you wanna come back to my place, listen to some Dave Matthews and talk about my work out routine?"
  • "I wonder if that stuff I hid is still here? ...nah, cops probably took it."
  • "do you know? do you know for sure? Because I don't need another incident."
  • "If I get out of this chair I guarantee you'll end up in one with wheels."
  • "Ok. I'll admit, I'm a little threatened."
  • "'sup bitches!~"
  • "aren't you that guy who drowned a kid? and burned down that building?"
  • "get back to it before you learn a lesson in post-war, urban torture practices."
  • "Remember, snitches get stitches!"
  • "shut up you're high as balls!"
  • "you're just mad because mom and dad thought you were a girl for the first year of your life."
  • "right, son. and speaking of crushing disappointments-"
  • "coach tried to get me to vandalize a police station again."
  • "good thing I wore my Heelys."
  • "he's so hot but so crazy! which makes him even MORE hot!"
  • "Come on let me get those digits baby!"
  • "It should be illegal to be that fine!"
  • "oh just basic addition and subtraction. he was subtracting from my profits so I'm going to add a few extra holes in him."
  • "this doesn't seem like the time for polka-renditions of Ke$ha songs."
  • "I hate it when you leave but I love watching you go."
  • "Yeah I've seen him. He's in my scrapbook class. He cuts the eyes out of magazine photos."
  • "your arrest record is extensive... and amateur."
  • "the fact that you continue to avoid indefinite incarceration is insanityAND THE FACT THAT OUR LAW ENFORCEMENT CAN'T PUT AWAY SOMEONE WITH SUCH BLATANT DISREGARD FOR CONVENTIONAL CRIMINAL FUNCTION BAFFLES THE MIND."
  • "I want that boy to be my bride!"
  • "Pilates will do that man, works your core."
  • "what are we waiting for? let's go bro! let's gbro!"
  • "wow you sure said that."
  • "WOOP! WOOP! hold it, I'm gonna have to pull you over for exceeding recommended hotness."
  • "One time we went camping in the woods, I just left 'em there. Nobody found them for like 5 days. I don't even think their families cared, kinda sad, really."
  • "So, what you're saying is, if they disappeared, no one would notice?"
  • "well I've gotta go not talk to you anymore."
  • "I learned how to swim the old fashioned way. When I was five my dad took me out to a lake and tossed me right in the water."
  • "I'm so happy right now! --and it's not just cause I get to see you in a bunch of different swimsuits. Ok I lied, I'm sorry, that's mostly the reason."
  • "SHE'S A WITCH! PUSH HER IN THE POOL!"
  • "hey I know you! You helped me smuggle some stuff out of the country! How've you been kid?"

anonymous asked:

You should do road trip headcanons!

This is perfect, because I just finished a month long road trip across the continental United States (I’ve seen it all), so I definitely know what’s it like to drive for hours and hours with people. 

So, considering there are seven people, they take a SUV (2 seats in front, 3 in the middle row, and two in the back)

So Hunk gets motion sick, and this applies to cars too, so all Hunk really only has two options:

  1. sleep
  2. listen to music

He ends up sleeping a lot, and as a result he misses a lot of the countryside and such. The rest of the Paladins are nice though, and they wake him up for anything they find interesting. 

(At one point they are going through some very bumpy roads, and since Hunk was asleep he kept bouncing up and down, ‘cause he couldn’t control it…Lance took a video)

Pidge sits in the WAY back, and uses the time to build new gadgets and when they pull the car behind a tour bus they’ll piggyback off of the bus’ wifi. 

Lance is the kind of guy who will want to stop everywhere he can just to get pictures ‘it’s the journey, not the destination’

Keith is the exact opposite, he just wants to get where they are going, and why is Lance making so many unnecessary stops?

Shiro is the main driver, and when he drives Allura is in the passenger seat, Hunk in the middle left window seat, Keith in the middle and Lance on the right middle window seat. (Coran and Pidge share the back).

Shiro is the only one who can keep the peace. Basically the entire car is a constant ticking time bomb that follows a simple cycle. 

First, Keith and Lance start arguing about who should be sitting in the window seat, and then Hunk complains about his headache. Pidge then tells everyone to shut it so they can concentrate, and Coran mumbles about how he’s never seen such a disrespectful group of paladins. 

Then Pidge, Lance, and Keith all team up on Coran and tell him “Of course we are fighting, it’s perfectly normal.”

Now it’s time for Allura to get involved, and she’ll comment something like “Perfectly normal for savages” and that sets off everyone again. 

Meanwhile, Shiro is trying to concentrate on the godamn road and he has a semi-truck pulling up on his right side and why won’t these idiots shut up and finally Shiro yells “QUIET!”

Everyone immediately quiets down and Shiro gets another hour of silence before the whole cycle starts ups all over again. 

anonymous asked:

hey! this might seem like an odd question but can I ask how you design your outfits/armor designs? whenever i try to design something for a character it kinda comes out simple, or is similar to other designs i've made in the past and i was wondering if you had any other tips ^_^ (also, i absolutely adore you're hq!! fantasy au and i can't wait for another update X3 )

Hey there Anon! :) I’m sure your work is fantastic! Just brainstorming and trying new things (even if you think it turns out too similar or simple) is always a good thing! Tbh I’m not really experienced in concept design and I don’t find my work to look very skilled haha but here’s a couple things I do when doing these kinds of drawings. First, I think it’s good to grab as many reference photos as you feel you need. For Ushijima’s (shiratorizawa) armor outfit I was looking at a lot of ancient Greek armor. What I did was take the general shape of the armors in the pictures and elaborated on it. It is VERY helpful (at least for me) to have a “base” for your designs that you can start with so that it’s easier to add in detail and embellishments. It also helps you understand how clothes/armor fits. I struggle a lot with making armor look like it’s wearable with room for the bending of elbows and knees, so I try to take time to figure out how the armor is being worn and what pieces are separate from the others. Second, when trying to think of something new, I like to try and think in shapes. Like Ushijima’s is very round and circular but Iwa’s is very sharp and diamond shaped. It’s easier for me to make something more detailed when I have a basic shape that applies to the whole outfit: if I wanted to add designs on the fabric for Ushijima, it would probably be a lot of curved lines and circular designs. Lastly, reference, reference, reference. On clothes and armor around the world. You won’t find a better inspiration than real life designs! It’s not like you have to copy it, just observe it and maybe take aspects of what you’re seeing, such as a cloth wrapped on one side of the body, or a utility belt/strap that goes around the waist and over the shoulder. And there’s nothing wrong with not liking the design you make at first <3 just keep sketching over and over and don’t give up! And have fun experimenting with different things ~ Sorry for the long ramble hahah

Answering other ASKS here (it’s gonna be a long one… lol):

Hi there! Hmm drawing technique… I would define it as HOW you draw something. Or HOW you use your choice of medium to draw/paint. For example, if you use pencil/pen, there’s something called stippling, which is a bunch of dots to create an illusion of shading. Stippling is a technique you use to draw with the pencil/pen. Same with cross hatching. You can’t really have a drawing technique, as it is something used by a lot of people. But you can USE technique and HAVE a personal style, which is the end result of you using technique. If that makes sense? Ahhh I hope this helped at least a little ;__; That was a hard question haha I had to think about this quite a bit XD

Hi @plants-blooms! Thank you so much! Ohhh another hard Q hahah. I agree it can be hard to achieve a natural look on photoshop. I think it really comes down to your choice of brush and your understanding of light and color on hair. 

I did this super quick and messily but I think it gets across the impact of using different brushes while drawing the same thing. It’s very important to know what kind of look you are going for and brushes factor a lot into it. And then there’s color and light. I think the best way to do realistic, natural looking hair is to observe real life and understand how the environment interacts with it (careful though since there are a lot of different types of hair). The amount of light a person’s hair is exposed to affects it’s color; not painting it in the right shade when the environment is really dark or really light can throw off its realism. Also, you don’t HAVE to emulate real hair and draw every single strand. If you understand all that light/color business, you can actually draw very simply and it will still look realistic. I’d like to point you towards WLOP’s work <3 their work IS detailed but it’s also a combo of specific brushes and an amazing understanding of light. And Wlop’s painting tutorial HERE. In general make sure to practice by observing portrait photos (perhaps flickr) or just creep on people in real life hehe

Haha hi there ~ Ahh thank you so much >///< yes that is me! *cough* Butiwaswearingalotofmakeupinthatreferencephotolmao *cough*

Ahh thank you so much @ichigodaisuki! <3 The small square above the nano is a very lazy and quick attempt to draw 3DS game cards hahah. It’s Fire Emblem Awakening and Pokemon Alpha Sapphire XDD and it’s completely illegible hahaha

Hi there, Anon! <3 Ohhh this question haha. I’ve been following figure skating since, I think, Kristi Yamaguchi in the 1990s (she was so good). I’ve also loved animation since I was little. The problem is I’m VERY VERY picky about the shows that I choose to watch, so I decided to keep tabs on anime studios based on the number of shows they’ve made that I enjoyed. MAPPA has been on my list since Sakamichi no Apollon and Zankyou no Terror (both are extremely beautiful, mature shows btw if you haven’t seen them), so when I heard they were going to make an original FIGURE SKATING show… I was all in. I think I was waiting for Yuri on Ice for over a year because the trailer came out 10 months ago and the announcement was a while before that. 

Anyways YES I loved the show, however it is not in my top favorites list (weird I know haha I’m sorry). But while I had issues with the character development and the animation, this show NAILED the main three. I could draw Yuuri, Victor, and Yurio all day! I think those guys were what made me love YOI, especially the relatable personality and character progress of Yuuri. Really wish there was more on Victor though, considering how significant of a character he is.

Ohhh Anon ~ If you want to watch something you should do it! Not being an artist or a reviewer should never stop you from watching a tv show, or doing anything for that matter <3 be yourself. Anyone who doesn’t want to talk to you because they think you’re “untalented” is a jerk and not worth your time anyways! The YOI community on here has been very friendly and welcoming, so don’t be afraid! Please take care and think higher of yourself ~ Have more confidence <3

Hello there Anon! Oh my goodness thank you so much! >////< And of course that’s totally ok with me! <3 ahhhh thank you so much for your support and I’m so honored you want to try and cosplay the design! I would LOVE to see it when it’s done if that’s alright with you?? *o*

Hi there Anon! Thank you so much and thank you for the interest! <3 There is only ONE king/queen at a time, but they are chosen by both of the two clans together and that person can be from either clan. Tsukki is definitely moon clan along with Asahi, Kiyoko, and Suga. Noya, Tanaka, Daichi, Yachi and Hinata are sun. I’m struggling with Yamaguchi, Takeda, Ukai and the rest… Kageyama is actually from Seijou and was banished to Karasuno and takes over as a dictator, sort of. So he has some work to do haha. Here’s the crests but they’re subject to change considering how fast and sloppy I did them LOL:

@fuckdin Of course. To both. Hehehe. But seriously yes, I definitely plan to draw more of the fantasy AU. It’s getting to the point where I want to draw all the characters and all the outfits and all the locations. And I have no time. It’s baaaaad hahah. But in terms of Iwaoi, their relationship in this AU is a bit… angsty. Mutual. But angsty… Soon. I’ll draw more soon!

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Thank you to everyone who sent in ASKS! I have a few unanswered ones because this post turned out rather long haha. I’ll get to those when I can. And I’ll pm replies to the non-answer ASKS assuming you are not anonymous :)) Take care all! Have a great week <3 and a little iwaoi heh

anonymous asked:

I've always been scared of having "too much exaggeration on emotions" in my drawins and for the past few months my art has always had a dulled, neural look. It was really bumming me out. But after finding your blog and all your amazin pieces, I love your bnha btw lmao, I've been really inspired to branch out and break the mold I've set myself in. Idk, it may sound silly or weird but I just wanted to say thank you for that and for showin me how emotions really bring out every art piece. Rock on!

Im glad youre pushing yourself to give characters more life in your art! 

I think sometimes people worry that by contorting characters faces with intense emotion that they somehow make them “ugly” or “embarrassing”–but I find beauty in characters who’s faces crunch and twist and become almost monster like. So much power comes from feelings that “destroy” the face, and I personally flock to art styles that aren’t afraid of that ugliness, like:

Horikoshi (as you know)

Takehiko Inoue 

One (Studio BONES)

Satoru Noda

Yoshitoki Ōima

Inio Asano

Kei Sanbe (A-1 Pictures)

Kazue Katō (A-1 Pictures)

Atsushi Ōkubo (Studio BONES)

This…ended up turning into a show-and-tell post abt the kinda of faces I like lmao BUT!! You get the point.

Get ugly! Get embarrassing! Get alive!

Okay hear me out: the critical role cast has some issues when it comes to lgbt+ representation & interacting with fans.

I know it’s easy to look at fans being upset over Marisha’s comments about Keyleth’s sexuality & think fans are “demanding”, “asking too much”, “intruding on a private game”. These are all accusations I’ve seen in the last 24 hours. It’s important to remember that this has all come up because Marisha was joking about f/f attraction on the stream. She has Keyleth say she wanted to see Vex’s breasts and it spiraled from there. 

Fans are reacting to this because Keyleth being bi/questioning/etc will remove the sting of this conversation. 

Confirming a character as exploring something other than heterosexuality (however badly it’s done) is still better than using other sexualities as a punchline. 

And the critical role cast does this. It does this a lot. Here are a few from the top of my head:

  • the purposeful misgendering of raishan (mainly by sam)
  • grog’s ‘boyfriend’  Kerrek
  •  scanlan’s many, many jokes about sex with men*
  • laura’s whole ‘haha maybe vex will get a gf ;) jk she’s been in love with percy this whole time’
  •  hell, vax’s romance with gilmore started off as liam trying to flirt the price of goods down. to his credit he committed to it for a while, but then he followed the bisexual trope of finding the ‘right’ person of a different sex and choosing them instead.

*sam had been joking about scanlan and men for months before finally discussing the topic seriously on twitter. even then he just said “not 100% heterosexual”. it’s progress, but there’s still a way to go

“but emma, they have good intentions! you have to be patient and respectful of the cast!” my dudes i dont have to respect someone who treats the representation of my community like a novelty shirt they can wear for a day and take off later. i know they’re trying, i know they’re learning, but they still need to apologize when they make a mistake. no one is asking for blood, folks. 

This could have been avoided (or certainly at least reduced) if Marisha hadn’t initially been so evasive on twitter. the unwillingness to confirm anything read as Marisha wanting to continue the trend of joking about lgbt+ representation. it was a dismissal. 

i love Marisha, god knows i defend her until i’m red in the face, but no one gets a universal pass. she’s an adult and she knew she upset people. it wouldn’t have cost her anything to tweet something like “hey i didn’t think about keyleth’s speech last night and i’m sorry that it came across as a cheap joke. i’d like to explore keyleth’s sexuality more & this will take time bc she’s inexperienced. please bear with me as both she and i figure this out”

that’s literally all she needed to do.

the cast struggles when it comes to apologizing to the lgbt+ community. we just need to look at how they handled the situation with j’mon’s misgendering. matt actually used the “dont get mad at your allies” speech, something i know a lot of us (myself included) have heard before. again, mistakes are going to happen. people slip up, we know this, but you still apologize for mistakes. you dont get to say “hm i dont think what i did caused you any harm”. you have to step back and say “oh i upset you? that wasnt my intention and i’m very sorry for that. this is new to me and i hope i will do better in the future”

final thoughts:

-this isn’t a private game anymore. this is a show that many of us pay money to access. that doesn’t give us the right to make demands, but it does give us the right to ask that our sexuality and gender aren’t treated as a joke. it gives us the right to ask a cast member if they were serious when they flirted with the idea of their character not being straight. 

-the problem isn’t that keyleth is questioning. the problem is that the cast has a tendency to joke about these things and then never return to it, as if lgbt+ representation is a tap you can turn on or off. (sam is the only exception i can think of, but again that wasn’t confirmed on screen.) minority groups shouldn’t be treated like this.

-it’s not entitlement to ask that your sexuality isn’t a punchline. it’s not demanding to ask for clarification. it’s not asking too much for an apology. 

if straight actors dont want to seriously consider non-heterosexual orientations, then they dont get to make jokes about sexuality. 

Meeting the Avengers family; Chris Evans x teen reader

This request was my first ever Chris Evans request that I had ever written. I hope you guys enjoy it, not really any warnings except for utter teeth rotting fluffiness, sparks of first romance and the Three Leaders of Team Cap picking on a small Tom Holland. 

Originally posted by cevansnews

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It was the beginning of May and my dad Chris Evans and I have just arrived at the first location spot for the upcoming Avengers: Infinity War film. Now I have been to all the premieres and heck I have all the DVD’s but I’ve never once gotten the chance to go with my dad to see him on set as Captain America (I blame school for that) but now since I’ve finished my finals and am currently done with school, I have bargained with my dad to allow me to go with him on set to see Avengers: Infinity War and here we are now.

“Okay (n/n) we’re here” my dad said as he patted my knee which made me take out my earbuds and shut my music off and I got out of the car with him and we were guided by some of the Marvel staff into the studio where we were welcomed by the entire cast and crew that were there.

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anonymous asked:

Hiii, im new to your blog but from what i've seen, you seem to be a very realistic shipper, so would you say your what your favorite jikook moments are and why do you ship them? Also, is there any other bts ship you like? Thaanks in advance (^^)

hello there~~~, thank you for visiting my blog and leaving back nice questions for me ^-^~. Sorry that it took me a while to answer your ask since I needed time to gather materials (?).

uhm… well I dunno if I’m there yet, but I do try to be realistic xD. Perhaps because of my age too, I’m not as young as most fans/shippers, so it’s not all pink for me. Jikook/Kookmin and BTS in general heal my old soul ♥. But thank you for saying that, it seems I’m on the right track with my posts :-)

However, I can tell you that these moments I list below aren’t in that direction, it’s more like sth personal and meaningful to me… I’m sorry if can’t live up to your expectation… 


So… 1st, my favorite Jikook/Kookmin moments… like we’ve been blessed with so much in the 1st 3 months of this year, but I guess the good old times left stronger impression on me, so imma try my best to find them back in my rusty mind xD

Originally posted by kookieshands

Like, who is a Jikook/Kookmin shipper that doesn’t know about this moment? This was when I started questioning their relationship. As an Asian, I try to find an explanation for this by saying things like “yeah friends and brothers can back-hug too, why not?”… But no, it didn’t work out that way. The way they were swaying, the way Jimin leaned back into Jungkook’s embrace, the way Jungkook just gently held Jimin in his arm, how they did all this while enjoying the music and having a time of their life, plus Hobi’s staring at them. I can see all flowers and butterflies there 🌺🦋. No, this is definitely not usual 🐥🐰.


Originally posted by jun-kookie

Not long into the ship I found this, I still remembered how surprised I was, since I hadn’t known that Jungkook had this kind of expression, and it was towards Jimin. Back then Jungkook gave me this kind of rough manly image but here he’s all soft and cute, nervously waiting for Jimin’s answer while looking at him with that longing look… I’m melting, help 💧💦✨


Back to the past a bit further, I dunno how I can explain this, but I just simply love this? Cuties having fun together, those smiles, the way Jungkook’s eye wrinkles shown while looking at Jimin, it’s just… so beautiful to me? 💞💞


I dunno if this is counted as a moment, probably not, but it’s meaningful to me in a way. Since I’m one of those people who believe that in order to take a great picture for another person, you have to have certain type of affection towards that person. When I 1st saw this picture, I thought this was a masterpiece without knowing it was Jungkook who took it. I know it doesn’t make any sense, but that’s just my point of view. This picture just screams “adoration” to me.


The content says it all.  갖고싶다 x3, “I want you” x3. Like I tried to find explanations to why in the middle of Jimin’s shooting, Kookie just had to film him with the kind of compliment like “oh sexy expression” and say that he wants Jimin? Like out of nowhere? And to the caption at the end of the vid, yes he wants Jimin, but no, it never ends xD


I just love this so much, too? How their voices sound together, how they’re singing a love song, how they look so passionate and how Jimin giggles because of Jungkook’s antics. What can we ask more from this match made in heaven (or hell xD)? 


Originally posted by tanktoptiger

Jimin basically asks Jungkook to give birth to his child… And people can walk away without having to look like they’re nodding their head… 

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My Bullet Journal Set Up

So some of you have asked me about my bullet journal (I’m looking at you, @munirastudies (and some anons - hi anons!)). Here it is: my set-up!

I previously did a post on my bullet journal at the very beginning of this studyblr, which can be found here. It’s just changed so much since then that I decided I’d post a new one!

- 1 - I’ve got a dotted Leuchtturm1917 A5 notebook in a really dark blue - which fits because I’m Ravenclaw. I was actually planning on painting the house crest on the front cover, but I never got to do it… but I think I’ll do it soon haha.

- 2 - When you look at my bullet journal you’ll see that I have some bright tags there. They really help me find stuff quicker (but they aren’t sticky enough so they often get loose.. I should change that). You can see my tag list in picture

- 3 - and it’s at the very end of the notebook. For those of you who don’t know this system yet, it’s really simple! You just decide how you want to tag that page, for example “books” as I did in mine, and go to the back of your notebook to write it down there. Then you choose a colour and put a strip of washi tape (or I use post it flags) on that page in the back and also on the page you want to tag so that the colours are in one line and you can see them from the outside (god I’m bad at explaining this but I can’t find the page that explained it to me, sorry!).

- 4 - On the first three pages there’s an index, and I use the first page for years and months, then the second page (which you can see in the picture) I use for anything else.

- 5 - Then there’s my key. I have a colour coding system, but I use some colours twice (which is really bad, I know) because there just weren’t enough colours! I have one colour for each subject, then also for other parts of my life like work, family and friends, uni in general and health (which is anything really: when I eat, doctor’s appointments, when I clean my flat etc). There’s also a key for my expenses which I rarely use anymore, and one for how long it took me to do a task which I also don’t use anymore.

- 6 - In this picture, and also the one before, you can see my yearly overview (which I am still so proud of because I thinks it’s really pretty). I only write down really important stuff in there, and things I’m looking forward to.

- 7 - Now we come to the more important stuff in my bullet journal. In this picture you can see my monthly overview. Here I write down everything that happens that particular month, like when I have to work, exams, family and friends stuff, and birthdays etc. I also have space for goals that I want to achieve that month, and an expenses table. This really helps me because often times I would just go shopping for books and stuff and spend so much money (which you can see hasn’t really improved much {{I spent 70€ on books last month?!}}). Now I can see how much I spend and what I should do better next month (like, I should definitely buy less books {{I actually spent more money on books this month and it’s not even halfway through but shush}}). On the next page there’s an example of a weekly overview. This one looks pretty much the same every week (at least the layout). Here are some more examples:

There’s always space for my weekly goals, then a food table where I write down everything I eat (which should make me more aware of what I eat and change my habits of eating - but it kind of doesn’t), underneath that there’s my habit tracker (and you can see I’m not very good at that either), and then there’s some kind of time tracker…? I don’t know what it’s called, I just thought I needed to know how I spend my time each day, like if there’s a lot of pink I’ve been doing a lot for myself (reading, watching movies, listening to music), if there’s lots of yellow I did a lot with friends and family, then there’s days where I was very creative and a lot of the time is purple - or if there’s lots of green (history) and red (English) I did a lot for uni. I really like this one (and I think I came up with it myself, but if someone has already claimed credit I give it all to you haha).

- 8 - Let’s just ignore the fact that this was one of my most unproductive weeks of all time (like, do you see how often I migrated tasks here?!). Just like my weekly overviews, my daily overviews look pretty much the same every week - at least the basic layout. I get bored of a certain layout about halfway through the week, so I try to come up with a new one every week. See how I got an arrow based layout in the orange overview, and kind of tree/nature based in the green one? What I always include is how much water I drink. I try to drink 12 glasses of water, which in my case is about 2,5 litres. Then there’s the basic to do list thing that bullet journals have. I include my colour code here as well, it just makes it easier for me to see what kind of things I have to do each day. Some more examples:

- 9 - I also have pages in my bullet journal that I use for lists, uni stuff, recs, organisation and personal stuff. In this picture you can see my “books to read” list. On the first example picture of the daily pages you can also see my wish list (which only has “money” on it - figures) and a pro/contra list about the two options I have for my stay abroad. Here are some more examples:

My saving goals page (which isn’t really done yet) and my schedule for this semester(which doesn’t have the hours on it):

and a “movies to watch” list (some spelling mistakes included):

- 10 - This last picture is my current spread. I saw this on tumblr and wanted to try it, but my colour code kind of destroys it. Maybe I’ll try it again some time without my colour code… Here’s another picture of the weekly overview:

Wow. This got a little out of hand! I hope you enjoy this :)

kokorynn  asked:

How actually Iori feels about Riku?

Hello there!

I have many reasons why I love ioriku, but one of the things I love the most about their relationship is you can’t deny them platonically. There’s an incredibly beautiful, strong bond between them. So even if ioriku is not your thing ~romantically~, their friendship is important to the development of IDOLiSH7′s storyline (^▽^) Anyway, moving on to Iori specifically. Iori is very… selectively vocal… (LOL) about his feelings wrt Riku.

For starters,

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anonymous asked:

How can you be so amazing like wow you manage to upload so many good things and they look detailed and beautiful too, when do you find the time to be so productive? Can you reveal the secret of making so much art? Of your consistency? How you are so great? I admire you so much

Oh, sweet anon.

As you can see by the delay in responding to this ask alone, I’m not as productive as you’d think. However, my actual work ethic is the leftover habit of a lonely child. My developed response to feeling isolated is to adapt by becoming even more of a workaholic! And having just recently moved along with freelancing for the previous 2 years, I’m not exactly swimming in friends/events.

As for more systemic personal habits for prolific production, I like to set little monthly (often petty haha) challenge goals for myself. In combination with that common artist insecurity of not working = wasted time, I can get a start on a somewhat sizeable body of work (although I tend to end up getting distracted by wanting to explore different fields).
But on a positive note, the more analytical practice you get, the easier it gets to produce better and more work within a shorter time frame! I’m not sure what your level of experience is nor your end-goal, but it took me until now (6 years, going on 7) to not feel like literal human garbage.

I’m actually doing a challenge for this month as well if you’d like to join in (though it helps if you make your own goals + respective bribes)!

lostinbetweenfandoms  asked:

Okay so, first of all, I love the way you write! Second: I've had this idea in my mind for months but I can't write at all so I though maybe you would like to: Kaito disguising (?) himself as Hatori so he can spend a day with Shinichi without revealing his identity?

Sure!  Let’s see how it goes!  ;D  (Under the readmore!)


Shinichi frowned down at his phone.  “You want to meet up?” he asked, perplexed.

“Yeah, are you free?  I got two tickets to Tropical Land, wanna come?” Hattori asked.

Shinichi pondered the request for probably too long.  Hattori usually just came over when he wanted to hang out.  The last time he’d called ahead was probably a year ago.  Shinichi frowned.

“Do you… want something from me?” he asked.  “You’re acting weird.”

“What, I can’t want to hang out with my best friend?” Hattori asked.  He sounded either petulant or defensive.  Shinichi couldn’t tell over the phone.  “C’mon, man, don’t leave me hangin’.”

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anonymous asked:

Hello! I'm a little nervous to ask this but I'm new to the Hannibal fandom or Hannibal in general and I've seen bits of amazing interpretations/analysis/meta here and there but I want to catch up with everything and don't really know where to start... Is there any masterpost or could you recommend me other blogs beside yours or just give me a general direction of where to look etc.? (I know this is a weird ask, I hope you understand what I mean and thank you for listening)

Haha, you shouldn’t have said “everything”! XD

My first and foremost recommendation is always #hannibal meta. Below are directions for how to look up posts before any date and time, which I recommend for getting back to the posts that came out while the show was airing. Usually, meta blossomed from right before the show started airing each season to about three months afterward, and then it would subside to lower levels with more speculation (and more drama XD) during hiatus. But you can find most everything still by just searching the tag, and it might be fun to read what people were saying as they were experiencing it. 

How to go to any date in general tumblr tags

just figured this out and i’m super excited~~~

So you know when you’re reading through general tumblr tags and the url looks like this (this is the url going one page back in that tag, from today, 3/30/2013):

http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/one%20direction?before=1364690010

Turns out the number at the end means something, and can be changed so you can go to the general tumblr tags for any date you specify.

For instance, if I want to go the one direction tag as of January 1, 2012, I would go to http://www.timestampgenerator.com, enter the date, and this number would be generated:

1325406095

I replace the number in the above url with this number, to get this url:

http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/one%20direction?before=1325406095

And now I can see everything people tagged with “one direction” around the time of January 1, 2012. If you care about the exact timing, remember to specify your time zone (in GMT +/-x) and take note of the time zone that shows up by default on posts in dashboard mode (in xkit, you can set the time zone to your own with the ‘timestamp’ extension, other scripts and extensions may work differently).

What this number means (roughly) is the number of seconds that have passed since midnight January 1, 1970, GMT. It is also called Unix time and is a standard way of calculating timestamps for anything that is unix-based.

(x)

So just replace the example address above with “www.tumblr.com/tagged/hannibal%20meta?before=“ plus whatever number the timestamp generator gives you, and you can look at all the Hannibal meta that existed up to that date (I assume without posts or blogs that have been since deleted).

For fun, you could do it with #hannibal or with #hannigram, too. This could be a good throwback Thursday kind of activity.

Some blogs:

@22drunkb (she has her own masterpost, very organized, makes the rest of us look bad)

@genufa (I think she has a masterpost of just a few things, and then from there I suspect her tagging system is even worse than mine)

@existingcharactersdiehorribly (comprehensively tags, but I don’t think indexes…the mysteries of her tagging system have never been revealed to me)

A couple of the oldest meta blogs have deleted, so I can’t help you there, and there have been a few spectacular posts from people just wandering through, so the tag would be your best bet for that. 

Quite a few members of the fandom who are primarily fic writers or gif makers or artists or whatever dabble in meta fairly regularly. I don’t think I could give a comprehensive list without leaving people out, so I won’t try.  XD But you’ll see them in the tags or in the comments of the posts in the tags, so you’ll find them. 

Good luck and welcome!

anonymous asked:

Hi Bonney! I've been doing some thinking, so...a penny for your thoughts. I wouldn't go as far to say that Gray was in love with Juvia before Fairy Tail disbanded. Though I do believe that he may have had a deep crush/really really liked her. But do you think they would be where they are now? Relationship and feelings wise if Fairy Tail never disbanded and they didn't spend all that time(6 months?) alone together? Do you think his feelings would stay or take him a lot longer to fall in love.

I’m sorry the answer turned out to be huge! HAHA

I actually think he started to really fall in love with her in Tenroujima. 

Before that he was annoyed with her being around him all the time and by his expression we can see he is really just following orders and really doesn’t see her as more than a new member of Fairy Tail.

And even before they went to Edolas, he was still rolling his eyes at her but now they are friends.

A chapter after the panel above, Gray and Juvia are eating Caramades Franks meanwhile Biska and Alzack watch; the couple comments that Juvia and Gray are very cute together. The truth is that they were spending a lot of time together. Even though this had no intention of being a date on Gray’s side and doesn’t really mean anything other than teaching her how to eat, they are doing their own thing and spending time together can slowly change feelings.

The next arc is Edolas and Gray and Juvia don’t interact besides their Edo versions (and those two are cute, really).

And then we have the Tenrou arc, the one that changed the game.

We have Makarov choosing the contestants and Juvia and Gray are among them. Juvia wants to be paired up with Gray and is considering dropping the test and Gray knows. Instead of some rude comment, he tells her they should fight for real. It’s much lighter than before, I think this is the point things start to change.

And then, in Tenrou he asks about Juvia making it or not the cut to the next stage of the test, it’s a very casual question, but really, if he wasn’t interested he wouldn’t have asked.

I am not saying that at this point he wants to marry her, but I think he started to see her more than just a friend. He knows she’s strong and should’ve been there. And look at Loke’s face! He totally ships them.

Meredy and Juvia face each other, she uses Maguilty Sense, Juvia’s senses go to Gray, then Meredy as well. Juvia wins the fight. With Gray, we see he is following Ultear, he pretends to fall for her reasoning and follows her without being noticed.

Until Ultear meets Meredy and decides to kill Juvia and Gray gets his superhero’s saving panel.

Yes, Gray would’ve done that to protect any friend but Mashima chose to tangle Juvia in Gray’s history. He revealed his presence to Ultear just so Juvia wouldn’t die.

We go a little bit further in the story to when Hades is defeated. Gray was celebrating and then he notices Juvia is nowhere to be found. She had left to follow Meredy and Zeref. Gray worries when he learns she hadn’t been seen. His first thought was about her safety and then Zeref.

At this point, Gray’s feelings are already changing. She is his friend but also more than just that. She is as important as the others but perhaps a bit more?

This next part is really just small details that had 0 emphasis at the manga, but it means a lot. At the first panel, Gray is sitting next to Juvia, who has her leg bandaged. He could’ve easily sat somewhere else, but he chose to stay there. Then, when Acnologia attacks, even though Juvia has crutches, Gray puts her on his shoulder and carries her away to what they think it’s safety. No one else was carried, by the way.

After that they get suspended in time for seven years.

When they return to Magnolia. Lyon appears at the Guild and the moment he sees Juvia, it’s love at the first sight. Juvia is highly confused and Gray is annoyed. But we don’t see what happens beyond that, just that Lyon and Gray end up talking later on about Ultear and Meredy.

Fastforward a bit and we see the start of the Games. Gray is on his own when Juvia appears and she tells him they could get something to eat. Gray agrees and Lyon appears out of nowhere. Now Gray’s first response was so great.

“Don’t just go taking what’s mine!” Oh, well, well, well. This seems like one of those reactions that are just blurted out out of instinct, you know? He probably didn’t realize that his feelings towards her had changed in this point. And then Juvia does’t get the fight is really about her and even Gray understands now and is surprised she doesn’t get it. I mean, she is the one who is supposed to get the hidden meanings of things.

It comes to a point that even Erza is aware of Juvia’s feelings, Juvia never really hid them, and she confronts Gray about it. His answer is to look away and blush. He knows something changed, he is aware that his feelings became much different than they were when they met. He just is choosing not to face them yet. He’s still in denial but he knows she’s different from the others.

At the GMG finale, Gray and Juvia are facing Lyon and Chelia. The fight is tight, both sides are exhausted, but Gray reaches for Juvia and tells her Lyon and Chelia’s problem was their teamwork and tells her that since it’s them, they can get more power. He trusts their bond completely at this point even if he doesn’t want to name it, he knows.

With their strong bond they are able to perform Unison Raid, a magic we know it can only be performed if their magic and feelings are really connected.

And do you know what’s the best part of the Unison Raid? The way he is looking at her. He’s not looking at the magic to see if it worked, he knows it did. He is looking at her and he is clearly happy. He is in love at his point. He might not say it out loud, he might not even acknowledge it, but he is.

And then it happens.

They were fighting, there are hundreds of little dragons around them and they, plus Lyon are doing their best. Juvia gets distracted by Meredy’s arrival, a dragon beams at them but Gray manages to save them both. They started to talk and then another little dragon appears and he is aiming at Juvia.

Gray doesn’t even hesitate to put himself in front of her.

Yes, he knows her body can change into water, but for that she needs to use her magic to change it and she didn’t at that moment. Gray knows that, he knows that if the beams get her, she will die. He chooses to save her.

He lives, of course thanks Ultear!, and they don’t speak of it anymore.

We arrive at Tartaros’ Arc and we have yet another iconic moment. The “I’m here with you” sentence means so much alongside with him holding her hand it makes me so happy. 

Juvia is afraid and Gray consoles her by telling her he is there with her. He could’ve just told her things were going to be fine, that she had nothing to fear. Instead, he says that he is there with her. He put himself with the job to help her with her fears, he made sure she knew he was there for her.

A bit further in the storyline and we meet Silver, he gets Gray away from the rest so they could fight alone. The funny thing is how Silver just knows Gray and Juvia have a connection. He saw her one time with his son, but he just knows. Perhaps he saw their Unison Raid at the games, the way he looked at her or how he put himself between him and Juvia when Silver attacked her. The thing is: he knew and trusted it enough to ask her to look after his son.

And then we get to the beautiful scene of Juvia telling Gray his father is dead because of her. She arrives there fully expecting him to hate her, she was willing to let him hate her rather than keep it a secret about how Silver died. She thought he would tell her to leave.

But all he did was to finally break down about the loss of his father and he thanks her, I think it’s mostly because he is relieved he wasn’t the one to make the choice about his father’s fate. He just holds her and cry, knowing she won’t mind.

It wasn’t sudden like Juvia’s falling for him. It took time, it was gradative but it was there.

Gray already loved Juvia before they lived together. He knew that, Juvia probably knew it as well, but he wasn’t ready. He had just promised his father to destroy E.N.D, it was what he needed to focus on. Meanwhile, they lived together as a couple but without actually being one.

He was just waiting for the burden of his father’s wish to be gone before he could move forward. I think he wanted to be complete when they finally took the next step and become a real couple.

Well, this was just my opinion. To me he was already in love with her and now that he lost her, when he sees her again I think he will stop pretending and waiting. He knows life is too short. :3

wow this is quite nearly late but happy valentines day @williamherxndale​ as part of the @upperclassmennet v-day exchange!!! here are some nathaniel hc’s just for you, my sweet connie <3


  • The only thing Nathaniel fears is his father.
  • His childhood is unusual, a natural byproduct from life on the run: chased by feds and hounded by Butchers, bleeding from his father’s knives and bruising from his mother’s fists. He does not know what it means to settle down and make friends. He does not want to know, because knowing means staying, and staying means dying.
  • His mother told him to be anyone but himself. They craft their personas, developing the masks they wear— Alex, Stefan, Chris— but never the people underneath.
  • Yet there still is a person underneath.
  • He has his father’s eyes and smile and temper. He has his mother’s paranoia survival instincts and wit and height.
  • Mary Hartford dies on a California beach after she extracts promises from her son. Nathaniel grieves, but he doesn’t linger, destroying the body, the car, and the phones before fleeing east. He has his mother’s survival instincts, after all.
  • Although his eye often wandered towards the Exy court, he held back before now; playing means staying, and staying means dying. Nathaniel knows better until grief threatens to drown him in Arizona. Still, he keeps her promises; he keeps his father’s tongue in check so that he doesn’t get caught, and he makes no friends, choosing instead to make plans on where to go next.
  • He shoves Nathaniel deep down. Neil takes his place, fitting quite comfortably, and Nathaniel doesn’t emerge again. Not when Andrew Minyard comes at him with a racquet, not when
  • That is, until that fateful interview with Kathy Ferdinand.
  • The only thing Nathaniel fears is his father. This man, with a one tattooed on his cheek and his words like knives to Kevin’s guts, is not his father, nor is he anyone who commands his father’s attention.
  • So Nathaniel doesn’t fear him.
  • So Nathaniel tears Riko apart on live television.
  • Later, Neil will come back with all of his fears, and will almost regret this. Later, he’ll want to run, because if his personas share anything, it’s that their quick with their tongues and quick to flee.
  • Neil is an “easily spooked runaway,” but Nathaniel is all temper and instinct. He only resurfaces when Riko needs to be taken down a notch, when grief for his mother consumes everything, or when playing Exy.
  • Neil and Nathaniel can both agree; they live for Exy.
  • For six months, Nathaniel watches quietly as Neil makes friends and becomes a real person. They’re quite similar, really, except Neil is afraid of more than just his father. He’s softer, breakable. Human.
  • Maybe that’s why, when Lola handcuffs him in a car and drives a cigarette lighter into his face, Nathaniel takes control. Neil does not deserve his final moments to be blood and pain and regret. He has no business in Baltimore; his place is with the Foxes. Nathaniel pushes Neil down so that he lives on with his friends, untainted.
  • It’s too late for Nathaniel. He was tainted at birth. He was tainted when the Butcher first shoved a knife into his hands.
  • The only thing Nathaniel fears is his father, but he’s willing to face his fears to protect the part of him that learned to love.
  • On a happier note! He gets rescued, and Nathaniel can sit back.
  • Of course, this drama loving hoe does not stop running his mouth.
  • When he mouths off reporters? Nathaniel. When he taunts Riko after winning the championship (almost getting himself killed jesus christ)? Nathaniel. When he punches Jack in the face and says that he didn’t survive Baltimore just to put up with a whiny child’s petty jealousy? All Nathaniel.
  • Then there are the days when he awakens from dreams of knives and auburn hair and blue eyes. That’s Nathaniel too. Andrew knows the difference by now. He puts a hand on the back of Nathaniel’s neck and keeps him grounded until his eyes (his eyes, his father’s eyes) focus again.
  • Nathaniel might not say it, but he appreciates it more than anything. Before the Foxes, he would never have been able to imagine having a boyfriend, someone he could trust with his entire soul. But he has Andrew.
  • And they love Andrew, Neil and Nathaniel both.