I've played the later AA games, but never the first few, and watching you guys play through the first one has been SO much fun for me! I've been going through a lot lately and watching you two play such an amazing game and do such a good job with the characters, along with being so funny has been a blast and has really been keeping my spirits up. Thank you, and please send my thanks to Manky too :)
Hey, glad you enjoyed it. I’m glad we can help people out when they’re goin’ through stuff.
I have no clue why, but I've lately been obsessed with Parental/Daughter Mileven headcanons (especially yours, 'cuz they're awesome) Would you be so kind as to hit me with everything you got? Anything at all? Pretty please? *hides shyly in sweatshirt*
Hey anon! I don’t have too much to throw at you, but here a couple parentcanons that I hope you’ll enjoy 💜
Mike is always in charge of making lunches, mostly because sandwiches are impossible to burn (and he’s mastered the grilled cheese). He turns vegetables into smiley faces and is really in to creating animal art of out fruits, cheeses, and crackers; it’s something he picked up from his own mother.
El is the super cool mom who all of their daughter’s friends want to hang out with when they sleep over. If any of them ever have a problem at school or especially at home, they go to El for advice.
When the Wheelers take family trips back to Hawkins, El drives and Mike sometimes sings goofy songs over the back of his seat or plays I Spy.
Mike and El have a stash of Star Wars bandaids and each time their daughter gets hurt, they put a bandage on themselves in the exact same spot because it makes her feel better.
Parent teacher interviews are always a quasi-disaster because Mike is super eager and asks lots of questions and El has to reign him in and let him give the teacher a chance to finish speaking first.
Hello, could I request a scenario of Dazai comforting his s/o who usually tries to put up a tough front but she completely breaks down in front of him all of sudden? I've been feeling kinda down lately and I always have a hard time pouring out my feelings, so this would really cheer me up. ;;; Thank you so much!
Hey nonnie! I have a really hard time processing emotions, too. I only ever break down when I’m alone and half the time I don’t even know what I’m upset and I enjoy pushing my emotions down so much that i don’t even recognize them half the time…It kind of sucks. If you ever need to talk, I’m here! Sometimes someone validating you is all you need. <3
You were known as the power couple. You and Dazai took the world by storm, being known as the duo that terrified the enemies of the Armed Detective Agency and before that, the Port Mafia. Neither of you ever showed weakness, especially you. The world would have to burn before you allowed yourself to fall.
And on this one particular day, the world must have burned, for you were on edge more than ever. One little nudge and you’d fall.
“_____-san?” Atsushi pulled you out of your daze. “Are you okay?”
“Yeah,” you said with a sigh and a forced smile. “I’m fine. Thanks, Atsushi-kun.”
The entire day at work, you felt like you were going to explode. But of course, you didn’t let yourself show it.
For others, it seemed like hiding your emotions was the hard part. But in reality, it was showing them that was hard. Hiding them became so habitual that even when you felt like you wanted to scream and explode from hiding so much, you still couldn’t express them.
So when you finally got home, you were ready to collapse on your bed, turn on the tv and eat ice cream until you fell asleep.
But when you got home, the ice cream was no longer where you expected it to be. You slammed the door shut and let out a scream, not thinking that anyone was home.
“_____?!” Dazai came running out of his room over to you.
You quickly composed yourself and forced a smile.
“What happened?! Are you okay?!” Dazai’s eyes were wide with fear.
How in the hell do I explain this…
“Y-Yeah,” you said, hoping that he wouldn’t push you any further.
“_____…,” he moved closer to you, grabbing your shoulders gently. “Talk to me.”
You looked down, shaking your head. “I-I told you…I’m…fine…”
You had to bite down on your lip to keep yourself from breaking down.
Dazai pulled you in for a hug, able to tell that you were near the edge. “You don’t have to pretend around me, love…I know how lonely it can get, but I’m here, love…”
He was whispering directly into your ear. And it was enough.
You collapsed into him and gripped at his shirt, the tears beginning to flow down your cheeks. You sobbed into Dazai’s shirt as he pulled you into a tighter hug. The whole time, he was stroking your hair with his hand.
I've been feeling a lot of anxiety and loneliness lately and feel like I always just distracted myself from the pain. Recently, I've been pushing myself to be more awware and accpting of it in order to not let it have as much control over me. However, there's still a feeling that what I'm doing isn't enough - that I'm incapable of enjoying my own company for too long of a time frame. I know this will be a long process but how can I stay commited to it? Are there steps or a path I can follow?
Take each step as it presents itself, you are already following the path. These are important insights you have had.
Don’t fixate too much on enjoyment. We are desperate to be enjoying something, either the company of others or our own company. Why do we feel the need to cling to enjoyment? What are we afraid of or avoiding?
Let everything go. Enjoyment, fear, loneliness, anxiety, pain, whatever is presenting itself let it be there. And let it go. More than enjoyment, what you need to rediscover is peace. Peace is the mood of knowing that whatever comes will also go. Therefore there is no need to be particularly bothered by anything. This kind of awareness also keeps you from chasing after things that seem to give permanent happiness but are only mirages on the horizon.
Practicing daily meditation and tonglen is crucial. Meditation keeps you in touch with that peace while tonglen helps you broaden that into compassion for yourself and everyone else. I’ve also written very recently about loneliness here, check it out.
One of the experiences in my life for which I am most grateful is the time I spent alone, lonely, and miserable. It really forced me to let go of many insecurities and hangups I had simply because they were obviously creating suffering where there need be none.
If you face your troubles with sincerity and insight, you can uproot the very confusion that made them possible. In effect, rendering this kind of suffering no longer possible. Therefore what you are going through is a real opportunity, so long as you accept and embrace it and listen to what it is asking of you.
A book I would recommend is The Places That Scare You by Pema Chodron.
Do you enjoy doing art? Lately everytime I try, I just feel so mad at myself for not being where I want to be and I thought it would only last a few weeks but it's been almost half a year since I've really.. been like "wow im gonna draw so much today and finish it and it'll be great!" its stress just to pick up the tablet pen.
i get p mad at myself too, but honestly yougotta go easy on yourself sometimes. just relax. you dont always enjoy yourself but that’s life. you just gotta believe that evenutally some tiny little thing will go right ans you’ll be proud of how that panel went or how that little shadow happened or maybe you’ll make the right choice when it comes to that one color choice. you gotta celebrate how rad you are in that mpment even if you have been feeling bad for a whole entire two months
i just read that and it wasnt coherent imsorry. tiny tiny victories or yiu’ll lose your mind basically