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                                 “Are you okay?”                                                                                                                                                    “I’m not. but I will be.”

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And now every time I reach for that tether, I know there’s no one on the other end, and I feel like I’m falling into nothingness. [x]

Past and Soulmate

Michonne’s speech is the most beautiful moment of the cell’s scene. Even more beautiful that the kiss itself (maybe because the room is too dark).
I look at this again and can’t prevent me from seeing all the symbolism of her past. It’s maybe something in her gestures, her non-verbal, the fear she seems to have of not convincing Rick…

We could talk about the fact that Rick approaches her so slowly as if he was afraid she might escape. We see in his eyes that he would like to tell her so many things but that he doesn’t know where to start …

Then, in the absence of words, he holds her in his arms, as if to tell her that the only thing that counts is that she’s there, safe and sound and that he’s just relieved to see her, that he missed her. We could also talk about this gesture.

But let’s talk about the speed at which she puts an end to their embrace and that she faces him … As if she had prepared her speech and that the safety of Rick’s arms could make her lose the thread of her thoughts…

And he also felt it when he took a step back to better capture her expression, to better anticipate what she is about to tell him.
He has this worried look because she has this look full of doubts, as if she was afraid to say what she probably repeated throughout her return to Alexandria.

And it’s at this point that we remember that she probably already had a similar conversation with Mike … A conversation where there was talk of not giving up even if everything seemed lost, words that probably sayed that they had to fight for Andre … Yeah, different contexts, different love but same fear of loosing everything. Except that Mike didn’t listen to her …

But Rick isn’t Mike, he understands what she’s trying to tell him, he understands that he has to get into the battle.
Of course this acceptance probably began when Aaron was beaten or when Negan boasted of killing two innocent people … But it’s her own words that give him the strength to stand up and fight in their own way , as they have always done for their children, for their family, for their safety.

No she doesn’t repeat the same pattern, she will not lose her family again. Unlike Mike, Rick will not become the shadow of himself. All he did was to protect them …
The man who stands before her has tried to follow the rules to PROTECT them and now he will fight to PROTECT them.
And that look of relief when she understands that he is still with her, that he’ll try for her, says a lot about the love she has for him.

He became a part of her and she became a part of him. They are one and this is what makes them say our way instead of my way.

When you find your soulmate, you tell him that you could find a way by yourself but that you don’t want it because, it’s only with him next to you that it’s worth fighting … Because from the beginning, you crossed everything together.
When you find your soulmate, you kiss her to tell her that you don’t abandon her, that you will always be there for her, that she can continue to trust in you.

You kiss her to reassure her as she did to reassure you.

gif: @yemme