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@littlebean-jellybean I hope you had a fantastic run this morning darling!  I’m so proud of you for going out that early!  I’m sure you rocked it <3

I have to ashamedly admit though that I have yet to go on mine… I got up a little before 6, right about when you messaged me, and was planning to leave around 6:30. I slept in my sports bra and everything, so I’d be able to just throw on some leggings and my sneakers that I left in the chair next to the couch and go….

And then I realized the cat, in all of his love for me, decided to puke all over them and the chair last night 😭 😾  

SO.  My sneaks and leggings should be out of the dryer in about 10 minutes, until then I am sitting here half dressed for running and half dressed in my pjs lmao.  But I will go on that run very soon, I promise!  I feel like such a bad running buddy :\

I feel like some people in the YOI fandom may worry about episode 9 and how it may “not have any Victuri moments” now that Victor’s gone back to Japan.

And sure, we will certainly see less physical Victuri moments. But let’s instead think about the potential positive aspects of the situation: more emotional Victuri moments.

Because, to be fair, we’ve gotten to see a lot of their physical affection already - hugs, hand holding, forehead touches, kisses - you name it. And while I love it and I think it’s important, I think it might just be their thoughts and feelings that really make everything so special.

And this is the perfect opportunity to present the emotional aspect of their relationship. Yuuri has internal monologues about Victor and love all the damn time, and Victor looks so enamored in his Japanese boyfriend that it feels like he could kneel and propose at any given moment, and just imagine how being so physically apart from each other could only heighten and amplify those feelings.

Some people might say that this will be a test for their relationship, but I don’t think so. The fight in the parking lot in episode 7 was more of a test. Now they know that they can trust each other to perform well/give proper support respectively. The lack of Victor’s immediate presence will certainly be relevant and will shake Yuuri, but it won’t be because he’s afraid that Victor might leave him. He himself encouraged him to go back to Japan. Yuuri knows he won’t leave him, knows that he has no reason to be afraid. (And coming from a person who did everything to keep Victor by his side at all times? That’s big.) He trusts Victor enough to let him go back to Japan despite facing his Free Skate the next day. His issues during the second day event of the Rostelecom Cup will most likely only stem from the physical lack of Victor, but not from his emotional insecurity in their relationship. Because by now they’re secure. Even if Victor is thousands of kilometers away, he’s not gone and he’s not leaving him.

And remember that old proverb? If you love someone, set them free. If they come back, they will be yours forever. I think it might just fit this situation in a way. Yuuri is letting Victor go, not entirely of course, but he is letting him go for the time being, despite it being a time when he might just need him most. Perhaps he doesn’t realize it, but in a way, it’s a gamble. The thing is that Victor isn’t going anywhere. He promised to take Yuuri to the Grand Prix Final, and he will. Which means he is coming back. And I think we all know what that means in regards to the proverb?

Also, the entire situation could be interesting from Victor’s perspective. Assuming that he watches the livestream, he will certainly be overcome with some sort of feelings. Except that until now, he released them as soon as they came - through hugging Yuuri or kissing him or similar outbursts of closeness. He won’t be able to do that now. Which means that instead of dealing with the feelings physically, he will have to consider them emotionally and his emotions are clear to anyone who’s seen him around Yuuri. Am I the only one seeing the potential development here?

In any case, I am expecting Yuuri to find strength in his bond with Victor (which will support him during his performance) even without his physical presence and at least a small realization on Victor’s side. Or just Victor being extremely proud and happy with Yuuri, I’m also perfectly fine with that. (And I just really want even more emotional monologues on love please please please)

Even without the physical attention, I think episode 9 could be a breakthrough for Victor and Yuuri’s relationship. I’m sure that the anime could pull it off.

Also I can totally sense a sweet and fluffy ‘reunited at the airport’ scene which would further reaffirm their connection (and give us the beautiful hug/kiss we all secretly want more of).

So yes. Fear not. Episode 9 carries a lot of really strong potential for the development of Victuri. Have faith.

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Did you know? If you catch a falling maple leaf, you’ll fall in love with the person you’re walking with.

I like the idea of each planet having a “night and day” ruler, it’s so cute, like

Gemini is the day ruler of Mercury, Virgo is the night ruler of Mercury

Libra is the day ruler of Venus, Taurus is the night ruler of Venus

Aries is the day ruler of Mars, Scorpio is the night ruler of Mars

Sagittarius is the day ruler of Jupiter, Pisces is the night ruler of Jupiter

Aquarius is the day ruler of Saturn, Capricorn is the night ruler of Saturn

Leo is the Sun (day), Cancer is the Moon (night)


The feminine signs are the night rulers, the masculine signs are the day rulers; masculine signs are more comfortable out in the daylight, the spotlight, when everyone else is able to see them shine. Feminine signs are more at home during the night, it is their sanctuary, they express their energies more naturally when they are soothed by the mystery and tranquil solitude of the night.

And then you have the case of the few other planets that are only ruled by one sign. Aquarius is the sole ruler of Uranus. Their Uranian qualities are present no matter what, it is part of their kooky persona. Pisces is the sole ruler of Neptune. The Neptunian influence of illusion and fantasy is something that hangs on to Pisces every second. Scorpio is the sole ruler of Pluto. Scorpio can’t escape Pluto. It is following them around through every suspicion.

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I decided to hop on the valentine-making bandwagon this year and made a couple of silly cards with my favourite Bioware boys. I wanted to make more (and think of better captions) but my university exams won’t let me…                                                                                                                                            

Fighting Panic

Requested: I was wondering if I could request a caring Shawn one where maybe you two get into a fight and you leave and then you have a panic attack or something and you call him and even though you two were fighting he still comes over and cares for you? Sorry if that didn’t make sense lol

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Your name: submit What is this?

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“Stop, y/n.” Shawn says, his voice full of anger. “You can’t keep holding it against me. It’s my career, my job, don’t you understand?”

You swallow hard, trying to keep your emotions in check. “I’m not holding it against you, Shawn. I just need to know you’re not forgetting about me!”

“I’m not, I don’t know why you would say that!” He says, his voice just as loud and terrifying as it was a minute ago. You can’t match his tone. You don’t know how to scream back at him, and you don’t want to.

“You’re always busy, and even when you’re not, you’re thinking about all the things you need to get done, which I get, but I feel like you don’t even remember that I’m here, that I’m your girlfriend.” You reply, honestly.

“How could I forget, y/n? I can’t forget, and I don’t.” He spits back.

You only wait a beat before replying, still trying to absorb his last words, “Do you want to?” You ask, your voice full of fear and sadness.

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Victuuri kiss

How I saw it:

Originally posted by varpumaki

How it actually went:

Originally posted by fyyoi

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I don’t know if I will have the time to write any more letters because I might be too busy trying to participate. So if this does end up being the last letter, I just want you to know that I was in a bad place before I started high school, and you helped me. Even if you didn’t know what I was talking about or know someone who’s gone through it, you made me not feel alone. Because I know there are people who say all these things don’t happen. And there are people who forget what it’s like to be 16 when they turn 17. I know these will all be stories someday. And our pictures will become old photographs. We’ll all become somebody’s mom or dad. But right now these moments are not stories. This is happening. I am here and I am looking at her. And she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you’re not a sad story. You are alive, and you stand up and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder. And you’re listening to that song and that drive with the people you love most in this world.
                           And in this moment I swear, we are infinite.

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