Things that I Learned from 40 Days of Fasting [I started one day early, which is why I'm back before Good Friday :) ]
  1. My boyfriend is not just the man that I love, he is the man that I walk side by side with on my walk closer to God. He inspires me. He was on his own fast that he does with his church every year (he finished Monday) and to see him pushing himself was so refreshing. He works 2 full time jobs, and he was in church almost every day, reading his daily devotional, working on being disciplined. I’m in awe of how his heart hungers for Christ. I’ve never been in a relationship where I had a person with a spirit like his. I’ve dated Christians, but many go to church but do not push themselves further than that. I knew he was special, from his willingness to let God tell us when we should be together, to his desire to wait until marriage, from his overall want to be the man God wants him to be. But during the past 40 days I’ve witnessed his growth in a different way. And I am blessed to have him in my life
  2. I am a work in progress. Fasting for spiritual reasons always has a way of centering me. By eliminating things (tumblr, chocolate) i realized how much time I could be spending focusing on personal growth and committing my mind body and spirit to God. Knowing I have more work to do actually excites me. I love me now. I can’t wait to see what the future holds.
  3. I enjoy praying multiple times a day. Its funny because when I was younger, praying felt like a chore because I was told to do it and it seemed like that thing that was in between me and sleep lol. But now, I pray all the time. I pray when I get up, I pray when I see a beautiful flower, I pray for other people’s spirits, me and the boy pray twice a day. I do quick prayers, I do long ones. I pray with my eyes open, I pray with my eyes closed. It feels good. When my spirit is not at rest, just praying and casting my worries on Him. Praying really just makes my day.
  4. I have addictions. I’m not a drug addict, but I do have addictions. I’m addicted to overworking myself, I’m addicted to certain foods, I’m addicted to certain rituals. And while these things don’t necessarily turn me into a junkie on the street, the bible tells us to be slaves to nothing. Centering myself and orienting my goals around what God wants for me, I realize He wants me to be healthy and happy and motivated and safe. And that requires me to not decide what I just need and allow Him to tell me what I need.
  5. Fasting is liberating. It’s interesting how we talk about fasting as simply just a point of deprivation. Images of poor Catholics and Christians suffering because they have given up certain items. And that image comes from the people who fast who let the world know how much they suffer. However, the bible tells us in  Matthew 6:16-18  “And when you fast, do not look gloomy like the hypocrites, for they disfigure their faces that their fasting may be seen by others. Truly, I say to you, they have received their reward. But when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, that your fasting may not be seen by others but by your Father who is in secret. And your Father who sees in secret will reward you.” Fasting is supposed to be an opportunity to cut things out to make space for God. you eliminate things (activities, food) in honor of our Lord who gave His life, remembering that He gave his life so that we could LIVE. Fasting should be a joyous occasion. It will be hard, but the world doesn’t need to know that you are bearing the personal cross because you gave up pasta. This is between you and the almighty, and opportunity to come out on the other side better and stronger and closer to Him than before. I feel amazing right now. I feel clear and dedicated and inspired. I feel safe and warm in His embrace. There were hard times in the past 40 days. Law school has ripped me apart in so many ways….but the Lord keeps me together like glue.

Wow! thank you nice anons 😸 Well, let’s start… Life’s not that easy right know as I live with a family in France for this week and they aren’t very kind. But today was great because we were in Strassburg with the hole class and I spent some time with nice people :3 I found a ramen shop there and my friends and I had some bentos from there ….very delicious. I really like France, it’s a beautiful country with a complicated beautiful language. Also thanks for telling me I’m beautiful, nice and loved!!! Sometimes I feel so lonely and depressed but cute people in my life and on tumblr always help me. No one is truley lonely ❤

I'm going back to school

Friday night (as in tomorrow) I’m heading back to college. to commemorate the occasion, the first FIFTY people who reblog this will get a pickup line in their ask box. If you want a specific topic, like ducks or Harry Potter or nuclear war, write it on the post (or optionally as the first tag) and I’ll do what I can. if it is a Fandom I don’t know I’ll just do a different one based on your blog/whatever pops into my head. I will try to have them all done by Saturday, but I am road tripping so my Internet connection might be sketchy

these will all be my work, I don’t like reusing lines. that said, I apologize if anything I send is something you’ve heard before. I try to be original, but…