i'm trying to read this and it's not happening

How J'onn found out
  • J'onn: (thinking) hmm, alex seems distracted lately, i hope nothing's wrong.
  • J'onn: *reads alex's mind*
  • Alex: (thinking) i'm gay, i'm gay, i'm so fucking gay.
  • Alex: i wonder if j'onn can tell that i'm gay.
  • Alex: he probably can. it's so obvious.
  • Alex: also, he can read minds.
  • Alex: shit. alex, think of something straight.
  • Alex:
  • Alex: boobs
  • Alex: shit
  • Alex: he can totally tell
  • Alex: shit shit shit
  • J'onn: (speaking) so how are you today, alex?
  • Alex: i'm gay
  • J'onn:
  • Alex:
  • J'onn:
  • Alex: i'm gonna go over there now

This is my bujo spread for the week so far 💘

from my studygram

google search “7 boys who ruined my life”

anonymous asked:

I'm coming back into the WC fandom after a long absence (the last book I read was Sunrise and it was a struggle. I hated the writing) and reading the wiki and some blogs, apparently a lot of THINGS have happened with the Erins and I'm just D: Besides Harry Potter ( Cursed Child era when JK started taking it off the rails) I think this is the only fandom I've seen where we all like the basic concepts, but we hate the canon so we make headcanons/OC's. It's funny to me for some reason (1/2)

“(2/2) It’s like the Erin’s have messed things up so much by keeping this thing going so long and making all these weird plots try to connect and using the same tropes over and over that we basically just read the new books to keep up what’s going on, critique them and then go “Screw this, we don’t need them” and proceed to fix the bad writing and do our own stuff.”

you know i think the reason why so many people like warrior cats is because its so formulaic. like it gives us this basic layout - clan + naming structure + wc cat code, which enables kids to create their own fan universes. like wc is such an open ended world that is p rare compared to other series. like there is literally nothing saying that more clans don’t exist somewhere, or that this rogue can come in and take over etc. there is SO much room for fan interpretation and fan theories which is why i think WC is so successful 

 i have yet to see another series that is as fan-friendly for headcanons + fan worldbuilding as warriors 

Begin Again - (Chapter I)

Read the prologue here

Thank you to @marlosbooknook and @mibasiamille for helping me edit and listening to my constant whining, really don’t know why you put up with me but thank you and ily

(Also a note: I’m not a doctor so i’m sorry if some of this is wrong I relied entirely on google and what I remember from my anatomy class. Plus Grey’s Anatomy but that’s not all accurate and a full out shit show at this point so let’s just ignore that)

And thank you all so much for your comments on the prologue, I’m so glad you enjoyed it!


Oxford, England
22nd September 1976

One moment. One tiny, insignificant moment, and his entire world shifted.

It was a head-on collision with a semi: the driver fell asleep at the wheel and veered right in front of him. Jamie didn’t have any time to react; it had all happened so fast.

It was more than likely that he wouldn’t remember any of it, due to the damage to his brain. But his life was no longer in his hands.

First responders arrived at the scene almost five minutes–five long minutes–after it happened. He was unconscious, lying in the middle of the road. The impact of the crash had ejected him from his seat, through the windshield, and onto the street.

The list of injuries were endless: from broken bones to open wounds. Some of the shards of glass from the windows had embedded themselves into his skin, but the rest was scattered on the concrete around him.

The biggest concern of the medical team was his head and spinal cord. It was impossible to tell what state they were in, given that the patient unconscious. They worked as fast as they could to get him on the stretcher and immobilized, while also being careful enough not to jostle him too much. Once he was secured inside the ambulance, he was rushed to the A&E.

He was only going to work. It was supposed to be like any other day.

None of this was supposed to happen.

They took him from the ambulance directly into the OR, assessing the damage and figuring out how to proceed from there.

Over the course of the next few months, he would be in that OR three times.

His condition was critical and he couldn’t be under anesthesia for very long, so the surgeries had to be spread out, allowing his body time to recover.

He sustained multiple injuries: right leg broken in two places, once in the left; multiple cracked and broken ribs; the right shoulder dislocated and the radius of the left arm severely fractured. A back full of glass, some pieces almost three inches long. Some internal bleeding in the abdomen, but luckily the medical team had found the source in time to stop it. If they hadn’t, it would have caused his brain to hemorrhage and, ultimately, could have ended his life.

There was some bleeding and swelling in his brain that they had gotten under control, but there was no telling the prognosis until he was conscious. Miraculously, however, his spinal cord had remained unharmed.

His right hand was the worst of it: the bones of his ring finger were almost completely shattered, the middle finger a compound fracture, the bone sticking obtrusively through the skin. They predicted that he wouldn’t regain full range of motion in that hand again, but with lots of physical therapy it could come close.

The first surgery was getting the bleeding in his abdomen and brain under control, as well as the swelling. Then, debriding his back and several other places on his body, followed by cleaning every wound to reduce the risk of infection.

Unfortunately, that was all they could do for the day.

The next day was setting the broken bones. Everything went relatively smooth until they got to his hand, which took the longest.

The very last surgery consisted entirely of applying the skin grafts to his back.

After a few weeks, he was able to breathe on his own. In the days that followed, they remained hopeful that he would recover. They waited for him to wake up, each day hoping that today would be the day.

But the days went by, and he never did.

Dreams of Public Latin Reading
  • What I really want to happen when I read Latin in public:
  • Me: What? Oh, I'm just reading a little Ovid. What is it about? Well its a little hard to translate exactly since I'm reading it in the original Latin, but let me try: (launches into an hour long exegesis of a ten line section)
  • What actually happens:
  • me: *reading Latin and being ignored*

I know I’ve gotten older than the intended demographic, but I feel like good shojo manga is really hard to find now.

anonymous asked:

So I'm like desperately trying to find this fic I read a while back, it's an arranged marriage au where Bellamy is a grounder and Clarke is a Sky person and Clarke moves into the grounder village. I think she picked Bellamy over like their leaders son because he was an asshole and then later he tries to attack Clarke and Bellamy is gone when that happens... that's like nothing to go on I'm sorry!!

Love Will Come Through

Finally finished my fic that was supposed to be for the cap_ironman 10 Years of SteveTony event but life happened and it’s pretty late. Please read if you’re interested, I’m super proud of this fic. ps it has a happy ending I promise.

prompt: Steve and Tony keep trying to get married, but things always go wrong (like alien invasions, etc), write their quicky wedding on the fly after nth failed attempt.

(Not) Getting Married Today

“Steve,” Tony whispered through clenched teeth, “just ignore it.”

“Tony, I can’t just—“

“Ignore. It.”

“Tony, I—“

“Steve, I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but we are about to get married.”

“What if it’s important, I can’t just—“

“If it was important they would’ve alerted both of us.”

Which, naturally, was when Tony’s alert started going off as well.


AKA the one where Tony Stark would just like to get through one wedding without the world coming to an end.

Okay so I feel like people really do not understand fetishization.  Like, accusing KS of that is Wrong??  Like, listen, I’m a queer girl (so don’t bother dumping that straight people BS on me), and I have read a lot of yaoi, BL, yuri, GL, etc. and let me tell you something.  KS is the least sexual BL/yaoi I’ve ever read, barring the like super cutesy and fluffy kind.

That’s right.  You heard me.  It is almost entirely unsexy, and the only scenes of sexual content are either interrupted, extremely brief, or focusing on the developing dependence between them rather than the act itself.  The sexual content is not “fetishy” and the manhwa isn’t “porn with plot.”  I mean, there have been a handful of scenes with sexual content, but they were hardly what I would call explicit.  I mean, have you read a yaoi lately?  I’m guessing not.

This manhwa was certainly not written by a 13yo and frankly?  I’m actually offended on the author’s behalf.  How dare you.  You owe the author an apology for that.  The writing of this manhwa is better than half the things I’ve read lately.  It’s consistent and well-paced, not to mention suspenseful without being frustrating.  The dark themes are extremely well-handled and are probably more the reason for the rating than the barely their sexual content.

Do me a favor and read through some of Blood Bank (great manhwa, btw) and compare them.  THAT reads more as porn with plot to me, though the tone is shifting by the later chapters.  The beginning has some kind of sexual content in nearly every chapter, enough that the plot is actually slowed down considerably.

You CHOSE to read a manhwa called KILLING STALKING and expected what?  Some kind of healthy little romance?  Really?  You thought it wouldn’t be dark and potentially upsetting?  If you’re so against it, then why did you waste your own damn time reading it??

Personally, I am fascinated by Killing Stalking.  As a writer, I’m amazed with the characters and the little details that have been used to build the world.  I’m amazed that the author can write something so dark with such consistency and flare, not to mention grace.  The relationship building is deeply flawed and unhealthy.  Obviously.  The two main characters are a serial killer and a stalker.  If their relationship was healthy, I’d be disappointed.  The complexities of their choices and their motives is what draws me in in the first place.

How do you feel about people who enjoy Dext/er, I wonder?  Or Break/ing Bad?  What about The Sopr/anos?  Hann/ibal?  Or any other show about criminals?  Are they also sick and horrible?  Or is it just because the relationship is abusive that you have a problem?  Is it the inclusion of abuse and sex in the context of a relationship between two men?  Do you really think that enjoying reading about criminals is something new??  People are always fascinated by the darker side of things.  It’s why film noir and true crime and detective fiction in general is still so popular.

Scared they may be, but people are still fascinated by the dark and what lurks within it.  If you’re having nightmares or panic attacks, obviously you should stop reading it.  Don’t read things you find that scary.  For me, I only have trouble with supernatural horror, so this kind of thing is really interesting and intense.  I enjoy reading it.  I’m on the edge of my seat with every new chapter I read, wondering what’s going to happen next.  Finding a story the captures my attention so fully is extremely rare for me, and frankly nothing anyone says will convince me not to keep reading.

If you want to try, you’re welcome to.  I won’t stop you or even bother to block you.  Hell, I’ll engage if you want.  But no one’s ever taken me up on the invitation before, so I doubt anyone’ll bother now.

allyholmes  asked:

Holy shit! I've got to say you're an amazingly talented artist and writer! I binged your whole OC series in one afternoon and loved it! I'm already impatient to find out what happens next with Cass. Hancock is my favorite companion from Fallout and it's hard to find fics that do him justice, but your rendition is spot on! (and adding dialogue from in-game has been flawless, I sometimes have to do a double-take to realize it wasn't your line). 1/2

Oh wow, thank you very much! I always get really excited when someone reads through my work and am so glad you’ve enjoyed the series thus far! Ive been a bit slow to work on the next installment as Im trying to experiment with showing way more movement and expression and I’ve also been pulling a lot of long shifts >_<’’ but I have tomorrow and Friday off so ill try to see if I can get a decent chunk done!

I do go back in game and watch let’s plays to make sure I add little bits here and there so i’m happy you like those touches. Im hoping to bring in a lot of crazy stuff soon…

…like uncomfortable moments like these :D

Thanks so much for making my day ^^ I hope you like what I have in mind <3!

anonymous asked:

Umm, hello! So I've been mulling something over in my head for a while now-that is, whether I can actually call myself a Baccano! fan if I haven't caught up to the light novels. I have a vague sense of what happens, and have read the first few, but it's been a while and because I haven't read all the novels thanks to sheer inability I'm kind of nervous. Everyone seems to know so much more than I do and I'm afraid to try to join the community because of it and I was hoping for your advice.

Hey anon,

Thank you so much for asking me this, because I want to make something clear right now. 

You are a Baccano! fan.

You know, if we started deciding whether not someone was a fan based on how knowledgeable they were in regards to a series, that would be utterly terrible. There are Star Trek fans out there who have certainly never seen all iterations of Star Trek, nor have they read the comics, or books. There are people who’ve only seen the Lord of the Rings movies, but still consider themselves fans. 

And you know what? They are. They are fans. 

Being a fan does not mean you have to know everything there is to know about a series - there is no ongoing competition here, no race that some of us are trying to win.  There are twenty-two novels in Baccano! so far, and it’s still going - that’s a lot, you know? No one will fault you for ‘being behind’ and revoke your fan card of the series, because that’s just silly. 

You’re a fan because you like Baccano! a lot. That’s it!  That’s the bar. You’ve passed. 

I promise you, there are several people in this community who are still in the process of reading the books. Some have been liveblogging their reactions (to the immense delight of those of us who have read them.) Some are still stuck in 1933, some in 1934, some are (probably) desperately rereading the 2002 arc because they’ve forgotten half of what happens. 

And there are those who are still only mostly familiar with the anime and the first few novels. And they are just as much fans as those who have reread the novels three times and counting

The thing is, you’ve always belonged to this community. You always, always have.  Don’t worry about ‘not knowing as much’ as everyone else - there are those still powering through the series, and even the more supposedly ‘well-read’ fans forget stuff left and right, because holy shit there’s 22 novels two drama CDs two manga one DS game one anime one short story and there is SO MUCH content, honestly, dear Lord. 

Frankly, the only thing you should be worrying about is spoilers, in case you plan on picking up more of the novels at some point. I’ve been trying to use the tag Baccano! spoilers now and then but I’ve been fairly inefficient on that front.

And you know what, anon, I think you’re forgetting one thing - this is a pretty small fandom, all things considered. Which means people are uniformly delighted every time someone starts participating in this community, regardless of how much they know or read. I’ve seen more than once people join - people who have only seen the anime (and sometimes not even the OVAs) - and be met with unabashed welcome (and sheepish warnings of - “aha, we’ll try to warn for spoilers if you’re concerned about them”). 

So, fellow Baccano! fan, I’m so glad you’re here. Please do join in the fun - we are more than happy to welcome you. If you have any questions at any time about the series, someone will be sure to respond (like me!). I am so looking forward to seeing your content. 

Thank you for speaking up. Everything I’ve said here applies to all folks who feel similarly - folks who’ve only seen the anime, folks who’ve maybe picked up the first novel - anyone and everyone who feels like they’re not ‘good enough’ to be a part of this community. 100% bunk, that. You’re all fans and I’ll shout it from the rooftops if I have to. 

- Rev 

anonymous asked:

I was reading the supposed leaked spoilers, and i think it makes sense for Clake to die, i obviously don't want her to, but if they're going for the exact same conclusion again where she pulls a lever and closes the ark and a lot of people have to die or be sacrificed i think it's crucial for the storytelling that she sacrifices herself with them, because otherwise this show is the same again and again, idk how the show could survive without her though, it's gone downhill as it is

Okay, well, I wasn’t going to really write the theories I have about s4, but I'm bored this Sunday afternoon, so here is what I think COULD happen (if you read previous theory blurbs I have written…it basically is a continuation of that.) Of course, take all what I’m saying with a grain of salt and this is what I see “could happen” with some of the things i have seen and if I was writing the story and trying to salvage it. 

Also, I think the script leaks are hella misleading if you look at them closely. It says, “As she steadies herself on the desk, consciousness fading, we get our first look at her face: IT’S COVERED IN LESIONS, a mask of puss and death. We’ve seen this horrific look before: IN ABBY’s VISION. She stands there for another moment, fighting, fighting, before collapsing in a heap. Unconscious. Or worse. No sign of life. Dying on a dying planet.”  It just says that Clarke has collapsed to the ground and is dying.  However, there are six acts in television and it is possible that she is able to survive by being saved by someone that finds her in the lab. Because, like you said, I don’t see them even THINKing about getting a season 5 without Clarke. Jason has said before that this is basically Clarke’s story and unless Eliza asked to leave the show, killing her off would REALLY make zero sense. However, I had the same thought about them not killing Lexa off and they did so….yeah. But yeah I agree that Clarke’s story should end with her sacrificing herself to save her people. 

I think it might end with there being Mountain Men, Grounders, and people living in space again at the end of the season. I believe we will have people living in the bunker that is on Becca’s Island (i think it is a bunker), Nightbloods will be able to survive the increased radiation levels and will be ‘the grounders’, and then the 6-7 people we see in the leaked script will be the ones living in space and possibly they will find out that they aren’t the only ones in space. 

Keep reading

I really need to start a classic literature aimed at women blog and I think the form this will take is me getting a little drunk and then ranting really hard about things that don’t make sense or displease me

At any rate I’m gonna reread Jane Eyre starting this week so like if I’m ever gonna start now is the time

anonymous asked:

Can you believe I listen to Young Forever everyday and cry buckets of tears? Lay the song dissection on me ~F

oh my god fhasdlgadg there is s omuch happening in this song, i’ll try my best to address them best i can. you could spend three days listening to it on repeat and still find hidden parts in the instrumentation or the vocals or the soundbites i just ugh. while reading this, please keep in mind that i’m not a professional musician nor am i an intense music student nor am i even particularly good at playing my any instrument(s), so if you belong to one of the categories above: please don’t hate me lmao

1. electronic vocals (?)

in the original ver of young forever, the addition of electronic sounds manages to enhance the piece w/o overloading the listener. a lot of top 40′s lay on too much of these toggling effects after recording & i get bored of it real fast; it’s banal af and most songs ends up sounding the same. however, whoever produced this / was in charge of sound editing did a great job avoiding a lot of overdone trends ! 

the song opens with a really quiet, rather high vocal scat (for lack of better words) that is repeated throughout the rest of the piece w/o trying to catch attention. the whole point of this motif is to bring variety to the basic synth piano that starts off namjoon’s verse, but it keeps getting looped back over the chorus and is half-drowned out by the melody later on. it’s an interesting decision to bring it back again, esp when the casual listener won’t catch it.

when most of the instrumentation cuts out around the 2min mark with jungkook’s line, it becomes more prominent again, returning the theme of “quietude” back to the audience. the ending is pretty bare to the bones musically, but this high line is reminiscent of the beginning of the song, and brings everything back full circle. it’s drowned out most of the time, but i’m still in love with this tiny lil touch idk

2. usage of silence

right when namjoon’s voice comes in, the editor made the deliberate choice to leave in his intake of breath. this serves the purpose of making the bass line feel more impactful (aka that note drop u hear; i’m still trying to place what instrument that is) it’s the juxtaposition of the opening, the intimacy of the inhale, and how namjoon gets past the first couple words w only synth support all serve to intensify that first real heavy note

not to forget, hoseok’s verse builds up the tension so high before wiping out completely. it’s the two (? maybe three) lines of percussion and the synth (sounds like unwinding VCR tape) that crescendo with his voice. the whole thing seems to “break” as it reaches the climax, serving to make his scream at the end even more intense. the whole rap part has been leading up to it, and i get chills every goddamn time mmfalsdkhg

this is the same with jungkook’s part. the vocals have a more noticeable percussion line, and the snare (?) drum speeds up + crescendos into the silence. only when EVERYTHING drops out with him, do the busywork of all these melodies and countermelodies smooth out into clapping, the high opening line, and very obvious piano. there are also tons of layered vocals weaving in and out.

there is so much power in the silence as well. the silence right after hoseok’s verse where he yells into the deep, his lines climbing higher n higher every time, silence at 2:03 when jungkook sings, and silence at the beginning of the song. all of it is important to bring about a suspended, anticipated feeling to the listener ?????????and it makes things the song less cookie-cutter + more interesting

3. that One Bass Note

when counting in 4/4 (idk if it’s cut time or not lmao; both seem to work fine w the rhythm), that low bass comes in on the down beat of every two measures, so the suspension is more engaging than to have one every bar. it’s a really small thing, but it helps with the languid, drawled-out sorta feel that this song aims for.

both yoongi AND namjoon have very minimalistic starts to their lines. their rap begins on the pickup and the third word or so is really emphasized bc of the drop (idk what’s producing the noise tho / what exactly to call it). hoseok still gets that bass note, but he starts right on the down beat, which immediately changes the mood of the piece, but draws relatively little attention to it ????

4. musical buildup

the song gets built up verse by verse. namjoon starts with that high line, sparse piano chords, a sort of high-beeping noise that sounds like synth woodblock or something lmao. that sound goes off on the 3rd beat of every measure, while that bass note is the down beat of every second bar.

yoongi gets a fuller sound with low vocals, synth piano in a high ass tessitura (likely to compliment the opening motif), a really nice percussion line, and some nice low bass-y chords to bring in more depth. this is when the song starts sounding healthier, heartier, more gut-wrenching.

hoseok gets double percussion with the start of his lines. there’s a brassy, brush-like sound going on every beat, and a rat-a-tat-tat sorta thing that starts outta it at 1:06, and then takes up a life of it’s own. it has nice syncopation & it gets held off to every 3rd beat, right until taehyung starts singing. then it becomes a consistent line in the background of the song and it makes me nut so hard every time

this signifies a change in the overall dynamics and sound (???i guess) bc it calls in a more harried tone when vocal line goes In For The Kill. from then on, things stay pretty consistent (the electronic woodblock and that one bass note too!), except there are a bunch of easier heard percussion weaving in and out which is expected

5. layered vocals

throughout the song, there are tons of echoey lines, the ones that branch off from the main lyrics right away, others that circle back and show up while hidden way in the background. all it of constitutes to a hallowed sort of feel, like you’re standing on the beach or off a cliff or in a canyon with nothing around you for miles and miles and miles and it just???it takes that feeling of being Alone / at the end of ur time and really drives it home. this effect really goes with the theme of the song, especially when the lyrics turn out to be a death knell of sorts ;((

ex: there’s one really muffled, hidden line mirroring the melody at 2:21, and the first time i tapped into it i Freaked??? who tf is singing????? why is this so genius??? it grounds the half-belting real nice-like. not to forget the way bts harmonizes with themselves but also leave spaces for single words to shine thru (until filling out all the gaps by the end) goes so well with the theme of playing with silence in this song. it’s Genius, i’m telling you. Genius.

6. the singing itself

the vocal line has a natural progression from the lower melody to higher notes. jimin and jungkook both have high ass riffs in falsetto, but every one drops a third, i think. i don’t have enough theory under my belt to break the melody down further (like why the notes sound good or the sound is very unique etc), but the choral parts are my fave bit. i love the minimalistic instrumentals (clapping on the off beats god ,,, always gets to me) while vocal line sings their hearts out on top of it (ಥ﹏ಥ) and then all of bts joins in. the full multi-layered voice effect is so nostalgic n sentimental and that’s exactly what they were going for with this???

wow truly incredible i love bts

in conclusion:

this song utilizes typical effects often heard in pop music, but they’re used in very unique ways that help the listener stay engaged. the sound mixing is impeccable, the melody is neither repetitive nor boring, and hidden instruments as the moving line are done tastefully.

also: silence? yes. silence.

anonymous asked:

I need help. I can do the lap dances. I can go on stage and not throw up. I can deal with the pervy old guys trying to lick my tits. It's all stuff I can do. But on the nights where no one is talking to me or tipping me I'm lost. I can't bring the nerve to walk up to people to try to charm them into dances. It's hurting my money so so so badly.. Rejection isn't that big of a deal until your bills depend on not being rejected! And I don't want to look like a loser going to every table.

At a club I used to work at that happened to me a lot. I brought a book and read in the back and then came out to talk to a few people, then back in, etc. It’s easy to let the rejection get you down, but plaster a smile on your face. Be fake as fuck. Fake laugh, toss your hair, pretend it doesn’t bother you. Talk to everyone for at least a song. If he says “maybe later” come back and ask if he’s ready to have fun yet.

I hope this helps. Message us privately if you need anything else

anonymous asked:

Omg I just found your story from a reblog and I read the whole thing yesterday afternoon! IT WAS SO GOOD JUST AMAZING!!! I was literally on my toes the whole time waiting for the bad thing to happen lol They are the best OFC and it was so different to stuff I've been reading. I'm sad it's over lol So I just came by to tell you thanks for writing an amazing story 👏🏼👏🏼 but Also since I'm new here, do you plan to write a sequel or do some novellas??? I'll take anything really 😂

You made my day! I have been smiling since I saw this.  I have a couple of ideas for some one shots about them in the future.  Just to update their story.  Who knows?  I might try to write Kacey’s books next.  Cook’s Postulates might be fun to write.

Welcome to the crazy world of Tumblr! We’re all kind of fun. 

If you need some Harry fics, you can’t go wrong with @niallandharrymakemestrong.  She wrote one of the hottest things I’ve ever read (Midnight Memories of a Temporary Fix–Narry).  Plus she’s just lovely.

@whoopsharrystyles  just finished Steam (it was just effing super heated Steamy), Snog Me Senseless is sweet and wonderful and she has tons more.  Masterlist

@melissas173 has some lovely pieces (check out Parking).  I wish she would write more. (Yes I did, in fact, just call you out)  Masterlist

@aggresivelyfriendly has some wonderful pieces (Views is smoking as is Divide)  Masterlist

@the-well-rested-one has a magnum opus that she is re-releasing a bit at a time.  It’s a wonderful and timely epic book about going on tour with Harry called 25 tickets. (First rule of book club is we don’t talk about book club). 

And if, by chance, you are a Niall fan as well, @lucyvanpelt78 has written the funniest, wonderful, great OFC Zoe in her series Unlikely.

Thanks again!  And Happy reading!

anonymous asked:

I'm not an atheist or someone that thinks religion is stupid because it's illogical etc, but I keep wondering....why do bad things happen? Can't God will humans to be great or created them perfectly? Perhaps it's unreasonable for me to pin the blame on him, but I keep questioning why bad things happen. It's silly, I know. I'm too idealistic to think that the world can be a utopia and all. But I just want people to be happy. Ugh, excuse my Fe, that's overly dramatic of me.

This is an excellent question, and one that philosophers have been trying to answer for ages.

I think the only actual logical answer for this comes through the Bible. (Also, I’ve read the Bible all the way through eleven times and am working on reading it through the twelfth time, so, while I’m not a Bible scholar, I know more or less what’s actually there. Just so you know. I’m not just spouting off things here.)

So, first of all, when God created the first man, He did so so that man would be “in the image of God.” This doesn’t mean that man was another mini-god, it just means that God made man to be able to think and reason and have a will. God wanted someone with whom he could be friends, to put it simply.

Now, God is a fairly complex being, and I don’t think it’s fair to say that I, a mere human, can understand completely what’s in His mind. Even in the book of Jeremiah, God says that His thoughts are higher than our thoughts, and His ways are higher than our ways, and because of this we can’t necessarily understand them. To make an analogy, a human is like a computer created by a person. We are intelligent and capable of great things, but we aren’t nearly as intelligent and capable of great things as the person who made us. It’s only a so-so analogy, but you get the point.

The thing is, God created man to be able to talk to and fellowship with, which means that man needed to be able to think independently of Him. God wanted man to depend on Him, but He also gave man his own will, so that each one of us would have to decide to be His friend.

And, in order to give man the chance to choose Him, God had to also provide the chance for man not to choose Him. It was the only fair thing, if you think about it. I mean, God could have said, “Oh, look at this man always choosing me and being my perfect friend!” But if there is no other option, is there really a choice going on?

So, in order for the relationship to be true, there had to be a way out of it. 

Yes, God could have made no way out, but then we would have been little better than robots. We would have loved Him because we HAD to love Him, and not because we wanted to.

God made the way out very simple, too. He put a tree in the middle of the garden He had made for the first couple to live in, and He told them they must never eat the fruit that grew on the tree. It was called the Tree of the Knowledge of Good and Evil. If they did eat from it, then God said they would die. He didn’t just mean physical death, either, although that was certainly a part of it. He meant that they would be living without their friendship with Him. 

Now, if you had created people specifically so that you could have friends, would you be wise enough to give them a way out? God is not interested in forcing people to do anything they don’t absolutely want to do. But if someone or something starts doing something they weren’t made to do, then the consequences are bad. We were made to be the friends of God. If we choose not to be, then the consequences are obviously going to be to our detriment.

And, for a little while, they didn’t eat the fruit that grew on that tree.

But God seems to be in the habit of giving His creations the choice of what they want to do, and an earlier creation of His, a cherub that He had made to cover His throne and reflect His glory (see Ezekiel 28:12-15), had rebelled against Him. That cherub’s name was Lucifer, also known as Satan. And Satan couldn’t stand the fact that God had made this perfect creation known as man, so he decided to come down and mar it.

Satan’s plan was simple. He tricked the first woman into eating the fruit that God had told them not to eat. And the first man, because he loved the first woman, decided to take his place with her. He also ate the fruit, although the Bible says that he wasn’t deceived. So, with his eyes wide open, the first man chose his path away from God.

Obviously, the consequences that God had promised would fall had to fall. The first man and the first woman had to die. They died physically many years later, but they also died inside; that is, they were no longer free to be friends with God. They had chosen a different way.

I think God’s heart must have broken. They didn’t trust Him enough to believe that the knowledge of Good and Evil was not better for them than God’s perfect friendship. When a person knows good and evil, then he is responsible to make a lot of other choices for himself, too. They had just chosen a life full of difficult choices.

The thing is, God always knew that if this possibility occurred, He could still rescue His creation. I don’t think God is ever surprised by what we do. And, just like the man had chosen, with eyes wide open, to fall from God’s friendship in order to be with the woman, God decided to become a man Himself.

You see, God allowed the possibility of pain, but it was man who chose the pain. Once man chose that knowledge, the world was forever flawed. Obviously, if the first man knew both good and evil, then all of his descendants would know it, too. And, the strange thing is, when man has a choice between good and evil, as often as not he’ll choose the evil.

The pain and suffering in the world today is directly the consequence of the first man’s choice to separate himself from God’s friendship.

However, because God created us specifically to be His friends, instead of simply destroying mankind, He decided to save them. And, I think that we sometimes brush over how important this fact is.

Yes, there’s suffering, but there could have been nothing. God could have just done away with everyone instead. No, He decided to become one of His own creations. He came down to Earth as a man. He learned what it was like to live here. Instead of just sitting up in Heaven, He came and He learned what it was like to be human through direct experience.

And then his own creations killed Him.

The thing is, this was part of God’s plan. God loved us enough that He was willing to experience the consequences of man’s choice so that all humans could have the possibility of choosing Him again. When God in human form (Jesus) died by crucifixion, He was literally taking all of man’s choice to reject Him and in effect saying, “This is the consequence of that choice.”

When Jesus rose from the grave three days later, then He was, in effect saying, “But I’ve broken the consequence. I’ve opened the choice back up.”

God didn’t write us off. He knew that we had chosen not to be His friends, but instead of just destroying us, He gave us another choice. 

Now we can choose to be His friends again. But, like that first choice, God’s not going to force us into it, and you can be sure that Satan isn’t going to try to trick you into making this choice.

Now, God has given all mankind the choice to accept the work that He did. If you accept the fact that God took the consequences of your sin, then you can tell Him so and become His child and His friend. You can literally begin to do what you as a human were created to do.

This doesn’t mean that you automatically stop having bad things happening to you. You still have that knowledge of good and evil, but now you have accepted the fact that it’s been paid for by God Himself, and, with His help, you can learn how to live in a way that brings Him happiness.

The Bible says in Romans 10:9 that “if thou shalt confess with thy mouth the Lord Jesus, and shalt believe in thy heart that God hath raised him from the dead, thou shalt be saved.”

This is the new choice God has given people. He gives them the choice to be saved from the consequences of their sins. And anyone can do this at anytime.

That is what I believe about evil, and I hope it helps!

anonymous asked:

i'm schizoid but i am really good at reading people and understanding their pov on the world. but i don't feel it's in the feelingsy sort of way really. like, i don't feel what they're feeling but i notice a lot of little details and patterns about someone's behavior and can deduce their emotions based on that. it's more like a behavioral scan than empathy. i have no idea how to put this into words but i wanted to see if any other schizoid knows what i'm trying to convey here.

Potentially correct link to the related post… it might be wrong one though, but it’s the best I could find.

Yeah, I think that’s about how it happens for most schizoids. You get to learn what kind of behavior to expect from people when they feel this or that emotion. Eventually you get to “read” what’s going on from their POV, but I don’t think it happens same way for most other people. 

But some schizoids are, indeed, exceptionally good at it — I’ve mentioned before that schizoids often make a really good psychoanalytics if they have enough motivation for it and not enough despise towards people to work with them.