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y’all: i’m not gonna watch the trc show if [x] and [y] and [z]

me, with my popcorn already popped: ……………………………

dan and phil on the 'creating a community' panel at playlist live 2017: a summary

THEIR OUTFITS ARE ALL SO BEAUTIFUL

DAN IN STRIPES

could they literally be sitting any closer together i think not

dan asks the crowd how they are

dan and phil are the only ones that have spoken so far why is everyone else rude

phil again shifts closer to dan

julien and phil bonded over hamsters backstage

dan and phil are by far the most charismatic why is everyone else so sad

– the lag is fucking ridiculous i’m so sorry if i miss anything –


– the stream has broken –

– the stream is EVENTUALLY back –

dan says the cat whiskers are really bad for pores

phil is speaking about people making friends because of his and dan’s videos and fandoms are a reason for people being artistic

“i was a sad lonely teenager” - dan

dan calls phil out on being in the buffy fandom when he was younger

dans crossy legs i love it

i can’t get over his shirt it’s beautiful

and phil’s bomber jacket suits him so well i’m gonna cry

dan is so engaged in this panel he’s so intently listening to everyone else

“shoutout to the mums” dan says with a wink, “… and the dads”

“that is a good cube” - dan

dan snorts at the host calling creators ‘talent’

“you have responsibility now” dan says as a fan catches the microphone

“wow cool!” dan says as a fan reveals they’re from new zealand

phil says julien and jenna’s hamster looks like an anime hamster (“we all wish we were as beautiful as that hamster, it’s so perfect” - dan)

wow tom roasts phil for being on youtube for so long

when tom passed phil in subscribers in like 2008 he posted on phil’s channel saying 'suck it phil’ (“that’s why i avoided you for three years… kidding” - phil)

phil speaking about people being inspired by his videos is so cute i love him

dan and phil do sound effects as the cube microphone is thrown

– more lag ugh playlist please sort out your shitty wifi i have people depending on me to summarise

dan and phil lean in close to one another to talk as the microphone is thrown

fan: well for dan we all know what inspired him (dan doesn’t argue but does 'that’ face) but phil is there a moment or something that inspired you??


– i’ve switched to a periscope because the main stream kept freezing i’m sorry i’ve missed phil’s answer :( –

dan is doing a lil foot wiggle

this periscope isn’t lagging half as bad tho thanks to the streamer

dan takes the piss out of the sponsor

dan is speaking about the bristol book signing and an emotional mum and the impact his and phil’s videos had on her kids after a shitty year and it’s really stuck with him when he doubts the quality of his content i’m nearly crying he’s so humble

phil fixes his fringe

THERE’S A BIRD ONSTAGE WHAT THE FUCK

dan’s reaction to the bird is priceless

the host says sad mum is back in bird form…..

dan is embarrassed i think lmao

a bird has met my faves before me like the bird doesn’t even want to fucking be there

dan waved to the bird he’s so cute

dan keeps looking into the audience as people laugh

this panel is so nice and wholesome i love it

the host asked dan if he wanted to throw the microphone and he said “haha no”

dan waves to the fan with the microphone

dan says kanye would be a terrible present (“he’d be terrible and i’m a kanye fan”)

dan is sad that the sad mum was the best part of his career and it’s now a meme

phil calls himself a nerd

dan and tom discuss oldschool tumblr

dan’s favourite colour is black - “is that a colour or just the absence of colour?”

the cube mic has gone

phil likes “a greeny blue” or green and blue i can’t tell which he said

phil is still just smiling

dan is laughing at something

phil prefers twitter for communicating over all other social media

it’s gradually ending

“believe in yourselves, stay hydrated” - dan

they thank everyone for coming out

dan waves goodbye

the lights are out

it’s over :(

I’m still working on getting their personalities down, so my challenge for this sketch page was to draw them how I pictured them, not trying too hard to make it pretty but trying to keep it relatively on model. :) This is my first ever time drawing Gladio and Iggy, too! 

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Requested: I was wondering if I could request a caring Shawn one where maybe you two get into a fight and you leave and then you have a panic attack or something and you call him and even though you two were fighting he still comes over and cares for you? Sorry if that didn’t make sense lol

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“Stop, y/n.” Shawn says, his voice full of anger. “You can’t keep holding it against me. It’s my career, my job, don’t you understand?”

You swallow hard, trying to keep your emotions in check. “I’m not holding it against you, Shawn. I just need to know you’re not forgetting about me!”

“I’m not, I don’t know why you would say that!” He says, his voice just as loud and terrifying as it was a minute ago. You can’t match his tone. You don’t know how to scream back at him, and you don’t want to.

“You’re always busy, and even when you’re not, you’re thinking about all the things you need to get done, which I get, but I feel like you don’t even remember that I’m here, that I’m your girlfriend.” You reply, honestly.

“How could I forget, y/n? I can’t forget, and I don’t.” He spits back.

You only wait a beat before replying, still trying to absorb his last words, “Do you want to?” You ask, your voice full of fear and sadness.

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Hey Voltron Fandom, what the fuck?

I’m going to get straight to the point, you guys are self-destructive and are going to kill the fandom over your petty arguments and stupid self-entitlement. There hasn’t been a day since the beginning of the fandom that everything has just been peaceful for once (and I’ve been here since it’s birth) You all should be ashamed of yourselves, fighting online and hurting real people over fiction (this is not specifically towards ships btw) And I’m putting my foot down at all of this bullshit and trying to stop it

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“Have you heard about Carrie Fisher?”
I’m asked. Of course, it’s me
The token Star Wars fan
Of course I’ve heard about Carrie Fisher.



Have you heard about Carrie Fisher?
The first princess who ever felt like me?
The damsel in distress who rescued her rescuers?
The real life woman who never apologised for being who she was?


Have you heard about Carrie Fisher?
Who shared her personal stories
Of depression, addiction, being bipolar?
Who reminded us all we were more than our illness?


Have you heard about Carrie Fisher?
Who fought back against media misogyny
Who proved to the world beauty is ageless
Who didn’t stop making the world smile up until the last?


Have you heard about Carrie Fisher?
The woman who burned brighter than us all in the darkest of times
Who threw stigma out the window and told it like it was
Who connected with and treated fans like extended family?


Who lives on in the heart and bite of every single girl and woman?
Who never let the world bring her down?
Who was crass and bold and wonderful and alive?
Who never stopped fighting?
Who will never be forgotten?
Who will always be cherished with all our hearts?


Who always has been
And always will be
A hero?


“Have you heard about Carrie Fisher?”
I’m asked. “Of course,”
I say.
“But have you?”

—  Remind them how she lived.

And also, why do white people try to back out of the racist drama they cause?

If a white person says some racist shit or does something racist and a person of color rightfully gets angry and confronts them, why does the white person get to cop out? Why do they get to say shit like “hey just pm i don’t wanna drag on this pointless drama?”

Like sorry , but your racism really affected the person of color you just chewed out. It doesn’t matter if you don’t go on responding for three days, five days or whatever. Your racist crap still affected and hurt a poc, and realize how shitty it is to turn it back on them and call it discourse or drama that you created.
Like the audacity racist white folks have trying to pull the “ I don’t want to start drama let’s talk through pm” bullshit is astounding.  No we need to have conversations like these in fucking person, so all your followers can see how racist you are.

I’m just at a loss now honestly. Like white people don’t get to decide to cover up their racist asses or shut down a poc, or even label it as simple discourse when they’ve directly trageted, lied and attacked a person of color.

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“But she didn’t look like Hermione at all. She had done something with her hair; it was no longer bushy but sleek and shiny, and twisted up into an elegant knot at the back of her head. She was wearing robes made of a floaty, periwinkle-blue material, and she was holding herself differently, somehow - or maybe it was merely the absence of the twenty or so books she usually had slung over her back. She was also smiling - rather nervously, it was true - but the reduction in the size of her front teeth was more noticeable than ever; Harry couldn’t understand how he hadn’t spotted it before.”

OBLIVION (A LUKE HEMMINGS IMAGINE)

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summary: a round of rough sex with luke in an l.a. party is a good way to end the night.

word count: 2,125

warnings: deals w cheating and also SMUT nasty rough smut with dom!luke because i cant imagine him being vanilla + wall fucking and mirror fucking + choking… lol and i might’ve said ‘cock’ a little too much? … anyways


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anonymous asked:

Sarah, I'm having one of those nights where it feels like I'm not enough. Like I'm not getting anything accomplished, like nothing I will do will ever be enough or be worth anything? What am I supposed to do? Try harder? Lmao sure that's all there is right?

So, even in the midst of….probably the most significant crises of faith I’ve ever experienced, there is still a part of me that believes that after you die someone is going to sit down with you and ask about your life.

(I always picture it in one of those beige, nondescript rooms like a high school counselor’s office. There are bright, inoffensive posters on the wall. A glass dish of hard candy. The entity interrogating you wears a sweater.)

And they are going to sit down with you, and they are going to ask, SO HOW DID IT GO. THIS WHOLE….LIVING BUSINESS.

And you are going to have to tell the truth.

And the truth isn’t….did you make it. Where “it” is anything ranging from a lot of money to a lot of fame. The nice entity in the sweater doesn’t care about that. The nice entity in the sweater wants to know if you helped.

When you saw suffering, did you react in a way that was to minimize pain and bring relief? that came from a place of empathy? did you react our of love and justice, or out of showmanship, or worse—out of fear? did you give up what you could live without, to serve them?

If you were privileged enough to know other people, did you help carry their burdens where you could? did you meet them where they were, and forgive them their trespasses as you forgive yourself? did you rein in your own anxieties and fears, and let them blossom as only they can?

When you moved through the world—and wasn’t that beautiful, all that physics and chemistry and psychoanalytic geometry, really so impressive—did you leave the bits of it you touched better than you found them?

And at the end of the day, the nice entity in the sweater is going to know, whether you improved, helped, carried, served,….or whether you didn’t.

No other standard matters. Nothing else is important.


And….I mean, I didn’t choose my profession out of pure disinterest, I’m guilty as anyone of ignoring what I really and truly believe should be the guiding principle of my life. But I do believe it. And I think that there are millions upon billions of humans who fit the above criteria even though the historical record will never mention them by name.

That reminder keeps me humble, as I pursue more lofty goals—however  prestigious, however notable, that entity in the sweater doesn’t give a fuck. All that matters is: did I lessen suffering and unkindness where I could? was I gentle even when I could have reacted with violence? and did I help others flourish, even when I wasn’t sure it would help me grow at all?

Every other goddamn thing is secondary.

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I never get my hopes up ‘cause then I’ll never get let down
But you were something special
I didn’t notice until now

(False Alarm // Becky Hill & Matoma)

anonymous asked:

RFA reactions to MC who always slide her cold hands under their shirt

me: *desperately tries to make up for lost time by cranking out requests* 

Yoosung: 

✮ you do it mostly when he’s playing LOLOL
✮ he’ll be talking really intensely through his head-set and you can just tell they’re planning an important raid or something 
✮ and just as you can hear the countdown 
✮ you crawl over, as stealthily as you can (which isn’t hard, seeing as his attention is elsewhere), and just shove your hands up his shirt and onto his stomach and chest 
✮ he screams 
✮ is trying to jolt away from your icy hands 
✮ is yelling to his teammates that ‘the ice queen has him in her clutches’ 
✮ playfully of course
✮ they’re confused (’surprise boss?!’ yes
✮ but he’s laughing because you’re laughing 
✮ almost falls off his chair 
✮ you also do it in bed a lot or when you’re watching a movie 
✮ he squeals like, everytime (and is embarrassed, everytime)

Jaehee: 

✎ pfft good luck 
✎ she also has cold hands so she’ll just get you right back 
✎ it’s why she likes holding her hot coffee cup
✎ but if you can surprise attack her 
✎ and don’t get a coffee thrown at you, or judo slammed to the damn ground
✎ she would squeak 
✎ and very harshly turn around, ready to yell someone into the nether realm
✎ and she sees you looking sheepishly at her with your dalm cold hands held up in ‘surrender’ 
✎ is just flustered, her whole spiel has gone down the drain
✎ ‘M-MC you, ca-n’t do that!’ 
✎ in the summer she enjoys it though
✎ and when she grows her hair out, sometimes she’ll ask you to put your icepacks- I mean, your hands, on the back of her neck to cool it off 

Zen:

✿ the first time you got him was when he was walking down the street 
✿ you saw him and decided to surprise him by putting your hands on the sides of his neck 
✿ except,, when you did it
✿ he immediately screams ‘ASSAULT’ at the top of his lungs
✿ if you aren’t tackled in .37 seconds then you quickly assure him it’s just you 
✿ is happy to see you ‘but wtf MC’ 
✿ ‘you can’t just do that to a man walking down the street’ 
✿ you just wave him off like ‘lol ye whatever’ 
✿ whenever you do it he’s like ‘gAH’ 
✿ tries to stay manly 
✿ you do it a lot in bed to his waist and sides 
✿ he tries to jolt away but he’s holding you so tightly that he just ends up throwing the both of you off the bed and onto the ground
✿ you’re laughing your ass off and he’s grumbling 
✿ likes it when he gets back from practice/working out and you cup his cheeks like ‘hello’
✿ he’ll hold your hands there and you’re thinking ‘aw sweet, how romantic’ 
✿ until he mutters ‘so cold’ 
✿ you just turn around and walk off 

Jumin: 

₩ he doesn’t have a lot of skin to try and attack 
₩ his collar is always done up tightly and his shirt is tucked in so you could go for, like, is forehead or his ankles??? 
₩ so you maybe decide to prank him 
₩ you hide under the bed and when he starts looking for you and walks past you just 
₩ ‘bam’ grab his ankle like a damn demon
₩ he is not proud of the scream that left his mouth 
₩ once you’re out from under the bed he’s like ‘yo wtf’ and grabs your hands 
₩ he is,, worried 
₩ ‘MC why are your hands so cold? is this a symptom of something else?’ 
₩ doesn’t even listent to your reply, he’s already on fuckin WebMD or some shit 
₩ comes back like an hour later
₩ ‘MC I am fairly positive this is a symptom of Raynaud’s disease’
₩ and you’re just ‘jumin… no’ 
₩ it takes a while to convince him that you’re not actually sick it’s just… your hands are cold okay?

Saeyoung/707:

✞ this boy probably has cold hands as well
✞ so the only way you can get him is by complete surprise 
✞ but instead of being surprised like ‘ah!’
✞ he,,, kinda likes it 
✞ ‘mm nice and cool’ 
✞ likes to get you back when you’re cuddling
✞ you’re just enjoying your time 
✞ and then all of a sudden ‘whAM’ 
✞ an icy tundra has attached itself to the skin of your back 
✞ he’s laughing and holding you in place while you try to squirm away 
✞ you’re whining because you just wanna sleep goddamn 
✞ it’s probably like, your version of tickling each other 
✞ saeyoung: *straddles you to hold you down and wiggles his fingers* 
✞ mc: *scream of fear* 
✞ saeyoung: *just places his cold hands on you* 

unspoken fears
  • Aries: "I'm so rough and crazy, will anybody ever handle me and still love me?"
  • Taurus: "I have everything I want but I can't find why I still feel empty."
  • Gemini: "I'm going through so many thoughts to find the right one and I'm scared of getting tired of trying."
  • Cancer: "My emotions go up and down and all over the place and I'm scared of drowning in them."
  • Leo: "If people don't tell me I'm worth it, am I still worth it?"
  • Virgo: "There are so many details and reasons why I don't deserve praise even though I work so hard for it."
  • Libra: "I wonder if the love I find on the outside will calm the inner storm on the inside."
  • Scorpio: "Just because I am in tune with the darkness doesn't mean people will come in and stay in the darkness with me... and that scares me."
  • Sagittarius: "I know that I can run from my problems during the day, but I can't hide from them at night."
  • Capricorn: "I fear that my work, sweat, and tears are never going to be enough."
  • Aquarius: "I can get people to work happily together, yet I still feel like an outsider."
  • Pisces: "The world is beautiful and cruel, and I'm scared of what I'll exactly pay when I choose to put on the rose-colored lenses."
coraline au stuff

so this is just all the stuff i’ve been writing down on my phone about this au, if anyone wanted to read about any of the actual story? kinda??

not all the ideas are mine, i’ve been talking with a couple different people and they’ve all had really amazing ideas!! i just wanted to make that clear (like the au was my idea but my friends have helped make the story better lmao)

also!! i’m still working on things and this isn’t really finished but i felt like i had enough where people could come read everything and see what’s up

i’ll put everything under a cut just in case no one actually cares lmao

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anonymous asked:

I have anxiety and in the past 5 days I've only slept for about 5 hours in total. Some nights I haven't slept at all. When I do fall asleep, it's like 7am and I only sleep for 1-2 hours. I'm panicking so much and I'm so scared I'll die of sleep deprivation. I don't want to take medication because I've always had a fear of putting unknown chemicals in my body. The more I try to get myself to calm down and rest, the more my mind refuses to allow me to sleep. :(

Darling I am so sorry that it’s been so difficult trying to get the rest you that need. I truly understand how anxiety can destroy your sleep schedule and I have also experienced fear of dying from sleep deprivation. You are definitely not alone. I want you to know you your fears are totally valid, and luckily there is still a lot you can do to try and improve your sleep.

One of the best ways to start is by creating a routine. A routine before bedtime can help calm an active and anxious mind. By repeating your own routine, your body will naturally know when it’s time to get ready for sleep. The length of your routine is always up to you and how much time you need to unwind, but try not to exceed over an hour.

What you do during your routine is also completely up to you and what helps you wind down, but here are some of the most common and my personal favourite ways of relaxing before bed …

Essential Oils: There are tons of different ways to use essential oils such as; in the bath, lightly spraying it on your sheets, giving yourself a gentle massage, etc. Some essential oils that help reduce anxiety and promote a better sleep are; lavender, clary sage oil, vetiver, roman chamomile, jasmine, ylang ylang, bergamot, sandalwood, marjoram, cedarwood.

Exercise:

“According to some studies, regular exercise works as well as medication for some people to reduce symptoms of anxiety and depression, and the effects can be long lasting. One vigorous exercise session can help alleviate symptoms for hours, and a regular schedule may significantly reduce them over time.
Although exercise has a positive effect for most people, some recent studies show that for some, exercise may not have a positive effect on anxiety or depression or may not make a strong impact on long-term mental health.
Like all forms of therapy, the effect can vary: Some people may respond positively, others may find it doesn’t improve their mood much, and some may experience only a modest short-term benefit.”
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Guided Meditations for Sleep:

Make it Comfy: 

  • Prepare your bed with clean sheets every week.
  • Keep extra layers on your bed so you can shed if needed.
  • Dim or turn off the lights.
  • Close any curtains or blinds.
  • Turn off all electronics at least 45 minutes before bedtime.
  • Consider investing in an extra special pillow.

Listen to Soothing Music: Create a playlist with songs that won’t make you too emotional or hyped up.

Melatonin: Melatonin is a hormone produced by a tiny section of our brain called the pineal gland. Small amounts are also naturally found in veggies, fruits, meats, and grains. Melatonin helps regulate and control our sleep cycles, and can actually be bought as a supplement. In my personal experience this was one of my all-time favourite sleep hacks when my anxiety refused to let me rest, but it’s important that you research and read the label prior to trying it out. I keep a bottle of Melatonin in my room and use it less than once a month now. 

Relaxation Techniques:

Read a Good Book: Try not to pick anything that would cause anxiety or stress. Aim for a happy book that can help you relax. Art books, biographical books, and your favourite children’s books are some other good book options. 

Tea: Chamomile, ginger, turmeric, magnolia bark, lavender, lemonbalm, passionflower, peppermint, and valerian teas all contribute to a better sleep. Here is a great list of brands recommended by others

Writing: Thoughts can easily keep us up at night. Write out all of your frustrations, worries, reminders and thoughts on paper before your bed time. Write down every positive and grateful thought you can as well.

Professional Help: When nothing seems to be helping, it’s time to reach out to a professional such as your doctor. It can be really scary throughout the process, but it can also be one of the best ways to recovery. Being honest about your feelings, including how you feel about medication, is crucial with your doctor. Ask about your options and resources in your area.

I hope at least one of these tips can help you out, angel. It really does feel terrible when you can’t sleep, and you deserve to feel rested and well. 💕💜