to put it in perspective, i’m a 5′4″ girl who weighs like 135 pounds and is a US size 4 (UK size 8), size medium on average, and i feel fat. i’m not saying i am, and i’m not saying i’m not, because i have fat. my belly sticks out, i have fat rolls, i’m squishy. but i’m not even ‘overweight.’ it’s a complicated thing, because everywhere you go you have to have a flat stomach to be seen as beautiful, and everyone always says “no you’re not fat, you’re beautiful!” as if you can’t be both. i work out, not all the time, partially because i know the reason i work out is because i’m ashamed of my fat. i used to work out for sports, but now it’s because i feel like i’m not good enough. it’s all in my head. and i don’t want to be another person who can only feel beautiful if she’s thin. i’m a DD cup, got a reasonable booty, but i also have some pretty jiggly thighs and arms. my torso is short and i’m not tall and i have very broad shoulders. and i want to love this body. i do. i don’t want to keep exercising and dieting myself into feeling pretty, because i know i won’t ever stop. because i’m not even ‘overweight’ to begin with. if i am ashamed of my body, i have no right to tell anyone else to ‘work it’ or ‘own it’ because i can’t do the same. so i’m going to do just that. i’m going to embrace my body because it’s doin its best job and keepin me alive. if being called ‘fat’ is the worst thing i can be called, then i’m perfectly fine with that
so i was thinking about how in your blind!dean au dean and cas technically first met a little after dean first lost his sight as a kid, and i was wondering if cas would ever just be reminded like, "hey, i remember once i met this kid with blindness. how weird--i'm like dating someone who's blind right now." and then he tells dean and dean sort of squints at him like... "why does that sound familiar"