i'm such a crazy person sometimes

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Loooong morning/afternoon of curriculum development for summer school with our content specialist for the county and two of the other social studies teachers. It was mostly fine, although I swear the content specialist deliberately misunderstands questions so he doesn’t have to give a straight answer. The SpEd instructional services lady who was there was making me a little crazy, too, but only because she kept trying to explain really basic teaching strategies (like anticipatory sets) as if they are brand new ideas we had never heard of. 😒🙄 I think we did get some good work done, though.

Also, I found out that the county office building has a FREE COFFEE BAR where you can go and machines make you fancy lattes. For free. I feel very very strongly that we need one of these in every school, immediately. At least now I know where all of the county’s money goes…

Now off to finish this chapter for grad school and hope that my almond milk chai keeps me sane(ish). Wish me luck!

the signs as Jean Ralphio
  • Aries: hope you brought a change of clothes, ‘cause your eyes are about to piss tears.
  • Taurus: I made my money the old fashioned way: ♪ I got run over by a Lexussssss ♪
  • Gemini: Tommy T! You just missed the craziest of crazies. clubs. girls. dancing. naked--mom?! argument. fleeing the scene. hiding in a dumpster. coming here. crashing on your couch for a week 'cause ♪technically i'm homeless♪
  • Cancer: When life gives you lemons, steal your grandma’s jewellery and go clubbin’
  • Leo: no, no... that's too mu- that's too much responsibility for me. I got- I gotta find a way out of this
  • Virgo: ♪ she's the wooOOoOorst ♪ she is the worst person in the world
  • Libra: I guess sometimes I call men 'beautiful', too. I guess that means ♪I'm open-minded as heeeelll♪
  • Scorpio: live your life like that cow from that video
  • Sagittarius: ♪K to the N to the O P E she's the dopest little short in all Pawnee, Indiana♪
  • Capricorn: step one: we buy into this club step two: we roll over to the club either in your mercedes benz which is gorgeous or my pre-owned acura legend which is alright step three: i dagger you on the dance floor just bounce bounce bounce bounce bounce now everybodys watching us
  • Aquarius: are you do ding-dongs making fake drugs for sophomores, because if true, this guy wants in!
  • Pisces: ricka ricka ricka ricka! [imitating DJ scratching] [Whispering] Swanson.
PSA

When you’re sad because some men suck, break out your favorite Shakespeare play and annotate the shit out of it. Get on @jstor and find yourself some Shakespeare theory. Shout about your hatred of Harold Bloom to an empty apartment. Get smart and school those bitches in class who think Shakespeare isn’t culturally relevant by creating a bullet-point list with footnotes explaining why he is. Channel your inner @dukeofbookingham and fuckin’ kill ‘em with solid theories and examples. 

Shakespeare won’t stand you up. Shakespeare lives on your top shelf because he’s your main man. You don’t need anyone or anything else, with the exception of coffee, some color coordinated highlighters and an extra notebook ‘cause sometimes, you’ve got a lot to say. 

I don’t actually post much about myself, but I guess this is my blog. Panic attacks are scary. You’re just laying there trying to fall asleep and then you’re suddenly it feels like your chest is about to catch on fire. Mine are primarily physical symptoms that tend to very closely mimic those of a heart attack. Which I’m not having, but in the moment you’re not thinking right and you have to convince yourself that you’re not actually dying. It’s a chore. I’ve gotten so that I can recognize when it’s starting and with deep breathing pretty much keep it from getting worse, but the feeling kind of lingers for awhile, lurking and just waiting for you to stop concentrating on breathing.

I don’t know what I’m worrying about right now. Usually it’s my health. I have an irrational fear that when I get sick I’m going to be really sick, when in fact I’m in quite good health and in the care of some very skilled health care professionals. My asthma flared up a bit in the past few days, but that’s controllable. Am I worrying about school? I don’t know. There is some uncertainty about what I’ll be doing for the summer session, but I should be happy because I ended the 2nd semester with 4 As. Really that’s something I should be proud of. Getting straight As in grad school is nothing to scoff at. Maybe I’m worried about working after I finish school. I definitely am nervous about getting a job and then being on my own more or less, but that’s still a ways off. Maybe I’m worrying about being alone and not feeling wanted. I never dated anyone seriously in university and I feel like I really messed up there and don’t really know what to do now. I’m shy in person and make friends very slowly. Online I’m outgoing and strike up conversations with people all the time, but in person I don’t know what to do. I’m scared I’ll be alone and not wanted. I know this is irrational because it’s not true, but I worry about it.

I guess by writing this all down it helps me figure out what I’m panicking about. Maybe this helps someone else too.

I stopped knowing what to think about myself the day that you told me that I was the only thing on your mind. As a matter of fact, I don’t think I ever had a real opinion on myself before you. I existed, and that was sort of all there was. I just didn’t have to wonder if this part of me was good enough or if that part of me was pretty enough or if that last part of me was smart enough when I’d been convinced that no one ever noticed me.
—  🖤
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What’s that saying? 
               The show’s gotta go all over the place… or something? (insp.)

GOODBYE GLEE (2009-2015)

I think it’s really good that I love drawing too much to give up, because sometimes the fact that a lot of my efforts seems “wasted” because I’m not meeting whatever high standards for art people have in order to appreciate it/reblog it/whatever…is disheartening.

  • Shiro: are you reading Othello?
  • Keith: Iago is a bastard.
  • Shiro: a bastard in love.
  • Keith: loving someone doesn't give you a right to be an asshole.
  • Shiro: *crawls over Keith* what if I'm just a bastard who turned into a gentle person because of your love?
  • Keith: *looks at Shiro from behind the book* I'm speechless.
  • Shiro: sometimes love makes us crazy, blind and dangerous and sometimes love makes us beautiful, loving and tender.
  • Keith: then I'm crazy. crazy in love.
  • Shiro: would you die for me?
  • Keith: yes.
  • Shiro: then it's me who's crazy for asking you to die.
  • Keith: we are both crazy, love, we desperately want to die for each other, instead of live for each other.
  • Shiro: that makes us beautiful.
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@youngjaesloudlaugh I’m laughing at our chat, I think I blacked out when I was key smashing, lmao!

lacksley  asked:

41, shakarian (or whatever you think fits better!)

I don’t believe each person has just one true love, but sometimes we don’t have enough time to find another. (That’s the way it crumbles.  Cookie-wise.)

NORMANDY PERSONAL LOG

USER: COMM. SHEPHERD, ID:—–N7

TIME: 5.16.2185 3.19AM SST

Sometimes I wonder what would’ve happened if I’d never responded to the call on Eden Prime.

Would some other poor sap have seen the visions and gone through what I had? Would Saren and the Reapers just destroyed us all, no prep or warning or any sort of defense? Would it all had happened as soon as it did? Would I have ever met the crew or-

…Would I have ever met Garrus?

…….I. I don’t know. Hah. I never thought I’d ever-I’d always been on the verge of some war or something that’d most likely get me killed to really think about it, but-

….I don’t believe each person has just one true love, but sometimes we don’t have enough time to find another. And I almost didn’t.

If so many things had gone differently, if the slightest variable had changed, jesus, if Cerberus hadn’t thought to bring me back or if that shot had killed him…

Who the fuck knows, really? I certainly don’t. But here I am, unable to fucking sleep, thinking about all the goddamn little things that could’ve gone wrong, that could’ve-

….It terrifies me, to be honest. To think that I’m the only one who is capable of all this crazy shit. To think I could’ve never met these people who’ve become my family, to think-to think I could’ve missed out on being loved like this.

And that I could lose it any day now.

…shit.

Ah-fuck. I should…fuck. I should get back to bed. Before he-before he notices I’m gone. He’d worry, and I can’t-I don’t think I can deal with that. Not now, not with the end of everything looming.

…I love him. More than anything. And I just hope-I really want-

…..Nevermind.

—END LOG—

Just saw a post saying the words “idiot” and “dumb” are ableist… really??? REALLY??? 

REALLY????? 

So what words do you suggest when someone, neurotypical or not, does something, dare I say, stupid, idiotic, or dumb? No matter what disabilities or divergences one may or may not have, everyone does stupid things sometimes. Everyone acts dumb sometimes. Everyone has been an idiot at one point in life. Including me, a prof-dxed autistic girl who had to wait 20 years for a diagnosis. I work at McDonald’s, and I have seen some STUPID, IDIOTIC, DUMB shit go down in my time there. I don’t get hurt or offended when someone calls me stupid or an idiot, cause guess what? We’ve all been there. I’ve called neurotypical and neurodivergent people alike stupid, and things they have said dumb, or “you’re/they were being an idiot”. I know these words used to mean actual classification of intellectually disabled people, but guess what? They don’t mean that any more, in the way gay doesn’t mean happy any more. So stop being so…. dumb. 

John Mulaney Sentence Starters
  • "The more you do stuff, the better you get at dealing with how you still fail at it a lot of the time."
  • "All my money is in a savings account. My dad has explained the stock market to me maybe 75 times. I still don't understand it."
  • "It is 100% easier not to do things than to do them, and so much fun not to do them - especially when you were supposed to do them."
  • "In terms of instant relief, canceling plans is like heroin."
  • "I was always the squarest person in the cool room, and alternatively, sometimes the weirder person at the mainstream table."
  • "I have a lot of stories about being a kid because it was the last time I was interesting."
  • "Why do people shush animals? They've never spoken."
  • "A lot of times you're anxious and people say, "Relax. Shut up." And that just feels like, Well, I guess I'm also crazy."
  • "I'm an idiot, but I've shoveled through life rather nicely so far."
  • "I kind of thought, wouldn't it be funny to take a swing at being on the weird side of mainstream?"
  • "I like when things are crazy. Something good comes out of exhaustion."
  • "There's just something really, really funny about someone tearing into me."
  • "Being president looks like the worst job in the world."
  • "Thirteen year olds are the meanest people in the world."
  • "I always though quick sand was gonna be a much bigger problem than it turned out to be."
  • "'Do you want a salad or fries?' that's like asking 'Do you want to go for a jog or freebase cocaine?'"
  • “You have the moral backbone of a chocolate éclair.”
  • “Anyone who’s seen my dick and met my parents needs to die; I can’t have them roaming around. They know too much.”
  • "I was once on the telephone with blockbuster video- Which is a very old fashioned sentence."
  • "I cannot express to you the humiliation of, every Saturday morning, putting on a pair of breakaway pants and never having a reason to break them away -- then they're just pants."
  • "My body is bad at sports: that's the problem."
  • "It was so beautiful today that I only watched four hours of "Law & Order" in my apartment."
  • "I don't look older, I just look worse."
  • "So, I would just have a couple of drinks, and my brain would be like, 'OK, I see where this is headed. We're just going to power down now and get restarted sometime tomorrow morning'."
  • "Here's how easy it was to get away with bank robbery back in the '30s -- as long as you weren't still there when the police arrived, you had a 99% chance of getting away with it."
  • "'Ocean's 11' with women wouldn't work 'cause two would keep breaking off to talk sh*t about the other nine."
  • “Sometimes I’ll be talking to someone, and I’ll be like ‘Yeah, I’ve been really lonely lately’ and they’ll be like ‘Well we should hang out!’ and I’m like ‘No, that’s not what I meant. That’s not what I meant at all.”
  • "We'd all go play jacks by the soda fountain."
  • "No one knows what you're talking about you idiot."
  • "Blackout drinking is when your brain goes to sleep but your body gets all 'Eye of the Tiger' and soldiers on.'
  • "Am I proud of it? No. Just like I'm not proud of the fact that I saw the movie The Notebook in theaters. But it happened!"
  • "You don't know me. I have secrets. Why yesterday I wore my footie pajamas under my clothes and pretended I was a fucking fireman."
  • “Excuse me: I am homeless. I am gay. I have AIDS. I'm new in town.”
  • "Because we're Delta Airlines and life is a fucking nightmare!"
  • "I could never be goth, don't get me wrong, I'm unhappy, it's not that."
  • "To me Person of Interest is almost too flattering. Like, if the police were to pound on my door and go 'A man has been murdered in your building and you are a person of interest' I'd be like 'Moi? Oh do go on. Fresh.' "
  • "Ma'am can you turn off your bluetooth? This is a baptism."
  • "It was really easy to get away with murder before they knew about DNA."
  • "Do you want a plate of fries? If I get fries for the table would you take some? I know you'll eat fries if I get fries!"
  • "I watch so much Law and Order that sometimes I think I'm on an episode of Law and Order."
  • "You asked if I brushed my teeth but I never specified that I did so tonight. If the court reporter reads back my remarks you will see I did not purger myself."
  • "Traveling can get kinda lonely sometimes, actually no that's not the right word, Life. Life can get kinda lonely sometimes."
  • "Scientists have long since wondered if you can make grown men and women cry by playing Tom Jones' It's Not Unusual. And the answer is yes."
  • "Like my god man people are dead! But no you keep stacking those boxes."
  • "You seen this shit? You seen this Home Alone 2: Lost in New York shit?"
  • "As they say in Jerry Maguire, 'You had me at AIDS.'”
  • “Papa, today I met a boy with no eyes.”
  • "Adult life is already so goddamn weird."

anonymous asked:

Part 1/ I've been whatching your work for a while and you made me realize I want to start drawing again... however it's frustrating for me because whenever I have time to do that I only have pencils and they make me feel like I'm not good at all.

Although a tablet would expedite transitioning from traditional to digital, it’s not strictly necessary; there are plenty of people who draw with a mouse using brushes to account for limitations in movement (Andrea Koroveshi for one). As for programs, there are a lot of free alternatives :

Drawing Programs : (edited w sugestions from the replies!)

  • MSPaint (Windows) | Free
  • Gimp (Mac/Windows/Linux) | Free : Reminiscent of MSPaint but actually has a lot of Photoshop-equivalent tools.
  • OpenToonz (Mac/Windows) )| Free : Open source version of Toonz (used by Ghibli). Currently incredibly buggy. +Animation capabilities.
  • Fire Alpaca (Mac/Windows) | Free 
  • Paint Tool Sai (Windows) | Free(?) 
  • Krita (Mac/Windows/Linux) | Free : +Animation capabilities. 
  • Clip Studio Paint (Mac/Windows) | Paid : + Animation capabilities.
  • TVPaint (Mac/Windows) | Paid : +Animation capabilities.
  • Toonz (Mac/Windows) | Paid : +Animation capabilities. 
  • Photoshop (Mac/Windows) : I’d recommend you get one of the earlier single-payment versions if you can find it rather than paying a monthly fee for cloud. +Animation capabilities but it’s incredibly painful for any versions below CS6.

Programs with excess capabilities (+ well-designed user interface!!) will ease your process but ultimately the result is in the abilities of the artist.

As for myself, I’ve been using Photoshop CS5 for the majority of my experience, but I can attest to Sai + Krita as popular, decent alternatives. For hardware, I’ve used a 9yr old Wacom Intuos 3 tablet for the past 6 years- so a pretty reliable long-term investment if you can afford some expenditure (you can get it for half of what I paid for it anyway, on Amazon). I’ve also dropped it an incredible number of times without replacing any parts or needing to buy extra nibs; it’s pretty sturdy!

There are however alternative + much cheaper tablets as well :

Drawing Tablets : (edited w suggestions from the replies!)

As for pencil-work, although the result may not be as readily satisfying if you particularly admire digital art, in the end, it really is the penultimate medium for rapid visualization, iteration, and getting your ideas down on paper. Consequently, it is the fastest means to approach studies, which will only help you in experimenting to find the best possible solution/foundation for an image/design. These developed skills and eye for design are then transferable to any medium you end up using in the future.

Matt Nava, probably my overall favorite, has beautifully communicative, seemingly effortless pencil sketches. Here are some excerpts from the Journey artbook :

and some work from Abzu :

Plugging a friend’s work- you can get pretty incredible drawings with just graphite/ pencils:

(Image by Stacy Lee : Tumblr | Behance)

But as a traditional alternative, you could also consider using pen/ink. It’ll give your work a more finished looking appearance without requiring any intense rendering. 

Kim Jung Gi is well-known in this field, especially considering he constructs his images mentally and inks directly without an underlying sketch like a crazy person. 

Plus it’s Inktober!

Whoops looks like I’m a bad awful person for not liking k pop x-x

No but seriously this is another reason why I stay away from it. The fandom is so pushy and toxic sometimes.

No this doesn’t mean I hate it. I’m not about to tell you not to go listen to it. Its up to you. Go Crazy.

Hell I have a few friends that like it and I get along with them fine. Its the strangers that get pushy.

Just stop telling people that they’re not a good person if they don’t like it. Some of us just have different tastes.

Another suspicious thing about jikook. Is it just me who are seeing this? 

Recently, they will be touchy with other members, hands on waists, around shoulders and so on when they’re on camera. The usual stuff. But JM and JK seem to keep the touches pretty light between the two of them. They’re not hugging, leaning on each other, or anything other than occasionally touching hands and arms and even then it’s very brief (thankfully some got captured on camera lol). But of course, they still share looks. And there’s a strange vibe between them even when they only share brief touches. And of course JK stares at JM a lot.

But most of the recent jikook moments (not including the stage performances) happen when they don’t know a camera is on them (except for that ot7 photo with JM in JK’s lap). They seem to touch the most when they think not many people will notice. And I guess they’ve mostly been like that. We got many on-cam moments back in April-May. And let’s not forget how it seemed like the other members were trying to keep them apart at fansigns and events during that time. But now they seem to try and keep it off-cam. They kept things mostly off-cam in Bonvoyage, but there were moments when you could catch them together in the background. And of course there was the moment when JK grabbed JM’s hand and JM asked if he wanted to arm wrestle, and JK didn’t seem like that was his intention. They didn’t even do it on a table which made it seem more like an excuse to hold hands if anything. That moment was just strange. But even though these days they seem more distant on-cam, they’re still seen alone together quite a lot. I don’t know, but I sometimes get the feeling they’re intentionally being careful around each other on-cam.

What do you think? Do you feel this too?

Like I’ve said before, I’m 60% convinced they’ve got something going irl and only jikook themselves can un-convince me of this.

Attack On Titan {Sentence Starters}
  • "So I’ll win, no matter what. I’ll live, no matter what."
  • "People, who can’t throw something important away, can never hope to change anything."
  • "If you win, you live. If you lose, you die."
  • "Only the victors are allowed to live. This world is merciless like that."
  • "People are crazy for believing that these walls will protect us forever."
  • "Surely you understand that sometimes a single death can save many lives."
  • "I am stronger than you all. Very strong!"
  • "I don’t want to die inside these walls without knowing what’s out there!"
  • "I am telling you to calm down. Idiots."
  • "This is just my opinion, but when it comes to teaching somebody discipline I believe pain is the most effective way."
  • "Then, to me, you're a bad person, right?"
  • "I'm going to kill them all. Every fucking one of them!"
  • "We’re going to explore the outside world someday, right?"
  • "Nothing can surpass a human's curiosity."
  • "If you don't want to die, think."
  • "Look around, at all these big-ass trees."
  • "If it means mankind will live on, I don't mind being called a murderer."
  • "Was it the one there with the nice ass?"
  • "I hope you won't get mad when I say this, but you aren't a strong person."
  • "Don't get me wrong. It's not like I trust him."
  • "This world is merciless. And it's also very beautiful."
  • "After the fact, it’s easy to say 'We should’ve done something else.' However, no one knows how things will turn out."
  • "You have done a great deal and you will continue to do so."
  • "A good person? Well, I don't really like that term."
  • "There's nothing wrong with valuing your own life."
  • "Once you've given into your fears, you will never be able to fight them again!"
  • "You can't hope for a horror story with a happy ending!"
  • "You don't have to worry for me. I am not a kid anymore."
  • "I don't want to lose what little family i have left!"
BTS As Roles Of Mean Girls [Requested]
  • Jimin: Regina. Jimin can be sassy sometimes and he works it. There's no other person that would fit Jimin besides Regina.
  • Regina quote - "I know she's kind of socially retarded and weird, but she's my friend... so, just promise me you won't make fun of her."
  • Jungkook: Gretchen. He's always trying to make something happen with his meme face.
  • Gretchen quote - "That's so fetch."
  • V: Karen. Tae is silly and he always saying some crazy stuff. Some people think of him as 4D or as the dumb blonde of the group.
  • Karen quote - "I'm kind physic. I have a fifth sense."
  • Suga: Janis. He's chilled back and doesn't do as much because he doesn't care.
  • Janis quote - "Can I help you?"
  • Rap Monster: Mr. Duvall. He would be the teacher of all of this, and he's in control.
  • Mr Duvall quote - "Coach Carr, step away from the underage girls."
  • Jhope: Regina's Mom. He's upbeat and always trying to make everyone happy. He would be one of those cool moms.
  • Regina's Mom quote - "Hey,hey,hey. How are my best girlfriends?"
  • Jin: The girl that doesn't even go there. He just wants peace and happiness and to make a cake out of rainbows and smiles.
  • Girl that doesn't even go here quote - "I just want us to get along like we did in middle school."