I'm unsure if this is how you do requests... But this might be a touchy subject but can you do a touchy subject of mc having suicidal thoughts. And you can either let her go through it or them talk mc out of it. Sorry this might be a long request... But can I request it for "Seven, Jumin, and Yoosung" thank you. ^.^
The wy This request took so much Time is because I made it 5 times.The first time was too personal, then it was too emotional, then to graphic or too lifeless.I just didn´t like it.
But as Goldie from the “ Goldilocks and the Three Bears” I think I find something
decent Good IDK
Look! Before you go farther you have to know that is a real problem and it could happen to anyone at any moment. Even if you think you or other are “Strong” well let me pop your little bubble because the truth is that humans are fragile and is easy to drown on this thoughts.
Don´t think that people are stupid or weak, they are made from the same material that you.
There are lots of ways to feel like you want to kill yourself.
And if you are feeling or thinking about this, talk to somebody your parents, counselor, teachers, psychologist, friends (last option if they are minors because they are maybe going through the same things it will be kinda difficult) and It will be difficult, you will feel vulnerable, weird, and maybe you will find people that won´t understand it or maybe make fun of you AND I don´t mean to scare you but is the truth and that´s scary but is the best way to feel better BUT if you don´t want or feel like you can´t can´t talk to anyone …well… Hi! I´m sandy and if you want to talk I will be here like 24/7, if you need me I will be here and you can talk to me on Dm (chat/direct message). Maybe I´m not the best to talk to but at least is something because keeping all that shit to yourself ain´t good.
Now! the HC.
Reasons of the thought will be depression since is the best I know and simplest to explain.
- have you heard about “All what´s yours is mine and all what´s mine is yours”?
- Well, Jumin takes that shit seriously.
- So he combined all your account and no password on the computers
- basically, the Idea was being totally open and you agree without knowing that he is checking your medical history.
- He saw that you tried to kill yourself when you were a teenager.
- “Darling?” jumin search for you with the medical history papers.
- “I wanted to talk about this” he shows you the papers
- “What are-” big silent gap “What? know are you judging me too?”
- “No of course not! I just wanted to know what happened”
- “I tried to kill myself that´s it”
- “Do-do you have thought about this again?” Jumin was waiting for a NO and that all your work problems and the death of your father haven’t affected you in that way.
- “No” he listens to that and in part, he was happy that god listens to his plays but then he heard the truth.
- “You know that you can´t lie to me?”
- “I´m not lying! that´s the tru-” before you could finish he took you into his arms “Jumin, I´m ok” but he didn´t move a bit “I´m o-okay” no reaction “I´m fin-fine” your word were getting weaker “I wi-will be fine-e”
- “I know” but you were still in his arms
- “Everything is okay” but those words were painful to say because they weren´t truth.
- “Are you sure?”
- “Yes!” you tried to be strong “DEAM IT JUMIN LET ME GO!” you tried to force your way out from Jumin´s arm but he didn´t let you go “Everything is okay, I´m okay, it´s fine” you said that 8 times but with ties in your eyes and pain in your voice accompanied with that black hole in your chest.
- “Are you ok,Mc?” jumin asked
- You knew what you had to say but you were so tired “No…” and you collapsed in tears and pain unamenable to talk or do anything else.
- Jumin didn´t let you go “I´m here. I will find help and everything will be ok”
- Your phone was ringing and you were in the shower,
- yoosung wouldn’t answer without your permission,
- He asked you and you immediately permitted yoosung to answered the phone call thinking it was a cell phone company calling you again.
- That wasn´t the case.
- Yoosung didn´t even given the other person the opportunity to present them self and said “We don’t need phone or promotions, sorry. Bye”
- “Sir.! wait we are not a cellphone company.” the woman on the phone said before Yoosung hang up
- “Ohh Sorry…”
- “No worries. Is there Mc?”
- “She is in the shower but I’m his boyfriend so I can give them a message” Yoosung still had butterflies when he said that he was your boyfriend
- “Yeah were are just here family pharmacy and we are just because Mc hadn´t come for their prescription
- When you got out of the shower you saw your boyfriend putting a heavy jacket.
- “Are you going somewhere yoosung?”
- “We! change as fast as you can Mc”
- “So suddenly?”
- “I have a surprise”
- Basically, yoosung kidnap you.
- And took you to a special place.
- To Rika’s tumb.
- “Yoosung, why are we here?”
- “Did you know the I was about to commit suicide but then you came…”
(I was fact on Instagram about this)
- “A lot in my life was happening and I just… the thing is that you came and I thought you…I treat you like you were Rika”
- “I remember”
- “Let´s go somewhere else”
- You change location and Yoosung took you to another spacial place
- the favorite park of Yoosung
- “Can we talk?” Yoosung ask when you two finally sit on a bench
- And you two talk and talk until the day was night
- Until you finally said everything was on your minds
- Until are the dark thoughts were not gone but calm.
- Yoosung took your hand gently “I know you’re not Rika, you are more important to me. I know what I´m about to say is selfish but I want to be with you forever or at least grow old together. I want to be with you in those bad moment and on the good ones. I want to be your support maybe I´m not strong as Zen, Smart as Seven, Mature as Jaehee, wealthy as Jumin or even talented as V But I love you.”
- “Mc…” He get´s up in front of you “Maybe I´m stupid and I don´t know if I should be doing this, maybe I´m putting too much on your plate but-” he gives a sigh “I want to ask you” he puts one knee down “Do you-” takes your hand “Do you want to marry me?” without ring or any extravagant things he asks you just with his heart and soul.
(I just couldn’t do Seven, Sorry.)
unfortunately, there are not persons that will be like this in the IRL. There are not heroes (or at least I haven´t found anyone) and the only one that can give the first step is you.