i'm sorry i love you so much that i want to take this on myself because i can't lose you)

if this isn't love, then what is?
  • stefan salvatore:
  • she's the love of my life, i'd go back to her in a heart beat.
  • if it were my choice, i'd want to be with you forever
  • if it meant i got to be with her, have children, grow old with her.. if it meant we'd die together, be buried together then yes. i would take the cure
  • i would never hurt you, you're safe with me
  • when you and i were together every single atom in my body told me that it was the right thing. that we were the perfect fit.
  • actually i don't pretend to be anything when i'm with her. that's the whole point. i just get to be myself.
  • but you know, the life that we had, it was amazing too. and it wasn't a spell or a prophecy, it was real. we fell in love on our own.
  • you know, this is a future memory. it's where your boyfriend whispered to you that he loved you. i love you.
  • how do i not remember you? i mean you're smart, you're pretty, you're funny. obviously you're the strongest woman in the world.
  • every time that i tell myself that i'm moving on, there's this part of me that just can't seem to shake her.
  • i was a better person when i was with her. i didn't think i'd ever feel that way again. until elena.
  • i love you. i will always love you.
  • i love you so much.
  • i'm simply not able to resist her.
  • elena is warm and she's kind and she's selfless and it's real. when i'm around her i completely forget what i am.
  • elena gilbert:
  • i love him damon. no matter what i feel for you i never unfell for him.
  • no! you don't get to make that decision for me. if you walk away, it's for you because i know what i want. stefan i love you.
  • for once i don't regret the day before it begins. because i know i'll see him again.
  • but i love stefan, it's always going to be stefan.
  • it's you and me stefan, always.
  • i thought i couldn't be with you stefan but i can. you don't have to push me away. i can do this.
  • but i love you stefan. I love you stefan, you.
  • i cant lose the way i feel about you.
  • i dont want us to be apart anymore, ever.
  • stefan, my wrist. here. take my wrist. you need more blood. i trust you.
  • i cant lose the way i feel about you.
  • i love him damon. he came into my life when i needed someone and i fell for him instantly.
  • i kind off felt like i didn't know how to live anymore but then being with stefan... somehow i figured it out
  • i love you so much
  • i picked you because i love you. and no matter what happens that's the best choice i ever made.
  • look, he would never give up on me so i'm not gonna give up on him.
  • i love you stefan. hold on to that. never let that go.
  • other tvd characters:
  • katherine: you'd never look at me the way you look at elena, would you?
  • klaus: now this is fascinating i've never seen this before. the only thing stronger than your craving for blood is your love for this one girl.
  • klaus: and that's why you're her better option. i personally think she's wasting her time with damon.
  • rebekah: i envy that. you and elena. i envy the love you have.
  • klaus: well crazy or not that kind of love never dies.
  • caroline: i'm sorry but stefan is your epic love. and i'm not going down without a fight.
  • rose: stefan is different. his love is pure, he'll always be good for him.
  • klaus: personally i don't see a fairytale ending for you. all i see is stefan and elena.
  • klaus: must be hard trying to live up to stefan. he stopped himself when i compelled him to feed on elena. that's love.
  • lexi: when it's real you cant walk away.
  • caroline: you and her - epic. her and damon? ew
  • gloria: there's this girl with a necklace. you love her. you'd do anything for her.
  • damon: you're still wearing this necklace. isn't that a reminder of your unbreakable bond with stefan?
flatsound sentence starters
  • "Tonight I walked through a field that used to scare me more than I scared myself."
  • "I wish I had known you then."
  • "It was never death that interested me; it was the idea of an opportunity to follow a cold breeze that promised to take me anywhere but here."
  • "I’m sorry you thought this couldn’t work, because I’ve never wanted anything more in my entire life than to prove that it could."
  • "You were not my world, you were my universe."
  • "And I wonder if that’s what it feels like to die."
  • "Why do I wait, wondering how long it’ll take you to admit it?"
  • "I’d rather keep my mouth shut then start to say what I can’t finish."
  • "I sit here wondering if anything you said was true."
  • "We both noticed something had changed."
  • "I called you up again today and you didn't pick up."
  • "I didn't expect it to happen this quickly, you know?"
  • "I sit here and I worry about myself so much."
  • "I wanted you to care, I wanted you to be nosy, I wanted you to be there."
  • "I know it's stupid of me to say that you don't care, I mean, of course you do, but I want you to care so much more."
  • "I can't be around all these people who all my life have tried to change me."
  • "I can't hide who I am."
  • "I will be happy for the first time in my whole life."
  • "It makes me feel good, makes me feel pretty."
  • "I will go to sleep; just know you’ll be in my dreams."
  • "If I cry, it won’t be because of you."
  • "You don’t have to wait or pretend that he’s just your friend."
  • "It scares me more than I'd like to admit."
  • "My only problem lately is I've got too much time so all I'm left with is that what's on my mind."
  • "I left out everyone and all I have at the end of the day is that what's on my mind."
  • "Say I came back today, would I have a spot in your heart?"
  • "I cheated with your ex best friend."
  • "You can't stand in my doorway for long."
  • "It's eleven o'clock, he's expecting you home."
  • "I'll walk you up the hill to your car."
  • "No, don't let go, don't let this die."
  • "I just need to know what I did to ruin this and turn your body cold."
  • "If you walk through that door there will be no us."
  • "I thought you were being distant."
  • "I did not mean to make this the worst night of your life."
  • "I need you to know what happened."
  • "I saw you walking by, you didn't say hi, you didn't even smile."
  • "You're not the only one who's feeling anxious toward the bullshit that's attached to growin' up."
  • "You said things would stay the same; well, have they?"
  • "I know you're scared, but you'll never get better if you keep running away."
  • "Sometimes you need to be self centered to understand yourself better."
  • "I'm not in the mood to stick around."
  • "Every day I think about you and why you had to turn into my enemy, when all I need's my friend."
  • "Look at me and see how much I've changed since you left."
  • "Well, is this what you wanted, for me to admit that this fucking hurts?"
  • "I was never good at talking smoothly."
  • "Now I don't remember how you speak; I mean, it comes to me in dreams, but by morning, I lose everything you ever said."
  • "I'm not perfect, I think I'm quite the opposite, I'm nothing to adore."
  • "Perfection is opinion and nothing more."
  • "I'll be here waiting when your plane lands."
  • "Hi, my name is none of your concern."
  • "I like the way you make me feel at home."
  • "It wasn’t a mistake - so please dont think it was."
  • "I didn’t have a lot to drink, I just needed a bit for confidence."
  • "They won't find out, no one cares enough about it to run their mouths."
  • "Just please, when you’re ready to go, try not to make it so painful."
  • "Will you write another sad, sad song?"
  • "It's obnoxious and it's useless to fight a war you're losing."
  • "This might be your only chance."
  • "Is it you who calls the shots?"
  • "I don't know why they're choosing to confide in someone who will talk about anything."
  • "There are people who miss me and I don't know why they're investing all their time into someone with my history."
  • "Why did you say that I was one in a million? Because I believed it."
  • "I thought I had something that you were too scared to lose."
  • "I also saw how often you say goodbye."
  • "Things were never supposed to be this good."
  • "Nothing I can say now would justify a thing, just know I'm sorry."
  • "I just wanted to say I hope you're okay."
  • "You're already hurt, I'm scared that if you put your trust in me, I'll make it worse."
  • "You're still so young, you have room to grow into something amazing."
  • "You won't remember who I am."
  • "I can't live with the chance that this feeling's ever coming back."
  • "I don't hate you, but honey, this still hurts."
  • "I'm not dumb, I know everything."
  • "That liquid he consumes makes him speak the truth."
  • "Look at me, because I exist."
  • "It's a shame that we're not soulmates because if I didn't know better, I'd say this feels pretty good."
  • "You've been gone for too long, why'd you go?"
  • "Is this what you think it means to be responsible?"
  • "I went to class, you didn't show up."
  • "I thought we said that we'd keep in touch."
  • "So live up to the name you’ve been making for yourself."
  • "Last night you had that dream again, the one where you try and run from your fears but you can’t because you’re wearing fabulous stilettos."
  • "If I were the sun, I'd shine my light on you and leave the people that hurt you cold."
  • "We’re fighting again, more than usual."
  • "I’m sorry about being me."
  • "I'll sleep on the couch."
  • "Bring me a cat to be my best friend."
  • "It isn’t like you ever said that you were committed to the thought of me and only me."
  • "I can’t believe I spent all morning trying to tell you I’m sorry about yesterday."
  • "You smell like the devil but you feel like the lord."
  • "I didn’t dodge all your bullets, I just denied that they hit me."
  • "If I told you I loved you would you reach out and touch me?"
  • "I wish we had just gone to bed."
  • "This could have worked."
  • "The best part of that whole song was skipping ahead to Nicki Minaj."
  • "I will not make the same mistake twice."
  • "I know you never really liked people, I didn't mean to make that worse."
  • "I still know the roads that take me to your street."
  • "I know I promised that we'd talk more it's just, I'm surprised you even want to talk at all."
  • "I'm so scared that you still think I'm the one who gave up."
  • "The plans we made were never mistakes, they just didn't work for us."
  • "You always knew the deal that we made and what this was worth."
  • "I'll go to sleep at a decent time when I find something worth waking up for."
  • "I keep checking my phone to see you haven’t called at all."
  • "I thought I was the best part of your life, now I’m pretty sure that I was wrong."
  • "You’re impossible to read so if you love me, come clean."
  • "I’ll refer to you as my special love, the one that set me free."
  • "I’m feeling lost in towns that were my home."
  • "It's my own body, I did what I wanted."
  • "It’s not that I don’t have words to say, I just don’t want to be the one that speaks them."
  • "Your only flaw is that you’re flawless.”
  • "I’m so full of shit, I’m surprised you bought it."
  • "Well congratulations, I didn’t know you two had made things so official."
  • "Don’t call me when it fizzles; in fact, don’t call me at all."
  • "What a beautiful sight to see you alive."
  • "I can't hold you responsible anymore."
  • "I'm lost now in the thrill of it."
  • "I just want to lay in bed with you."
  • "I'll throw everything I have into the flames just to make it last."
  • "There are reasons that I can't stay."
  • "I built my life around watching everything you do."
  • "I wonder if you're having fun."
  • "You said you were done; well, how done?"
  • "I want to believe that I really don't need him."
  • "I can't wait until I see your face and my brain feels nothing."
  • "I would never want you to stop your life."
  • "You were always a shitty friend."

anonymous asked:

Hey darling, how has your day been??? You haven't been active and I'm (and maybe more) are worried about you. I know you've queue post but that's it. Don't force yourself to write prompts if you can't. Losing a best friend is tough but try to talk to other friends. They can help. I love you

Hey huni, my day wasn’t the best. I’m exhausted and my prom date informed me that they will be going with another person… 

Yes I know I haven’t been active, I’ve had no motivation/energy to do anything  :( 

I need to write the prompts because I feel bad every time I see them I feel guilty because they’ve been there forever. 

I didn’t think losing a best friend would effect me like this. I literally can’t take care of myself atm. I hate to say it but I have no other friends to confide in. I go to a very small school and people don’t usually like me. They also give me anxiety whenever I have to talk to them, about a personal problem. Also I don’t want to burden people with my domb problems when other people have there own. 

That’s why it hurts so much to lose Ty as a friend because I never had anxiety talking to him, I told him everything. Now I can’t tell people and I’m just bottling it up :( 

Sorry for ranting. I know it’s stupid. 

'Back up, babygirl' - Harry

*This is a dominant Harry smut, for a lovely anon who requested this. Hope it’s what you had in mind - Gee*

‘You mean, I get full control over you tonight?’ I bit my bottom lip, unable to believe what I was hearing. Harry was going to let me take over and possess him for one night.

'Yes, that’s exactly what I’m saying. But if you carry on biting your lip like that, I’ll have you across my lap faster than you can say sorry.’ I immediately released my lip. Standing from the sofa, I took his hand. I lead him over to the black leather chair, and took a seat.

'Strip for me’ I ordered. He raised an eyebrow, amused that I was using his signature moves. He started to strip, and as much as I loved seeing his body, I wanted to drag it out. 'Slowly, or else you’ll be punished. You don’t want to disappoint me now, do you?’ Silence filled the room. 'I can’t hear you.’ He looked at me, a scowl trying not to reach the surface. He hated not being in control. 

'No, mistress.’ Came his short, sharp reply.

'Now now, let’s not be cold with mistress.’ I taunted him, hoping that he would lose. There was no way Harry could keep this up. I watched as he slowly undressed, and I licked my lips. He stood before me naked. 'On your knees. Good boy, now take them off.’ As he slid my underwear down my legs, I felt a real sense of power surge through me. This is what it felt like to be in control. I loved submitting to him, but the control was sweet. 'Make me happy, Harry.’

With that, he licked up my core, and swirled his tongue around my clit. I arched my back and moaned. It somehow felt better when he was under my command. I held on to his hair, and controlled his movements. I could feel myself nearly at the brink of an orgasm, so I pulled his head away roughly. 'Lie in your back, arms above your head.’

'Oh no Y/N. I didn’t agree to that.’

'Are you really going to disobey me? Don’t you want to cum?’ He grumbled under his breath, but did as he was told. As I moved over him, he protested when my mouth didn’t stop at his cock.

'Are you kidding me?’ He asked, exasperated. 'I use my mouth on you everytime!’

'Harry, this is about what I want tonight.’ Before I knew it, he had me pinned beneath him, his face close to mine.

'Back up, babygirl’ he purred, as I struggled under his weight, 'It’s not about what you want. It’s about what we want. You know we wouldn’t do this if you didn’t like it. It’s for both of our needs, both of our pleasure. I care just as much about you orgasms, as I do mine. In fact, I care more about your orgasms. I love to get you off. Now, seeing as you won’t be a good little girl, and play the master role properly, it looks like I have to take over.’ He pinned my hands above my head with one of his hands, and smacked my clit with the other. I let out a squeal. He moved up by my head, and turned my head to face him. 'Lift it up, that pretty little mouth is going to take all of me.’

He grasped the back of my head, and pushed himself down my throat, fucking it relentlessly. I couldn’t use my hands to stop him, but I didn’t care. Harry was good at this, and I loved when he got rough. He held me at the base, and then pulled me off of his dick. It glistened with my saliva, and he stroked himself. 'Now, do you want to cum again babygirl?’ I nodded, frantically. He moved and settled himself between my thighs. 'I didn’t hear you Y/N. I said, do you want to cum again?’

'Yes, please sir!’

'Beg for it, as I fuck you.’ And he plunged himself in. The burning sensation of me stretching around him felt good. But he stilled. 'I said beg.’ He growled in to my ear.

'Fuck me, please. Make me cum Harry. I need it. I need you.' I panted. He started thrusting, slamming himself into my dripping wet entrance, making sure I felt every inch. His dick, hitting every sweet spot inside, making them scream with anticipation. He drove in to me with such force, that I knew I would be bruised.

'More baby, I need more.’ He choked. He laced a hand around my throat, and held me still as he pounded in to me. 'Your cunt is so wet and tight. So greedy. You just can’t get enough of me. Tell me how much you need me. Tell me how I make you feel.’

'I can’t stop needing you, You’re everywhere. You’re all I think about. When I’m at work, I wish you were there, taking care of my needs. You’re my every thought, I’m lost in you.’ He rammed in to me hard, and that tipped me over the edge. My body spasmed, and I felt him releasing in to me. My aching core held on to him, not wanting to let him go. We lay there, for what seemed like an eternity, before he spoke.

'I’m glad that’s how you feel. I’ve completely possessed you and everything you do. I’m glad that I’m all you can think about, because it means there’s no room to think of anyone else.’ He took my earlobe between his teeth and pulled, which made the muscles clench below, even after that shattering orgasm. I looked into his eyes, and gazed at him.

'I knew you couldn’t give me total control for one night’ I giggled. He kissed me, and pulled me on top of him, lining himself up. He sunk in to my tender pussy once more.

'Baby, you control everything I do. But you just can’t be trusted to take the lead’ he said, with a wink and a mischievous grin.

"american beauty" sentence starters
  • "I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me... but it's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world."
  • "Well, you have absolutely no interest in saving yourself."
  • "Lose my job? I didn't lose it. It's not like, 'Whoops! Where'd my job go?' I QUIT."
  • "I figured you guys might be able to give me some pointers. I need to shape up. Fast."
  • "You're right. I suck dick for money."
  • "Well, what do you say I throw in a little sexual harassment charge, to boot?"
  • "Management wants you gone by the end of the day."
  • "Your father seems to think this kind of behavior is something to be proud of."
  • "It's like God's looking right at you, just for a second, and if you're careful... you can look right back."
  • "When I was your age, I flipped burgers all summer just to be able to buy an eight-track."
  • "All I did was party and get laid. I had my whole life ahead of me."
  • "I rule!"
  • "She's not your friend. She's just someone you use to feel better about yourself."
  • "It's never too late to get it back."
  • "I have lost something. I'm not exactly sure what it is but I know I didn't always feel this... sedated."
  • "You think you're the only one who's sexually frustrated here?"
  • "Both my wife/husband and daughter/son think I'm this gigantic loser and they're right."
  • "I'm looking for the least possible amount of responsibility."
  • "You should see me fuck. I'm the best piece of ass in three States."
  • "Can you prove that you didn't offer to save my job if I let you blow me?"
  • "Are you just looking to lose weight, or do you want increased strength and flexibility as well?"
  • "I don't think we can be friends anymore."
  • "Just don't fuck my dad, all right? Please?"
  • "You're way too uptight about sex."
  • "I want to look good naked!"
  • "Someone really should just put him out of his misery."
  • "I'm not paying you to do... whatever it is you're doing out here."
  • "You don't really think [name] and I were..."
  • "Want me to kill him for you?"
  • "I need a father who's a role model, not some horny geek-boy who's gonna spray his shorts whenever I bring a girlfriend home from school."
  • "I quit. So you don't have to pay me. Now leave me alone."
  • "Remember those posters that said, 'Today is the first day of the rest of your life'? Well, that's true of every day but one - the day you die."
  • "She hates me. She hates you, too."
  • "There's plenty of joy in my life."
  • "Go fuck yourself, psycho!"
  • "My parents are coming tonight. They're trying to, you know, take an active interest in me."
  • "Gross. I hate it when my mom does that."
  • "Fuck me, Your Majesty!"
  • "I was hoping you'd give me a bath. I'm very, very dirty."
  • "You ungrateful little brat! Just look at everything you have."
  • "I'm so sorry for the way things look around here."
  • "I think using psychotropic drugs is a very positive example to set for our daughter."
  • "Who are you looking for?"
  • "This isn't life, it's just stuff. And it's become more important to you than living."
  • "There's nothing worse than being ordinary."
  • "Everything that's meant to happen does."
  • "You're one to talk, you bloodless, money-grubbing freak."
  • "Welcome to America's weirdest home videos."
  • "Oh well, all right, let's all sell our souls and work for Satan because it's more convenient that way."
  • "I'm sensing a real distance growing between you and [name]."
  • "My job consists of basically masking my contempt for the assholes in charge, and, at least once a day, retiring to the men's room so I can jerk off while I fantasize about a life that doesn't so closely resemble Hell."
  • "Don't you mess with me, mister, or I'll divorce you so fast it'll make your head spin!"
  • "Your mom's the one who's embarrassing. What a phony. But, your dad's actually kind of cute."
  • "If he just worked out a little, he'd be hot."
  • "You don't get to tell me what to do ever again."
  • "I'm serious. He just pulled down his pants and yanked it out."
  • "Never underestimate the power of denial."
  • "Are you trying to look unattractive today?"
  • "How dare you speak to me that way in front of her."
  • "Jesus, what is it with you?"
  • "I am sick and tired of being treated like I don't exist."
  • "Sometimes there's so much beauty in the world, I feel like I can't take it, and my heart is just going to cave in."
  • "See the way the handle on her pruning shears matches her gardening clogs? That's not an accident."
  • "Don't interrupt me, honey!"
  • "[Name]'s a pretty typical teenager. Angry, insecure, confused. I wish I could tell her that's all going to pass, but I don't want to lie to her."
  • "I had always heard your entire life flashes in front of your eyes the second before you die."
  • "You better watch yourself, [name], or you're going to turn into a real bitch, just like your mother!"
  • "I marvel that you can be so contemptuous of me, on the same day that you lose your job."
  • "You're boring. And you're totally ordinary. And you know it."
  • "You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure. But don't worry... you will someday."
  • "Uh, whose car is that out front?"
  • "Your mother seems to prefer that I go through life like a fucking prisoner while she keeps my dick in a mason jar under the sink."
  • "In order to be successful, one must project an image of success at all times."
  • "She's... she's really happy. She thinks she's in love."
  • "I think you just became my personal hero!"
  • "Man, you are one twisted fuck."
  • "The only way I could save myself now is if I start firebombing."
  • "You know, this really doesn't concern you."
  • "I mean, how's her life? Is she happy? Is she miserable?"
  • "I'd really like to know, and she'd die before she'd ever tell me about it."
  • "Your wife is with another man and you don't care?"
  • "It's a great thing when you realize you still have the ability to surprise yourself."
  • "In less than a year, I'll be dead."
  • "[Name], today I quit my job. And then I told my boss to go fuck himself, and then I blackmailed him for almost sixty thousand dollars. Pass the asparagus."
  • "I wish I could tell her that's all going to pass, but I don't want to lie to her."
  • "We've met before, but something tells me you're going to remember me this time."
  • "I can't believe you don't know how beautiful you are."
  • "Well, at least I'm not ugly."
  • "This will be the high point of my day; it's all downhill from here."
  • "[Name], are you masturbating?!"
  • "If people I don't even know look at me and want to fuck me, it means I really have a shot at being a model."
  • "In a way, I'm dead already."
  • "You are so busted."
  • "I feel like I've been in a coma for the past twenty years. And I'm just now waking up."
  • "Well, congratulations. You've succeeded admirably."
  • "The car I've always wanted and now I have it."
  • "God, it's been a long time since anybody asked me that..."
  • "Makes you wonder what else you can do that you've forgotten about."
  • "I'm just an ordinary guy with nothing to lose."
  • "Our marriage is just for show. A commercial for how normal we are when we're anything but."
  • "It would be nice if I was anywhere near as important to him as she is."
  • "Gotta spend money to make money."
  • "I refuse to be a victim!"
  • "I was filming this dead bird."
  • "Do you party?"
  • "Oh, what? You're mother of the year? You treat her/him like an employee."
  • "Could he be any more pathetic?"
  • "I think it's sweet."
  • "You need structure... you need discipline."
  • "He's just so confident, it can't be real."
  • "So, you're fucking psycho-boy on a regular basis now? Tell me, has he got a big dick?"
  • "He didn't even look at me once!"
  • "I don't think you'd fit in here."
  • "It seems unfair to presume I won't be able to learn."
  • "Excuse me for speaking so bluntly, sir."
  • "Oh, I'm in trouble."
  • "I didn't mean to scare you. I just think you're interesting."
  • "This country is going straight to hell!"
  • "[Name], when did you become so joyless?"
  • "I'm not obsessing. I'm just curious."
  • "What is this? The fucking Gay Pride parade?"
  • "Sorry about my dad."
  • "To you, he's just another guy who wants to jump your bones."
  • "This is my first time."
Just close your eyes.
  • carcinoGeneticist [CG] opened memo.
  • CG: FUCK....
  • CG: IS ANYONE STILL THERE?
  • CG: I DON'T REALLY THINK ANYONE IS LEFT...
  • CG: I DON'T THINK I'M LEFT, REALLY...
  • CG: FUCK, I KNOW.
  • CG: JUST CG: PLEASE
  • CG: IF YOU'RE STILL ALIVE...
  • CG: RESPOND..
  • TG: karkat
  • TG: holy shit, karkat
  • CG: THANK FUCK....
  • CG: SOMEONES ALIVE AT LEAST
  • TG: dude where the fuck are you
  • TG: where the fuck is everyone
  • TG: they can't just
  • TG: you know
  • CG: I... DON'T KNOW.
  • CG: IT'S PRETTY FUCKING DARK
  • TG: bro are you alright
  • CG: I THINK I CAN SEE A CAVE
  • CG: NO ONES ALRIGHT, IDIOT
  • TG: fuck i know it but
  • TG: but for a fucking second i can fucking ask you that kind of shit
  • TG: because i fucking care alright
  • TG: because i fucking want you and all of us to be alright again
  • CG: I KNOW, ASSHOLE...
  • CG: I WANT EVERYONE TO BE ALRIGHT TO...
  • CG: OH GOD..
  • TG: karkat
  • TG: come on dude i need you here
  • CG: I'D LOVE TO BE THERE...
  • TG: just
  • TG: just fucking talk to me okay
  • CG: I'LL TRY.... FUCK
  • TG: don't leave me alone
  • CG: STRIDER I
  • CG: I'M SORRY..
  • CG: FUCK, I'M SORRY.
  • TG: fuck dude no
  • TG: don't tell me you too
  • CG: YEAH.... GAMZEE
  • CG: HE
  • CG: HE FOUND ME..
  • TG: that motherfucker is still alive
  • TG: karkat come on i know you can make it
  • CG: DAVE
  • CG: THERES..
  • TG: i can find him but i need you with me
  • TG: karkat i need you
  • CG: THERES A LOT OF FUCKING BLOOD HERE...
  • CG: I DON'T
  • CG: THINK I COULD
  • TG: bullshit
  • TG: fucking bullshit
  • TG: look at all the shit we've been through
  • TG: all the fucking times we lost our friends and ourselves
  • TG: i can't fucking lose you
  • TG: dude don't give up
  • TG: i
  • TG: fuck
  • CG: YOU DON'T REALLY HAVE A CHOICE, ASSHAT...
  • TG: you know what
  • TG: i'm not going to stay fucking alone
  • CG: STRIDER.....
  • TG: what, little shit
  • CG: DON'T BE AN ASSHOLE RIGHT NOW
  • TG: that's the only fucking way i can act right now
  • CG: NOT REALLY
  • CG: I JUST DON'T
  • CG: YOU KNOW
  • CG: IT'S ACTUALLY FUNNY IN A FUCKING WAY OR TWO
  • CG: MAYBE YOUR HUMAN IRIONIC
  • TG: thats not fucking funny
  • TG: karkat i'm losing you
  • TG: that's not fucking funny at all
  • TG: do you know how many things or people i actually gave a shit
  • TG: all of them are fucking dead now and you're planning on fucking leaving me too
  • TG: that's
  • TG: that's not funny
  • CG: BOO FUCKING HOO, IT'S NOT LIKE I CAN MAGICALLY FIX MYSELF AND EVERYONE
  • CG: AND
  • CG: AND IF WE CAN'T FIND ANYTHING FUNNY ABOUT THE WHOLE WRECK
  • CG: WHATS THE POINT
  • CG: I DON'T KNOW...
  • TG: hey dipshit
  • CG: MAYBE I'M NOT EVEN MAKING SENSE TO MYSELF
  • TG: i'm gonna be real gay right now but
  • TG: if theres a time i should tell you this is fucking now
  • TG: you're the strongest little shit i've ever seen
  • TG: fuck i can't believe how you're still talking to me
  • TG: or how you were able to stand that fucking juggalo
  • TG: shit fuck everything i love you bro
  • CG: I LOVE YOU TOO, STRIDER...
  • TG: i'm so sorry
  • CG: DON'T
  • CG: IT'S
  • CG: IT
  • CG: IT'S MY FAULT
  • TG: dont you fucking start
  • TG: there was no way you'd know it would happen
  • TG: it's not your fault
  • TG: don't blame yourself
  • CG: IF I WOULD OF JUST
  • CG: JUST BEEN A BETTER MOIRAIL
  • CG: THEN
  • CG: FUCK, I CAN'T EVEN THINK
  • TG: karkat
  • TG: you were perfect
  • TG: you ARE perfect
  • TG: in your stubborn asshole way but
  • TG: i wish i could have been more like you
  • CG: HUH
  • CG: YEAH
  • CG: I...
  • CG: FEEL THE SAME
  • CG: BUT
  • CG: I'M NOT A LEADER
  • CG: I'M NOT PERFECT
  • CG: AND
  • CG: AND YOU KNOW WHAT?
  • CG: I COULD FUCKING CARE LESS RIGH ABOUT NOW
  • TG: you'll always be fucking perfect to me dipshit
  • TG: but it doesn't matter when we're dying
  • CG: IT DOESN'T REALLY..
  • CG: IT'S
  • CG: IT'S A BIT TO LATE TO BE SAYING THIS SHIT
  • CG: ISN'T IT?
  • TG: it is
  • TG: but i bet if it wasnt
  • TG: we'd never say them
  • CG: LIKE THE STUBBORN ASSHOLES WE ARE
  • CG: FUCK
  • CG: HEY DAVE?
  • TG: yeah karkat
  • CG: JUST
  • CG: DON'T CLOSE THIS MEMO
  • CG: I KNOW
  • CG: I KNOW IT'S STUPID I
  • CG: I JUST DON'T
  • CG: WANT TO BE ALONE.
  • TG: i won't
  • TG: dude i'll be here with you
  • TG: always
  • TG: fucking always
  • CG: THSNKS
  • CG: FUCK
  • CG: EVERYTHING IS GETTING BLURRY....
  • TG: hey karkat
  • TG: just
  • TG: take a deep breath
  • TG: i'm right here
  • CG: OKAY... PART
  • TG: i'm right behind you
  • TG: you're not alone man
  • TG: now
  • TG: close your eyes
  • TG: it's just
  • TG: it's just a nap
  • TG: after a long day
  • CG: OKAY....
  • CG: I LOVE YOU....
  • CG: SO FUCKING MUCH...
  • TG: i love you
  • TG: i really fucking do
  • TG: i
  • TG: i'll see you tomorrow
  • CG: I'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW....
  • CG: BYE, ASSHOLE
  • TG: bye dipshit
  • TG: <3
a hella long list of random lyric sentence starters (pt. 11)
  • "We were close, never close enough."
  • "I'll come around if you ever want to be in love."
  • "You always had something effortless."
  • "At school you were the biggest deal."
  • "We were young, we were side by side, don't know when we started losing touch."
  • "I know our filthy hands can wash one another’s."
  • "There are roads left in both of our shoes."
  • "If the silence takes you then I hope it takes me, too."
  • "Brown eyes I hold you near."
  • "You’re the only song I want to hear."
  • "I've tried before to tell her of the feelings I have for her in my heart."
  • "Every little thing she does is magic."
  • "Must I always be alone?"
  • "I’m drunk off your kiss."
  • "This is becoming too routine for me."
  • "I did not mean to lead you on."
  • "It's all right to pretend that we still talk."
  • "It’s just for show, isn’t it?""It’s my fault that it fell apart."
  • "You were everything I wanted but I just can't finish what I've started."
  • "I still pick my friends over you."
  • "We're making our own history."
  • "This is the moment where it all began."
  • "Every single hero has to start out looking like me and you."
  • "We can do this if we really want to."
  • "Why mess up a good thing, baby?"
  • "It’s a risk to even fall in love."
  • "This is trouble."
  • "I don’t go out much like I used to."
  • "Why leave when I got you, baby?"
  • "It’s a risk but babe, I need the thrill."
  • "I never said you'd be easy."
  • "It could be lethal, sleeping with a friend."
  • "No heroes, villains, one to blame."
  • "The thrill is gone."
  • "We used to have it all."
  • "It's our time to go, but at least we stole the show."
  • "I'm not calling you a liar, just don't lie to me."
  • "I'm not calling you a ghost, just stop haunting me."
  • "I love you so much, I'm gonna let you kill me."
  • "When you kiss me, I am happy enough to die."
  • "Classy girls don't kiss in bars, you fool."
  • "You and that girl, she your girlfriend?"
  • "Pretty girls don't know the things that I know."
  • "I love this secret language that we're speaking."
  • "Never really thought we would make it."
  • "I don't wanna see the end begin."
  • "I never felt nothing in the world like this before."
  • "You could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance."
  • "Why does your pride make you run and hide?"
  • "Are you that afraid of me?"
  • "I will wait for you."
  • "You're still in love with me."
  • "You don't love me at all."
  • "You're a bad-hearted boy-trap, babydoll."
  • "You're so damn hot."
  • "So who's this other guy you've got?"
  • "Once upon a time, we burned bright, now all we ever seem to do is fight."
  • "I could've been a princess, you'd be a king, but no, you let me go."
  • "You really hurt me."
  • "I'm going straight to hell."
  • "You're going down."
  • "God, it hurts so much to be the bearer of bad news."
  • "Don't just dream in your sleep, it's just lazy."
  • "I am going sleepless and you're out of lullabies."
  • "You've got a dark heart, you've got a cold kiss."
  • "You always let me down."
  • "I'm a junky for the way that you please."
  • "I almost told you that I loved you, thank God I didn't because it would've been a lie."
  • "I say the damnedest things when your on top of me."
  • "I'm not the one that you want, I'm not the one that you need."
  • "My love is like a fucking disease."
  • "I'm the hardest mother fucker to please."
  • "They say you never miss it 'til it's gone; well you're gone and I wish I'd done it better."
  • "I miss having you close to me."
  • "I'm sorry, I promise I'll do better."
  • "Can we start again?"
  • "You needed something better."
  • "I want more."
  • "I try my best, but I don't ever change."
  • "Who wouldn't want it when he looks like that?"
  • "If I try my hardest, would you look my way?"
  • "Do you want to show me something new?"
  • "I know I want it far too much."
  • "Are you coming over soon?"
  • "Can I be what you like?"
  • "Don't try to fuck with me."
  • "This is the last time I am gonna put you back together."
  • "I'm sending pic after picture, I'mma get you fired."
  • "I can't stand these nights alone."
  • "You light up my cold heart."
  • "A love like this won't last forever."
  • "I'm not the one that you want me to be."
  • "Are we just gonna stay like this forever, floating?"
  • "I know I'm gonna let you down."
  • "I wish I could say what I'm feeling; I'm scared to let these words out."
  • "I can't trust you."
  • "This isn't fun anymore."
  • "Damn, I thought we'd make it."
  • "You never got to heaven but you got real close."
  • "I beg for attention in small doses."
  • "You play those hearts like toys."
  • "I'm the option you shouldn't have chosen."
  • "This is the night you'll regret in the morning."
  • "I always wonder how far we could go."
  • "We could be free."
  • "This is my life and they'll call it a song."
  • "Make myself a king."
  • "There's no one to blame but you."
  • "You need me there, ain't no leaving me behind."
  • "There ain't nothing here for me anymore, but I don't wanna be alone."
  • "I can be a lone wolf with ya."
  • "All the world is gray as though you took the colors with you."
  • "We don't talk anymore like we used to do."
  • "What was all of it for?"
  • "I just heard you found the one you been looking for."
  • "Shoulda known your love was a game."
  • "I just hope you're lying next to somebody who knows how to love you like me."
  • "Call your girlfriend, it's time you had the talk."
  • "Say it's not her fault, but you just met somebody new."
  • "Let her down easy."
  • "You never meant to hurt no one."
  • "I give you something that you never even knew you missed."
  • "Don't you even try and explain how it's so different when we kiss."
  • "Now it's gonna be me and you."
  • "You're not sure that you love me."
  • "Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine."
  • "You're gonna break my heart anyway."
  • "Get it over with and just let me move on."
  • "Don't concern yourself with this mess you've left for me."
  • "You not making up your mind is killing me and wasting time."
  • "I'm sorry, I'm really a mess right now."
  • "I'm trying my best to get it together somehow."
  • "Tell me where love goes when it's gone."
  • "Suddenly someone is no one."
  • "I'm sorry, I let me fall for you."
  • "You're the hand I can't hold."
  • "I don't want you back, I just want to have what you took from me."
  • "I'll come around again, I know it's not the end."
  • "Love leaves a black hole where it dies."
  • "How can I ever love again?"
  • "I see you with her and it crushes me inside."
  • "Guess I should stop thinking about you all the time."
  • "Maybe this is a sign."
  • "Maybe I've been blind to reality."
  • "You seemed so interested."
  • "Was it real or was it all in my head?"
  • "She's so pretty, you two look so great."
  • "It was probably just a silly crush anyway."
  • "I just can't help but think that we could've had something."
  • "Did you ever feel the same?"
  • "I promised I wouldn't do it again."
  • "Taught him a lesson he wouldn't forget."
  • "I hope you find a way to be yourself someday."
  • "Change can be amazing."
  • "I pray for the best for you."
  • "I wish you could be honest with me."
  • "Why’d you fake it?"
  • "Hesitation is killing me, too."
  • "I couldn’t save it."
  • "Friend, why don’t you love me?"
  • "Tell me you want me in your life."
  • "It helps that you feel the same."
  • "We started from a spark."
  • "We got dreams and they start right here."
  • "I cry like a baby when I don't get my way."
  • "I won't apologize when I make a mistake."
  • "Do you want me?"
  • "I got scars on my heart and they won't go away."
  • "Everybody knows I'm a little insane."
  • "I feel you don't even know I'm alive."
  • "I feel you think that I'm out of my mind."
  • "I just want someone to hold."
  • "You're looking at me strange like you want me to change."
  • "I think you're a saint and I think you're an angel."
  • "You give me something to think about that's not the shit in my head."
  • "You're a miracle."
  • "I gotta stay with you."
  • "You're a glimpse of bliss, a little taste of heaven."
  • "I know you're gone now, but I still wait for you."

anonymous asked:

Hello! First of all I love the short story that you wrote some weeks ago and I can't wait for you to keep writing it! I noticed that the orange bracelet of Mo Guan Shan has disappeared after chapter 175. You think it's an important detail or maybe I'm thinking too much? Sorry for my bad English ^^

Hey! I’m so happy you enjoyed it, though it’s not much and I rushed it a fucking lot, but this update has really changed my plans for the story (in a good way), so I think I’ll update in a couple of days (?), hopefully before OX does. Recently I don’t have much time ughh, I hope I won’t feel too tired to write, because I have about.. at least 4 tianshan writing ideas and I’m going to make them happen very soon, one at a time. (or else one or two ppl around here will make sure my ass is kicked and cancelled for good haha).

But anyway, back to your question! I didn’t spare much attention on that tbh (wouldn’t have even noticed if people hadn’t mentioned about it lol), I mean I thought OX just.. you know, made a mistake or something? But then again, OX is such a careful artist and puts so much emphasis on details (honestly just give me a print of those backgrounds and I’ll frame that shit on my wall and stare at it, because it’s therapeutic af lol. no but really, I’m really loving the color technique/lighting lately, everything is so smooth and oozes quality and, as a struggling artist myself, I’m amazed OX does this much for us and asks for nothing in return. like I’m so damn grateful even if it hurts). 

So.. if we consider it was intentional, what’s up with that? First thing that came to my mind, without looking at the panels, was that the bracelet somehow got off while they went physical after the kiss. Guan Shan’s reaction (belated, but still) was so strong and instinctive and, really, it looks like he gave his all, but He Tian is simply that impressive (sometimes I wonder if the look on He Tian’s face is also a bit of “oh, he’s quite strong” besides feeling conflicted about the whole thing). So he pinned him down and Guan Shan gave up, brushed him off and…

Nope, it didn’t fall.

Still there. 

(bear with my hopeless shipper ass, but how I love that they both wear their bracelets on the right hand and it also fits them so well, like, He Tian has a larger frame, the thing wraps tightly around his wrist, the way his clothes do too, meanwhile Guan Shan’s wrist is thin and bony and the bracelet just hangs loosely around it, just like any other clothing item he has and hold up I think I got a bit ahead of myself here. back on firm grounds, shall we…)

So it’s not that. He walks off and in the next chapters the bracelet is.. missing? Entirely. Could OX repeat such a mistake? nah, I doubt about that. Even great artists make mistakes and that’s really really understandable, but to this extent? too suspicious, at least for me. OX has a thing for details and people should really really consider them, especially regarding the characters. 

My theory is that he may have lost it on his way back home. First of all, as I said before, his wrists are skinny. As someone who has small wrists, I can definitely confirm that it’s surprisingly easy to lose your accessories, especially if you bring your fingers together, close enough to let it pass over your knuckles. Which brings me to this unpleasant idea that he might have.. nervously held his wrist with his left hand? Like maybe he was so lost in his thoughts and so confused after what happened, he just went straight home and, during that time, he instinctively squeezed his wrist (maybe a bit too hard) to, you know, calm down, get a grip, feel something. And if he did that repeatedly, unaware and all, chances are the bracelet fell off, somewhere. And of course he didn’t notice. Hours later now and he still hasn’t noticed /or we didn’t get to see that. Which is odd, because he wears it so often, maybe he actually likes it a lot, or maybe he’s just used to it, but that’s something one would notice. Given the events, though, he wasn’t allowed much time for himself, really. (fuk u She Li)

And this mini theory (plausible? I don’t know) brings me to an interesting headcanon (? more or less). What if, what if He Tian finds his bracelet? Maybe in the school yard, maybe on the road; they live close to each other, so they might take a similar path, and He Tian knows it’s his. I’m certain he would recognize the bracelet right away. And if that’s the case, would He Tian keep it? Maybe keep it for a while (hey I have this little thing that belongs to him and I don’t know why I keep folding it and staring at it and fuck is he okay? shit I really fucked it up). I’d love to see him oddly focused on something that reminds him of Guan Shan, more or less in a pleasant way, because that would be such a reminder that he fucked up. He wouldn’t just, you know, forget about it. Act like it doesn’t matter, that it means nothing (even if that’s not how he feels, but we’re talking about a boy who would, really, deny such feelings). So he takes his time and finally decides to give it back to him, look for him. Because it’s easier to say “I just wanted to give this to you” than “I wanted to see you and apologize”. Of course, that’s so He Tian. He would definitely use such an excuse to see him. And I’d rather have it that way, really, than She Li mingled between them. (even if they will have to deal with the dropping out issue too, afterwards, and god they should). Because it’s much more.. sincere, it’s something coming from He Tian, something he could have just ignored, and I think Guan Shan would really appreciate it. Would believe he’s sorry. It’s not easy for him anymore to trust He Tian’s intentions. 

I’m going to stop here because it got really long and I’m messing with people’s dashes. Thanks for asking me about this! I really wanted to talk about it but didn’t really get the chance. I love when people ask me things they’re thinking about and wonder what’s my opinion. I mean yeah, I do ramble about it too with my mates here, but I rarely get to put it properly in a decent post. Hope I managed to stretch your thoughts on this matter, just a bit + please don’t feel sorry, I mean /?? your English was perfect! 

i hate how this turned out but ehhhh. enjoy, i guess.

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1D Preferences #713: Say Something
  • Liam: "Why do you always do this?" you exclaim, throwing your hands up in defeat. "Do what?" he furrows his eyebrows and crosses his arms. "Push people away, Liam. I'm getting tired of it and I'm starting to give up on you," you sigh softly, tears threatening to spill down your cheeks. "No, no," he says quickly, his hand resting on your shoulder. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to push you away....but I got scared. I didn't think you'd want me anymore when you saw...my darker side...just seeing my cousin getting bullied like that...brought me back to a place and I didn't want you to see me that way..." he says softly, shutting his eyes. You think for the right words, automatically wrapping your arms around him. "Say something, please," he pleads softly, burying his nose in your hair. "I love you and I love every part of you, but I can only love the parts of you that you let me see. And I want to see and I want to help you, love."
  • Harry: "I'm not good for you," he says firmly, tears glittering in his green eyes. "I need to swallow my pride and just say good bye before I ruin your life." You look at him with surprise and shake your head. "You're not---you're not ruining my life, you make it better? Are you fucking mad?" you inquire, setting down your cup of coffee. "No--the tabloids and the crap you go through...the saying hello and good bye, I can't keep hurting you and leaving you and coming back, I can't put you through all of this," he says desperately, quickly brushing a lone tear from his cheek. "I have to...I have to let you go, I can't drag you into this messy lifestyle. I can't keep leaving you and hurting you anymore." You open your mouth to speak but can't find the words. "Say something," he pleads, voice desperate. "That's all bullshit, Harry. I love you, okay? I love you more than the sun and the stars and the air I'm breathing, I won't lie--it's hard but you're worth it and you leaving would only damage me more, you know? I get you want what's best for me but that's you--you're what's best for me, and I love you. Damn it, I love you."
  • Louis: "I'm over my head," he groans, covering his face with his hands. "Everything is going to shit and everything is downhill from here. I don't know anything anymore. All I know is that I fuck up everything I touch. I mess up songs and lyrics and friendships and...I'm messing up us." You go to protest but he shakes his head and sits up. "Love, you know I've been acting different. It's ruining us and I'm distancing myself from you--from everything. I'm just not myself anymore." You had never seen him cry until this moment and it's absolutely breaking you. "Louis, I know. You're having a tough time...I want to help you I love you and we're not ruined, we aren't," you argue, wrapping him in your arms. He's silent. "Say something, please, Lou?" He takes a deep breath and offers a sad smile. "I love you so much...it's going to be hard for me to get out of this place, but..." You kiss away a tear on his cheek and shrug. "And I'm going to be there with you every step of the way. I'm not going to abandon you just because you're a little fractured. When you love somebody, you love them when they're broken, too. Not just when they're put together."
  • Niall: "There was a bit of a complication with the knee surgery," the surgeon glances down at the clipboard and frowns. "What?" You jump out of the uncomfortable waiting room chair and grow cold. "Well, he should be fine, but," the man looks down uncomfortably. "No, no, no," you protest, gripping your sleeves. "He's not--you didn't--," you can't breathe. The room is shaking. "He's in a coma right now, but he should be okay," the doctor sighs, turning towards the set of doors. "SHOULD be okay?" SHOULD?!" you yell, grabbing his sleeve. "Miss, you can visit his room if you calm down, he should be all right, it's not too serious," the doctor motions for you to follow him and you almost lose it when you see him lying on the white hospital bed. "I'll leave you be--all right? But this coma is most likely temporary. He didn't react well to the anesthetics, but his vital signs are improving and although there is a small chance of him,er--not waking up? There's a greater chance that he'll be up and fine soon." You nod and sit on the edge of the bed, tears filling your eyes. "Niall?" you whisper tentatively. "Can you hear me? Say something, please? Please?" you plead, gently placing your hand on his wrist. "I'm so worried about you," you continue, listening to the steady and slow beat of the heart monitor. "Mmph," you hear him groan, his eyelashes fluttering. "Niall!" you exclaim, running to the door. "He's awake! He's awake!"
  • Zayn: "How could you want to end this? I thought you loved me, I thought you cared about me," you manage, tears clouding your vision. "I love you! I love you so damn much, you don't even...," he runs his fingers through his hair and shakes his head. "I'm sorry, okay? I don't want to break up, that was a mistake, I just...I've never felt this way about anyone before. I'm still learning to love and I don't deserve you. I fuck everything up and I...I guess I," he frowns and buries his face in his hands. After moments of silence tick by, he looks up sadly. "Please say something...tell me you hate me or you love me but just something, this silence is louder than anything you could tell me." You sigh and lean against his shoulder. "Zayn, you're an ass hole," you laugh, placing a hand on his cheek. "But I love you, too. You're MY ass hole. I forgive you, I know you're scared..I am, too. What we have is so...intense and powerful and I've never been in love like this but we...we were meant to be and I'm not going to leave."
  • [Based on the song Say Something by A Great Big World]

anonymous asked:

Tomorrow I'm going to meet someone I haven't known for long and all I can think is that I'll lose my virginity for him. I know this is wrong but I can't stop myself. Will God stop me? I don't think He loves me enough to stop me doing this thing which I know I'll regret later. I know I'm going to hurt my feeling&maybe my future husband's feelings, and God's too. I'm looking for someone to talk about this but I don't know where to find one, til I saw your post and decided to ask. So,please? :( -s-

You wrote a second message which said:

I’m looking for your answer for the next 3-4 hours. If I don’t get any answer from you, or anyone, I’ll take it as a permission and I’ll surely do it. Thanks before. -s-

 

First of all: No. As in, no, you do not get to hold me hostage with your demands to absolve your irresponsibility with my permission.

Second of all: You know perfectly well what you’re doing and you can’t blame God or anyone else for what you’re about to do.  So honestly, I don’t believe you believe what you’re saying about God, because none of that has to do with God.

And third of all: It usually takes me a few days or a few weeks to reply to a message, but since no one has ever loved you enough to tell you the cold hard truth, I’ll be the a-hole to do it, and it will be the hardest rebuke I’ve ever given.  I’m sure some will unfollow me, so okay.  Normally I’m all about grace and nuance and thoughtfulness, but your messages were so outlandish that I’m going to give you my backhand. 

In the last few weeks: I tried to talk a girl out of slitting her wrists (I was too late), I had coffee with someone who just got out of jail, I consoled my mom while her schizophrenic brother was being arrested for trying to stab her with a piece of glass, I consoled another girl for her eating disorder and suicidal thoughts, I prayed for a homeless guy at the local homeless ministry who will probably never quit his drug habit, and I’m helping a friend whose friend just died from cancer.

And you: You’re struggling with the decision to lose your virginity.

By your carefree nonchalant rationalizing tone, I’ll tell you a few things about yourself.  You’re most likely a bored, over-privileged, entitled, spoiled, selfish zombie.  Some of this is not your fault.  You’re a hollow shell enslaved by your emotions and the cultural cesspool around you.  You’re a copy of some lyrics you heard or a movie you saw or some crappy book you read.  You’re a symptom of a world where people act destructively on impulse without caring for another human being in order to gain maximum pleasure as a constant consumer removed from the needs of society. 

Again: some of this is not your fault. But that does NOT mean you’re outside a responsibility to your own dignity.  It doesn’t mean you get to live a selfish life where the only struggle you have is whether to have sex with someone.

Listen: Our American culture is entrenched in a self-centered epidemic of careless stupidity.  I don’t say this with relish or anger.  I say all this with total heartbroken grief.  I say this damn near in tears right now.  Because you could be so much more and actually help people and serve God and do what you were created for, if you could just snap out of it long enough to quit thinking of what you can get for yourself.

This is not even about the “sex” or anything.  This is about the way you asked me that reeks of a serve-me mentality, and something about it is just killing me.  It’s making me feel absolutely sorry for you, because you’re blind to your own value.

 

So here are the ways you can react.

1) You can get mad at me and call me a real mean jerk.

2) You can cry about this and call me a real mean jerk.

3) You can make another demand, which I will ignore, and then call me a real mean jerk.

4) You can can still call me a real mean jerk: But you can use all the energy you want to use against me and instead take a long serious look at your own life and how you got here and figure out why you think the way you think and get to the bottom of who you are.

My guess is, you won’t do Number 4.  Most people never do.  I mean I hope you wake up and walk out of your own self-slavery — but I hardly ever get surprised this way.  So maybe, you know, surprise me.  Take a look at yourself.  Take a look at what Jesus did.

I’m sorry if I misinterpreted you; perhaps you genuinely want me to stop you.  But even if I did stop you — then so what?  What about the next time and the time after that?  Maybe it will take you sleeping with this guy to realize how vapid and empty your soul is, but I hope it doesn’t come to that.  I hope you don’t need some blogger to tell you what to do.  I hope you fall on your face and repent and cry out to God in a slobbery mess and look at what Jesus did on that hill.  I hope you figure out you have a purpose beyond getting pleasure for yourself.  I hope you see how much He loves you, because that’s the only thing that will ever set you right. 

— J

Fights & Confessions - Requetsed (Luke)

This was requested by Megan (Could you do an imagine where Luke and I get in a fight?) this isn’t the best fight I have ever wrote, I was feeling a little emotional while writing so it’s actually kinda sad. Hope this is kinda what you wanted. Let us know what you think. Enjoy.

You and Luke have been together just over a year, your close to all the boys, which is why you’re invited to go on tour with them. Your due to finish your college course in 4 months and after 2 years studying you don’t want to drop out just to go on tour. However you have 2 months off college before the final couple of months and so you have agreed to join the boys for a couple of mouths then go home. You wouldn’t want to spend the whole tour with them anyway because it’s there adventure and you wouldn’t want to intrude after they have worked so hard for it.

The boys are in the hotel all in Ashton’s room playing video games and whatever else. You needed to go the shop to pick up some ladies products. You leave the hotel and head for the store.

Luke’s POV

‘Whats wrong with you?’ Ashton asks,

'Yeah, you’ve been snapping for days’ Michael adds, they are right I have, I hate it but I have.

'Nothing’ I lie, but to be honest I know it’s nothing even though it feels like something. I thought having (Y/N) on tour would be a laugh, we would be able to travel and share the experience but since she join us last week we haven’t had anytime alone. The boys love (Y/N) which of course is amazing, but it means that they all do stuff together. And not only that but whenever we are alone she’s being off with me, she doesn’t want me to touch her and we haven’t had sex in nearly two months.

'Come on man, just tell us, is it (Y/N)’ Calum asks still focused on the game he’s playing with Michael.

'No, well yes but no. It’s nothing serious I guess’ I reply not sure what I’m trying to say the lads pause the game and all turn to look at me.

'Do you guys think she’s still in to me’ I ask scratching the back of my neck, although me and the boys are close we don’t really do the relationship talk. Calum and Ashton look at each other and Michael shrugs lying back onto the bed.

'Yeah mate, why do you ask’ Ashton answers and I can tell he genuinely thinks she’s happy.

'it’s just that we haven’t, like we haven’t…’ I stop myself, what would (Y/N) say if she found out I had told the guys.

'You haven’t had sex’ Michael asks sitting straight up. Calum and ashton both evidently grow more interested by the movement of sitting on the edge of the bed.

'No we have, of course we have, but it’s been like 2 months.’ I groan as the words remind me of how long it has been. Michael chuckles slightly and lays back down.

'Mate, what’s going on with that, you two have been together forever’ Ashton comments.

'I know, she doesn’t even tell me why we ain’t doing it she just says no, it’s so fucking frustrating’ I complain. And just as I finish my sentence I heard a sigh coming from the door and when I turn (Y/N) was shaking her head and leaving the room.

Your POV

You can’t believe he had told the guys you haven’t had sex for months, not only that but he fucking complained about it. You thought it was getting to him but you also thought when it got to much he would ask.

’(Y/N), wait just let me explain’ Luke groans as he follows you out of the room. After a second and he realises your not replying he continues
'Im sorry I told them, they asked and I needed to talk to them, I thought you were going off me’ he sighs.

'Sometimes I really fucking hate you luke, why would you even think I would be comfortable with you telling the boys about our sex lives’ you shout, you’ve been holding in a lot over the last couple of months and this argument might just be an explosive one.

'Lack of’ Luke mutters

'Seriously, are you fucking serious, are you that self centred that all you can think about is your dick’ you scream at him.

'Im deadly serious, it’s been 2 months (Y/N), and it’s not even the sex it’s just like you don’t want to be around me at all’ he’s getting angry now too as his voice rises more and more.

'Thats right I don’t want to be around you that why I left my family and friends for months to come and support you on tour’ you reply, your too angry to ever shout at him so you turn away and start unpacking the things you got from the shop.

'Oh yeah, traveling around the world for free must be a huge fucking burden for you’ he shouts, you freeze, did he really just say that to you, because that was low even for us. You can’t help the small chuckle that leaves your mouth as you  shake you head walking out of Ashton’s hotel room with your bag in hand. Your half way to your room when you hear Ashton’s door open and close then Luke shouts your name. He catches up to you and grabs your hand turning you to face him.

'Your right, I’m here for the free travel Luke, I’ve been with you for 2 long fucking years so that I could squish everything I could get out of you’ you push his chest and he moves back allowing you time to get into your room.

'I didn’t mean to say that (Y/N)’ he sighs behind you. 'Im just scared, I’m so fucking scared of losing you’ you shake you head, whenever you argue he thinks saying he’s scared will get him out of anything he says.

'No your not, you don’t give a fuck if I leave you, you’d be happy if I left you because then you would be free and wouldn’t have any guilt.’ You shout.

'You know that’s bull, I love you.’ He’s still angry but you can hear in his voice how hard he is trying to hold it back.

'You can’t just say your scared to get our of calling me a user’ you moan at him, he nods and moves closer placing his hands on your waist and you move away busying your self with un packing again.

'See, you won’t even let me touch you, I’m your fucking boyfriend, we are suppose to be in love and the lads have touched you more in the last couple of months than I have’ you look at him and can’t bring your self to continue the argument. You take your sanitary-towels from the shopping bag and throw them at him.

He catches them surprised and looks down his eyes widening. 'Oh’ is all he says.

'Im not on my period’ you tell him and he looks up confused.

'Three months ago I took a pregnancy test, it was positive. I didn’t want to tell you until like two or three months into the pregnancy so I didn’t get your hopes up. But I miss carried last month, so I’ve been bleeding for a while. That’s why we haven’t had sex and I couldn’t let you touch me because I feel like I failed you. I couldn’t carry your baby for more than 2 months’ you let out a huge sigh, relieved you have got it off your chest and then you feel how damp your face is and realise you had been crying through out the whole confession.

You had been looking down all this time and you didn’t realise how close Luke was until his fingers touched your face.

Pulling it to meet his tear glazed eyes. 'You could have told me, you didn’t fail me, I would never have thought that ever, I’m so sorry I’ve been such a dick’ he apologises pulling you into a tight embrace.

'I should have told you’ you whisper in his ear as he rubs your back.

He sighs and kisses the side of your head. 'I love you so much’

Part 2

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From Chelsea

text message ✉ treegan
  • Troian: I don't really know how to start this. I don't think there's any guides to say what I want to say, and I might just lose my nerve entirely so there's that too. It'd be better if I said this to you, face to face, but I think if I did, I'd take it all back because just seeing you always changes everything.
  • Troian: I am so happy you were my first love. I hope you know that. I hope you never forget that, Keegs. I hope you know there's a whole..part of me that's yours forever and can't be shared or replicated with anybody else.
  • Troian: I'm sorry for holding onto you so tight. I could've made all of this so much easier and less painful if I had just let you go a lot sooner. I'm just selfish. I wanted you to myself for forever.
  • Troian: But you deserve to be happy. And I think, until you hear it from me, you're not going to be because I think both of us keep holding ourselves back from moving on and finding happiness with someone else because we don't want to hurt each other. Or make each other feel like what we had wasn't special or true. So I just wanted to let you know that I'll be okay.
  • Troian: It's going to hurt. And I'm going to be sad, and I'll probably pull away a little when it happens so I don't risk losing you forever. But I'll still love you and want only the best for you. I miss you being happy, Simba. I miss that guy I fell in love with and I want him to come back.
  • Troian: I miss /you/. I miss my best friend. It won't be easy, but I hope we can eventually find a place for each other where it won't hurt and it won't be tense and we'll both be at peace with ourselves and each other. I love you so much and I want you to know that we're going to be okay some day.
Being the new girl (Luke imagine) part 2

Request:

A/N: Thank you so much for this request! I really wanted to write a part 2! I’m sorry it’s a bit short, but I have ideas for maybe a part 3 (???) If you think I should write a third part, please like or reblog and/or message me requesting it!!

(You can find part 1 of this imagine right here)

MASTERLIST

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“[Y/N], wait up!” my friend [Y/F/N] calls after me. I stop and wait for her.

“Hey, ready for lunch?” I ask as she catches up with me.

“Yeah!” she smiles. “Where’s Luke?” I shrug.

“Don’t know…”

“He still won’t introduce you to his friends?” she asks upset. I sigh.

“It’s not that he doesn’t want to, he just-”

“I know, I know! ‘He’s only worried what people will think since he just went through a break-up…” she interrupts . I nod, I had explained this before.

“Yeah, and he doesn’t want his ex and her friends to start hating on me and that’s why we’re keeping it on a down low for now, and I’m fine with that!” I finish glaring at my friend who’s rolling her eyes at me.

“That’s what you said after your first date!” she exclaims. “But it’s been two months! You’ve been on like ten dates, god damn it! How can you still believe this is about protecting you?!” I stare at her, hurt. Her expression softens. “I mean, I don’t want to hurt you, but I can’t just stand here and watch him take advantage of you…” my pain turns into fury and I stop short giving her a dark look.

“Of course, because why would Luke actually want to be with me? It doesn’t make sense, right?” I spit and push past her.

“I didn’t mean it like that…” she cries but I keep walking, leaving her behind.

—-

I step into the cafeteria, unable to shake [Y/F/N]’s words out of my head. Luke told me on our first date that he didn’t want people to know about us just yet. I had felt a bit uncomfortable with the idea of being his secret, but he had promised it was only for a little while and not wanting to lose him before I even had him, I’d agreed to keep it quiet.

What I hadn’t been prepared for was how much it would hurt to have him walk past me in the halls as if I wasn’t even there. He never acknowledged me, not even with a look, and it felt awful. Really, I felt bad for snapping at [Y/F/N]. She only said what I’m too scared to admit myself. Luke had lied to me. He wasn’t waiting for the craziness after his break-up to blow over – he was embarrassed, and he didn’t want his friends to find out he was dating me.

Tears burn in my eyes and I quickly exit the cafeteria. I sprint-walk down the corridor towards the girls bathroom. Halfway there a group of people turn a corner ahead of me and makes their way my direction. Immediately I recognize a few of Luke’s friends and a second later he himself comes around the corner.

I slow down, looking around, but there is nowhere to go but forward. I keep my head down as I pass the group. I take a quick look at Luke and our eyes meet. He looks confused, he’s probably wondering why I’m crying. For a second I think that he’s going to say something, but then he adverts his eyes and keeps on walking. I hold down a sob and run to the girls bathroom. Right as I lock myself in one of the stalls my phone vibrates in my pocket. I pick it out and read the message.

'Hey, are you okay? What’s wrong?’ Luke writes. I sob and write back.

'I can’t Luke, I thought I could, but I can’t…’

'Can’t what? What are you talking about???’

'I can’t be your secret anymore! I thought I would be okay with not telling people about us, and at first I was, but now I know you’re just embarrassed, and I can’t do this anymore. I love hanging out with you, but it hurts too much when you ignore me. I’m sorry…’ I send the message, crying uncontrollably. Everything hurts and I press my hand over my mouth to muffle the sobs.

'What? No, [Y/N], please don’t do this… Where are you? Let’s talk about this…’

'I’d love to… But I’m afraid you’re not speaking to me right now, we’re in school remember? What if someone sees us?’ I press send and before he gets a chance to answer, I’ve blocked his number.

I spend the next hour locked in the bathroom, bawling my eyes out. 

lesbeani-deactivated20170506  asked:

Hi. If you're accepting asks, I really want to be an animator, but I can't get up enough confidence when I start to draw,bc I always compare my drawing to others. What do I do? I'm sorry, and I really really love your art.. sorry..

I always accept asks ! 

Real talk here when it comes to the confidence thing..its a tough thing to learn and it takes time. For me…I didnt become as confidant in my art as I became..factual. I compare myself to artists too..heck , WE ALL DO. These confidant issues dont just go away when you get to a certain level so here are the things I try to do on a regular basis and i hope they help you out too. 

1 ) - Accept that your art is your art and it will always be your art - and embrace it

Your art will always have a ‘you’ness about it that will stop it from looking like other peoples art. Thats AMAZING. Why would you want that to go away ? A lot of the times I wish I drew like someone else but then I think of the people who support me and I know that they like my art for what it is..and thats why they enjoy it. The people who inspire me , inspire me BECAUSE they have a uniqueness about their art that I admire…I wouldnt want them to lose it , and people wouldnt want me to lose it either. So embrace the you ! As cheesy as it sounds. 

2) Accept that you probably wont see your art in the same light that you see other peoples art. 

Gosh what a bummer huh ? When we see peoples art we see it all finished..we dont see the trial and error , we dont see the years of frustrated crumpled drawings and we dont see the late nights that they work on their craft. We see this wonderful finished picture and we go WOW, I WISH. Well when you see it with fresh eyes its always a beautiful reveal. I bet you if you worked really hard on a picture , lost all your memory and looked at it again you’d be stoked to find out you were the one that did it. I keep this in mind 

3) Accept that there will always be people better then you , and people who wish they were you. 

welcome to the neverending cycle that has no end ! We just need to get over the fact that people are more skilled then us..the world is huge ! But as they make process forward so do we , and behind us is a lot of people who are just starting or see us as the ones they see as better..and we all step forward in this kind of NEVER ENDING (story) CYCLE. But whats so bad about that ? It means we’re all learning. There is no BEST  , there is just improvement to yourself :) All you need to do is keep taking those steps forward ! 

4) Accept that artists you admire and look up to feel the same way

Theres no level where you suddenly feel like the best - or that you KNOW everything. This kind of goes back to that never ending cycle thing..we ALL do it. I’ve worked in the animation industry for 8 years now and on every new project i double guess myself and stress that I’m not good enough for it. I’m surrounded by crazy talented people . we -ALL - have steps forward to take and this goes until the day you drop the pencil forever. And that not to discourage anyone by going ‘ wow if these artists I like struggle then theres no hope for me ‘ NO THERE IS SO MUCH. because we all deal with this shit and we can make it through :) we’re all human. Great art and the confidence in it isint just gifted to people , it comes with work ! And everyone can work at it…which brings me to

5) Accept that someone else’s success does not mean you are a failure. 

seeing someone with more advanced skills does not mean your art suddenly sucks - it doesnt take away from your art..your art was at the same level it was before you saw anything that person did. What it means is that person has a different skillsets , and skillsets can be earned!  Dont compare yourself to other people - learn from them instead. Find the thing you love about their art , about the pics , and make notes on how to learn it. If its their anatomy then study up on anatomy , if its their coloring then you know what you have to do…ect ! Pushing yourself to learn instead of getting down on yourself gets you much further but stop thinking that you’re worthless because someone is different then you. That mindset just leads to a lot of unhappiness and according to the other points PEOPLE WILL ALWAYS BE BETTER . so why fight it ? Work with it to improve your own skills ! if they can do it so can you.  

6) Accept art is what you put into it 

 There is no late,  there is no lagging behind , there is no set path besides the one you make for yourself. If it is currently a path of frustration then its up to you to turn it into one of learning, fun or whatever you want. It can take a bit to change , just like art takes time to learn but you have that time to learn it - so take that time ! Don’t focus on the end of the journey (because there is no end ) but try to embrace the learning process instead and take one step ahead at a time , before you know it you’ll be miles from where you started. 

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This is all easier said then done, I know. But like anything it comes with time. Whenever I started wishing I could draw like someone else I try to think about this instead ..and believe me - I STILL DO IT. You cant just suddenly ‘love’ your own art if you lack confidence ,but these things to me make sense. Being at a different level doesnt HAVE to be a bad thing ! It just means you have room to grow , and thats just life in a nutshell , so why should art be any different :) ! <3 

DISCONNECTED PREFERENCE

Luke: 

I admit I’m a bit of a victim in the worldwide system too
But I’ve found my sweet escape when I’m alone with you

At school Luke was who everyone looked up to, who everyone wanted to be friends with. Who everyone wanted to be. He was basically the hottest guy in your school. Football player, a little bit of a bad boy, in a band; thank kind of stuff. He was a typical teenager. Everyone you knew had a crush on Luke (you had a pretty huge crush on him too, but you never liked to admit it).

You had always thought Luke wasn’t quite a distant person. Whenever he was with his friends he never seemed comfortable. But since everyone else believed he was you decided to too.

One day, your whole view on Luke Hemmings, the not-quite-perfect-teen, changed. You were in your last lesson of the day, English. Instead of sitting in his usual seat Luke sat on the other side of the room from you but one row in front. You dismissed this because you thought he was purely trying to get attention. Half way through the lesson you noticed someone staring at you, you glanced over in their direction, it was Luke. You tired to forget about him staring at you but it was impossible, you knew your cheeks were burning. So the only thing you could think of to stop him from staring was to stare straight back at him. You gave him a sharp stare as he just laughed and flashed a smile, revealing his dimples. Instantly, ashamed that your plan didn’t work, you looked down. Another 5 minutes later, Luke had stopped staring and was writing. In 2 minutes the piece he was writing was handed to you by the person next to you. Pretending not to care, you opened this letter as you read:

hey, i noticed you staring, maybe you’d like to stare at my face some other time, like after school. maybe we can get to know each other…

luke xx

A smile crept onto your face as you shook your head slowly, still staring at Luke’s scrawly hand writing. You scribbled down a quick okay then, see you after class… on the paper, folded it and handed it back to your neighbor.

You couldn’t wait till after class. You kept looking at the clock in hope that it would be the end of the lesson. Then finally, the bell rung out over the school, you glanced over at Luke who had a huge smile on his face. You waited till your teacher dismissed you to walk over to Luke. You didn’t want to seem too eager. but before you could even blink Luke was out of the classroom, this confused you. You felt a sinking feeling inside of you as the sad realization of the whole ‘Luke thing’ being a joke. You left school with your head held low. It was when you reached the gates when you saw Luke again, beaming, leaning on his crappy car. He walked up to you and kissed your forehead. You were, again, confused. What the hell was he playing at?

'Hi,’ he smiled looking down at you

'Hey,’ you half-smiled

'So-um-(Y/N) I was thinking if we could go back to my place for a bit and just-er-chill?’ he seemed so nervous. it was strange how someone so confident with everyone else could be so nervous in a certain persons presence you thought.

'Yeah sure,’ you giggled. He lead you into his car.

The two of you arrived at his place and his parents weren’t in, thank god! You followed him into his room as he told you to sit anywhere. He disappeared downstairs and and reappeared within 3 minutes with a tub of ice cream, cookies and a selection of films. Wow this was a different Luke to what you’d seen all these years at school. The cool, calm boy now seemed all precious and nervous. 

'I was thinking we could just watch a few films, chat and eat until you have to go…’ he looked at the floor then up to you.

'Yeah that sounds great Luke,’ you beamed. Luke and you sat/lay enjoying each others company for hours/ It had been quiet for a good 20 minutes when Luke said

'You know you really are something. I always see you at school, I think you’re gorgeous and amazing…’ he barely whispered looking at you. You turned your whole body to face him as you cupped his face in your hand and kissed him hard, passionately. In the end you both pulled away, speechless and giggling. Before kissing him again he said something that shocked you

’(Y/N), when I’m with you time stops, it feels like everything is beautiful and I never want my time with you to end. You know I only act like a bit of a dick at school to fit in. But when I’m around you, I feel I don’t need to pretend.’

Calum:

 

You are my getaway
You are my favorite place

Touring with Calum had been hard, incredibly hard. The two of you had never got time together any more. Even though it was better then being away from each other all the time it was still hard. He was either on stage, locked away in a security room before their concert, meeting fans, or too tired. It was chaos but he was dealing with it. You weren’t. You missed the old Calum. The old easy-going Calum.

It was another day of touring and meeting fans, but it was the last day of touring and meeting fans. The boys and you were happy, everyone could tell. Even though they loved touring sometimes it got too much for them at times. The tiredness would always defeat them, sometimes Michael fell asleep whilst eating breakfast. When the last show was over you could not contain your happiness. Cal got off stage, a massive grin on his face and filed his arms open to embrace you. Giggling the pair of you went to spend your last night in the tour bus before you left for home.

Two days later you and Calum were in Australia, lying in your shared bed staring at the ceiling.

'God I’ve missed this,’ Calum whispered

'Same, the past month has been so hard on the both of us,’

'I feel sorry for you babe, never seeing me,the reason you came on tour with me was to be with me, you hardly saw me!’ you knew he was getting angry and upset but you didn’t know why exactly.

'Calm down Cal, it’s okay. we’ve got each other now and that’s all that matters. My moments with you on tour meant a lot to me. Even though they were short lived, I enjoyed every second of them.’ You turned on your side, facing him, hoping Calum would do the same.

'I suppose…’ he turned over to face you, ’(Y/N) I just love you so much and I never want to lose any more time then I have to with you. In the middle of all this madness you and the boys. You mainly,’ he smiled 'are the only stable things in my life at the moment. When I see you or when I’m with you everything seems 10 times more beautiful then it already it. The madness stops and all I can think about is you.’ You planted a quick kiss on his cheek and laughed and said a quick 'I love you, Calum Hood,’ before being enveloped into Calum’s chest, his arms wrapped around you. And the two of you fell asleep, in a tangled mess of arms and legs.

Michael:

Turn off the radio
Those late night TV shows

You and Michael were caught up in your own lives at the moment, you never saw each other a lot anymore. You used to see each other every day, if it was at his house, your house, the mall, the park, anywhere. Michael and you had been best friends for over 7 years and you had been through everything together. You never saw each other as much anymore because as soon as his band hit the jackpot he was only home around 30% of the time and you were busy with college so when he was home you never had time or no one told you. You were happy for him though, ever since the day you met him you knew what he wanted in life and you knew that he would get there. Life, for you without Michael was boring. You never wanted to call him in case of the time zones or maybe it seemed like you were being clingy. You had almost got to the point where you didn’t care if it seemed clingy anymore, you needed to talk to your best friend. But there was always this horrifying thought in the back of your head that he would have forgotten about you.

You were sitting in your dorm, studying, when your phone started to ring. You immediately pounced on it. It was Michael, you let it ring once more before you answered it.

'Hello?’ a deep rasp called from the other line

'Michael?’ you answered

'Yes?’ he laughed

'Oh my god it’s you!’ you laughed. You were giddy with excitement and happiness.

’(Y/N), I’m so glad to hear your voice. I can’t remember how long it’s been since we last talked…’

'It’s been a while Clifford,’ you retorted with a sharp edge to your voice

'I know, it has been a while. I’m so sorry (Y/N),’ he sounded apologetic 'But I’m going to make it up to you this week!’

'Wait-What? Michael? What do you- oh my god I get it now!’ you laughed

'We got there eventually… Yeah so anyway this week, starts from now. Be at my place in 15 minutes.’ Before you could reply the line went dead. You got changed so quick and practically jogged to Michael’s house. You checked the time when you got to his door 11:05 pm. 'Quite late,’ you mumbled but you didn’t care; and of course to Michael the night was still young. You rang the bell and within an instant the door swung open to reveal a smiley Michael Clifford. He pulled you into a massive bear hug as you both laughed and smiled uncontrollably.

The night was spent watching films and catching up with each others life.

'I missed this and you,’ you said as The Breakfast Club came to an end.

'So have I (Y/N), so have I…’ he repeated

'We should do this more often you know,’ you blurted out 'watching films and ignoring everything else that happens in the world.’ you whispered

'Tuning out of everything else and just enjoying being with one another,’ he replied

'I couldn’t have put it better myself,’ you smiled as you looked up at him to reveal that he was wearing a smile on his face too.

Ashton:

And just be here with me

You were called into the Principles office, your stomach churning because you had no idea what could be wrong. You knocked three times on the door and the principle opened the door, looking grim. He told you to take a seat nervously wringing your sweat drenched hands. 

'Right (Y/N), I’ve got someone who needs to pick you up. Your mother has been taken into hospital after an attack. We, as a school are not aware of her medical position but you need to go. Your aunt is here to take you.’ You felt as if you had been punched in the gut. Still, you got up and walked shakily out of the school towards your aunt’s familiar car. The car journey was awkward, and to be honest you were relieved to get out the car.

In the hospital your aunt gathered most information. You weren’t allowed to know much but you knew her condition could be critical. In an hour or so you were allowed to see her. She was asleep or passed out, you didn’t know but seeing her just ate away your insides. You sat and held her hand, talking to her as if she was awake. The nurse came in 20 minutes later to usher you out, you planted a quick kiss on your moms cheek and left, just about holding back the tears.

As you wearily walked back to the waiting room you saw Ashton, your boyfriend of 6 months. He had obviously left school early to see you. In his hand he held a small bouquet of flowers, as soon as he saw you he rushed to his feet and hugged you. The oxygen was knocked out of your lungs as he squeezed you. You sat down and he sat next to you.

’(Y/N),’ he grabbed your hand 'Are you okay? Is your mom okay?’ he wrapped an arm round you protectively and kissed your hair.

'I don’t know, I don’t know anything…’ you sobbed as Ashton held you tighter

'Do you want anything?’ he whispered

'Just stay with me Ash, stay with me and don’t leave me.’ You looked up at him wiping away your tears

'Sure, anything for you (Y/N),’ he said calmly 'Everything is going to be okay. whatever happens you have me. I’ll always be here.’

okay so i hope you liked it, it took a while to write so yeah request and everything. ALSO idk should i do a part two???? send me a yes or a no please i just want to know (p.s sorry the ashton one was a bit sensitive i hope i didnt offend anyone i just ran out of ideas towards the end sorry) but yeah ily 

anonymous asked:

I'm having a really hard time debating with people when they ask why I'm vegan and I explain it's for the animals, the planet and my health. I just got into a heated discussion with someone who said our bodies have evolved to eat meat and that we have enough water in the world and that we only know of 10% of the ocean so can't say that the ocean will be depleted from over fishing. I feel like no matter how much I educated myself I don't have come backs for a lot of things and it stresses me out.

I think it is very important to be educated as you say and be strong, they will try to bring you down and be ignorant. Also, some people aren’t worth to discuss this with. I tend to feel the vibe and if they seem completely shut then I just feel sorry for them for not being open minded. But I’ve found a great list of reasons why veganism is good;

Ethical Reasons:

  • You shouldn’t eat animals for convenience
  • You shouldn’t take a life because you like how it tastes
  • Farm animals and marine life feel pain and DO NOT WANT TO DIE!
  • You have to artificially inseminate cows/goats so they produce milk
  • Dairy cows get their baby calves stolen from them for veal EVERY YEAR
  • When male chicks are hatched at egg farms they get thrown into a grinder
  • All marine life gets caught in nets including dolphins, sharks and whales
  • This means we are losing vital marine life for “seafood”
  • Why do we love cats and dogs, but eat cows and pigs?


Health Reasons:

  • My energy levels have increased dramatically
  • My skin cleared up almost instantly
  • My digestion has gotten so much better due to eating fibre rich foods
  • There is no need to restrict calories on a HCLF vegan diet
  • Dioxin, one of the most toxic substances  IN THE WORLD is found in dairy products (Freedman and Barnouin, Skinny Bitch)
  • High dairy intakes blocks iron absorption (Robbins, Diet for a New America)
  • You eat all the hormones and pesticides that the animals are fed
  • Meat, dairy and eggs are extremely high in saturated and trans fats
  • You are literally eating DECOMPOSING FLESH
  • Eating chicken or fish is linked to colon cancer (American Journal of Epidemiology)
  • NO FIBRE IN ANIMAL PRODUCTS = CONSTIPATION YUCK
  • Dr Anthony Youn - eggs are almost as bad as smoking: eating 3-4 per week may harden arteries leading to stroke
  • Large eggs contain 210mg of cholesterol (8x more than COW meat)
  • Vegan proteins may reduce the risk of cancer, obesity, and CVD by promoting increased glucagon activity (McCarthy, 1998)
  • Disgusting pus in milk (called somatic cells) -> 180 MILLION somatic cells in an 8oz glass of milk. Pus is a response to an infection e.g. a pimple. YOU ARE DRINKING PIMPLE PUS
  • SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE REVERSED CHRONIC DISEASES WITH A VEGAN DIET
  • Meg Wolff reversed cancer, Robert Dew reversed heart disease, Natala Constantine reversed diabetes (Kathy Freston, Veganist)


Environmental Reasons:

  • The business of raising animals for food is responsible for 18% of global warming (Veganist)
  • Animal agriculture uses 30% of the land surface on the planet (Veganist)
  • It takes 10 times as much fossil fuel to make one calorie of animal proten vs one calorie of plant protein (Veganist)
  • Methane gas from animal agriculture is 25-100 times more damaging than carbon dioxide (Cowspiracy)
  • UN: Animal agriculture is the leading cause of resource consumption and environmental degredation
  • Raising livestock JUST IN THE US uses 34 TRILLION gallons of water (Cowspiracy)
  • This is because the animals you eat, need to eat water intensive grains
  • One McDonalds quarter pounder needs over 660 gallons of water to be produced, this is two months worth of showers.
  • If overfishing doesn’t stop, we will see fishless oceans by 2048 (Cowspiracy).
  • Marine life does not recover quickly, and the nets used are so big they can catch whales, dolphins and other marine life.
  • An acre of rainforest is cleared EVERY SECOND (Cowspiracy)
  • The leading cause of this is to graze animals and grow their feed crops
  • Palm Oil is responsible for 26 million acres being cleared, however, livestock is responsible for 136 million acres being cleared, making it the leading cause.
  • The Amazon rainforest could be GONE in the next ten years.

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At The End Of The Road.

{ You are very depressed because Harry, your previous boyfriend, just broke up with you.} 

WARNING: THIS MAY TRIGGER YOU, IF YOU ARE SENSITIVE OR VULNERABLE ABOUT SUICIDE, DON’T READ THIS!

My cold hands are in my pockets, deep. I walk around town like a zombie. Rain drips on my coat, dribbling down and falling on the ground. My hair is a mess, I have bags under my eyes and my feet hurt from walking so much. The cold morning wind is blowing in my face, making my cheeks hurt. I’ve been walking around the whole night. I had to think about stuff. Since I barely have contact with my family, don’t have any friends except for Niall, Louis, Liam and Zayn… why am I still alive? Nobody gives a shit about me. I reached the end of the road, which led up to a beach. I slowly kicked out my shoes and walked down the stairs. No one was here. I inhaled and exhaled. The cold water hit my feet over and over again, making them numb. 

Tears start to fall, hands start to shake and my mind starts to race. How am I ever going to be able to keep up with this? I feel so fucking alone, it hurts. It hurts to think about how everybody left me just like that. What am I doing wrong? I don’t get it. I really don’t. I bite my lip and look at the sea. Somehow, the ice cold water looks like a solution to my problems. Without thinking clear, I run over to the small cliff where Harry and I always sat and talked about random stuff. Soft sobs escape my chapped lips as I reach the edge, I look at the waves hitting the stones. I grab my phone and text Harry. I think he should know what he did to me. 

To: Harry.
Hey, I know we didn’t speak for 2 moths now, but I just wanted to let you know this: I’m going to the end of my road, hurting. 
Bye, Harry.
I love you.

I tap send and drop my phone next to me. I take a last breath and focus. My phone buzzes and I look to my right. 

From: Harry

What ??

What are you going to do (Y/N)?!

Where are you?

Don’t do anything stupid! I’m coming!

I kick my phone into the water and take a few more breaths. This is going to be it. My end. The end of my story. Book closed.
My feet let go of the ground, my mind let’s go of it’s thoughts and my heart beats slower when I near the water.

Cold waves of water hit me, harder and harder. My headache slowly fades. My memory slowly fades. Oxygen slowly fades. Everything slowly fades.

About to pass out, a large hand grabs my arm. My lungs are already filled with water. The only thing I see is brown hair and a tattooed arm holding me up. Unable to breath, I panic and before I can do something about it, everything turns black. 

’….. Please.. please baby wake up. Don’t leave me here without you.. please…‘ Is the first thing I hear when I open my eyes. Water is stuck in my mouth and lungs. I get pushed up and spit out all of the water inside of me. Having a hard time to breath, I grab my shirt and cough. 
I sob and put my head on my knees. 'Why didn’t you just let me die?!’ I scream and turn around. Two green tear-filled eyes stare at me. 
Harry saved me. He.. saved me? 'Don’t be mad at me… I can’t live with the idea of you dying because of me.' He grabs my wrist but I get up. A little too fast. 'You.. y..’ The world spins around once again and I stumble into Harry’s arms. 'Be mad at me later, you have to rest.' He picks me up bridal style and walks over to the road. He mutters all kinds of things while he puts me in his car.

 My teeth are chattering and goosebumps cover my damp body. 'It’s not far from here, please try to…. just don’t leave me. Okay?' I don’t answer his question. After about 10 minutes of shivers and rubbing my arms to gather a little heat, we pull over at his house. Well, our house. We bought it together. Maybe we moved too fast. Or too slow. 
'Come here.' He whispers, helping me out of the car. My eyes are heavy and my headache is back. He closes the door behind us and all of the sudden, he pulls off his shirt and wraps his arms around me.
'You need to warm up, or else you’ll get hypothermia.' Without giving him any response, I put my freezing hands on his chest. 'God damn you are freezing..' He grabs my jacket and pulls it off. Tears are once again starting to well up in my eyes, coming out in soft sobs. 'Oh no baby please don’t cry, you’ll be fine.. I promise.' He grabs a sweatshirt from his closet and takes off my clothes, but quickly putting his sweater on my cold body. He sets me down on the bed and pulls off my soaking jeans and shoes. 'get under the covers, I’ll make some tea.' He pulls the covers over my body and walks out of the room. Still unable to really understand what the fuck just happened, I stare at my hands. They are red from the cold water and my legs are still tingling. After about 5 minutes he comes back into the room with two blankets and a cup of tea. He quickly wraps me in the blankets and sets the tea on the nightstand next to me. Tears stream down my face. He crawls into the bed next to me and wraps his arms around me. He pulls me up to his chest. Tears fall on his sweater, leaving little dark spots. I grab his shirt a little tighter while he rubs my back.

'Why did you do it?’ He asks. Too tired to explain it, I point at a huge canvas of us hanging above the bed. It was when we went picnicing with the boys and they took it of us. 

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I look up to him. He bites his lip and looks away. 'I miss you too, (Y/N).’
I grab his hand and tangle our fingers together. 'Why did we broke up?’ My voice sounds weak and soft. 'I got scared. I was so scared of losing you that I just.. cut it all off. To prevent myself from hurting, but instead of preventing people from pain, I gave you pain. That’s the last thing I want to do. I love you. God, I love you so much it hurts. I know.. that was so selfish of me and I’m sorry. I can’t promise you that I won’t hurt you again, but please… let me try..' He kisses my hair and plays with the hem of my sweatshirt. I slowly nod. 'What? What’s wrong?' He looks down at me and I look up, directly in his eyes. 'I’ll get back together with you, if you promise me, even though you can’t, you won’t leave me. Not for such a reason.’ He smiles. 'I promise.' He says, before kissing me.

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