i'm sorry but i don't feel like myself tonight... so i'll go and sleep now

MarkHyuck phone call..
  • Mark: Hey, are u sleeping already?
  • Donghyuck: what do you think?
  • Mark: Sorry to disturb you. I shouldn't call right now.
  • Donghyuck: Straight to the point Mark Lee.
  • Mark: Nothing. I'm just bored.
  • Donghyuck: There's no way you're getting bored. You got new friends there. You look so happy whenever you're with them.
  • Mark: .....it's different, I think? I'm enjoying myself rapping with them but it's different. I can't explain it.
  • Donghyuck: It's because you're doing something you love the most. Adrenaline rush, I think.
  • Mark: No. That's not the reason, Hyuck.
  • Donghyuck: I think you're just tired. You're going back late again today?
  • Mark: ......maybe? I don't know. They going to do more shooting for editing, so I don't know at what time we're going to finish.
  • Donghyuck: I'll be waiting for you in my dreamland by the time you come home.
  • Mark: .....
  • Donghyuck: ......
  • Mark: You should go to sleep now.
  • Donghyuck: Don't you think you need to tell me why are you calling me at the first place?
  • Mark: ......
  • Donghyuck: Are you planning to keep silent until tomorrow? If you don't have anything to tell me then..good night.
  • Mark: I miss you...
  • Donghyuck: ....yah, what's wrong with you?
  • Mark: I don't know. I'm just tired and your face come into my mind. The next things I know, I'm talking with you right now. Maybe I just want to hear you voice.
  • Donghyuck: You must be so tired right now. *blush*
  • Mark: But I really miss you! I meant it!
  • Donghyuck: I know, idiot! And we just met each other few hours ago.
  • Mark: I know. That's why I don't understand why I felt like this. I just..miss you suddenly. I miss you being noisy, annoying and talking non-stop beside me.
  • Donghyuck: Woah, Mark. Should I feel great right now? I can't believe you called me in the middle of the night just to diss about me? I feel happy. Thank you..take it take it take it!
  • Mark: *laugh*
  • Donghyuck: Don't you think you should continue your shooting right now? Because I need my beauty sleep.
  • Mark: Are you going to wait for me later?
  • Donghyuck: It's 12Am. I don't think I can..
  • Mark: Ah..okay. *disappointed* I should go now. Good night pretty Hyuck, have a nice sleep. Dream of me.
  • Donghyuck: Shut up, Mark Lee. I don't think I want to have nightmare tonight.
  • Mark: Bye~miss you.
  • Donghyuck: Geez~~bye
  • At 3Am
  • Mark: Hey, Hyuck. Wake up. Why are you sleeping in the living room? I thought you want to have beauty sleep. Why are you sitting in the dark here?
  • Donghyuck: I thought you want me to wait for you. I fell asleep just now.
  • Mark: *shocked*
  • Donghyuck: Why are looking at me like that? Lets go to our room. I'm sleepy! Gosh its already 3AM!
  • Mark: *hug Donghyuck* I miss you!!
  • Donghyuck: Damn it Mark Lee! Lemme go!
  • Mark: *kiss Donghyuck's lips*
  • Mark: Sorry making you waiting for me but I am so happy right now.
  • Donghyuck: Did you just kissed me?!
  • Mark: Yeah. Why? I can't kiss my boy?
  • Donghyuck: Who the heck give you permission to kiss me?! When the heck I've become your boy?! You're not allowed to be the cool one here!!
  • Mark: *rolled eyes and dragged Donghyuck to their shared room*
  • Mark: Sleep with me..
  • Donghyuck: I said, you're not allowed to be cool right now!
  • Mark: I know. Lets sleep.
  • Donghyuck: I hate you Mark Lee.
  • Mark: I know.
  • Donghyuck: I miss you too. *blushed & covered his face on Mark's chest*
  • Mark: I miss you more Lee Donghyuck.
  • Donghyuck: By the way, I don't like it you being close with other kids especially that Yoonho guy.
  • Mark: I'm all yours. You know that..
  • Donghyuck: Shut up. *smile cutely*
flatsound sentence starters
  • "Tonight I walked through a field that used to scare me more than I scared myself."
  • "I wish I had known you then."
  • "It was never death that interested me; it was the idea of an opportunity to follow a cold breeze that promised to take me anywhere but here."
  • "I’m sorry you thought this couldn’t work, because I’ve never wanted anything more in my entire life than to prove that it could."
  • "You were not my world, you were my universe."
  • "And I wonder if that’s what it feels like to die."
  • "Why do I wait, wondering how long it’ll take you to admit it?"
  • "I’d rather keep my mouth shut then start to say what I can’t finish."
  • "I sit here wondering if anything you said was true."
  • "We both noticed something had changed."
  • "I called you up again today and you didn't pick up."
  • "I didn't expect it to happen this quickly, you know?"
  • "I sit here and I worry about myself so much."
  • "I wanted you to care, I wanted you to be nosy, I wanted you to be there."
  • "I know it's stupid of me to say that you don't care, I mean, of course you do, but I want you to care so much more."
  • "I can't be around all these people who all my life have tried to change me."
  • "I can't hide who I am."
  • "I will be happy for the first time in my whole life."
  • "It makes me feel good, makes me feel pretty."
  • "I will go to sleep; just know you’ll be in my dreams."
  • "If I cry, it won’t be because of you."
  • "You don’t have to wait or pretend that he’s just your friend."
  • "It scares me more than I'd like to admit."
  • "My only problem lately is I've got too much time so all I'm left with is that what's on my mind."
  • "I left out everyone and all I have at the end of the day is that what's on my mind."
  • "Say I came back today, would I have a spot in your heart?"
  • "I cheated with your ex best friend."
  • "You can't stand in my doorway for long."
  • "It's eleven o'clock, he's expecting you home."
  • "I'll walk you up the hill to your car."
  • "No, don't let go, don't let this die."
  • "I just need to know what I did to ruin this and turn your body cold."
  • "If you walk through that door there will be no us."
  • "I thought you were being distant."
  • "I did not mean to make this the worst night of your life."
  • "I need you to know what happened."
  • "I saw you walking by, you didn't say hi, you didn't even smile."
  • "You're not the only one who's feeling anxious toward the bullshit that's attached to growin' up."
  • "You said things would stay the same; well, have they?"
  • "I know you're scared, but you'll never get better if you keep running away."
  • "Sometimes you need to be self centered to understand yourself better."
  • "I'm not in the mood to stick around."
  • "Every day I think about you and why you had to turn into my enemy, when all I need's my friend."
  • "Look at me and see how much I've changed since you left."
  • "Well, is this what you wanted, for me to admit that this fucking hurts?"
  • "I was never good at talking smoothly."
  • "Now I don't remember how you speak; I mean, it comes to me in dreams, but by morning, I lose everything you ever said."
  • "I'm not perfect, I think I'm quite the opposite, I'm nothing to adore."
  • "Perfection is opinion and nothing more."
  • "I'll be here waiting when your plane lands."
  • "Hi, my name is none of your concern."
  • "I like the way you make me feel at home."
  • "It wasn’t a mistake - so please dont think it was."
  • "I didn’t have a lot to drink, I just needed a bit for confidence."
  • "They won't find out, no one cares enough about it to run their mouths."
  • "Just please, when you’re ready to go, try not to make it so painful."
  • "Will you write another sad, sad song?"
  • "It's obnoxious and it's useless to fight a war you're losing."
  • "This might be your only chance."
  • "Is it you who calls the shots?"
  • "I don't know why they're choosing to confide in someone who will talk about anything."
  • "There are people who miss me and I don't know why they're investing all their time into someone with my history."
  • "Why did you say that I was one in a million? Because I believed it."
  • "I thought I had something that you were too scared to lose."
  • "I also saw how often you say goodbye."
  • "Things were never supposed to be this good."
  • "Nothing I can say now would justify a thing, just know I'm sorry."
  • "I just wanted to say I hope you're okay."
  • "You're already hurt, I'm scared that if you put your trust in me, I'll make it worse."
  • "You're still so young, you have room to grow into something amazing."
  • "You won't remember who I am."
  • "I can't live with the chance that this feeling's ever coming back."
  • "I don't hate you, but honey, this still hurts."
  • "I'm not dumb, I know everything."
  • "That liquid he consumes makes him speak the truth."
  • "Look at me, because I exist."
  • "It's a shame that we're not soulmates because if I didn't know better, I'd say this feels pretty good."
  • "You've been gone for too long, why'd you go?"
  • "Is this what you think it means to be responsible?"
  • "I went to class, you didn't show up."
  • "I thought we said that we'd keep in touch."
  • "So live up to the name you’ve been making for yourself."
  • "Last night you had that dream again, the one where you try and run from your fears but you can’t because you’re wearing fabulous stilettos."
  • "If I were the sun, I'd shine my light on you and leave the people that hurt you cold."
  • "We’re fighting again, more than usual."
  • "I’m sorry about being me."
  • "I'll sleep on the couch."
  • "Bring me a cat to be my best friend."
  • "It isn’t like you ever said that you were committed to the thought of me and only me."
  • "I can’t believe I spent all morning trying to tell you I’m sorry about yesterday."
  • "You smell like the devil but you feel like the lord."
  • "I didn’t dodge all your bullets, I just denied that they hit me."
  • "If I told you I loved you would you reach out and touch me?"
  • "I wish we had just gone to bed."
  • "This could have worked."
  • "The best part of that whole song was skipping ahead to Nicki Minaj."
  • "I will not make the same mistake twice."
  • "I know you never really liked people, I didn't mean to make that worse."
  • "I still know the roads that take me to your street."
  • "I know I promised that we'd talk more it's just, I'm surprised you even want to talk at all."
  • "I'm so scared that you still think I'm the one who gave up."
  • "The plans we made were never mistakes, they just didn't work for us."
  • "You always knew the deal that we made and what this was worth."
  • "I'll go to sleep at a decent time when I find something worth waking up for."
  • "I keep checking my phone to see you haven’t called at all."
  • "I thought I was the best part of your life, now I’m pretty sure that I was wrong."
  • "You’re impossible to read so if you love me, come clean."
  • "I’ll refer to you as my special love, the one that set me free."
  • "I’m feeling lost in towns that were my home."
  • "It's my own body, I did what I wanted."
  • "It’s not that I don’t have words to say, I just don’t want to be the one that speaks them."
  • "Your only flaw is that you’re flawless.”
  • "I’m so full of shit, I’m surprised you bought it."
  • "Well congratulations, I didn’t know you two had made things so official."
  • "Don’t call me when it fizzles; in fact, don’t call me at all."
  • "What a beautiful sight to see you alive."
  • "I can't hold you responsible anymore."
  • "I'm lost now in the thrill of it."
  • "I just want to lay in bed with you."
  • "I'll throw everything I have into the flames just to make it last."
  • "There are reasons that I can't stay."
  • "I built my life around watching everything you do."
  • "I wonder if you're having fun."
  • "You said you were done; well, how done?"
  • "I want to believe that I really don't need him."
  • "I can't wait until I see your face and my brain feels nothing."
  • "I would never want you to stop your life."
  • "You were always a shitty friend."
Coming home.

Requested by anon: Marc Bartra imagine where he comes home after being away for a long time, with some drama. (It’s a little short, i’m sorry)

‘Foot up, my foot up. Hold up now my foot up.’ I sing along with song on the tv, while i’m painting my toenails. When i’m done, i put the nailspolish on the table in front of the couch and lean back, smiling. I’ve been smiling all week long. At college, at work, at home in the night before i fall asleep. I’m smiling because tonight, after 3 months, my boyfriend Marc is finally coming home. Even though it’s only for a couple weeks. The thought of him holding me at night, whispering sweet things in my ear again, makes my head spin in excitement. I never thought i’d find the love of my life at only 19 years old, but i have. He’s a famous football player and i’m a college student. My smile fades away when i think about what will happen after these 3 or 4 weeks. He will only be a 2 hour flight away, but i don’t have the time or money to visit him as often as i want to. He sometimes suprises me by randomly buying me a ticket to come to him, but i don’t like it when he spends money on me. There’s enough gossip going around about me being a golddigger anyway, which is ridiculous but oh well. It’s all the bagage that comes with having a famous boyfriend. Football is his life, and whatever makes him happy, makes me happy too. The same way he never pushed me to drop out of college to travel with him wherever he goes, because he knows i wanna be able to take care of myself when i need to. I don’t want to rely on anyone else, financially. My thoughts are rudely disturbed by the buzzing of my phone, and i’m annoyed until i see Marc’s face on my homescreen. I pick up smiling.
'Hey!’ I say, my voice full with enthusiasm.
'Hey, listen something happened and i only have 10 percent battery left but i won’t be able to be home tonight..’
'Oh..’ I simply say.
'I’m sorry baby, the flight is delayed, and there are a lot of fans at the airport, so they arranged for us to stay another two days here.’ He says, not really making me any happier.
'It’s okay.’ I say, trying not to cry on the phone.
'It’s not your fault.. i just miss you.’ I say. My voice sounds sad and dissapointed, unlike his which sounds agitated and hurried.
'I know i’m so sorry, i’ll make it up to you, i promise.’ And with those words he hangs up on me. Ten percent battery left and i don’t even get a goodbye?
'Fuck.’ I swear, throwing my phone away from me. I wipe the tears away, and walk over to the kitchen, pouring myself something to drink. I hate dissapointments, but i’m not sure what it is i’m dissapointed in. The fact that he will be away for another two days, or the way he didn’t even sound sad himself. Did it become easy for him to stay away from me? I bite my lip, thinking about our first weeks together. We couldn’t go a minute without each other, and now he can easily go two days without me. I know i sound psychotic and needy, but i miss him so much it makes my head hurt. In two days it will be monday, which means i will be at school by the time he arrives. Everything just keeps getting worse. I decide to take a shower and go to bed, trying to sleep the sadness away. I end up on my phone, reading my timeline on twitter, when suddenly i hear sounds from downstairs. I sit up immediately trying to figure out if i actually heard it right, or if i’m going crazy. But then i hear some shuffling, and i jump out of bed, putting my robe on. Why do i sleep in only my underwears again? I hastily grab the lamp from my nightstand, and start walking towards the door. I wait, and hold my breath when i hear someone running up the stairs. Shit, there’s a fucking robbery going on in my house and i picked up a lamp to defend myself. I’m ready to smash the person’s face in, but when the door opens and my eyes meet Marc’s blue ones i’m suprised. His eyes widen when he sees the state i’m in. My hair messy, no make up, in only a robe, holding a lamp in my hand. I drop the lamp, and run towards him. He smiles, and puts his arms around me lifting me up.
'You son of a bitch! I almost killed you.’ I say, trying to fight against the tears forming in my eyes.
'Really Y/N? With a lamp?’ He laughs, and as soon as he puts me down i swat his arm.
'Why are you here?! Don’t tell me it was a joke because i will reconsider killing you with the lamp.’ I say, hugging him again.
'Baby, i just wanted to suprise you.. Spice up some things.’ I raise my eyebrow at him, really?
'If you wanna spice up our relationship, come home early for a change. I did not like this at all!’ He laughs and kisses my temple.
'Well maybe i just wanted to see you when you didn’t get ready for hours. Maybe..’ He says, putting his arm around my waist.
'I wanted to see you like this. You in your rawest state, when you haven’t tried to make yourself look prettier for me.’ He bites his lip, eyeing my body. I feel myself blushing, and step away from him a little. He cocks his head to one side, and grins.
'You know what i like about you?’ He says, taking off his jacket.
'After we’ve been together for so long, and after i’ve seeing you naked so many times, you still get so shy when i look at you this way.’ He puts one of his hands behind my neck, and one around my waist, pulling me closer to him. Our lips connect, after what feels like years, and suddenly we are in a heated make out session. He’s the one to pull back first, and i gasp for air. I need him, as much as he needs me. I quickly pull my robe off and throw it away, before i reach for the hem of his shirt. He grins, and lets me take it off for him.
'Eager aren’t we?’ He says, and i gulp. His voice is a full octave deeper, and the lust in his eyes turns my legs into mush. I take his hand and kiss the palm, then his shoulder, and last but not least, his neck. He groans, and pulls me even closer to him to kiss me again. I pull him back with me, which causes us to fall on the bed.
'I thought you were mad at me baby girl.’ He chuckles, and i growl.
'Yes, but you’re too sexy to resist.’ We both laugh, before he kisses me again.

'Marc..’ I whisper, shaking his shoulder a little. He groans, and turns away from me.
'Babe, i made you breakfast.’ I say, trying to ignore the scratch marks i left on his back.
'What?’ He says and turns back around to me. His voice is raspy, his hair is messy and he is wearing absolutely nothing. This is the best way to start my day.
'Goodmorning beautiful.’ He says, and sits up. He takes a corissant, and takes a bite of it.We just sit there and grin at each other. Last night was amazing. We were both high off each other, and it’s the best feeling in the world. He reaches his hand towards me and i take it, letting him pull me to lay against him. I hear his heartbeat, and i close my eyes.
'I love you.’ He says, and i nuzzle my face in his chest.
'I love you.’ I say back to him, tracing his abs with my finger. I don’t care how sad he made me with his 'joke,’ or how much time he spends away from me, because moments like these make it all worthwile.

I have to stop her! (Lucaya fanfic)
  • Riley: Lucas... I did something
  • Lucas: What happened?
  • Riley: Well, you know how we are always fighting because I say you don't care about my feelings but you care about Maya's...?
  • Lucas: Riley, what did you do?
  • Riley: I told Maya we made love... and she-
  • Lucas: What were you thinking Riley? Why would you lie to her like that?
  • Riley: I just wanted to see her reaction. I didn't think she would take it like she did, now she's determined to loose her virginity to Josh tonight and she's on her way to his dorm.
  • Lucas: what? No!... How could you Riley?
  • Riley: I'm sorry, I just wanted her to think we were inlove, that you loved me-
  • Lucas: So you had to hurt her? This is not the Riley I fell inlove with. And I, I have to go... I have to stop her-
  • Riley: I knew you would do something like this... you are always running to her.
  • Lucas: what did you expect? She's about to make a big mistake that will change her life forever! I can't live with myself knowing she slept with Josh just because she thinks I slept with you!
  • Riley: And how do you know is a mistake? She loves him!
  • Lucas: Riley, if that was true, she wouldn't be heading there right now, she would wait for the right moment and the right time... She's just being a hot head!
  • Riley: what if you are too late and she's already done it?
  • Lucas: then, You'll have to live with knowing you did this to her and we are done.
  • Riley: are you breaking off with me just because Maya is sleeping with Josh?
  • Lucas: No, I'm breaking this off because I'm not who you want me to be, and you are not who I thought you were. This isn't working out and we both know it Riley. You wouldn't had to lie to your best friend if we did.
  • Riley: You still love her don't you?
  • Lucas: I don't know Riley... I have to go... we'll talk later.
  • Riley: maybe I won't be here when you come back...
  • Lucas: Do what ever you want Riles.
  • Outside Josh's dorm room.
  • Lucas parks and comes running, asking around for Josh's room. Some guy leads him to the room and he knocks on his door. No one opens, he can hear soft music in the background, so he opens the door and comes in...
  • Maya: surprise!... oh is just you...
  • Lucas: what are you doing?
  • Maya: I'm surprising Josh obviously... what are you doing here?
  • Lucas: I'm taking you home. Get dressed and lets go before Josh sees you in that (points to Maya wearing a very provocative mini skirt and a bra).
  • Maya: No way. I came over here with a mission and I'm not going away until I succeed.
  • Lucas: Maya, you are not gonna have sex with Josh!
  • Maya: how do you know? And why are you still here?
  • Lucas: You are not ready Maya! I won't let you do this and I'm not leaving without you!
  • Maya: first of all How would you know I haven't had sex before? Maybe I've done it a ton of times already.
  • Lucas: You haven't. Come on lets go.
  • Maya: No. I won't be the last virgin in the group.
  • Lucas: trust me. You aren't... I'm a virgin too. And I plan to stay that way until I'm with the right person.
  • Maya: I know you are lying. Because Riley already told me-
  • Lucas: she lied to you! I haven't done anything with her!
  • Maya: that... I can't believe. You see, you've been together for too long now, it's just impossible. Besides Riley wouldn't lie to me, specially about something like this.
  • Lucas: I don't know how I can make you believe me, but Riley and I just broke up.
  • Maya: You didn't! How could you sleep with Riley and then dump her?
  • Lucas: I didn't sleep with her! And neither are you sleeping with Josh. Get dressed or I'm gonna dragg you down the hall in your underwear.
  • Maya: No!
  • Lucas: I warned you!
  • Lucas grabs maya like a sack of potatoes, over his shoulder with Maya kicking and calling his name. They are just about to leave Josh's room.
  • Maya: Lucas get me down! Wait! I'll get dressed! Let me get dressed!
  • Lucas moved to the bed to put Maya down, he sat on the bed and leaned over as she slowly slides of his shoulders. She is on her knees on the bed reaching for her bag and clothes, and Lucas can't help to stare at her while his pants start to feel a little tight.
  • Maya: what?
  • Lucas: mhm... nothing... you look so... never mind... just put your clothes on before Josh gets here...
  • Josh: what's going on here? Maya? Cowboy? Were you having sex in my bed?
  • Lucas: what?
  • Maya: No... I mean I was-
  • Josh: it sure looks like you did!
  • Lucas: is not like-
  • Josh: Does Riley knows you are here? Oh my God! You are cheating on my niece!
  • Maya: Josh, is no-
  • Josh: You are cheating on me? With your best friend's boyfriend! I knew you were lying when you said you were a virgin, not ready my ass!
  • Maya: what?
  • Lucas: Hey! Calm down!
  • Josh: You are a slut Maya, and you-
  • Lucas didn't let him finish, he punched Josh so hard that he fell unconscious on the carpet. Maya had tears in her eyes as Lucas let her in his car.
  • Lucas: come on Maya, lets go home... he's a jerk.
  • Maya: How could he think like that, he didn't even let me explain... he... he
  • Lucas: he's an ass Maya. He doesn't know you at all. Besides, he walked in on his semi naked girlfriend and a very horny teenager on his bed... what else could he think?
  • Maya: but he's gonna tell Riley that you are cheating on her!
  • Lucas: I don't care Maya. I'm just happy you didn't sleep with him. Besides, We broke up. So she's not even gonna care.
  • Outside Maya's home.
  • Maya: Are you gonna act like this every time I'm about to have sex with a boy?
  • Lucas: After seeing you like that, I'm not letting any boy near you ever again.
  • Maya: Huckleberry, I'm not gonna be a virgin forever! I wanna have kids some day.
  • Lucas: Neither am I, and you can have mine. Until then, please keep your clothes on...
  • Maya: oh my gosh, did you just said you wanna have sex with me?
  • Lucas: of course I do! Did you see yourself in the mirror shortstack?
  • Maya: so you were looking at me... you are a perv. And you just broke up with Riley! I have to talk to her...
  • Lucas: I'm not a perv, I'm a teenager. And about Riles, well, you should wait a couple of days until she cools off.
  • Maya: why? You are the one who broke up with her! Why would she be mad at me?
  • Lucas: well, she kinda has this idea that I love you more than I love her, and that I care way too much about you, and we kinda broke up because of that...
  • Maya: why would she think that? did you tell her she's wrong?
  • Lucas: No, cus... She's not wrong. Good night shortstack!
  • Maya: what?
  • Lucas left Maya home wondering what did just happened. Did he just said he loves her? She couldn't help to smile a bit. She was grateful Lucas got to her on time, and that her thing with Josh was over before she made a mistake.
A kings throne can be used for other things than just sitting on. Imagine sitting on Thorin's throne naked.
Sorry it turned into smut. I couldn’t help myself. Do you mind? ;)



Finally the meeting was over. The whole damn day and long into the night they have been talking about everything what he, as the king, need to know or has to decide over. 

His councilors already left to their chambers to get the desired rest. Not so Thorin. He makes his way the the throne room, for thinking and maybe even relaxing a bit before sleep. Expecting you to already laying in your bed, taking your night rest.

Damn. I promised her to be there tonight. 

He thinks to himself, knowing you would understand but upset after all that he could not spend time with you again. 

A few hours before

You just finished your beauty routine. Still dwelling in the huge bath you let your mind walk.

He is not coming today either you thought to yourself. You sighed. Understanding he must fulfill his duties but damn it you wanted to be with him. Talking, relaxing, cuddling. You imagined his deep husky voice which brings you chills up your spine, his long silky hair and his muscular body. 

Oh no 

Bad enough your loving heart yearns for your king to be by your side, your body does miss him as well. Nights over nights you were wet for him. Laying in the large bed waiting for him to arrive and become one again, but it never happened. There was just too much work for him to do right now. 

These nights you simply pleasured yourself, although it never satisfied you enough. You need to feel your most beloved right next to you. Into you. 

He was in no better mood. Also yearning to be one with you again, but can’t the last days. Your desire became unbearable. To that point that you nearly walked around every day dripping with lust.

I never imagined that one could slide away like this when you make love to someone you truly love.

And then you make a decision.

‘All right your majesty, I take the lead now. If you don’t come to me, I need to come to you.’ you said smirking, preparing yourself for your plan.

'My queen? Are you alright? To whom are you talking to?’ your handmaiden asked worriedly from outside the bath.

'Eh! No one. Thank you Gori. You can leave work for the day. I see you tomorrow then.’

'So early? T-thank you my queen! May I assist you with something or bring you something before I take my leave?’

'No no, thank very much. I appreciate that. Have a nice evening!’

'Your too kind, my queen.’ the young dwarven handmaiden said happily and left.

Present time

Still in his thoughts about you, Thorin didn’t even notice he is half way away from the throne as he hears a familiar voice.

'Evening my king.’ you say softly.

He says nothing. Eyes widened. 

Beguilingly beautiful you sit on the kings throne, veiled in a large cloak of silk fabric. Completely bare underneath. He did not now that yet though.

’(Y/N)? I thought you were sleeping.’

He steps closer and stops where the steps to the throne begin.

'No. I couldn’t sleep. Like so many nights before. I miss you.’

His face becomes a frustrated expression.

'I’m sorry my love. I do miss you as well. But you know I-’

'Yes.’ your soft voice interrupting him.

'I understand. Don’t worry. You are the king. With that responsibility comes a lot of duties. But don’t forget that I love you. That is why I am here.’

’(Y/N)…’ Thorin whispers between his teeth. He looks like he is in pain.

Is he thinking I’m going to leave him now or so? 
You smile. 
'My love. My king. My Thorin. I came here to make you forget all your duties and worries for a time.’

You stand up from the kings chair and let the cloak run down your shoulders. Now resting on your wrists, still holding it upwards. Exposing your naked body. His mouth goes dry and his eyes grow dark. His lower half filling itself with heat and his member twitching in the sight of his wife. Immediately blood rushing to where it was needed.

'When was the last time you took me?’

'My love.’ He blushed 'Here?’

'Yes here. A kings throne can be used for other things than just sitting in my opinion. I’m tired of doing it myself. I am yearning for you, don’t you see.’ you touched your lower body half 'I need you right here. Inside me.’ You let the cloak fall to the ground as Thorin passes the few steps up to the throne and kisses you passionately. Forcing his tongue into your mouth, heavy breathing. By witnessing your wet and glistening womanhood with his sweet juices he always likes to taste his pants become more and more tighter.

'What if someones coming?’ he asks between the kissing. Leaving your mouth and trailing down your neck.

'I don’t care.’ you moan.

'Your right. Besides everyone is asleep. You should keep quiet.’

'Mh?’

'Your screaming and moaning, my love. Loud. I love that but these halls are echoing.’ he smirks and you blush deeply.

’D-don’t say such embarrassing things. Ah!’

He chuckles as he licks and nips your hard nipples, massaging your breasts. Your knees shaking.

'If someones coming I have to carve his eyes out. No one is allowed to see my woman bare. To see you in ecstasy like this. Except me.’

You smile happily to yourself and take his face in your hands, up to your mouth.

'Always and forever your woman Thorin. Claim me.’

Your womanhood throbbing he lifts you up and throws you on the throne. Facing him, legs half spread you watch how he undresses his lower half. His trousers fall to his ankles, his bare macular chest with his soft chest hair exposing through the now opened tunic. You let your hand trail from his chest down to his member. Standing dangerously erected, thick and twitching. Already a few drops of precome peaking out of his tip. He groans and suddenly takes your hand roughly. 

'Turn around.’ you hear Thorins husky voice filled with desire. 'I’ll have you this way first.’

He turns you around, your hands resting on the thrones armrests. His large strong hands coming to your hips shoving himself into you with one thrust.

You gasp in surprise and of the slight amount of pain. But you were wet enough to take him.

'I’m sorry love! Ugh your so tight. I’m finally inside you. Ah you feel so good around me.’ ,he pants ,'I try to do it slow.’

Your cheeks grow hot and reddened over his words. He starts to thrust into you slowly.

'Ah! D-don’t say such embarrassing things.’

'Why not? I know you like it.’ He smirks. You turn your head to face him with red cheeks. 'Your pussy is so wet and tight. How did I survived these last days.’

He ankles his hips and jerks upwards hitting your sweet spot. You let out a loud voluptuous moan.

'Quiet love.’ trying hardly to keep his own groans unheard.

Your moans only fire him up, thrusting now hard and rough into you. He knows you like it rough, though he tries to take it slowly this time, because he did not have you in such a long time. Apparently failing to do so. The black haired dwarf knows he would no longer be able to control himself. 

’T-thorin I’m going to- AAAAHH !!’ you couldn’t finish your sentence. Tightening around his cock you came screaming, immediately covering your mouth to muffle your love moans. Still thrusting into you, hitting your spot everytime so you could ride out your whole orgasm, your husband comes as well. A deep groan escaping his throat, shooting his seed inside you. He bits down at the right side of your lower back.

Still breathing heavy you sit on his lap. He placed the two of you gently on the throne and covered you half with the cloak. Leaning against his chest, his strong arms around you.

'I’m sorry I came inside you.’

'Nah… It’s okay.’ you closed your eyes feeling his seed squeezing out of you on his thigh. Looking up at him you talk innocently 'You know I was going to give you a special treatment. My full service you know. Satisfying you. I did not assume you would like to have me immediately.’

He looks down on you and chuckled.

'I was missing you the last days as well as you me. What makes you think I am not satisfied? I enjoyed your body, voice and your love within deeply.’ He kisses your lips softly. 'But… I think..’, the dwarf touches your hard nipples, 'I’d like to have you again.’

You can feel his cock stiffening against your legs.

'It would be my pleasure.’ you said grinning mischievously, lifting yourself up and placing your legs on both sides of his body. Holding yourself up right above his thick cock. Which is slick with your juices from your previously love making.

'Mahal it will.’

You lower yourself onto him, your body sucking him in in one moisty move. His hands and your hips lifting you up and down. You gasp. Feeling him twitching inside you. Rubbing along your inner walls.

'Ah (Y/N) I love you. I love you so much.’

'Thorin… forever. I love you forever.’

He slams you down on him, nearly screaming.

You hands cling onto his tunic. Caressing his chest. Your tongues find their ways to one another a begin battling. You deepening the kiss as long as you can, but the ecstasies forcing you both to break free to breath heavily. Moaning and panting he speeds up. Your liquids leaking out your lower body onto his lap, mixed with his seed. The sound of your bodies meeting. Wet sounds as your cunt squeezes its walls, indulging his thick member totally, nearly pumping the mixed fluidness on his lap. Your orgasm is building up again. You close your eyes and lower your head. ‘Look at me.’ obeying him you meet his eyes. ‘(Y/N) I am close.’ Thorin pants.

You smile. He moves his left hand thump to your swollen clit without leaving your hip. You gasp, moaning loudly as you feel your orgasm will come in a few seconds. 

'Let’s come together. May I release inside you?' 
You chuckle between your groans.
‘Mh ah.. your asking now? You already have.’

His grip on your hips tightens, nearly painfully. Feeling him twitching you give him permission ‘Yes ah release your seed inside me, oh please.’

He heaves a loud groan not caring anymore if anyone would hear them. You came with him, tightening.

In silence you cling to one another, catching your breaths.


'I must admit… I thought you were going to leave me.’ the king under the mountain looks straight into your eyes, your bodies still connected.

'How could you think of such nonsense. I belong to you.’

‘My queen. My love. (Y/N). I am yours and you are mine.’

'Pass death, forever I am.’

Sorry I just love this Game of Thrones quote. It’s so beautiful!

And Gori is a female dwarf name and a character I put into this story. She does not exist in the books.

I’m sorry for all grammatical mistakes. 

Blue Neighbourhood sentence starters
  • "You were trying to wear me down."
  • "I guess it's all working out now."
  • "There's still too long to the weekend."
  • "Too long since I've been a fool."
  • "Never knew loving could hurt this good."
  • "When you look like that, I've never ever wanted to be so bad."
  • "You're driving me wild."
  • "You're all I think about."
  • "Kiss me on the mouth and set me free."
  • "I can be the subject of your dreams."
  • "Don't you want to see a man up close?"
  • "Kiss me on the mouth and set me free, but please don't bite."
  • "You can coax the cold right out of me."
  • "I'm pulling on your heart to push my luck."
  • "Who's got any time for growin' up?"
  • "I am tired of this place."
  • "I hope people change."
  • "I need time to replace what I gave away."
  • "My hopes, they are high, I must keep them small."
  • "Though I try to resist, I still want it all."
  • "Everything is shattering and it's my mistake."
  • "Only fools fall for you."
  • "Our lives don't collide, I'm aware of this."
  • "I don't give a fuck, I'm not giving up, I still want it all."
  • "My home has never felt this far."
  • "All this driving is driving me crazy."
  • "All this moving is proving to get the best of me."
  • "Take me back to the basics and the simple life."
  • "Tell me all of the things that make you feel at ease."
  • "I can't help feeling like I'm all alone."
  • "I never ever thought that I would say, I'm afraid of the life that I've made."
  • "I'd rather be spitting blood than have this silence fuck me up."
  • "I'd rather be black and blue than accept that you withdrew."
  • "Just tell me... say anything."
  • "Anything hurts less than the quiet."
  • "I used to be the one you'd come to when it'd all go to shit."
  • "I don't wanna walk away, but you left me no choice."
  • "Only talking to myself here."
  • "I don't keep love around."
  • "When we tried it, we were a fire with no smoke."
  • "When I close my eyes, I still see your ghost."
  • "'Distance makes the heart grow fonder', said by someone stronger than me."
  • "I wanna sleep next to you, but that's all I wanna do right now."
  • "I wanna come home to you."
  • "I'd rather fuel a fantasy than deal with this alone."
  • "I wanna hold hands with you."
  • "I wanna get close to you 'cause your hands and lips still know their way around."
  • "The less time that I spend with you, the less you need to heal."
  • "I'm not the one, if we're honest."
  • "I was just trying to be cool."
  • "I was just trying to be like you."
  • "I'm a spark and you're a boom."
  • "What am I supposed to do?"
  • "I love, but I don't."
  • "I'm lying through my teeth."
  • "Without changing a part of me, how do I get to heaven?"
  • "All my time is wasted feeling like my heart's mistaken."
  • "What if we run away?"
  • "My youth is yours."
  • "As the smile fell from your face, I fell with it."
  • "The truth is that I'm sorry."
  • "I'm just some dumb kid trying to kid myself that I got my shit together."
  • "So go... before I start to miss any part of this and change my mind."
  • "I'm just a lost boy not ready to be found."
  • "We knew from the beginning that this wasn't never ending."
  • "Shouldn't stay too long 'cause we're both too young to give into forever."
  • "So what are you waiting for, 'cause someone could love you more."
  • "We are runnin' so fast and we never look back."
  • "Whatever I lack, you make up."
  • "We make a really good team."
  • "We got this crazy chemistry between us."
  • "Making new clichés on our own little tour."
  • "You don't have to say I love you to say I love you."
  • "Don't need money, all I need is you."
  • "We try staying up late, but we both are light weights."
  • "Yeah we get off our face too easy."
  • "We take jokes way too far."
  • "Sometimes living's too hard."
  • "We're like two halves of one heart."
  • "All I need is you."
  • "We can get married tonight if you really wanna."
  • "If you break this lil' heart, it'd be an honor."
  • "The boys fix their cars and girls eat it up."
  • "Loving's so good when love is young."
  • "There's so much history in these streets."
  • "There's so much history in my head; the people I've left, the ones that I've kept."
  • "Have you heard me on the radio? Did you turn it up?"
  • "It seems I'm never letting go of suburbia."
  • "Can't help but feel I've lost what's mine."
  • "They all say that nothing ever changes."
  • "Scared, my love, you'll go."
  • "Too good to be good for me."
  • "It's just for tonight."
  • "I'm wasted on you."
  • "Life, it's hard, I know."
  • "All your lights are red, but I'm green to go."
  • "Used to see you high, now you're only low."
  • "Anything it takes to make you stay."
  • "Only seeing myself when I'm looking up at you."
  • "I can't say no."
  • "Swore I'd never lose control."
  • "I fell in love with a heart that beats so slow."
  • "I know you're seeing black and white, so I'll paint you a clear blue sky."
  • "I just wanna be at the start of after loving you."
  • "I can't outrun what's coming after me."
  • "Tell me how I'm gonna feel less secure when I look at you."
Sounds Good Feels Good sentence starters
  • "I wanna be in the game."
  • "I wanna know, know your middle name."
  • "Right now you're killing the game."
  • "Everybody's gonna go big tonight."
  • "Drive this car through the drive-thru please."
  • "My girlfriend’s bitchin’ 'cause I always sleep in."
  • "She’s kinda hot though."
  • "My shrink is telling me I got crazy dreams."
  • "You’ve got a shot though."
  • "They say we’re losers and we’re alright with that."
  • "We are the leaders of the not-coming-back’s."
  • "We are the kings and the queens of the new broken scene."
  • "Sometimes I’m feeling like I’m going insane."
  • "It's not the end of the world, yeah, we've all been there before."
  • "We don't have to live this way."
  • "We can all get some."
  • "We can't afford to give up."
  • "Situation - no motivation."
  • "I know I'm out of line."
  • "Destination - permanent vacation."
  • "I know I'm an under-achiever."
  • "We're all so proud."
  • "We're the voice of the new generation."
  • "Everybody’s got their demons."
  • "I’m the one who ends up leaving."
  • "Now that I’m broken, now that you know it..."
  • "I’ve got a jet black heart and there’s a hurricane underneath it, trying to keep us apart."
  • "I’m holding on for dear life."
  • "There’s no way that we could rewind."
  • "Maybe there’s nothing after midnight that could make you stay."
  • "The blood in my veins is made up of mistakes."
  • "Let’s forget who we are."
  • "I’ve got a jet black heart."
  • "This is not who I'm supposed to be."
  • "I tried to deceive, tried to win you desperately, now I'm lost in this swirling sea of your sorry eyes."
  • "I will fight to fix up and get things right."
  • "I can't change the world but maybe I'll change your mind."
  • "The ghost of survivor's guilt can be so unkind."
  • "Broken boy meets broken girl."
  • "Maybe this time two wrongs make it right."
  • "We'll safety pin the pieces of our broken hearts back together."
  • "Raise ourselves and a middle finger 'cause they all think we're twisted."
  • "I don't wanna say goodbye to another night and watch you walk away."
  • "I don't wanna waste it, don't wanna waste tonight."
  • "I just need another hit; you're the thing that I can't quit."
  • "I want to be the one you remember."
  • "I want to feel your love like the weather; all over me."
  • "You make it sound so sweet when you lie to me."
  • "Young love, close the chapter, there's no ever after."
  • "Fell fast, ended faster."
  • "How'd we drift so far away from where we left off yesterday?"
  • "All I see is good times disappearing and I'm trying to hold on."
  • "I'm not leaving."
  • "You say you wanna, but do you wanna run away?"
  • "Where you going? Always running."
  • "Look at me in the eye; is anyone there at all?"
  • "Does it have to be this tragedy?"
  • "Why don't you just reach out and make it clear to me?"
  • "They would yell, they would scream, they were fighting it out."
  • "Holding onto a dream while she watches these walls fall down."
  • "Hey mom, hey dad; when did this end? When did you lose your happiness?"
  • "I'm here alone inside of this broken home."
  • "I'm stuck in between a nightmare and lost dreams."
  • "I'm over all the small talk."
  • "I won't waste another day wishing this would fade away."
  • "No one sees me."
  • "I was already missing before the night I left, just me and my shadow and all of my regrets."
  • "Who am I when I don't know myself?"
  • "Wasted days, dreaming of the times I know I can't get back."
  • "Most of my life, I sat on my hands, I don't make a sound."
  • "I've something to prove, nothing to lose."
  • "All of this time, I questioned myself."
  • "Make believe worlds make us all feel alive."
  • "I can still taste you like it was yesterday."
  • "You were more than I deserved."
  • "I wanna get back to where we started."
  • "You know, we had it right."
  • "I swear that it's still haunting me."
  • "I guess I was running from something."
  • "I was running back to you."
  • "If you can love me again, I could let go of everything."
  • "The darkest night never felt so bright with you by my side."
  • "Love me like you did; I'll give you anything."
  • "Carry on, let the good times roll."
  • "You know it's gonna get better."
  • "I got one foot in the golden life, one foot in the gutter."
  • "So close to the other side, so far from the wonder."
  • "Carry on, outlast the ignorance."
  • "I'm chasing your sick little heart."
  • "Would a last kiss leave me wanting more?"
  • "I'm trapped under your spell."
  • "I'm twisted back up in the madness, repeating history."
  • "Promise me, you'll never let me leave."
  • "Damned if I do, damned if I don’t."
  • "I've always wondered where you've been."
  • "Tell me if you wanted it at all."
  • "I got a long term plan with short term fixes."
PVRIS lyrics sentence starters
  • "Take a good look at what I've become."
  • "There's a hole in my chest and I don't think it's leaving room for anyone."
  • "I'm trying my best."
  • "I'm doing everything to bring this body back to life."
  • "No matter how hard I try, I don't think I will make it through the night."
  • "I've been changing, falling, fading."
  • "There's demons at the door patiently waiting."
  • "Please watch over me, and be the light to carry me."
  • "I can feel it, being torn from my, my hands; my innocence."
  • "This change is all so permanent."
  • "Can't you see a change in me?"
  • "This world is a masterpiece."
  • "Shout out to the artist who took his heart and his soul and lost them both in the process."
  • "Please be the saint to save me."
  • "You were spoiled rotten and turned stale." "My tongue's acquired tolerance for tastes I couldn't stand.""You've been stuck in a rut and a wasteland."
  • "So just trust me, you'll be just fine."
  • "I need your trust just for tonight."
  • "Reach out your hands and tell me just what you feel."
  • "This is not just all in your head."
  • "Mind over matter makes these things feel so real."
  • "I can see the doubt in your eyes."
  • "You say there's no such thing as better things in life."
  • "I must confess this is all too new for me."
  • "Keep an open mind, it brings open hearts and open eyes."
  • "I'm hoping you weren't heaven sent, 'cause only hell knows where you've been."
  • "Your built composure's wearing thin."
  • "All your walls are caving in."
  • "I just wanna lift you up."
  • "I'll take all this love I found and I hope that it's enough."
  • "Don't you shut this down, no, don't you give this up."
  • "If we don't bend then this might break."
  • "Dream of me to keep you safe."
  • "Before you came around, I was lost and out of place."
  • "You're the only love I found and I'm hoping that you'll stay."
  • "Please stay."
  • "This isn't violence, this is just a war in my head."
  • "I give it time but it never seems to end."
  • "Don't you try to run right now, 'cause baby I could burn you down."
  • "The second that you walk into a room, I can't help myself from the things that you do."
  • "You're killing me right now."
  • "I think it's time you burn me down."
  • "I love the things we do when it's just me and you."
  • "You're just a ghost of blissful feelings."
  • "I'm losing you to the games in my mind."
  • "I know it's chemicals that make me cling to you."
  • "I need a miracle to get away from you."
  • "I think you're a saint and I think you're an angel."
  • "You give me something to think about that's not the shit in my head."
  • "You're a miracle."
  • "You're a glimpse of bliss, a little taste of heaven."
  • "You give me something to talk about."
  • "I need a miracle to bring me back to you."
  • "I know you're gone now, but I still wait for you."
  • "You walk around like you own the place."
  • "Guess it was all my fault."
  • "I think I let you in."
  • "Never thought that I would feel like this."
  • "Such a mess when I'm in your presence."
  • "It's my soul, it isn't yours anymore."
  • "Darling, you can't stay."
  • "Haven't you heard? I'm not yours anymore."
  • "I think it's time to get out."
  • "You've got it all, but you've got it all wrong."
  • "You're a poor unfortunate soul."
  • "You make it seem that you feel whole so they don't know you're a poor unfortunate soul."
  • "Think you're holy when you're not."
  • "I hate to break it to you baby, but you're simply lost."
  • "Simply calling out sins don't bring you closer to God."
  • "You're just a ghost at most, a set of empty bones."
  • "Searching for anything and everything to make you feel whole."
  • "You're all alone, you poor unfortunate soul."
  • "You just know I'm a poor unfortunate soul."
  • "There's no way that there's weight in the words that you preach."
  • "You contradict your speech."
  • "You're shallow and empty and filled with regret."
  • "Don't think I didn't notice."
  • "You've got it all."
  • "You've got it all wrong."
  • "It's hard to be what you need."
  • "All you ever do is turn me down."
  • "Can you hear me? I'm screaming for you."
  • "Day by day, I'm slowly replaced in your picture frames."
  • "Sick of the lack of signal, sick of the lack of touch."
  • "It's not enough, it's not enough."
  • "Don't blame your death on the shit in your head that you claimed ate you like a virus for days on end."
  • "I watched you decay, watched you waste away."
  • "Who'd you think you'd fool, baby, digging your own grave?"
  • "So go ahead, you just drop dead."
  • "You're trying to fool the whole world."
  • "You can't cheat death when you're digging your own grave."
  • "You're out of line."
  • "Your bridges are burning."
  • "You started a fire and you're burning up."
  • "What you give is what you get and in your case that's nothing but guilt and regret."
  • "I swear I couldn't wait to get you off my chest."
  • "It's hard to find life in something that's already died."
  • "I can't sleep, that's when you're torn away from me."
  • "It's hard to say 'good morning' when it's followed with 'goodbye'."
  • "Just wanted to say 'good night.'"
  • "I'm not ready to say 'good night.'"
  • "Yeah, I need to feel you again."
  • "Here comes the hardest part."
  • "In what world do I go to sleep after you and wake up before you? I don’t even know how it happens."
  • "Well I hope you’re having sweet dreams, and you call me when you wake up."
  • "Darling, don't be so shy."
  • "I'll see you at midnight."
  • "You make my world spin."
  • "I'll wait to see you again."
  • "I know you're dead inside."
  • "I don't feel so lonely."
  • "Darling, don't be so shy, I'll see you at midnight."
  • "In the morning, I hope I see you by my side."
  • "I know you're dead inside, but you make me feel alive."
  • "I'm the one with the ghosts in my bed."
  • "I swear that I'll be fine in the daylight."
  • "It's my head not my heart that's strayed."
  • "I'm sorry I keep pushing you away."
  • "I don't wanna fight."
  • "Why can't you stay?"
  • "I'm up against these things I can't see."
  • "Make me believe."
  • "You struck a match and left me to burn."
  • "I wanna feel something that's not the touch of your breath on my neck."
  • "I wanna feel something that's not the weight of your world in my head."
  • "I shouldn't give in, but I let you win."
  • "I won't let you in."
  • "I know it's warmer where you are and it's safer by your side."
  • "I can't be what you want."
  • "You and I can keep our love alive."
  • "It's cold when we're apart."
  • "I hate to feel this die."
  • "You can't give me what I want."
  • "I can't keep you in these arms so I keep you in my mind."
  • "Can we meet in the middle?"
  • "I've been wondering why you keep feeding me these lines."
  • "You made a fool of me."
  • "You charm me, it's not easy."
  • "You would not believe how the tides have turned."
  • "If I'm gonna play your games, I know there's a price to pay."
  • "I've got the tendency to constantly pay for my mistakes."
  • "I can't pick sides."
  • "You would not believe all the things I've seen."
  • "If I'm gonna lose this game, what's the use in trying to play?"
  • "I shouldn't expect any less but I can't always have my way."
  • "Your doubts of me are constant reminders of why I should stop hoping."
  • "Keep your eyes on me."
  • "I won't let them pull you under."
  • "You'll find what you're looking for."
Badlands sentence starters
  • "Sick of all these people talking, sick of all this noise."
  • "Tired of all these cameras flashing, sick of being poised."
  • "Already choking on my pride, so there's no use crying about it."
  • "They wanna make me their queen."
  • "There's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying that I probably shouldn't be so mean."
  • "There's an old man sitting on the throne that's saying I should probably keep my pretty mouth shut."
  • "There's no use crying about it."
  • "Your little brother never tells you but he loves you so."
  • "You're only happy when your sorry head is filled with dope."
  • "I hope you make it to the day you're 28 years old."
  • "You're ripped at every edge but you're a masterpiece."
  • "Everything was blue; his pills, his hands, his jeans."
  • "You were a vision in the morning when the light came through."
  • "I know I've only felt religion when I'm lying with you."
  • "I'm still waking every morning but it's not with you."
  • "I found God, I found him in a lover."
  • "I found the Devil; I found him in a lover."
  • "I'm such a fool to pay this price."
  • "With his educated eyes and his head between my thighs."
  • "I don't think he remembers."
  • "He's off to pay his crimes and he's got no time for mine."
  • "I tried to hold these secrets inside me."
  • "My mind's like a deadly disease."
  • "I'm bigger than my body."
  • "I'm colder than this home."
  • "I'm meaner than my demons."
  • "Please stop, you're scaring me."
  • "I can't help this awful energy."
  • "Goddamn right, you should be scared of me."
  • "Who is in control?"
  • "I paced around for hours."
  • "I couldn't stand the person inside me."
  • "I'm well acquainted with villains that live in my head."
  • "All we do is think about the feelings that we hide."
  • "All we do is sit in silence waiting for a sign."
  • "California never felt like home to me."
  • "It's so simple but we can't stay."
  • "Would it really kill you if we kissed?"
  • "Are you insane like me?"
  • "Do you tear yourself apart to entertain like me?"
  • "You shouldn't waste your pretty face."
  • "I think there’s a fault in my code."
  • "You cannot wake up, this is not a dream."
  • "Well my heart is gold and my hands are cold."
  • "Pointing fingers, cause you’ll never take the blame."
  • "I'm searching for something that I can't reach."
  • "I don't like them innocent."
  • "I like the sad eyes, bad guys."
  • "Kiss me in the corridor, but quick to tell me goodbye."
  • "You say that you're no good for me 'cause I'm always tugging at your sleeve."
  • "I swear I hate you when you leave, but I like it anyway."
  • "What happened to the soul, that you used, to be?"
  • "You're a Rolling Stone, boy, never sleep alone."
  • "I'm off the deep end."
  • "Saying that I love him but I know I'm gonna leave him."
  • "I was as pure as a river, but now I think I'm possessed."
  • "I've been cold since you left."
  • "I've got a boyfriend now and he's made of gold."
  • "You've got a fire inside but your heart's so cold."
  • "I've done some things that I can't speak."
  • "I've tried to wash you away but you just won't leave."
  • "Your eyes start to wander, they weren't looking at me."
  • "I sold my soul to a three-piece."
  • "This is what I live for."
  • "Throw me in the deep end, watch me drown."
  • "Selfish, taking what I want and call it mine."
  • "They rush me, telling me I'm running out of time."
  • "I let him climb inside my body and held him captive in my kiss."
  • "I'm a wanderess, I'm a one night stand."
  • "Don't belong to no city, don't belong to no man."
  • "I'm a hurricane."
  • "I found myself reminded to keep you far away from me."
  • "Oh, baby, beggin' you to save me."
  • "Well lately, I like 'em crazy."
  • "Oh, maybe, you could devastate me."
  • "Little lady, come and fade me."
  • "I keep a close watch on this heart of mine."
  • "I keep my eyes wide open all the time."
  • "I find it very, very easy to be true."
  • "I find myself alone when each day is through."
  • "Yes, I'll admit that I'm a fool for you."
  • "You've got a way to keep me on your side."
  • "Because you're mine, I walk the line."
  • "Cigarettes and tiny liquor bottles, just what you'd expect inside her new Balenciaga."
  • "They're Monaco and Hamptons bound, but we don't feel like outsiders at all."
  • "We are the new Americana."
  • "Do you remember the taste of my lips that night?"
  • "I remember the fear in your eyes the very first time we snuck into the city pool."
  • "Didn't know where we were running to, but don't look back."
  • "For now let's get away."
  • "I imagine the weight of your ribs if you lied between my hips in the backseat."
  • "Didn't know where I was running to, but I won't look back."
  • "Everybody wants to know if we fucked on the bathroom sink."
  • "The ending is the same every damn time."
  • "They think I'm insane, they think my lover is strange."
  • "I don't have to fucking tell them anything."
  • "I'm gonna write it all down, and I'm gonna sing it on stage."
  • "That's the beauty of a secret, you know you're supposed to keep it."
  • "Everybody's waiting up to hear if I dare speak your name."
  • "They know you walk like you're a god, they can't believe I made you weak."
  • "These days I can't seem to get along with anyone."
  • "Oh, baby girl you know we're gonna be legends."
  • "I'm a king and you're a queen."
  • "Do you feel like a young god?"
  • "I'm the king of everything and my tongue is a weapon."
  • "If you wanna go to heaven you should fuck me tonight."
Habits - Requested (Michael)

This was requested by Anon (Can i have a mikey one?? Based off the song habits (stay high) by tove lo??? Plz i love your account btww) okay s i have never heard this song before, i had a little and its not too bad haha, anayways ENJOY!!!!

Your head is banging, you groan feeling the warm glare of the sun on your face and fours yourself to open your eyes, when you do you squint from the light coming through the window. You let out a tired groan as you rub your face into the pillow, your body stretching to wake itself up. You push yourself up and shuffle into your bum, sanding and looking around the room for your clothes. Getting dressed you take the time to look at the guy lying naked in the bed, his blonde shabby hair messed, his lips slightly parted and his stubble covering what you imagine an amazing jaw line. Over all he is one of the best looking guys you have found yourself with this week, you’d stay, if you could remember his name. So you leave checking your keys and phone are still in your bag and slipping out of the door.

As you walk down the street there is a couple, laughing, their hands locked walking on the other side; you remember the picture Calum took of you and Michael walking down the street. You need to see it, so you pull out your phone and scroll through your pictures but your eyes fix on one with you pulling a strange face while Michael’s tongue is pressed against your cheek. You can feel it, everything, you can feel as your coming down and you know you need more.

‘Hey Slim I need more’ your voice is groggy from the long night and lack of sleep.

'No worries darlin, same place?’

'I’ll be ten minutes’ with that you hang up and quicken your pace.

———-

You slide into the bath, once your body is enveloped in the warm water and fluffy bubbles you reach out for your pot noodle. Dinner in the bathtub this is your life now. You don’t take long to dry off and throw on some clothes, adding some mascara and eye liner and heading back out. You can spend a night in this empty house.

'This is weird, you’ve been really off lately’ you friend shouts over the blaring music as you watch two women pull at each other’s cloyed as their mouths move on each other. 'Can we get out of here, I don’t like it’ she tries again. 'You can’t keep doing this shit because Michael left’ hearing his name is like a knife through the heart.

'Just go home’ you growl at her before walking through the people to the bar, you’re not alone long as a girl slide over from her bar stool. And after a couple of minutes a couple of guys join you, shot after shot, and his lips are in your neck, you can’t go home alone. It’s only in the taxi you notice this guy is easily thirty plus, probably some bodies daddy. His hand is traveling up your thigh and you whisper in his ear 'make this fast and greasy’ you know you’re numb and way too easy.

———–

Not sure what day it is but your craving Twinkies, so you open the bag full you just bought with the last of your money. Pack after pack your starting to feel sick, the bile raising in your throat and you run to the bathroom, throwing yourself over the tub, and it comes, the smile making even yourself crunch your nose, you’re tired and want to sleep so you climb in the tub, sleep wake puck, it goes on for about an hour before you really do fall asleep, right there in your sick.

'Fuck, hey, (Y/N), babe wake up’ his voice, it’s as always, playing with your sleep, pushing into your dreams. How you’d love to see him again. Feel his arms around you like you do now, if only it was real.

'Drink this, (Y/N), fuck what have you done to yourself’ he sounds sad, you worry, he can’t be sad in your dreams too. 'I love you’ he whispers, you feel his breath against your ear, and smile, that’s how it unused to be. If only you could reach out and touch him, get him to hold you.

You push your hands out wishing he was there when you hand hits something, soft, you flatten your hand and stroke a shirt, a shirt, a person, someone is here, but you came home alone tonight, your eyes fly open but before you see them you eyelids drop again.

'That’s it babe, wake up, open your eyes’ no could it really be, was he really here. This time you open them and they stay open. 'Michael’ your voice his baily a whisper your body holding no energy.

'Baby, what have you done, sleep, just sleep, I’ll stay right here’ you don’t need any more encouragement you fall asleep.

———

Your eyes fly open and you see your in your own bed, alone so no one wanted you last night, you don’t remember much from last night, nothing really but you do vaguely remember dreaming about him. You force yourself out of bed and into your living room, you hear a clatter in the kitchen, your heart beats fast against your chest as you slowly and quietly make your way in.

'Michael’ you’re frozen in your spot and he spins around, a small frown in his face.

'Your awake, I made breakfast, sorry about the mess you know I’m not much of a cook’ he is casual, like nothing has changed.

'Why are you here’ your voice is baily a whisper, so many emotions rushing through you, god you can feel it all again, it’s time you have to numb yourself.

'We need to talk’ his words distract you. As he sits at the table a pile of pancakes in the middle. He takes one and rips a little off popping it into his mouth. You lower yourself into the seat opposite him.

'Gina called me, she said you were bad, I dunno what I was expecting but not this, this isn’t you, you’ve always been so against drugs, not a huge drinker, your different, I don’t know who you are like this’ him words only hurt you but you are blank, you don’t want to speak just listen, listen to his voice, watch his lips, take in his smell not knowing if you will have the chance again.

'I did this, I left you, god I’m such an idiot, I never thought, I dunno, I didn’t really think at all it just happened, at the time everything I told you I meant it but as soon as I was gone I hated myself for leaving you, I’ve thought about you every day, missing you, driving myself crazy looking at our pictures. I love you, god I always will love you, please, please let me help you, get us back to normal’ his words are sincere, his small smile genuine, his eyes locked with yours.

'Michael you didn’t want me before, I’m even more fucked up now’ you sigh, remembering the day he left you. Remembering his words.

'I can’t deal with you, your so closed down all the time, you can’t even tell me you love me half the time, I need more, more emotion, I need to feel needed and you’re not doing it, I can’t love you anymore’

'I was an idiot, I was having a bad day, you are closed up but that’s part of you and all I can ask is that you give me the chance, the time to study you, and one day I will know how you feel without saying a word.’ He explains.

You smile a little before looking down, you can feel the words on the tip if your tongue, 'I love you’ his hand wraps around your, 'I love you too’

From Chelsea