i'm so unworthy of such words

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Despite the world reminding her every day of her life that she’s undeserving of being given anything by it, that she was unworthy of what little she’d managed to take from it - despite all of that, she never believed a word of it.

The Women of Black Sails in 4x08

I swear this was going to be one of those friendly-looking-but-really-cruel “can we talk about…?” posts… but it got away from me.

This drabble is based on Okami Rayne’s Break to Breathe. If you haven’t read it… 

…what r u doing with ur life go read it rn [cause this contains spoilers] 

See notes at the end.



They finally defeat Madara and the fight is over, but there’s still no time to rest. They still had to tend to all the injured shinobis, manage supplies, console the mourning, bury the dead. And they couldn’t let their guards down. Not while they were still in the open, not while they were so weak. There was still so much work to do. So Shikamaru worked. Without thinking outside of ‘duty’, without feeling, without any “troublesome” under his breath. He’d snort if he wasn’t so fucking tired; finally Tsunade got what she wanted: his initiative.

Permanently, automatically. Without being asked or nagged.

He doubted she would’ve wanted it if this was the cost.

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I am unmade by this boy with hands chiseled from marble; hands that have once longed to fight back against fists that bruised and scarred
I am unraveled by this boy with lips that taste like hope; lips that have once longed to shout back against words that tormented and harmed
I am undone by this boy with a body so full of life; a body that had once been an unwanted burden and a home for pain
I am unworthy of this boy who is unbelievably strong; this boy who has grown so far beyond his past and created his own future.
—  “I am unconditionally in love with Adam Parrish.”
(m.b, a pynch poem)
i made a thing

hey squad! i decided to kick off the new year with a follow forever as a way to say ‘thanks for putting up with my mediocre blog and awkward personality’ i honestly don’t know how y’all found me, and i certainly don’t get why you decided to stick around but i appreciate all of you so i thought i’d make this as a thank you (*this one’s just gonna be mutuals*)

i may have forgotten people or messed up in some other way and if i do so i’m sorry. i’d tag everyone i like and interact with but we’d all be here for five years

# - F

@1jaehyung @absentseoul @ai-akemi @alwayskpopper @a-man-in221b @anicakimjongin @bairreuniverse @bangshits @bapsaemv @bisexualraptorwrangler @bluejayfeathersandwillowtrees @borisdabear @catherine-got-no-jams @cayleighsa @chibibattystuff @click-click-bangtan @cursedtruth @cyjhope @dereks-hhale @dlcute @dr-yolojolo @expressyehet @facialcaterpillars @fanserviced @flowerboygang @frameacloud

G - L

@ghostofmoriarty @giraffes-eating-cake @gwiyeoun-cat16 @heartingboyz @heavenlyhobi @highfivesifyouregay @icantgetoverthisstupidband @ideozu @imyoong @i-wontdance @ji-m-i-n @jiminsscream @jimin-stole-my-ovaries @kim-jongdaes-booty @knightlithuania @koala-luna @kooksgf @k-splurge @k-taehyung @kwonkimchi @kyungsoosgirlfriend @lady-ohorat @little-dimsum-mandu @lizzsparkles @lovenderbacon 

M - R

@mega-arcaninex @mongjji-sky @moonbyuldear @my-sons-r-ethreal @needle-of-arya @neverfearjusticeishere @nonbinary-jimin @notadeinonychus @nvinciblesummer @nyanpez @oceansfullofgrace @oh-my-sudaddy @oneews @ourprinceachmedthetigerfucker @outtheopenwindowandunderthetree @parkhappyviruschanyeol @p-e-b-b-l-4 @pinterest–mom @potato-n-beyond @prom15etokeepthefaith @punkrock–pinup @quoththecollegestudent @rachalwithan-a @rainbow-after-the-stormy @rainyday-parade @richardthewriterheart @rubire

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@sad-peace-sign @secretanimelover @showerpandazitao @sleepyjoy @slicklikebutter @softsnsd @sterekandlarry @suhoswag @taehyungsgirl @taehyunhyun @taintedheroine @testosterlonely @thatoneguytodd @thelittlegreenmonster @the-loud-librarian @themarvelmaiden @thetastyturnip @tinyrhinoceros @tropicallaserbeams @turn-over-onew-leaf @turntup2ne1 @twentynineplanets @veeasinvictor @whats-a-whale @whyam-i-even @xiudesu @yixingsfatgirlfriend @yookduckie @youngbaae @zee-ami

thanks again everybody!

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Delena Meta Love Month
February 14 : Favorite “I Love You”

#i love the fact that she couldn’t wait to tell him how she felt #she had just realized that she was in love with him #and she couldn’t wait to tell him that #she needed him to know it #even if she didn’t tell him face to face #she needed him to know that she didn’t believe it was the sire bond #that in her heart she knew she loved him #his face when he hears her say those words is everything #up until this point we had never heard anyone tell damon they loved him #we don’t know how long it has been since damon has heard someone tell him they were in love with him #and now the girl he was so desperately in love with actually loved him back #you can tell he was so torn #because part of him wanted to be so happy and in awe that elena gilbert was in love with him #but the other part of him still was having a hard time letting himself believe it #because he spent so long feeling unworthy of it #and now when he hears those words #for just a little while he lets himself believe it #even if he isn’t convinced it’s not the sire bond #he looks up at the sky and he smiles #because his love was not longer unrequited 

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Hey Taylor! I really hope you come across this post eventually. My name is Gabi (from Brazil) and I just feel like I need to tell you this thing about me, and maybe it’s stupid and not worth, but it’s a situation I don’t know what to do. Well, for the past couple of years, I have this group of “friends” that I really wish I could count on. We always hang out together and study together, but maybe that’s not enough. Most of the time one of them make me feel so useless, unwanted and unworthy. They say they are joking, but words hurt a lot and I don’t know how not to take things seriously. I don’t want to feel those things anymore. I want a person who loves me and cares about me as much as I do. This is my last year with them, we are soon starting university, but meanwhile, what am I supposed to do? How can I make them understand they are hurting me? How can I find a true friend?

clairvoyant-heights  asked:

So I've recently (well for actually a while now) been considering converting to Buddhism and for the past few months I've been just on the line of declaration, and feeling that I still have more to learn about the religion. Right now, my question is this--if I continue to desire material things and consciously treat myself to them, does that mean I'm a bad/unworthy of calling myself a Buddhist?

If Buddhism is something you are interested in pursuing. I would try to put less emphasis on the words, ideas and thoughts about Buddhism and I would get a book that speaks to your heart, maybe one by Jack Kornfield or Thich Nhat Hanh and I would start a regular meditation practice. I would get in habit of looking into your heart, putting your attention on your inner body and seeing what is there. Taking some time each day to open your heart and just being with yourself and see.

The truth is there are many concepts and ideas and beliefs that you could adopt and tell people about and discuss. But Buddhism is not about discussing ideas and concepts. It is not about growing in knowledge or learning this or that. It is about growing in compassion and understanding. Compassion for yourself and compassion for all things. Compassion for the suffering of all things. Compassion for life. Compassion for just this. Opening up to what is inside you and seeing that there is just love and compassion there and the letting that grow in you and out of you.

‘Buddha’ means to be awake. There isn’t just one Buddha who is held above others. You can be a Buddha. To be a Buddha is simply to be awake to the truth of this whole mess we are in. To the suffering that all people have had or that face now. It’s about waking up to the truth that you are not any label you apply to yourself, no matter how fancy, spiritual or religious it is. You are you. Try to find yourself and just be.

I’m not a Buddhist, nor do I have regular conversations with any, so I don’t know if I’m the right person to ask about wether these desires make you bad or shameful. I would look at why you want to indulge in these things. Do they cover up some suffering in you? Are they meant to take away some pain? Just investigate why you are doing these things. Sit, be still, look and see what comes. You say consciously, but are you fully conscious and doing these things or is a need to escape or be something better making these decisions. Look and see. I don’t know what exactly you are desiring, but take an objective look at these desires and wants and see. If you find there is pain there that you are covering with these things, take note of it and try to come to forgiveness for yourself, try to come to an understanding of why you are suffering and work to move past that suffering.

I wouldn’t worry about what others think of you for your wanting and your desires for these material things. If they see that you are getting these things to feel good and happy, they might also see that you have yet to discover that you truly don’t need any of these things to feel happy or peaceful. This is just how you are. You can change, you may change, you may grow to unattached yourself form these things in time, you may not. Either way what they think about you doesn’t matter, you are you, you are how you are now. You can’t be any other way. Try to see that you may be attached to others opinions of you and so you may be fearful of them judging you and think bad about you, because a sense of your self is tied up in what other think of you. This may just be how you are right now. Try to just look and see. Looking and seeing this you can be freed of it and do what is best for you without needing other’s approval. If it comes it is nice, but just not needed.

I hope this helps and doesn’t raise more questions than it answers.

~greg