i'm so happy you're coming back

I realized that I didn’t know what else to do.

That’s when I finally understood… There’s nothing left to do.

You’re gone and that has to be okay with me.

—  It’s not though
We have a love so incredibly desperate and tragic that everyone around can feel the tension when you look into my eyes. Today when you and I were talking, we looked up to people’s eyes starring back at us. It’s been a long time but everyone still knows that there’s something there… Or maybe it’s just me hoping there is and they just feel sorry for me.
—  I know what I’m doing.. I think

❝ – Mari? Hey Mari, you around ? There’s a building up the way that doesn’t look touched, I feel as though we’re going to come across that candy today ❞

She opens the back door to the van, peering around the vehicle before shutting the door again and turning around, hands going to her hips as she tries to work out where the girl’s gone.  

@devd-wvlkie started following you

princessbrivee  asked:

so this is a belated happy first birthday to you but i just remembered i had stuff to say. Thanks for always being my big bro and helping me in my life (whether it's drinking advice, helping me with essays for school, or just bein there to talk to me). I'm so glad we started talking way back in 2015 because this is a friendship I wanna hold onto ❤️ you're amazing and don't let anyone tell you otherwise!

OK WELL FIRST OFF HOW DARE

Second, honestly thank you so much BB you’re a wonderful person and so so sweet. I hope nothing but good things come your way

i haven’t really seen this come up much within hetalia discourse so i feel the need to discuss it: i don’t think that the personifications are cis or straight, any one of them, and i think there’s enough basis to back that headcanon up (that goes beyond the mere fact that ‘cis’ and ‘straight’ didn’t exist as solid concepts until recently)

i’m not going to really address canon hetalia because that’s…a mess. my argument really isn’t based in canon as much as it is in actual history and queer history, in particular, as well as just the concept of hetalia itself. a quick disclaimer, though: i’m not a historian, nor do i claim to be, so while i’ve done quite an bit of research on the subject of queer history and have engaged with several disciplines that are used to study it, none of what i say is to be taken as fact. 

when one considers how old these personifications are (some far older than even a thousand years!!!) it becomes apparent that they don’t function in the same way that humans do, even though they maintain the appearance of a human and generally follow similar laws. however, they are, inherently, personifications of countries, and my personal take is that they exist thanks to some kind of magic and inhabit more or less human bodies with regenerative capabilities. they’re human enough that they have human bodies, but an entire nation really can’t be perfectly simplified to a single body and a single gender. how can one say that france, for example, is strictly a male country (despite countless historical allusions to france being referred to as a feminine entity) and ukraine is a female country (whereas the ukrainian language refers to home as ‘fatherland’ and gives the country masculine attributes through that.) you really can’t just assign a single gender to a country, because countries don’t inherently have a gender! they’re rocks, they’re soil, they’re people, they’re politics and relations, they’re culture, they’re language, they’re history, but they don’t have a gender, even when they do have a physical form and an assigned sex, as well as individual personalities that may not always align strictly with the country they personify. 

i also find it difficult to believe that any personification would strictly abide to just one specific gender throughout their entire lengthy existence. they may align themselves with one that they prefer (i won’t deny that some might have a preference; they are individuals with autonomy and personality outside of their representative nature) or one that is more convenient (i’m sure a lot of afab countries would be fed up with how they’re treated compared to their amab counterparts veryyyyy quickly) but i don’t think they consistently have to identify with one. some may be genderfluid (like hungary), others may be trans if it benefits them (as is congruent with many instances in history where afab people presented as men to obtain social freedoms and power previously denied to them) or if they simply feel that a gender other than one they were assigned to feels more right (there really doesn’t have to be a reason for them to be trans). i doubt that their gender+presentation would be consistent–every century, hell, sometimes every decade has a different concept of what gender is and how gender should be presented. when one exists for a thousand years or more, it would be clear that the definition of gender, as well as traditional views about what ‘masculinity’ and ‘femininity’ shift constantly. i’ve personally done the most research about the evolution of masculinity in the 18th and 19th centuries in western countries, and that alone is a radical shift–i’m certain there would have been previous shifts like that in earlier history as well that would affect how nations present or think of themselves. 

in the end, there is so much complexity to nations and personifications and history and i feel like a lot of it isn’t explored or even addressed. we’re quick to assign the modern notion of gender to them and ignore the vast history of gender. i think nations would have trouble keeping up with the constantly changing idea of what masculinity and femininity is, they would fail to conform on multiple occasions by accident or on purpose, and would have a very complicated relationship with gender and presentation.

as a final note that’s more just queer history–gender and sexuality has often been closely linked throughout history, so since i headcanon all nations to be pan/bi in the modern conception of the term (it makes sense considering all the alliances and marriages they have), it follows closely that gender would have been quite complicated for them, too. *i might expand on this in a future post since this one is getting reeeeally long and sexuality is another can of worms that i’d rather talk about in detail 

tldr; none of your faves are cis or straight and if you want to further discuss this, please message me!! 

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Yesterday I finally hit 1,000 followers (yay!) so I’ve decided to do something for all of you amazing people. I’ve been excited for this for awhile, and so I’m glad to announce that I’ll be doing a bit of a giveaway to thank you guys for being absolutely wonderful!

So here’s how this is going to work. I’m going to be giving away one larger item – either the mug or one of the t-shirts pictured above – to whoever wins. The winner will get to pick which one they get.

The giveaway will only take place if I get at least 20 entries! For each 10 people who enter after the twenty, I will add a vinyl to the giveaway (also pictured above). Meaning that additional names will be drawn, and they’ll receive these smaller prizes.

I’ll continue adding vinyls up until 70 entries (for a total of 5 vinyls). If I surpass this many entries, I will add another big item to the giveaway.

Additional info:

— A person can only win once. So if I draw your name twice, sorry – you still only get one prize. You can also only enter once, but feel free to reblog this as many times as you want!

— I will have to ask for your address for shipping. I’ll do this through private messages.

— WINNERS WILL NOT HAVE TO PAY ANYTHING. This included any of my amazing international (I’m from the USA) followers, with ONE exception. I will ask for additional shipping costs on the t-shirts, but that is IT. If you win a big prize and are from Europe or Australia, you can still get the mug without having to pay for shipping. If you’d prefer a t-shirt, I will request something to help with shipping, but it will be relatively cheap. As for my followers in the USA, you don’t have to worry about this at all.

— If I don’t hit 20 entries this will not happen. But, hey, free stuff. Why not enter?

— If you’re confused, send me an ask or a private message. I’d be glad to clear things up :)

— After I choose the winners it may take some time for the items to arrive. I’ll keep you all updated.

— I plan for this to run for about a week. Maybe two. Again, I’ll keep you all updated.

Anyone interested? Here’s how to enter:

- Be one of my outstanding followers. Not a follower? Then follow me.

- Reblog this post. Put in the tags what you would want (one choice from the larger prizes, and one choice from the vinyls). Also, tell me your favorite Wentworth ship ( not required, but you’ll make me smile! :D )

In addition to the giveaway, I will also be following everyone back for the next week :)

You know who else his crying after this fucking crazy episode? Martin Wallström. My beautiful son only wanted a kiss with elliot, but noooooo. Are you happy sam esmail?! You broke his heart. That’s why he disappeared from the internet. So he didn’t need to talk about his suffering…

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57′ Goal Alvaro Morata - Assist Paul Pogba

Morata comes back to haunt his former team once again.Juventus do well to keep possession as Pogba heads a ball through for Morata who finishes clinically past Casillas! Just like the first leg, he doesn’t celebrate. But his equalizing goal is what will send Juventus to the UEFA Champions League final for the first time since 2003.

So i don’t know if anyone has noticed this, but isn’t it interesting how Lucas “jealously”/back and forth with Charlie was “big, loud and obvious”, while Lucas jealously/hurt when Maya eats the card, was “real quiet” and subtle but still there.

Just found it interesting and also wasn’t Belief the last episode that aired, in which the “most of what i believe comes to me when it’s quiet” and “if you look trough a microscope you can miss the bigger picture” came to play. (I am aware that it isn’t the order continuity wise but i found it odd anyway)

If you have any thoughts on this, i would love to hear them.

Honestly I want to thanks the dgm fandom for being that amazing to be around.

Drama happens sometimes and of course there’s problems like in any fandom, and yet this is litteraly the safest I’ve ever felt in any fandoms. 

Thank you so much for being such a nice place to come back to <3