i'm so freaking nervous right now

anonymous asked:

22. Muffled, from the other side of the door - Stony please and not too angsty hehe. THANKS!

Okay, this is super late nonnie, but thank you so much for the prompt <3 This is my first time writing for Steve/Tony, hope you like it and it’s not too angsty for you!

This is also for @captainstarkreportingforduty​ as a late birthday present, thank you for being awesome and for being the most amazing friend :DD

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“You’re gonna have to talk to him sooner or later, you know?”

Steve acknowledged Natasha’s entrance with a nod before looking down at his sketchbook. He always liked to draw whenever he was upset and today was no exception, except this time the subject of this particular sketch was also the reason for his bad mood, and that didn’t help at all.

“He’s just gonna take what I say the wrong way and we’ll end up fighting again.” Nat approached the couch, nudging Steve aside to make space for herself.

“Well, considering you accused him of a reckless adrenaline junkie, I’m not sure how else you wanted him to take that. Rhodey says he’s been in the workshop for two days.”

Steve sighed and buried his face in his hands, fighting back the urge to march down to Tony’s workshop and check on him. Two days wasn’t even close to the longest amount of time he’d spent absorbed in a project, but he usually had Steve or Rhodey to remind him that food was something he needed every few hours or so to function properly, and he always asked JARVIS to lock them out whenever he was in a mood.

“I know! I just- you know I didn’t mean it like that, Nat.” she smiled, placing a hand on his shoulder. “Of course you didn’t Steve, but Tony can’t see that. When you yell at him for being stupid and reckless enough to take a shot for you, it’s because of you love him, and you can’t stand to see him hurt, especially for you.”

Steve blushed, opening his mouth to issue an immediate denial, when Nat laughed, shooting a knowing look in his direction. “Don’t even bother Rogers, every single person on this team knows you think the sun sets and rises on Tony’s shoulders. In fact, I’m pretty sure you spend most of your time doodling “Steve loves Tony” in your sketchbook when you’re not drawing him in the workshop for the millionth time.” She paused. “Well, I’m not sure Tony knows. Although how that’s possible I have absolutely no clue, considering you moon after him even more than he does for you, and the boy’s got it bad.”

“He doesn’t-I-” Steve shook his head, placing his sketchbook down on the table. “I fucked up Nat. He’s cares so much about everyone on this team and he tries so hard to help people because he still can’t see how much of a godamn hero he is, and then I go off and accuse him of risking people’s lives for his own enjoyment. I just - I can’t stand it whenever he throws himself in harm’s way for me, not when the serum can take it.” He swallowed. “Not when he’s the person I love the most in the entire world.”

“Wow. You finally said it. Steve Rogers everyone, finally back from his swim in the Nile.” He laughed, leaning backwards against the couch. “I knew, I just didn’t want to say it, because that would make it real. And if it’s real that means I have to tell him. I need him, Nat. I love him, but more than that I need him. I couldn’t live with wrecking our friendship over this.”

Natasha met his eyes with a considering look. “And how is this any better? Blowing up at him because you’re too afraid to tell him how you feel, pushing him away when you feel too much at the thought that he might get hurt? We’re Avengers, Steve, we stare death in the face on a pretty regular basis, and if you really love Tony, that’s something you’re going to have to accept. He wouldn’t be the man you love if he didn’t risk his life every day to save others, to save you. Don’t make your love a weakness, make a strength. Tell him.”

Steve let out a breath. “Well what the hell am I supposed to say, Nat?” “Tony, I’m so sorry I yelled at you for being reckless, the truth is the thought of you getting hurt in my place tears me up inside because I’m stupidly head over heels in love with you and have been for months?” He heard a loud clatter and looked up, only to find Tony staring at him, mouth open in astonishment, his porcelain coffee mug shattered in pieces across the floor.

“Steve-” Tony started to speak, but Steve was up in an instant, fleeing from the room in a dead run, his breath coming in short panicked breaths as his world compressed down to an overwhelming feeling of sick dread. Tony knew. It was all out in the open now – no more pretending that the sight of Tony half-asleep and incoherent in the mornings didn’t send his heart aflutter, no more biting down a flood of jealousy at the sight of Tony charming investors at a charity gala… Tony knew and it was all over now.

He turned the corner, finally reaching his room before slamming the door shut behind him. He sank to the floor, face in his hands. He always knew Tony never feel the same way about him, but the look of utter shock on his face when he heard Steve’s words was almost too much to bear, as if Tony had never even considered Steve as a romantic possibility.

Suddenly behind him he heard a frantic knock on the door. “Steve? Steve- it’s me.” It was Tony, his voice desperate. At the sound of his voice, Steve looked up. Oh god, just when he thought things couldn’t get worse, now here was Tony was chasing after him, either to offer him comfort before having the “I just want to be friends talk”, or worse, to break off their friendship entirely. Steve cleared his throat, hoping against hope that his voice would remain steady. “Tony, I’m fine, I just – I just need to be alone for while. It’s fine.” It was absolutely, extremely not fine, but it’s not like Steve could open his eyes and suddenly wake up in an alternate universe where instead of being horrified at Steve’s confession, Tony returned his feelings so he didn’t really have any other options.

“No wait Steve you don’t understand! I-“ Steve sighed loudly. Why couldn’t Tony just make things easier for him? Confessing his feelings and being accidentally overhead was bad enough, now he had to put on a brave face about it. He stood up, his hand on the doorknob, when he heard Tony’s voice from the other side of the door “Steve, I’m- I’m in love with you too. I’m sorry I reacted badly, I just didn’t expect it, and I was thought you were still-“

His words were cut off by a loud bang as Steve threw the door open, and there was Tony standing in front of him, tired and like he did after he had spent days on a project in the workshop, but his eyes were bright, there was a small nervous smile on his face. He was the most beautiful thing Steve had ever seen.

“You love me?” his voice came out wobbly and disbelieving, but he couldn’t bring himself to care when Tony grinned and nodded, moving closer into his space. “Yeah, I do.” He looked down before hesitantly tangling their fingers together, sending a curl of warmth through Steve’s stomach. And what you said about the thought of me being hurt because of you tearing you up inside? That’s how I feel whenever you get hurt, so I’m not gonna apologize for taking a hit for you when I can.”

Steve smiled, putting his arms around Tony and pulling him impossibly close. “And why is that?”

Tony laughed, beaming up at him. “Because I love you, jerk.”

ekinsellaauthor  asked:

Hey Jenna! I'm on the very last review of my manuscript before I format it for publishing. I always find myself procrastinating and getting really nervous right before I put anything out there. It flowed really well until I got about 2/3 done and now I'm struggling to push forward. Did you get scared before you put Eve out into the world? I won't ask for advice since I KNOW I just have to suck it up, but I'm curious as to your experience :) Thanks!

I’m going to be 100% real with you: I was terrified to release EVE. One night I was freaking out so hard, I bawled my eyes out (I cry maybe once a year so this is a big deal), woke Cliff up, and needed him to baby me the entire night. I can honestly say with zero exaggeration that I’ve never been so anxious in my entire life as I was during the release (before and during) of EVE - and I have generalized anxiety disorder, so that’s saying something. 

Also, I was drunk the entire release week of EVE. It was all I could do to calm myself down. I’m not condoning the behavior - it’s obviously not healthy. I’m just being honest.

In other words, yes, I was very scared, and I understand the struggle. You’ll get through it. It’s just nerve-racking along the way O_O

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Woah!

What’s this, yoshi? I look like a die, but with lots of strange things on it! Hmm? A fidget cube? Is it like those fidget spinners everyone is talking about, yoshi?

Oh!

I see now, yoshi! It helps some people calm down when they’re nervous, and it lets other people take their minds off things or keep their hands busy! What a good little invention, yoshi! I’m glad it helps so many people! And Minder is right…it is very soothing yoshi! Haa…~

anonymous asked:

So I'm going to be a Freshman in High School and I am currently looking for advice/tips because I'm nervous as heck and I don't know what to expect (hey that sorta rhymes). Thanks for your time :)

Nice rhyme, haha! :)  All right, so if this helps, please know that everyone else is just as scared as you are about starting freshman year!  I definitely was! But now, as a senior, I can assure you that it’s all going to be just fine.

  • in addition to lunch, pack a snack! i always keep a granola bar in my backpack in case i get hungry between classes (or if my teacher let us eat)
  • not to freak you out, but colleges will be seeing your courses/grades from your underclassmen years, so please don’t procrastinate and try your hardest.  i know it can be annoying, but it’s awesome if you can finish your homework either at school or right when you get home- having the rest of the night free is SUCH AN AWESOME FEELING.  also, get big projects out of the way asap.  they’re huge stressors.
  • i know you’ve heard this before, but i’ll say it again; JOIN CLUBS/SPORTS! they are honestly failsafe ways to make friends and have fun doing what you love- plus, it’ll make your applications/resumes stellar!
  • go with the flow.  accept now that things are going to go horribly, terribly wrong.  you’ll make mistakes.  but that’s perfectly fine- if you try to see the big picture, you’ll realize that a lot of things in high school won’t matter in the long run!  
  • but in all honesty, i’ve had a really fun high school experience- it’s been so much better than i expected.  it took me a few weeks to adjust, so don’t panic if you don’t like it at first, but i think you’re going to have a good time.  it’s way better than middle school, at the very least.  make the most of it, because before you know it, you’ll be applying for colleges and maybe moving away.  be friendly, take pictures, and act smart.  best of luck! <3

thomassandersfan  asked:

Omg! Did you know that the finebros just posted a vine and it says that you'll be in tommorow's kids react??!? Tbh I'm freaking out right now. Congratulations!

I know!!!! I’m so nervous!!! I hope they like me for the most part! Haha