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When Everything’s Made to be Broken (I Just Want You to Know Who I Am) Part 46

Hey, look what I finally got to do!!  No lie, it felt like a great big hug when I finally got to sit and write.  I have a paper due in 10 hours and 5 minutes that I haven’t started?  What?  I don’t know what you’re talking about, ha ha ha…

Plot:  When you inadvertently become a witness to a murder and are suddenly a target for death, it takes a specially skilled soldier and his team to keep you and your family safe.

This will eventually be a is a reader x Bucky fic. The reader, by the way, is a civilian. No super powers, no fighting skills, and by no means perfect.  

Word count: 3081

Warnings:

For the entire work:  Language (I have a potty mouth), violence, and angst.  This will probably get pretty dark later on, and there will be smut.  If that’s not your thing, you may want to avoid this story.

Additional warnings specific to this part: Mentions of guns, violence, death,panic/anxiety, and injury    If I need to add anything else, PLEASE LET ME KNOW.  If you don’t want me to publish the ask, I won’t, or you can feel free to do it as a Nonnie.  I will not take offense to any trigger warning requests.   Your well-being is important to me and I do NOT want to trigger anyone.

***I do not own any of the lyrics/music in this story, so please don’t sue me for using them***

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Previously on WEMtbB:

“I’m sorry,” he mumbles when he reluctantly breaks the kiss, pressing his forehead to yours.  “I know this isn’t the time or place, I just needed to feel you, to convince myself that I’m really here with you.”

You huff a quiet laugh in response as your fingers caress his scruff. “Don’t be, I was just thinking the exact same thing.“

You each hold the other, taking the opportunity to breathe each other in. Like all good things, it can’t last nearly long enough.  

Bucky pulls away, but remains close enough to maintain bodily contact.  “I need to check in with Stark, Sweetheart.  We’re getting you out of here tonight.”

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sinerwhoisasin  asked:

Hi miya, so I found bts members alleged birth time in an anon ask in another blog and I thought I should show it to you ( Jin - 1:37 pm
Yoongi - 7:30 am
Namjoon - 12:00 noon
Hoseok - 10:00 am
Jimin - 10:43 pm
Taehyung - 5:56 am
Jungkook - 8:04 am ) I already tested them and it seems its real. Tell me what you think about it? 🤓

I’m shaking right now, no joke. So many feelings. I opened each one of them and they do make a lot of sense… Some of them even have Ascendants I’ve discussed with anons in this blog. I’M SO EMOTIONAL RIGHT NOW, I DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW TO THANK YOU.

But ok. Let’s calm down (you’re the only that is not calm, miya!!). Like. I don’t wanna get too excited in case these are fake. I need proof. Did that anon mention where he got it from? Also, is there a source? Sorry if I’m sounding too cautious but I can’t help it. Specially because, for example, opening Yoongi’s it does make a lot of sense but it also would imply in many, many romantic relationships and although it could certainly be the case I would never know for sure because we know nothing abut his romantic life (maybe only with scandals when he’s way older but then will I even still exist?? no drama ofc). And Jimin’s shows a lot of shit I’d rather believe are not true (talking about his future, not his ways). I don’t know. I’m so confused right now. lol Overall Hoseok’s is the one that least makes sense but it’s mostly because I did think he got it bad regarding a few subjects but not this bad… Damn, I’m so emotional right now, I’m sorry. lol Can you please show me that ask? So I can get where the person got this information from. And then if it sounds plausible I’ll discuss the rest of the charts. Again, sorry if I’m sounding too paranoid but you get my point, right? I only read charts with the birth times when I have real proof, I’ve been fooled before so yeah. Sorry and thanks again so fucking much??

re·al·i·za·tion

noun

The moment of sudden clarity when feelings are finally recognized, or are made aware for the first time.


It hit you one random afternoon in the studio, a soft beat filling the silence in the small, dimly lit room as you curled up even more snugly into Yoongi’s blanket on the black leather sofa. His back faced towards you, bits of his blueish black hair sticking out from beneath his black beanie, his head bobbing slightly to the beat as he clicked away on his mouse. From the side, you could see the black mask tucked under his chin with one strap behind each ear, his fair skin strikingly pale due to the contrast with his dark clothing and onyx eyes. He chewed on his bottom lip in concentration, mumbling softly to himself as his other hand fiddled around with the different controls on his sound board. He was in the zone, as per usual, and over the course of the past few months, you’d come to learn very quickly that he did not appreciate being bothered while he was in this state. Just like the very first time you’d met in your composition class.

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anonymous asked:

HI DO U KNOW LAW'S FINGERS SPELLING DEATH ACTUALLY SPELT T & E CAN U IMAGINE KID TELLING HIM WE ARE MEANT TO BE HAHA OMG WHEN I REALISED THIS I WAS LIKE I GOTTA TELL MARIDOODLES!!! Maybe I'll write it in my fanfic hehe

THAT’S SO CUTE OMG I’M SO HAPPY

anonymous asked:

Hey Ashlee, I don't know if you watched the Moana clip (or even into Disney, sorry I'm kinda new here), where she was a little girl and playing with the sea. I don't know, but I can't help imagine this happening to little Percy when he's in Montauk. I don't know, what do you think. Anyways, I hope you have an amazing day and thank you for all the wonderful writing pieces that you've made, they really are amazing!

Thank you so much!!!! You have come to the right place, Disney and PJO are my two main loves.

I loooove the Moana trailer, I’m so excited for the movie and I definitely couldn’t stop thinking of little bby Percy the whole time I was watching it. I definitely think that he would have done things like that at Montauk - imagine Sally watching on with a fond smile as he babbled happily, playing with the waves. Imagine Poseidon using that as a way to foster a connection with baby Percy????

Oh, my heart

Do you see that man?

DO YOU SEE HIM?
















Now picture him seeing Regina again…

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Happy 48th birthday Lisa Edelstein! (May 21st, 1966)

➜ 

“I’m an actress. That’s about as close to being a hooker as you can get.

Ghost

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“Kiss me in the corridor”

You kissed his lips one last time as the boys yelled for him to hurry up.

Placing his forehead against yours, he closed his eyes, trying to memorize everything about you.

It’ll go by faster than you think,” you said, trying to convince yourself more than him.

Smiling sadly, he reached up a hand to brush your cheek.

It would be even faster if you just came with me… Theres still time for you to pack a bag you know”

Walking forwards, you hid your face in his shirt, trying to hide the tears already falling from your eyes.

But it didn’t matter, he could still hear the pain in your voice.

You know i can’t… God i want to so bad but uni-”

“I know i know, university has priority over me.”

Sniffling, you still managed to let out a small giggle, smacking him on his arm.

Don't say it like that! That makes me sound like a terrible girlfriend!”

Sticking out his tongue, he responded jokingly.

You are a terrible girlfriend! You’re denying me the right as a boyfriend to kiss you everyday… cuddle with you… even touch your butt anytime i want”

Letting out a full laugh as he let his hands wander down, you shook your head as he chuckled alongside you.

You never wanted this moment to end, but you didn’t have a choice.

CALUM! WE HAVE TO GO MATE! COME ON!”

Both of your smiles faded, turning back to solemn faces.

You’re right, it will go faster than we think… I promise…”

Letting out a small sob, you just nodded your head, not wanting to talk.

Watching you, he felt his heart breaking. Maybe he shouldn’t go through with this. He hated seeing you so broken.

Staring in his eyes, you realized what he was thinking.

Quickly trying to muster up some courage, you put on a fake smile, giving him one last kiss.

Go… You need to go… We’ll figure this out okay?”

Pulling his forehead down, you placed a soft kiss before continuing to talk.

I promise”

Giving you one last hug, he said his last goodbye before walking out the corridor.

I love you”

“I love you too…… Now go before they leave you behind!”

Pushing him, he sprinted across the lawn to meet the rest of the boys by the van.

Smiling, he gave you one last wave before driving off.

Closing the door, you let out a long breath.

All you had to do was survive the next 4 months and then he would be back.

Everything would go back to normal.

Or at least you thought it would.

You hadn’t expected his whole life to change.

“You’re a Rolling Stone boy”

Watching him talk animatedly in front of you, you realized he was different.

Not in a bad way… He just wasn’t the same boy who left a few months ago.

This one was stronger, more confident, even happier.

The band had blown up so much, more than anyone could have imagined. They were finally getting the recognition they deserved and you couldn’t have been more excited.

Babe thats great! I can't believe this is all finally happening for you guys”

“I know! Its unbelievable… Almost doesn’t seem real.”

Smiling, you settled yourself in his lap, giving him a long kiss.

As amazing as this all is… I'm honestly just glad you’re finally home. Everything just feels right again”

As your were talking, you noticed his smile start to turn into a small frown.

Right… Um… About that…”

Furrowing your eyebrows, you gave him a confused look.

He let out a small sigh, dreading the conversation you both were about to have.

I really did think i would be home for a while but since things are picking up so quickly for the band, thats not going to be the case anymore. Management wants us to finish the album as soon as possible.”

Quiet, you still weren’t sure what that meant.

Avoiding your gaze, he kept talking.

“This means we have to fly back to LA to complete it before the next leg of the tour starts…… I'm leaving in a few days”

As soon as you processed what he said, you felt your stomach drop instantly.

“Oh”

Panicking, he started rushing the rest of his words.

But i talked to the boys and our manager and they’re all cool with you coming along, so what do you say?”

He beamed at you with the brightest smile while you stayed emotionless.

Cal i can’t… Finals are coming up… things aren't easy right now.”

Face falling, he focused his eyes on your shorts, playing with the hem.

“…Oh”

“…Yea”

You didn’t know what to say anymore.

While his new life was taking off, his old one with you seemed almost unreal.

You were so scared the end was coming up soon.

He was becoming a rolling stone while you stayed a set of lonely bones.

Raising his eyes, he watched your face as the thoughts ran through your mind.

Hesitating, he started to ramble.

We’ll figure something out… Maybe i can leave early and spend the last few days here before tour… Or you can come for a weekend… Anything… dont give up just yet”

You watched as he desperately tried to think of something to keep your relationship alive.

Snapping out of your mindset, you focused on him again.

Definitely… we’ll find a way around this… we always do”

At first giving you a relieved smile, he instantly turned it into a mischievous grin. 

Well since we have such a short amount of time now… might as well make it last right?”

Wiggling his eyebrows, he threw you backwards onto the couch, kissing your neck as your laughter fill the room. 

Raising up, he looked deeply into your eyes, letting you know how much he loved you, causing you to remember why you stuck around.

He was were you wanted to be and there was no way either of you were giving up that easily.

At least you weren’t.

He was a different story.

“I can’t find you in the body sleeping next to me”

You had your head placed carefully onto his chest as his arms fell lazily around you, letting out soft snores.

Quietly, you raised a hand to softly trace one of his tattoos.

You missed so much the way he felt against you. You figured he missed your touch as well but now you weren’t so sure.

He had just returned from the last leg of the tour, a big finish for the band. You hadn’t been able to see him since he left for LA a few months ago.

And this time, it wasn’t even because of uni.

Everything had been set up for you to go visit him but management meddled in. They claimed it wouldn’t be good for the bands image for one of the members to have girlfriend so quick in the game. 

Basically, this meant you had to keep your whole relationship a secret.

No more dates, outside visits, or public mentions on social medias.

Everything stayed within closed doors.

At first neither of you really cared, it keep things simple and out of the public eye. He even agreed to come visit on his own since you could come to him.

But even then, that hadn’t happened.

Again management wanted more publicity put in for the boys, so that kept him busy up until tour started. 

Slowly, you had to push away the gnawing feeling in the back of you head, and went along with everything. There was always small breaks in the tour for him to come see you. You had to keep thinking towards that. He always kept telling you to focus on that.

But yet again, nothing ever happened.

There was always something that got in the way.

Publicity, recording, photo shoots.

All things he said needed to be done, out of management’s request.

This lead to shorter phone calls, missed Skype sessions, even unanswered texts for days.

Which he always blamed on the same thing.

Management.

But you knew better.

Management didn’t make him go out every night.

They didn’t make him cozy up to countless girls.

Hell, they for sure didn’t place that cigarette in his hand.

You saw him slowly change even further away from the boy who left all those months ago into someone you weren’t sure you knew anymore.

Did he even know who he was?

You felt him shift some under your touch, eyes fluttering open.

He looked down at you with a small frown.

Why are you still awake?”

Shrugging, you kept on tracing his tattoo.

Couldn't fall asleep”

He grabbed your hand softly in his and brought it up to his lips.

You know, I’m the one who’s supposed to be jet lagged here… Not you”

Giggling, you pulled you hand from his, pushing up to give him a kiss before laying onto your side.

Shut up and go back to sleep Hood”

Stretching, he refused.

Nope, not until you fall asleep too”

Moving to be on his side, he laced his hand with yours, nose to nose with you.

I missed you so much”

Silently gulping, you felt the gnawing feeling push forwards again.

You wanted to believe him.

You really did.

But, you knew he wasn’t being 100 percent truthful.

Shaking your thoughts, you kissed him quickly on the nose before pushing his hair back from him forehead, something you knew put him to sleep.

I missed you too Cal… Now get some rest, we can talk later… Right now you need sleep”

Grunting, he was already on his way back to falling asleep.

After a few minutes, you realized he was out cold again.

Resting your hand in front of you, you traced the features of his face with your eyes.

You did miss him.

The part you of him you realized you couldn’t find in the body sleeping next to you.

“What happened to the soul that you used to be?”

Now that he was back home, you hoped he would turn back into the boy you loved. You prayed he would see the difference or understand what he had become.

But he didn’t.

Even though he was away from management for a while, he still acted like you didn’t exist in his new world.

Clubbing, smoking, drinking.

That was his priority 90 percent of the time.

There was the occasional moments he would go back to a version of his old self and remember you existed. 

It kept you in hopes he would come back.

But it never lasted.

The more he embraced the lifestyle that was thrown at him, the more you felt yourself wanting to walk away.

Eventually you started pulling a last ditch effort to make him understand he wasn’t the same. Little by little you started picking fights and arguments with him. You thought you could get him to snap. Get him to focus on making better choices. You wanted… no needed… him to be the soul he used to be.

But he didn’t want it.

He didn’t see why you couldnt just be happy for him.

You knew how much he wanted this, he thought you wanted it to.

And you did.

At first.

You just hadn’t realized the reality of it all.

“Im searching for something that i can’t reach” 

You watched him across the room as he threw his hands up in the air, veins popping out from his neck.

Quiet, you made no move to show any response.

You were done.

Everything… from the pictures… to the tweets… even his own wandering eyes.

You finally had enough.

No matter how much you searched for the boy you once fell in love with, there was just no reaching him anymore.

You felt a lone tear slip down your face without any warning.

Shifting your eyes away from him, you hoped he hadn’t seen.

But he did.

Stopping mid sentence, he clenched his jaw, hating what everything had come to.

I dont know what you want from me anymore”

Blinking away a few tears, you just shrugged, speaking in a small voice.

I dont know”

Rolling his eyes, he turned around to throw his hands up in defeat… Something he hadn’t stopped doing since he came home that morning.

Wow that’s rich, you pick an argument and then cant even fight your own battle? Fucking waste of time and breath if you ask me”

Shakily looking back to him, you shook your head.

That was it.

No more.

Sorry you feel that way about me… Didn’t know i was such a inconvenience to you.”

Anger faltering, he tried to keep up his stance but he started to worry where this argument was about to turn to.

I didn’t mean it like that, stop trying to twist my words”

Letting out a dark laugh, you stared at him in disbelief.

Then what the fuck did you mean Calum? Please enlighten me”

You saw fear flash through his eyes but quickly get hidden again behind his anger.

His temper was overpowering everything else inside him.

Im talking about your constant bitching. Its like nothing i do is good enough anymore ”

“You? YOU FEEL LIKE YOURE NOT GOOD ENOUGH?”

Silent, he watched you with wide eyes. 

He had never seen you so angry.

Ignoring his now pleading look, you shook your head.

You know what, you were right. This is a waste of time and breath.”

Pausing, you held his eyes through your blurry vision. 

Im done”

As soon as those two words fell from your lips, everything he built up, fell.

Through everything that happened between you both, he never once thought you would ever say those words.

Wh-what?”

Blinking quickly, you fought to stop the tears, but they were to heavy.

You heard me Calum… Im done”

Not wanting to believe you, he let out panicked words.

What do you mean you’re done? You mean you're done with this conversation? Then okay its done, we dont have to bring it up again.”

Broken, you hated seeing him so distressed.

Thats not what i mean…. You know that”

Shaking his head, he looked like a little boy doing everything he can to fight the truth.

You’re done with today… that’s fine, we’ll fix this tomorrow okay? Lets just watch a movie and calm down for a bit… Cuddle and-”

“Calum stop!”

Taking in shallow breaths, he had his own tears falling from his eyes.

Im done with this…. Us… I can’t do it anymore”

You watched his adams apple bob in his throat as he tried to talk steadily.

You dont mean that”

“Yea… I do”

Rushing forwards, he grabbed both of your hands in his, staring with pleading eyes.

No… You dont… We always fight like this, but then it all gets better, Okay? So say you dont mean that…Please”

You heard his last word crack, breaking the last piece of you.

Taking in a deep breath, you pulled away.

But dont you get it? Thats not okay! There’s a reason we always fight! and that reason is plain and simple….. I dont belong in your world anymore.”

“No, thats fucking bullshit and you know it!”

You ran your hands down your face, wishing he would just let you go.

No its not! You have this new lifestyle that i can’t keep up with! Even management sees that!”

“Fuck what management says! I can’t lose you! You’re the one thing in my life that makes me feel sane!”

Staying quiet, you contemplated for a split second to take it all back.

You didn’t want to leave.

You loved him.

You needed him the same way he needed you.

But staring at the boy in front of you, you couldnt do it.

No matter how much you wanted to think he was the same Calum you fell in love with, he just wasnt.

You didn’t like this new person.

He needed someone to accept this change.

And it just wasnt you.

Cal… I love you so much… But i just can't”

His face flashed from hurt to anger within seconds.

Fine! Fucking leave! Don’t let the door hit you on the way out!”

Pushing past you, he stormed out of the back door, slamming it.

Numb, you walked up to your room to pack your things, knowing there was nothing left to say.

You started grabbing bags and filling them up as much as you could.

The more and more you emptied out the room, you started to feel panic set in.

Each time you placed something in your bag, you silently hoped he would come stop you.

Sounded silly since it was what you wanted but you werent sure if you made the right decision.

Didn’t matter though.

There was no turning back now.

Walking back down the stairs, you glanced out the back window one last time.

He was hunched over on the porch rail, back tense.

He was making no move to stop you.

Just like you wanted.

Or at least like you thought you did.

Placing the house keys on the counter, you took one last look around.

After today, you would be gone from his life, nothing but a memory.

You would be his ghost.

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Super cheesy and lame i know dont hate me🙈

Ive just had this song stuck in my head for so many days now its ridiculous, like its one of my favorite songs and all but omg I’m going crazy. Idk basically i decided to just write a mini story around it😁

ANYWAYS super sorry I’ve been missing for a while, family emergency came up that needed to be my priority for a while. Still is but i got this written quickly to one: give you guys something new and two:  TO GET THIS SONG OUT OF MY HEAD😭

Btw I am working on the next chapter for SL! Just still distracted from whats going on at home, but I'm working on it so expect that soon!

Whoa something i didn’t even think about, do y'all know this song? please tell me you do omg😳 
Im gonna leave out the artists name to see who knows it, because now I’m super curious👀  
Let me know if you do but clicking this dude: 

So like i know this wasnt the best piece I’ve written but i tried, hope you kinda liked it! Definitely let me know what you thought. Hope to talk to some of you guys soon!

Much Love❤️