i'm really so very sorry i don't even know

Guys, I’m having an emotional moment and I just wanted to tell you how much I appreciate all of you.

I know I am not super duper active on the blog and haven’t made original content in ages and I really want to do more stuff here and I feel bad for not being around.

I’m just battling my mental health issues and they’ve been getting so much worse lately. I’m trying my best to just get myself together and be the best person I can be for people around me.

I never expected this blog to blow up like it did and I just really need you to know I’m not neglecting you guys.  I really want ya’ll to be happy and I love this fandom so much.

Thank you for support, it means A WORLD to me. You are all too too sweet for my bad bad self.

listen – leslie is my heart and soul. he’s been my child for so many years and is so very, very important to me. just knowing that even one person may feel the same is overwhelming in ?? the best way ?? just. I’m really emotional rn and I’m gonna keep this part short so I can write some sappy crap about a few very important people below. 

@fateddivine​. my cheese. my best friend. my sister !! I love you and I know we don’t write often anymore ( lmao all my fault tbh ) but you’re my sharktatorchip always okay ?? you are so strong and so brave and so talented and honestly I’m just really lucky to have you in my life and I can’t wait to see you next spring. also, you’re the one who let me use your email two years ago to make leslie’s blog for the very first time when I was too lazy to make a new one and just … LMAO literally without you there’d be no les ( or me ) so. I just love you sm.

@loveruined​. sobs. I still can’t believe we’ve technically known each other for a long ass time yet we didn’t get close until a year or two ago – if I would’ve known the amazing friend I’d have then I’d of wiggled my way into your life sooner tbh. you are one of mine and leslie’s biggest cheerleaders and you’ve always loved him as if he were your own and I can’t tell you how much that means to me. I look up to you so much and I’m so thankful to have met you and one day I really hope we end up on the same corner of the earth again but like a tad bit closer so that we can discuss uni vs college and make poop jokes in person. also jane is both my child and my mom and jamie loves her sm despite acting like a total ass. 

@strangewebs. okay, but – you are LITERALLY the reason leslie exists. if it wasn’t for you talking me into bringing him to this hellsite, he might still be just a brain child I only semi-write on paper when the inspo strikes. and can we just talk about ?? how fucking sweet and creative and talented and amazing you are ?? like I don’t think you understand how much I adore you and I feel so honored every day that you’re my friend. you’ve supported me in every direction I’ve tried to take les ( lmao so many ) and you always give me honest feedback and you’re just super duper important to me and I’d fight the world for u.

@alleyspat​. mY BRO. holy heck I’m pretty sure we’re just family at this point. we’ve both been through so much since meeting each other and gone through some major changes and I’m just so glad I have you there beside me. you’ve supported me in real life woes as well as writing woes and your talent and dedication to your muses never ceases to astound me. you’re a role model and every time I see your face on my dash or feed it makes me so darn happy. you just ?? you deserve the world. don’t let anyone ever tell you any different. 

@serialclown​. carling, do you have any idea how much I adore you ?? you are just … so fucking talented and so fucking resilient and so fucking soft and kind and I’m just really honored that we’re as close as we are. you and cutter mean so much to leslie and I both and you’re both a huge part of why this blog is still even here, including the literal reason I brought les back in the first place. you have amazing taste in muses and no matter what your brain tells you, you are one of the most brilliant writers I know. keep your chin up, okay ??

list of more ppl I adore under the cut !! 

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55nova  asked:

Hey there~! I'm planning on writing a blind character so I would like to know some "do and don't" things so I can make them feel real, and not fall into misrepresentation. I'm just trying to tell a story about everyday people doing everyday stuff! (I hope you get what I'm trying to say, English isn't my first language, sorry)

Hey there! First of all, that’s really awesome and I’m excited that you’re doing that! I would loooove to read it when you do it!!

As for your question, this is definitely very broad, but I’ll do my best.

Definitely avoid stereotypes and cliches. Things like touching faces, cliche lines about how “even though I can’t see the world, I can see the truth just fine” and other “””cute””” but really just weird things like that. Even placing way too much emphasis on the way they are doing things by touch or sound can be awkward and uncomfortable, so try to talk about it casually. When you write a sighted character, you don’t go into detail about how their eyes physically moved and looked over each item, pupils dialating and reversing with the slight shifts in light until their visual sonar or whatever pinpoints the exact object, you know? Don’t make a big deal over non-visual skills like skimming over surfaces to find something on the counter or looking for the cereal box in the cabinet. Don’t always feel the need to say “his fingers roamed over the items in the cabinet until they came across the exact shape, size, and texture of the cereal box” every time, you know? Subtlty is sooo refreshing and makes it normal instead of weird and “other.” Make it casual. Don’t avoid talking about those non-visual techniques or anything because showing that that’s how blind people can really do stuff is important and it’s nice as blind people to see mentions of it, but again, keep it casual and normal most of the time, just like you do when writing a perfectly sighted character.

In general, just do exactly what you were saying you wanted to do: make them just a normal person doing normal stuff. Blind jokes are chill here and there, but too many is weird and not funny. Make a point of showing them just doing ordinary stuff like laundry or whatever like everyone else and just being casual and normal about it, not going into deapth about “oh how complicated it must be to do laundry as a blind person!” or whatever.

I think because you’re already so conscious of the fact that you want to make them normal and likable, you’re probably right on track! Just do your research about how blind people casually and easily complete the same tasks as everyone else so you know how those assistive tools work and keep it just as normal and un-special as all the other characters. Focus on the events of their life in the story, not on their blindness. That’s one of the best things to see!


Combeferre: Basically if the person has fought for freedom, or is currently fighting for freedom, Enjolras likes them

Enjolras: Or if they help people!

Combeferre: Or if they help people.

anonymous asked:

I'm hoe for him also! But I really don't have any plots in mind. Wait actually I do, how would Lotor react to his s/o being Allura sister?

okay i know i said that i was going to only do Keith until i was done but 1. i’m a hoe for drama and 2. i’m an even bigger hoe for lotor so i couldn’t help myself. sorry i didn’t make it very long.

“Can’t you just….” You fished for the words as you walked through the ship, trailing behind your boyfriend, “Not kill them? Like just capture Voltron and let the paladins go?”

He scoffed, “Sweetheart, you know that I can’t do that. And besides,” He turned on his heel and made eye contact with you, “Why would I?”

You felt your throat clog under his piercing gaze, and decided that now was not the best time to explain anything to him. Awkwardly, you managed to get out, “No reason,” with a small laugh.

Lotor raised an eyebrow at you before deciding to just let you be.

“I was so close to getting them this time!” Lotor said, “That Blue Paladin girl is really something else. She’s not the best but she’s pretty talented.”

You felt your heart beat accelerate at the mention of your sister, “So uhm, what stopped you from getting to them?”

He shrugged, “It wasn’t worth it, I can feel their defenses crumbling. I’ll just wait for the right time.” You let out a silent breath of relief. No matter how much you supported Lotor, you didn’t want anything to happen to your sister. It was better Lotor got her than Zarkon though.

You longed for the carefree days where you used to just randomly mention your sister to Lotor, never giving away a name - only small memories of the two of you. Now you feared that any little bit of information could kill her off.

“They’re close, sir,” Zethrid announced to Lotor.

“Good, I’ll get ready and meet them myself. Today will be the day that I get rid of the paladins and get Voltron.”

You quickly started following after your boyfriend. When he got to his chamber and reached for his knife, you stopped him by placing a hand on it as well. “Lotor wait, please don’t kill Allura!”

He stopped, “Who?”

“The Blue Paladin- Please don’t kill her.” He raised an eyebrow at you.

“Why not?”

“Because…she’s my sister.”

“She’s you’re what?” Lotor asked, eyes wide. His jaw slackened before he started walking briskly to the front of the ship. 

“Lotor, please-” You started but were cut off by him giving out orders over your voice.

“Zethrid, call of the drones. Acxa, get back on this ship. We’re leaving.” He turned to look at you, his eyes holding a power so much stronger than yours, “And you.” He tutted, “You have a lot to tell me.” You gulped down your fears.

Everyone else stared at you guys, wondering what had exactly happened. “But sir, we could-”

“Listen to my orders, Zethrid!” He interjected without breaking eye contact with you. He turned and started walking. You followed without a word.

It was hard for you to find out his exact feeling. Was it..anger? At you? You had no idea.

“Lotor, I’m sorry.”

“You’re sorry? Here I am, telling you almost everything, and you don’t even have the decency to tell me that your own sister is a paladin of Voltron!”

“I-I didn’t know until I saw her through the camera on your ship!”

“And you couldn’t tell me?”

“I.. I was scared.” You mumbled. “I didn’t want you to be mad at me.”

“Why would I be mad at you?” He asked, his voice lowering. “You don’t choose where you come from - I of all people know that. I’m mad that you didn’t tell me.” He put his hands around your waist, but you could tell that he hadn’t forgiven you yet.

“I’m sorry, Lotor. I swear, I wanted to! I just didn’t know how- I mean, ‘Yo lotor the lady you’re tryna kill right there is my sister just so you know’?”

“I don’t know, maybe you could have started by telling me that she was helping Voltron. That much you would have known.”

There it was, the icy glare that you knew would come. You see, the thing was you had known that she was helping Voltron. You knew since before you came on the ship, since before you started dating Lotor. You just never knew how to tell him.

Like always, the cunning man had won. He had found your weakness. Your slip-up had been that you hadn’t said that you didn’t know she was affiliated with Voltron. Rather, you had said you didn’t know she was a paladin.

You looked up and made eye contact with Lotor. He smirked, once again, he had you right where he wanted you.

anonymous asked:

sorry ask this but how old are you? is okay if you don't want answer, I'm only asking because I'm brazilian army and everybody is so young, between 12-15, and I feel very old even if I only have 20's haha but in tumblr I found some fans with the same age as me so rn I'm really happy, thats why I want know your age bc I don't feel alone to fangirling anymore haha

Girl I am 22 wtf. I could be the mom of this entire fam haha. I am always fangirling with people younger than me and it’s cool!

Originally posted by fyeahbangtaned

anonymous asked:

I'm sorry if you don't want talk about T0G but, this really pissed me off. There was one post that said "D0rian fell in love with Lillian Ch@ol fell in love with Cel@ena R0wan fell in love with @elin" and everyone was acting like it so true but I was like "???". D0Rion was never in love with "Lilian" he was in love with Cel@ena. "Lilian" was a fake persona that D0rion knew from the very start was fake. I didn't even ship them that much but,seriously??

i know what post ur talking about and it is laughably stupid.

The fandom/sjm is trying so hard to make it seem like celaena/Aelin are two different personas which makes no fuckin sense because they’re literally the same person. I’d say Lillian too but that was literally just a fake name Dorian gave to Celaena so she could stay in the palace. 

Dorian fell in love with Celaena who is also Aelin. All three of these dudes fell in love with the same girl and the fact that the fandom/sarah are constantly trying to make it seem like aelin and celaena are two different people just look ridiculous. 

fortunestrology  asked:

Sorry I'm going to sound really stupid but I'm at the very beginning of digital art and I don't know how to "grab" the lineart (i don't even really know what it is) so could you please be able to help me? Thank you in advance

We all have to start somewhere, that’s what this blog is for: learning.

Line art (also used as one word as lineart) is usually the “inked” stage of cartoon-style art, ready to colour, similar to the stage of a colouring book for children (or adults).

Line art can hand-drawn and scanned in or can be created on the computer using a mouse or a graphics tablet (a mouse replacement consisting of a plastic plate and a plastic pen, both filled with electronics - instead of moving and dragging with the mouse, you “draw” with the pen and the input appears on the computer).

Line art created directly on the computer is usually already transparent between the lines, like drawing on a sheet of clear plastic or glass. Line art drawn with pen, pencil, or brush and then scanned has its own problems, as the paper is also scanned and must usually be made transparent - scanned line art could include a cleaned up ink drawing, or even a pencil sketch

In computer colouring, the colour is usually applied on layers beneath the line art, like having the outline on one sheet of clear plastic or glass, and colouring on other sheets underneath - this leaves the line art crisp and clear and there are various tricks you can use to keep your colouring inside the lines - it also makes it easier to add shading and textures and change colours. Alternatively, some artists paint above the line art, or on the same layer - using the line art as a sketch that they paint over, often ending with art that has little or no outline.

As well as drawing your own line art, there is a whole industry and community movement that provides line art (ready to colour) or line art “bases” (usually animal or human blank line art, like an artist’s or clothing store mannequin) to which you add your own hair, clothes, colours, and possibly features and expressions, before you colour.

“Grabbing” line art will mean different things in different contexts - I usually use it as “sloppy” English to mean either scanning or downloading your line art, or opening an existing line art image file in FireAlpaca  (using File menu, Open, or cut and paste), but it could also refer to using the Move tool to move the line art on the canvas or something else, in context.



i made an evak video a few weeks ago but never thought to post it here cus i barely use tumblr anymore but someone suggested it in the comments so i thought? why not? so yes. here it is, ladies and gents. 
this was very much inspired by “to the bone” by cabret on ao3 (it’s not a video for the fic but i reread it recently and it gave me feelings i need to put out. that’s where the title and description are from btw).
hope you like it?
if you have any questions about the song or etc i’m @belikouv on twitter!

edit: found out this has actually been posted before (and thank you!) but here you go again.

anonymous asked:

I feel wrong. I want to be a guy so badly, but I know I am a girl. I look like a girl, I sound like a girl, I even act like a girl. It makes me extremely self conscious because I really do want to be a guy. More than anything. But... everyone tells me I'm a girl. Even when I told my parents they said I had to accept the parts i was born with. But I don't want to do that. I want to be free... but I know I can't be a guy. I'm too much like a girl.

Oh my darling. I am so very, very sorry to hear that this is hurting you. I wish I had the perfect words. But even though I don’t, I know some people who are reading this do. Can some of y’all weigh in?

deamusstan  asked:

I feel left out in my own family. I really like Harry Potter and talk about it. We'll try to. Everyone tells me to shut up and I try not to show that it hurts me but it really does. And I feel like it's with everything I'm into no one wants to know. They don't want to know what makes me happy. - a very emotional ravenclaw

I’m sorry. When I was with my dad it was like that. They didn’t like hearing about what I cared about. I’m with my aunt and uncle now and my aunt reads and follows the blog (she even has our notifications on 😂😅) so I can say at some point you’ll find people who care about what you care about.
And in the mean time, we all love hearing about Harry Potter! 😂😂
Say whatever whenever you feel like it!
- Mel (the Slytherin)

anonymous asked:

I am the coward who sent you the "TT easy" ask and I'd like to apologize I've only just seen the impact it's had on you and TT and as ridiculous as it may seem I didn't mean to hurt anyone I genuinely mean it. I'm sorry that I have.. I didn't even think you'd reply if I'm honest, I'm genuinely sorry, you don't have to answer this if you don't want to I understand

((OOC: I really appreciate you sending me this. Speaking from experience here, I know it’s really easy to overstep without meaning to, I have been very guilty of that in the past. So I also know that it’s hard to apologize, particularly if you didn’t mean anything by your actions. So I really do respect the hell out of you sending me this.

And I won’t speak for anyone else, but I’m not hurt. I just get protective really easily if I think that someone’s safety is being threatened, and it’s hard to interpret tone from an anonymous message. I won’t apologize for what I said, because I do stand by it. But I do apologize for saying it in anger. If you’d like to, you’re welcome to message me off anon, and we can talk about it?))

embracecuriousity  asked:

It started in 6th grade for me too. That was 19 years ago now. I often wonder how my life could have been different if those difficult years didn't happen the way they did. Do you ever think this way? Most of the time it seems impossible to not let my past define me. I don't really know how Tumblr works, so please forgive me if I'm using it wrong, but feel free to contact me.

No worries Tumblr can be really confusing at first! But I’m very very sorry to hear this.. Kids honestly have no idea what the things they say can do to a person and how it can mess them up really for life. Kids are cruel, everyone says it but god damn it’s so true. In elementry school kids called me fat (I wasn’t even overweight it was just baby fat) for basically no reason and that is why I have body image issues. What they said genuinely wasn’t true (I know that now) but I still think about them saying that every. single. day. I’d probably be a straight A student sending in college applications right now but no. College is the last thing on my mind and I all i think about or want to do is loose weight. My life isn’t about living anymore, it’s about loosing. 
The stuff you hear in your early years will follow like a plague. I truly hope that you are doing okay, and that you are staying safe.. Nothing anyone said to you back then matters today.
I found the best way to try to deal with shit kids say in the past is try your best to keep it in the past (It’s hard to do this, I know) 

anonymous asked:

I love you and I love completely your art and style, so unique!💕 You inspire me 💖 I'm just anonymous girl who wish be like you 💕 Your AU is so amazing! Really really amazing! 💖💖 I don't know use patreon, but if I knew, believe me I would support you 😭💖 I'm so nervous of thinking if you will read this😶 Sorry for my bad english! 😅

Awwww, thank you, that’s so nice of you to say ;w;
I’m very happy that you like my art so much and that I have even managed to inspire you OAO
Like, that’s so incredible ;;;
Patreon is pretty simple, you just pledge a certain amount per month and then you get access to various things :D
But don’t worry about it or anything, very happy to have your support! >u<
And your English is perfectly fine! :DDD
Thanks for the lovely message~

I’m sorry for the disturbance, but I need to vent a little..

Okay, I’m about to get really personal. Just know that I’m not very open with my family so this is hard for me, but it’s a weight lifted off my shoulders. This rant starts when I was eleven years old, I moved into my brother’s room (which I’m currently in right now) and out of the room I shared with my older sister. It felt awesome, because for the first time in my life I had my own room for myself. Sadly, it was at a cost. My eldest brother had moved out and moved in with his wife, who has my name, and her family. Granted I was sad to see him go, but he was an adult and happily married. It took it’s toll, because my oldest brother was my only friend, the one I turned to whenever I was alone. Being in his room gave me the comfort of his warm embrace without him actually being here. Suddenly my brother wasn’t the same after he moved out, he treated us like we were nothing, like we weren’t his family. It hurt, it was a stabbing pain in the chest that he was starting to shy away from us. Then my other older brother and sister grew close and resented my eldest brother, but I didn’t. It was hard to get up some days because I was lonely, with my two sibling bonding like twins there wasn’t room for me and my eldest brother wanted nothing to do with us. I tried so hard to keep him in our lives, keep him informed as to what was happening. Everyone had given up on him, but I didn’t, I couldn’t. He was everything to me. I would sob myself to sleep wishing for my brother to come home, for this all to be one long nightmare. It wasn’t. One day randomly, he stopped answering my texts. It was heartbreaking that he was just reading them, he didn’t answer, he didn’t care. It was tearing my apart and I grew depressed, but when I told my mother about it she talked about how she was more depressed then me. I agreed and tried to brush it off. I forced myself to smile and try to ease the pain away I grew into a very dark place that I never thought I’d come out of. It was years that this went on and one day I didn’t want to do it anymore. I didn’t want to keep fighting a losing battle. On his birthday I gave up on my brother, I hated it, because I felt helpless. What was I supposed to do? I was alone and I was fighting for nothing, he didn’t want us. It was hard to give up on something, or someone but I didn’t want the sobbing nights, the ache in my chest anymore. After I gave up I felt empty, there was nothing for me. I’d spend days in my room without coming out for practically anything. Then we were going on vacation and it was the night before when suddenly we got a phone call. It was my brother, he needed a place to stay. I wanted my father to tell him no, go find somewhere else, but he didn’t. My sister started sobbing, she didn’t want him back, no one did. My father starts screaming at her how he’s hurt, and he was upset, but he wasn’t helping anyone. My mother started screaming at him, and everything was in chaos, everyone is distraught. I sat in the dining room feeling numb, I felt like there was lead in my lungs and I couldn’t breathe. I should be happy right? My wish had been granted. I was getting my brother back, but suddenly I didn’t want him. I immediately went back to my room, but it was cold. It didn’t feel inviting like it always did and I sobbed. Finally my brother came and everyone was looking at him, he held that stupid grin that I missed, that I pictured for some many nights wanting to see just one more time. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know what to say, it felt like there was so many voices screaming at me to hate him, but I couldn’t. I had missed him so much it was killing me to just stand there in front him. It was bullshit that I just get over him and he pops back up. I love my brother, but I hate myself for how easy I forgave him. He took more than just my best friend the day he left, he took with him everything that was me. It’s been over a year that he’s been back and not a day goes by that I don’t remember this, I’ve been damaged in more ways then one. Yet I act like nothing is wrong so much that even I believe it to be true. I’m sorry if I upset you, or disturbed your peaceful day, or night. I just need to get this off my shoulders. Thank you all for listening. I feel better, maybe I’ll finally be able to sleep. ~the-shield-of-writing

anonymous asked:

Hi I've been scrolling through your blog for a while today, lol. But what is wrong with PETA? I don't really know very much about their organization, and do they do bad things? I'm sorry!!

So many things unfortunately. Their methods and ideals are soooo far from veganism and are actually really harmful to both people and animals. What I’ve typed up is just a super quick look at what they’ve done. This post alone does not even begin to express the magnitude of their actions.

On the Human Side

  • Ableism (Ableist ad campaign targeting Autism)
  • Anti-Semitism (Ad campaign referencing the Holocaust)
  • Fat Shaming (Numerous accounts of body shamming in ad campaigns)
  • Misogyny (Where do I begin….there’s too much for this one)
  • Transphobia (“Fur is a drag” campaign)
  • Racism (Various accounts of racism in ad campaigns)
  • Targeting Children (Inappropriate use of shock tactics)
  • Violence (Supports violent activism, sometimes even financially)

On the Animal Side

  • Animal Cruelty (Numerous accounts of killing family pets)
  • Euthanasia (Their killing policies are far from vegan….)
  • Staged Footage (Basically fuck PETA)

I used this source just to pull this together quickly, but there are so many more sources out there.

If you don’t have time to do your own search, I would highly recommend browsing through the link above. It has all the categories I listed (and more) and all with the relevant/original sources linked.

anonymous asked:

I'm new here, but I arrive to a sad? No no, you can't have a sad. Give me the sads. I'd give you happys but I don't have those either. Also I was hit with very big surprise, I didn't even know you made Underswap, I'm just here 'cause you're great. So no no, no scares for you, give them to me, I don't have emotions, these things don't affect me. I really don't know how compliments work, but man, you're too cool and pure for this world. Sorry for mentioning US. Thanks for existing! Bye!

awww geesh, i will not give you scares anon. i will give you a lil smooch. thank you ♡

Hi there, Daril!
When I draw I use Paint Tool SAI. I mostly use the pen, the ink pen, and the water tools.

I don’t really have a technique, I just follow my instinct and I vary my style depending on what I want to obtain. I usually doodle the idea, draw the lineart on another layer and add the colors + shading on another layer. I‘d make a tutorial if I had the time to. ;w; Sorry, I hope this answered your question! Thank you for your kind words! Have a nice day!

I… thank you I guess (sweats) ily2


On another note: I received some other messages asking me to give tips about coloring/shading and i’m really sorry I haven’t had the chance to reply to them. I’ve been very very busy and I don’t have time to make a tutorial. I’m very sorry. ;_; (also I’m very insecure about my coloring skills, so I don’t even know what tips to give haha! Maybe one day I’ll make one)
As always thank you for your support, it gives me a lot of courage and I’m always happy to receive your sweet asks. Some tags really make my day, too! 
Thank you and have a nice day~

(*´  >`) ♥ (・`L ´・ *)

anonymous asked:

hi. I've been really up & down lately & I don't know what 2 do.I've been having self image issues 2 & I've been skipping meals & I feel self conscious which I am normally not & yesterday I made brownies cuz I wanted them & today I felt like crying cuz I did.& I wanted 2 go on a walk & when it came time to leave I wanted to cry & be left alone.ive been feeling really lonely also & it's so hard to explain I'm sorry if this sounds dumb I'm frustrated I don't even get this & im very overwhelmed.😞❤️

This doesn’t sound dumb at all. You must be going through a hard time and I understand you cause I have self image issues too. I know what’s like to feel guilty after every meal and worrying about what everyone will think of me 24/7. If you wanna talk off anon with me, we can chat on private :) 

You are not alone in feeling like this and you have to know that what you feel is serious. Telling someone would probably help you so if you have a friend or a person you trust, I’d suggest you to talk with them about this problem.

I’m gonna give you some links that you can take a look at and see if they help you :3

Jack Trying To Flirt With Ms Paint
  • Jack: wow you're even more of an angel than the prospitian who just chopped my arm off wait that came out wrong let me try again
  • Ms. Paint: ...
  • Jack: uh so you're really pretty and very nice
  • Ms. Paint: It's, well. That's a good start!
  • Jack: it really makes me wish i hadn't destroyed prospit that one time
  • Ms. Paint: ...What.
  • Jack: I MEAN
  • Jack: i'm so fucking sorry